metaphorical

Qin Zhi saw his little fish's face change from spring breeze to cold winter in an instant, so he got out of the car quickly.

Lu Yuyan's state became very strange, his face was pale and his eyes were out of focus. Qin Zhi called him several times but did not respond, and the hand holding him was also cold.

"What's the matter? What did you tell him?!" Qin Zhi asked Haidong anxiously, and he also looked confused.

"The old man who committed suicide yesterday was found to have jumped off the building this morning and passed away." Haidong repeated, and Lu Yuyan seemed to have some reactions.

"Didn't you take the ladder away? Didn't his family come to watch him? Didn't you already say to pay attention to his emotions?"

Lu Yuyan's eyes were messed up, and a series of questions confused Haidong.

"It is said that the old man's sister went to see him, but because it was very late at that time, he planned to pick him up today. The old man did not climb up with the wooden ladder from yesterday, but stepped on the shoe boxes piled up by the neighbor's door. …It should have been around three o’clock in the morning, and the neighbor who was walking his dog this morning did not find him, it was already too late..."

Haidong told him everything he knew, Lu Yuyan's face turned paler, and the hand held by Qin Zhi was already stretched with veins, but the palm was covered in cold sweat.

"What's the matter, Xiao Yu'er? Don't worry, I'm here, relax a little..." Qin Zhi coaxed him softly, his eyes locked on his expression, his face full of worry.

"I still have to go to the scene. I'll leave first, and I'll tell you when I come back." Haidong turned to look at Qin Zhi, "Please look at him, he is very strange."

Lu Yuyan actually woke up soon. He took a deep breath and let it out slowly.

"I'm fine... I just feel a little regretful." Lu Yuyan said softly to Qin Zhi who was hugging him tightly.

"Obviously I saw yesterday that he didn't give up his idea of ​​suicide, but he didn't try his best to stop him. I only asked the police to separate him from his wife and daughter and remove the ladder. I should have asked them to seal the skylight first."

The more Lu Yuyan spoke, the more regretful he became, his hands were still shaking.

"I can obviously stop him."

Every word of Lu Yuyan's sentence was bitten very hard, and Qin Zhi keenly felt that this sentence was different from the previous ones, and had a different weight.

Qin Zhi's hand landed on the back of Lu Yuyan's head, gently stroking his hair with a steadying force.

"It's not your fault, you've done everything you can, it's not your fault." Qin Zhi kept repeating these words to calm his emotions.

It's not your fault, these six words seem to work very well, Lu Yuyan slowly calmed down as Qin Zhi repeated it over and over again.

Today's interview task has been sent to the group, Qin Zhi helped Lu Yuyan read it, he only has one newsletter to write today, probably the director took care of him just two days after he fell ill.

Mr. Qin pulled Lu Yuyan into the coffee shop next to the newspaper office, and ordered him a cup of hot cocoa.

"You have made all your efforts, so don't feel burdened." Qin Zhi's central idea is simple.

"I'm fine." Lu Yuyan held the cup in both hands and shook his head without sadness or joy.

"I can see it." He chuckled slightly. "When he was rescued, he didn't have the joy or fear of surviving or escaping from death. He didn't have the desire to confide in mediation and inquiry. He Desperately avoiding the explanation of his mood and thoughts, he only pushed everything to his physical discomfort. His eyes are full of coldness, and he has no worries about everything outside."

"I can see that he still wants to commit suicide, I can see it! I have always seen people very clearly, I can always see it! But I didn't keep him...I can obviously stop him..."

With a self-deprecating smile on Lu Yuyan's face, Qin Zhi stretched out his hands to wrap his hands. Something seemed to flash through his mind, but it disappeared too quickly for him to catch it.

"Look at me, Lu Yuyan." Mr. Qin said in a serious tone.

"A person who is determined to commit suicide cannot be persuaded or stopped. The conflicts in their family have been accumulated for decades, and you can't solve it with a few words. Even if you think of all the ways to prevent him from committing suicide , as long as he wants, he always has the opportunity to do it."

Qin Zhi's non-smiling appearance was already very sharp, his handsome eyebrows were slightly raised, and the pressure was overwhelming.

"You tell the family to be with you, and he will find an opportunity to place the order. If you remove the ladder, he will find another step. If you seal the skylight, he will find another way. He lives in a small room by himself. Cutting his wrists, taking medicine or even hanging himself, which way can't be done? You can't untie his heart knot that has accumulated for many years, so you shouldn't bear these guilt responsibilities that don't belong to you. You have done everything you should do, and anyone I have no right to oppress you, including yourself, with so-called moral standards."

Mr. Qin was radiant and tall, and Lu Yuyan was unexpectedly soothed by his chatter.

"My little fish is a typical example of being hard-mouthed and soft-hearted, cold on the outside and hot on the inside, no one can hurt you."

Qin Zhi looked at Lu Yuyan and smiled.

Lu Yuyan couldn't hold back the self-deprecating smile anymore, and slowly lowered his head.Fragmentary, sharp and piercing voices were all around his ears, like a nightmare that followed him everywhere, even if he blocked his ears, closed his eyes and gritted his teeth, he couldn't escape.

It has always been like this, he never escaped.

Until a pair of hands hugged him tightly in the darkness, he was comforted by the steady and regular beating against his soft and warm heartbeat, injecting indelible scorching marks into his cold and hard life.

The thick darkness was cut open with a single knife. The blade was narrow and thin, scorching hot and bright, even if there was only a glimmer of life, it was enough.

Lu Yuyan breathed a sigh of relief, and his fingers were gradually warmed up by the warm palm, and the pain that had been entangled and harassed for many years was also soothed.

You can probably stay with me.

Lu Yuyan thought to himself.

The fish that night was delicious, steamed and braised in soy sauce was delicious, Mr. Qin would carefully pick out the fish bones and put them in Lu Yuyan's bowl, and he ate up two fish to save face.

The light in the dining room was a warm yellowish color. Lu Yuyan leaned on his chin with one hand to see this handsome man picking up the fishbone little by little, and licking the soup on his fingertips childishly from time to time. This scene was so warm, soft and tender. Sweet, tastes like home.

Even Lu Yuyan, who has always been rational and calm, subconsciously hopes that time will stop here and be peaceful and peaceful forever.

The report of the old man committing suicide finally became the key news of the Minsheng edition. Haidong described the whole incident in detail, which triggered a lot of discussion in the society.Because the old man has passed away, what happened to their family has become a mystery.

Lu Yuyan carefully read the report written by Haidong, and the two versions have become the focus of everyone's discussion. Believe it or not, the old man's life cannot be saved, and Lu Yuyan can only sigh about it.

Mr. Qin is not busy recently, his management personnel made a plan and handed it over to him for review and signature, so this guy had the cheek to pack simple luggage, and forced his way into Lu Yuyan's small house.

Originally, the house with two bedrooms and one living room was more than enough for Lu Yuyan to live alone, and he could also open a study room for himself.As a result, when Mr. Qin came, he took up more than half of the space and refused to sleep on the sofa bed in the study.

The mattress was too hard, the bed was too narrow, the color of the sheets I didn't like, the pillows were not XX brand... Mr. Qin's list of rejections was driving Lu Yuyan crazy.

Do you think you are the princess and the pea? !

Lu Yuyan supported the door frame of the bedroom with one hand, and there was a half-smile on the corner of his lips. Mr. Qin was such an upright person, he stunned and stopped in his tracks.

Is it too fast?he asked himself.

In the next second, Lu Yuyan let go of his hand lazily, turned away from the doorway with an indifferent face, tilted his head to look at him, and asked him with a smile if he dared to come in.

Not at all fast!Mr. Qin's heart skipped a beat.

Qin Zhi stepped in front of Lu Yuyan with a big stride, chased him and kissed the tip of his nose, the taste of sex was very light, but it was sweet and greasy like a strawberry soda flavored love movie.

Lu Yuyan glanced at him with clear and lingling eyes, and smiled lightly, like a cat that has been caressed by its fur, and has separated a piece of its own territory with satisfaction.

Lu Yuyan's work for this month has come to an end for the time being, and next is the interview task of another group of reporters from the newspaper, so he has some leisure time and starts to conceive the next fairy tale.

Qin Zhi liked the way Lu Yuyan propped his forehead with one hand in deep thought. He spent two days reading all of Lu Yuyan's previous fairy tales, and then opened up a new world.

The language of Lu Yuyan's fairy tales can be called concise and neat, and even the personification and exaggeration commonly used in fairy tales are different from others.There are no particularly complicated adjectives and gorgeous rhetoric, but unexpectedly there is a kind of stubborn childlike innocence.

Qin Zhi held the tablet and rubbed his chin with one hand. Xiao Yu'er seemed to be living in a precocious child. Because he was too smart, he saw the cruelty of reality too early, but because he was too young, he didn't know Incapable of protecting oneself.There is helplessness in every story.

Lu Yuyan was uncomfortable being stared at by Mr. Qin's real eyes, wishing to drive him out of his territory, and then he thought of a story about cats.

A koi settles in its new home, and meets a proud and coquettish cat, spoiled by its owner lawlessly, like a king.The cat is full of curiosity about this outsider, but he doesn't like water, so he can't get close to the koi in the big fish tank, so he can only spin around outside the fish tank, chasing the koi's tail.

Mr. Qin brand cat king was officially born.

Since Lu Yuyan and Qin Zhi are not busy recently, they coincidentally regard this period as a period of warming up their relationship.They wake up together every morning, occasionally send a wechat during working hours, and wish they could stay together all the time after get off work. Lu Yuyan likes to be quiet and doesn't like to move, so Mr. Qin can only rest and recuperate every day.

Mr. Qin moved the fitness equipment and piled it into Lu Yuyan's study, sweating profusely every day.Of course, he also wants to try couple fitness programs, but Mr. He Lu is really lazy, and he can't drag it.

"Mr. Qin, my dear, please let me go. My biggest wish is to be a young master who doesn't work hard. Since the young master is no longer possible, please let me keep it." Lie, never sit' right."

Qin Zhi was dizzy by the word "dear", and Lu Yuyan took advantage of the emptiness and lay down. After all, he was also an adult man weighing more than 100 kilograms. Mr. Qin could only give up his desire to exercise together and hoped to sleep together.

Mr. Qin's wish soon came to nothing.Lu Yuyan still maintains a slight tension, kissing and hugging are fine, but even if they are intimate, they are still a little stiff and can't let go.Qin Zhi sighed and hugged the stiff Lu Yuyan tightly, stroked his back gently, and decided to wait.

Lu Yuyan, who is blank in love, is serious about learning how to give affection to his lover, and he doesn't know what "documentation" he has read. He clumsily increases physical contact, stumbles and tries sweet words, and his strict appearance sweetens Mr. Qin's heart. Melted, can't wait to get someone to kiss her fiercely.