Scumbag, wait for me!

In a daze, Chen Fan didn't know whether he was awake or asleep.

In the dream, many people gathered around, making noise, trying to grab what he had in his hand.He tugged tightly, exhausting all his strength.Chen Fan thought he was holding a rag doll, but when the crowd dispersed, he turned the things in his arms over and over, but couldn't find the doll's head.

Seeing an old man rushing over from a distance, he hugged the doll tightly and wanted to run, but his foot kicked in the air, and the surroundings instantly spun, and his whole body seemed to fall into an abyss.

Chen Fan was so frightened that he opened his eyes suddenly, the surroundings were pitch black, and the sky had not yet dawned.

He habitually works night shifts and sleeps late, and today he woke up early for the first time, which he has never encountered in hundreds of lifetimes.

Chen Fan opened his eyes and stared straight at the ceiling. There was only one thing in his mind: "Meng Xin, get the hell out of here! It's all about you, don't let me sleep."

Meng Xin slept soundly, and when he opened his eyes, the sun was already hanging in the corner of the wall.He turned around and saw that there was no one around him.

Meng Xin lifted the quilt and got out of bed. As soon as his feet touched the ground, he heard Chen Fan outside the room say, "Wake up and wash up, come and eat."

Chen Fan's voice was calm, with a kind of indifferent alienation in his tone.

Meng Xin frowned, and a dark cloud gathered in his heart...

As a physical worker, Coach Meng has always been a giant in action and a coward in emotion.

If someone quarrels with him or even fights, he can handle it, but if someone slaps him coldly and violently, ignores him and tortures him, he will be at a loss. Usually, the closer the person is, the less he knows how to deal with it?

He is good at using escape to deal with his own emotions, and using companionship to consume other people's emotions.

Therefore, even if he knew how upset Chen Fan was at the moment, he couldn't comfort him, let alone say anything.

Chen Fan was sitting at the dining table. On the table were two bowls of soy milk, deep-fried dough sticks and deep-fried dough cakes. Two small plates were placed in the center, containing refreshing side dishes, a plate of cucumber and a plate of tofu mixed with shallots.

Meng Xin's expression was restrained. Just as he was about to sit in the seat opposite Chen Fan, he was stopped by the man and said, "Where are you going? Isn't there an empty seat next to me?"

Meng Xin took a closer look and saw that soy milk and chopsticks had already been placed beside Chen Fan.

He looked very embarrassed, and then smiled even more awkwardly, "Hey hey", walked straight over, pulled out the chair, and sat down cautiously.He picked up the chopsticks, took a sip of soy milk from the side of the bowl, tried his best to control his tone, sounded relaxed as usual, and said, "I'm on the train at 10:30, I'll leave after dinner."

"Well, I'll take you to the station."

"No...no...I..." Meng Xin hurriedly refused.

Chen Fan helped Meng Xin pick up a deep-fried dough stick, put it on the small plate in front of him, the corners of his mouth gradually raised, his eyes formed a shallow arc, and said, "I'm resting today, I can give it to you."

"Yeah." Meng Xin blinked, thinking in his heart that Chen Fan's expression was really scary, like a wolf grandma looking at a baby.

He quickly lowered his head and took another sip of the soy milk, wondering if Chen Fan had something to say to him, and unconsciously lost his mind...

Chen Fan said suddenly: "How does it taste?"

"Ah?" Meng Xin was distracted and walked a long way, when asked by Chen Fan suddenly, he immediately stammered and said, "It's...not bad."

"Oh..." As Chen Fan said, he picked up another sweet pancake and put it on the

Put it on the plate in front of Meng Xin, stack it on the fried dough sticks, and say, "It's still early, eat slowly." The plate in front of Meng Xin was pitifully full of the things Chen Fan picked up.

Meng Xin blinked, wondering if there was some kind of poison in the pancake?

The two were silent for less than a minute, and he finally couldn't bear it anymore, put down his chopsticks, and stammered, "You...is this a Hongmen banquet?"

"What?" Chen Fan thought he heard it wrong.

Meng Xin immediately lowered her voice, and asked weakly, "This will not be the last meal we will have together, will it?"

"Counseling Meng Xin" is really "genuine at a fair price".

Chen Fan put his chopsticks on the bowl and said, "Meng Xin, it's my business that I like you. It's your freedom to accept or not to accept it. You don't need to feel that you owe me anything because of this. In addition, in the future ...Whether I am willing to accompany you or find a partner, that is all my business and has nothing to do with you?"

Meng Xin thought quickly with his brain that was usually only filled with protein and low fat, hesitated for a while and said: "So, you mean that our relationship is still the same as before?"

Chen Fan bit his lip, sighed and said, "If you still want to be my friend..."

He knew that if he took a step back, he could at least see this person...

"Of course I am willing." Meng Xin replied immediately, Chen Fan glanced at him, his voice gradually lowered, and said, "I'm afraid you don't want to."

Chen Fan raised the corner of his mouth, showing a wry smile, and said, "Drink, the soy milk is cold."

The two were silent all the way from getting on the car to entering the station.People come and go at the train station, and Ruoda's clock towers like a cloud.

Chen Fan followed Meng Xin, who was pulling the luggage, and along with the crowd, they walked to the entrance of the station and stopped. Meng Xin stopped and said, "Go back, I'm going to the station."

"Well, be careful on the road." Although Chen Fan said so, he didn't have the slightest intention to go back.He slowed down and continued, "Go in, I'll stand here and watch you."

"No need...I..." Meng Xin wanted to refuse, but after thinking about it, he kept his mouth shut. He pulled up the suitcase and was about to go in. As soon as he turned around, he felt Chen Fan beside him holding his hand.

All the beliefs that had been established were easily disintegrated the moment Meng Xin left...

Meng Xin looked at Chen Fan hesitantly. Chen Fan lowered his head, his short hair covered his brows and eyes, and he couldn't see the expression on his face clearly.

"Chen Fan..." Meng Xin hesitated, and finally spoke.

Chen Fan clasped his hands tightly, and he really wanted to say, "May I not leave? Stay...will you?"

But he couldn't say a word, and all the words would be squeezed in the roots of his teeth. He knew that if this continued, they might not even be friends.

Therefore, he couldn't say a word, but just lowered his head and grabbed Meng Xin tightly.

"Don't be like this..." Meng Xin sighed, stroked Chen Fan's hand, and shook it firmly.

Chen Fan still grabbed him and did not let go.

At this moment, Chen Fan was trembling from his arms to his shoulders. Feeling his fear, Meng Xin's heart softened completely. He finally let go of the suitcase, turned around, raised his other arm to hold Chen Fan in his arms Li, leaning into his ear, whispered, "Is everyone else watching? Be good, go home!"

Chen Fan buried his face in Meng Xin's shoulder and shook it vigorously. He grabbed Meng Xin's sleeve and refused to let go.

Meng Xin stopped talking and just hugged him like this.

Chen Fan knew that after Meng Xin left, he was no longer the person he had silently liked.

Meng Xin knew that if he left like this, Chen Fan would give up all his liking for him, and erase all happy and unhappy memories of the past.

If that's the case, let's indulge one more time——

Meng Xin hugged Chen Fan's hand tightly, and after a while, Chen Fan slowly raised his head, his lips along Meng Xin's neck, along his chin, slowly moved to Chen Fan's ear, and said intermittently: "You I don't know... I don't know how much I love you..."

These words brought Meng Xin back to reality, his body trembled, he raised his hand, grabbed Chen Fan's shoulder, and pushed away hard.

Chen Fan still lowered his head and didn't raise it.

Meng Xin held Chen Fan's face, forcing him to look up at him.The four eyes met, the man under the broken hair looked haggard, and the eye sockets were red and wet.

Meng Xin stroked Chen Fan's face with his hand and said, "Chen Fan, listen to me, you don't love me as much as you think, you just can't get it, because you never got it, so you don't have it." Ways to convince yourself to let go, listen to me, as long as you are willing, you will soon fall in love with someone else, and then...get happiness..."

Chen Fan shook his head vigorously and said, "Meng Xin, you are so cruel..."

Meng Xin gritted his teeth and said, "It's not that I'm cruel, the fact is like this, how can there be such a hard-working love, in this world, anyone can live without anyone..."

"But, I can't bear it...Meng Xin...I can't bear it..." Chen Fan grabbed Meng Xin's bottom, like a child firmly grasping his last piece of candy.

"It's not that you are reluctant, but that I don't want you, Chen Fan, I don't want your love, I don't like your person, I like someone else, I want to be with that person, do you understand?" Meng Xin finally said When he uttered the words, all the words that were blocked in his heart and the stones that were pressing on his chest came out, but...he didn't feel relaxed at all.

There is an inexplicable force in his heart, being torn apart by life, this feeling is extremely sad, so sad that he has no time to distinguish the eyes of passers-by from the strange wait and see around him, so sad that he has no time to really listen to the voice in his heart, Is it because I have to refuse and refuse, or those years of getting along have also had happiness.

Did you really never like him?

Meng Xin had no way to answer, nor was he qualified to answer. At this moment, he could only refuse.

Meng Xin frowned, and finally pushed Chen Fan's hand away, saying, "It's enough to get here, I'm going to stop..." The voice was cold, he had never treated anyone like this before.

"Meng Xin..." Chen Fan couldn't bear it any longer, and the corners of his mouth twitched.

Meng Xin is really going to leave, leaving his life, even if they get along in the future, it will be two parallel lines that will never intersect.

At this moment, he clearly knew that this was not the sorrow of love, because the heart-wrenching feeling was so strong.

He gambled the last of his dignity, grabbed Meng Xin's hand, and finally uttered the words: "Meng Xin, I beg you, don't go."

Meng Xin stepped forward, gave Chen Fan a final hug, and said, "Chen Fan, I don't love you, leave me, you will live better."

When Chen Fan heard it, his two arms immediately lost all strength and hung down.

Finally he refused...he rejected me...

Isn't this the answer you've always wanted?Long-term pain is not as demanding as short-term pain. Only in this way can we gain a sense of security.

He looked up at Meng Xin's increasingly blurred back, raised his arm and wiped his face.It's almost ten o'clock in the summer when the sun is shining, and the sun is particularly glaring.

The man dragged his luggage and gradually disappeared at the entrance without looking back.

Because you don't love, you won't feel sad...

If that's the case, then get the hell out of here!

Chen Fan wiped his face with his arm again, turned around and ran towards the bus station, the warm wind caressed him, and he suddenly felt relieved.

When he got in the car, he received a WeChat message from Meng Xin: I'm sorry... go home and sue me...

He smiled wryly and turned off the phone.

Since I don't love you, it doesn't matter who I love...

The author has something to say: Chen Fan is a little cry, Meng Xin is a little counselor~