I didn't miss you

Turning his face, the whole person became more sober.

The mobile phone vibrated on the bed, Chu Quan lazily took it over and looked at it, then pressed to hang up.After drinking, my mind is not as flexible as usual, and I always think twice before doing things, but now I am like a child, it all depends on my mood, I don’t want to answer it.

There are several messages in WeChat and several missed calls in the call log.After Chu Quan read them one by one, he put the phone aside.

The night seems to be flowing, rushing into the room.He was lying on the bed, resting his chin on his hand, his eyes fell on the neon lights that were far and near outside the window.Such a sight reminded him suddenly of his mother.

Chu Quan's mother, Wen Ruoting, had passed away for several years.That woman who was so beautiful that she had to dress up while in the hospital, stood on the balcony and meditated late one night, which frightened Chu Quan half to death, but she smiled nonchalantly, "Why are you nervous, I'm watching the night scene."

In fact, Chu Quan can't be blamed for being overhearted. During that time, his parents were having the most trouble, and he woke up several times from the nightmare of his mother's suicide.

Wen Ruoting's marriage was a tragedy.She used a marriage certificate to trap her childhood sweetheart, but it was a pity that she would never win her husband's heart.Although his parents seldom quarreled, Chu Quan had a vague feeling that they were not in love when he was a child.Children are the most sensitive. After Chu Quan acted like a baby with his father but only got cold treatment, he got closer to his gentle mother and stayed away from his majestic father.Even so, until the sixth grade of elementary school, Chu Quan's family was still harmonious.His father opened a small company in the local area. Although he didn't make much money every year, he never wronged Chu Quan materially.

Everything changed quietly since he entered junior high school.Chu Hanlin stayed out at night more and more frequently, and sometimes he left for several days.The mother begged bitterly with tears in her face, and also questioned and reprimanded her severely, but Chu Hanlin remained indifferent.He didn't move, didn't move, just sat silently, looking at his wife who lost his composure with complicated eyes.Chu Quan peeked through the crack of the bedroom door, trembling violently at the sound of crumbling dishes.Only once, when Wen Ruoting cursed "that vicious woman", Chu Hanlin, who was smoking a cigarette, suddenly shouted: "The most vicious person is you!"

Chu Quan in the bedroom and Wen Ruoting outside the bedroom were both shaking.With low sobs, Wen Ruoting said intermittently: "But...you can't ignore Chu Quan, he is your son."

Chu Hanlin hugged his head in pain, choked with sobs and said, "Xiao Yuan is also my son... I haven't been with him for so many years."

He had never called Chu Quan so affectionately before.On that day, Chu Quan knew for the first time that he had a brother of a similar age.He covered his mouth and wept bitterly, hot tears staining the cold door panel.

Later, from the narration of his grandparents, Chu Quan gradually learned about some fragments of the past.But those love-hate entanglements have been settled in the long river of time, and it is meaningless to go deeper into right and wrong.

After Wen Ruoting cried and made trouble, her heart was finally ashamed.Because she did not agree to an agreed divorce, the parents of the two parties prohibited Chu Hanlin from suing, and their nominal marriage continued for several years.Chu Hanlin moved out very early, and only occasionally went home to have a look, and left after saying a few words to Chu Quan in embarrassment, never staying overnight.Later, when he went abroad, he returned home even less often. Chu Quan hadn't seen him for two years.

Perhaps because of being drunk, or because the Spring Festival approaching the family reunion, Chu Quan unexpectedly remembered these old things.He buried his face in the pillow and called "Mom" vaguely.

The mobile phone vibrated again, and the buzzing sound was like a chainsaw in the silent night, causing headaches.Chu Quan pressed the answer button, and a distraught voice came out immediately: "Why don't you answer the phone!"

"Hmm..." Chu Quan turned over and said with his tongue out, "I don't want to pick it up."

The other end was silent for a few seconds, and then Guan Qianyue's doubtful and worried voice came out: "Are you drunk?"

"No." Chu Quan acted like a child, thinking that he could deceive people by emphasizing it a few times: "No."

Guan Qianyue said anxiously: "Wait, I'll come pick you up now. Which room? Don't fall asleep."

"I don't want to see you." Chu Quan almost said to himself.

Guan Qianyue was stunned.This kind of Chuquan made him feel strange and novel. The person who was always gentle and distant seemed to finally reveal a trace of his true self.

"I don't care," Guan Qianyue said arrogantly, "I want to see you."

Chu Quan hung up the phone, feeling sleepy.He wanted to sleep, but he was afraid of missing Guan Qianyue's knock on the door, so he forced himself to play a song.

In the end, the random play actually put the theme song he sang for an idol drama back then.The name of the song was "Thank you for bringing me the sunshine". The melody was mediocre, and the lyrics were tacky. Chu Quan hummed along, frowning and concluded, "It's really ugly."

After looping a few songs, there was a knock on the door. "So fast?" Chu Quan muttered and stood up, brushing his hair before opening the door, which made it even more messy.

Opening the door, Xue Huaijing was standing outside.Chu Quan frowned: "What's the matter?"

"Brother Chu," Xue Huaijing also drank a lot, and was not as polite as usual. He handed the dessert to Chu Quan and said coldly, "This is the cake Mr. Guan asked me to bring to you. There are many people in the afternoon, so I will I didn't give it to you in time." At that time, he deliberately said in front of people that the dessert was sent by Guan Qianyue, which caused rumors to spread, and then turned his back and secretly gave the dessert to Chu Quan. The time lag and ambiguity created new gossip.

Chu Quan squinted his eyes, and Xue Huaijing's figure was crushed into a thin line, turning into a paper figure.He suddenly burst into an unpredictable smile, as if a high god looked down on the stupid and unaware human beings: "No need, keep it for yourself."

The two faced each other quietly, Chu Quan was still dizzy, and he was holding the door with one hand for strength, and his hand became sore after a while.He didn't want to lose the wind, so he tensed his leg muscles, stood up straighter, and said mockingly: "You keep it, there won't be many opportunities like this in the future. Would he ask you to bring me snacks every day?"

Surprise and hatred flashed in Xue Huaijing's eyes. He clenched his fists, straightened his chest, and looked up at Chu Quan, trying to create an aura of refusal to admit defeat, but the reddish corners of his eyes made him look a little pitiful. "Brother Chu, if you insist, your chances won't be much better."

"Don't bother you. It's you instead. Even if he's blind, he won't fall in love with you." Chu Quan slammed the door, and the lock fell with a "beep".

After closing the door, he lay back on the bed, and the person he was waiting for when he was about to fall asleep finally came.

As soon as Guan Qianyue entered the door, he bluffed: "Why do you drink so much? Which bastard dares to drink you?"

Chu Quan pushed him, frowned and said, "What are you doing here?"

"I'll take you home."

Chu Quan turned his head to look at him, as if he couldn't understand what he said for a moment.Guan Qianyue let him watch, and simply packed a few things of Chu Quan, then grabbed his arm and dragged him out of the door.

Guan Qianyue wore a black down jacket in a down-to-earth manner today, and Chu Quan was playing with the brim of his hat along the way.He managed to get Chu Quan into the car, and he was so hot that he opened the collar of his sweater to fan the wind.

Chu Quan buckled his seat belt with his head down, but he couldn't find the position no matter what.Guan Qianyue helped him buckle it up, pinched the thin layer of delicate flesh on the back of his hand, and said with a smile: "I'm not used to your appearance." After a pause, he added: "But it's very fun."

Chu Quan pulled his hand out and ignored him.

Guan Qianyue asked again: "Have you eaten the dessert I gave you? That Xue Huaijing is quite discerning."

"I didn't eat." Chu Quan said firmly.

His lips looked bright red and delicate under the dim light, and a light touch made people imagine, and the desire to care and ravage accompanied them.Guan Qianyue looked at it distractedly, and asked casually, "Why don't you eat?"

Chu Quan was silent for a while, then turned his head out of the car window: "Let's go."

"Okay," Guan Qianyue poked Chu Quan's face, and started the car: "Then I'll drive slowly, and tell me if I want to vomit."

After driving for a while, Guan Qianyue noticed that someone was secretly looking at him.The man was as alert as a rabbit, every time he turned his head, he could only see a face with closed eyes pretending to be sleeping peacefully.Guan Qianyue was so happy that he could not close his mouth from ear to ear. After finally catching him once, he teased, "Why do you keep looking at me? Do you like me?"

Chu Quan hummed softly, and said in a nasal voice, "No." His pretended arrogance was childish, which made Guan Qianyue want to kiss him very much.

"But I love you, don't you love me?"

Chu Quan stared at him for a while, with joy, confusion, confusion and struggle between his brows, and finally shook his head slowly: "I hate you."

He shook his head very seriously, with a big range and slow movements, Guan Qianyue couldn't help laughing, and slapped the steering wheel: "Baby, why are you so cute."

Chu Quan was confused by his laughter and glared at him angrily.

Guan Qianyue was still not satisfied, and took advantage of Chu Quan while he was drunk: "You lied just now when you said you hate me?"

"No."

"Liar."

"No."

"Liar."

"No."

If Chu Quan was sober now, he would feel ashamed that his IQ suddenly dropped to the same level as Guan Qianyue.However, both alcohol and the night make people intoxicated. He repeated childish conversations with some annoying ghost, and fell into a warm and soft dream at some point.

15

Chu Quan didn't wake up until ten o'clock the next morning.He looked around in a daze, and found himself lying on the bed in the bedroom, occupying only a small space against the wall.A corner of the quilt on the side was raised, and the slightly sunken bed and messy sheets indicated that the person lying here had just left.

Before Chu Quan started to recall last night, there was the sound of the toilet flushing and the sound of the faucet running in the bathroom, and then Guan Qianyue opened the door and walked out.

He yawned a lot, walked to the edge of the bed and met Shang Chuquan's gaze, then gave up the idea of ​​going back to sleep, and asked, "Are you awake?"

Chu Quan nodded, sat up, glanced at the pajamas on his body, and said, "Thank you, I've troubled you last night."

Guan Qianyue was not very happy: "Tell me these things." The atmosphere was a bit tense for a while, Guan Qianyue got up and said: "You wash up first, I'll go and see the porridge, it's boiled at eight o'clock, I'll go back to sleep after it's boiled .”

After hearing this, Chu Quan's first thought was not moved but worried: "Is the kitchen okay?"

Guan Qianyue blushed in a rare way, and said in a rough voice, "Of course it's fine!"

Chu Quan was worried, hurriedly finished washing, and walked into the kitchen lightly, and then saw Guan Qianyue pouring boiling water into the casserole.Guan Qianyue put down the electric kettle, feeling very dangerous. When he turned around, he saw Chu Quan standing behind him dumbfounded, his hair was numb, and he said with a dry smile, "I put less water, haha."

Chu Quan glanced at the forcibly diluted porridge, and couldn't bear to dampen Guan Qianyue's enthusiasm: "It's okay, I can still eat."

After Guan Qianyue finished washing his face and brushing his teeth, Chu Quan had already served the porridge and even picked a cucumber as a side dish.

The two sat facing each other, Chu Quan's expression was not good, he took two bites and rubbed his temples.

Guan Qianyue asked: "Not feeling well?"

Chu Quan shook his head: "It's okay."

After dinner, Chu Quan wanted to clean up the pots and bowls, but Guan Qianyue stopped him.He was embarrassed and couldn't compete with Guan Qianyue, so he could only watch TV absent-mindedly, glancing at the kitchen from time to time.

Guan Qianyue came out after washing the dishes, shook the water off his hands, and whistled at Chuquan.Chu Quan couldn't help laughing and said, "Mr. Guan has worked hard."

"Unfortunately." Guan Qianyue sat down beside Chu Quan, with his arms and legs tightly attached to him, and said glibly, "I am happy to serve you."

Chu Quan picked up the remote control and changed the channels around. There was nothing to see, so he chose a soap opera as the background sound, and the two of them stared at their phones.

The atmosphere in the living room is lazy and cozy, and the sun makes people's bones crisp.

Chu Quan chatted with Chen Ling on WeChat, and turned around to find that Guan Qianyue was actually watching the stock market.He frowned, pursed his lips seriously, and could not find his usual playful smile at all.

Inexplicably, Chu Quan thought he was handsome, with a kind of sexual abstinence.He admired it for a while, felt a little guilty, and asked, "Does your family have a company listed?"

"Yes." Guan Qianyue explained seriously: "Two jewelry distribution companies have gone public."

"Oh." Chu Quan had nothing to say, so he lowered his head and continued playing with his phone.

Guan Qianyue suddenly moved aside, and then rested his head on Chu Quan's shoulder.Chu Quan was startled, his body was so stiff that he couldn't move for several seconds.

Guan Qianyue felt at ease, rubbing his furry head against Chu Quan's shoulder, and asked, "What are your plans for these few days?"

"There is no arrangement..." Chu Quan felt his neck was very itchy, and said helplessly, "Can you get up first, I don't feel well."

Guan Qianyue lazily sat up straight, and complained jokingly: "I won't even let it go, but you still expressed your love to me affectionately last night."

"Who confessed affectionately." Chu Quan actually had a little impression of what happened the night before, but he refused to admit the embarrassing scene last night.

"Why not!" Guan Qianyue counted on his fingers: "You said last night...you love me at least five times."

Chu Quan was startled at first, and then realized that someone had made it up. He smiled and raised his hands in surrender: "All right, all right, you are the boss and you have the final say."

Guan Qianyue pushed forward: "Then say it again."

Chu Quan's smile froze for a second, and then his lips quickly closed, leaving an abrupt and embarrassing silence.

Guan Qianyue missed that Chu Quan last night a little bit.He shrugged pretending to be relaxed, clapped his hands together, and came up with a good idea: "Or you kiss me?"

Chu Quan seemed to be thinking for a few seconds, but also seemed to be in a daze.Then he slowly approached Guan Qianyue, rubbed against the light-colored lips of the other party, and wrote lightly: "Satisfied?"

Guan Qianyue stuck out his tongue and licked it: "Not satisfied."

"Dissatisfaction is gone."

"By the way," Guan Qianyue changed the subject resentfully: "Didn't you have no arrangements, come home with me for dinner tonight."

Chu Quan was really taken aback this time.With a slip of his hand, he sent Chen Ling a kissing emoji.

Guan Qianyue knew that Chu Quan wanted to go wrong, so he hurriedly explained: "Just my brother and sister, plus Aunt Li and Uncle Liu, you have seen them all. My parents are not here, and I don't have any elders."

After all, Chu Quan still regarded himself as an outsider, hesitating not to answer.

Guan Qianyue said again: "Otherwise, you'd be bored alone on New Year's Eve, and I don't worry about it."

Facing Shangguan Qianyue's expectant eyes, Chu Quan couldn't refuse anymore: "That's fine."

In the afternoon, Chu Quan took a long shower and stood in front of the closet anxiously picking out clothes. Guan Qianyue was still watching the joke, and comforted him like he was scratching his boots: "Oh, you can be casual, don't be so grand."

Wait until I show you my family members and see if you will die of nervousness.As soon as this idea came to Chu Quan's mind, he was taken aback by himself.Standing in a daze for a while, he couldn't help imagining the scene where Guan Qianyue was getting along with the old urchin Grandpa Chu, and he actually felt very warm.

After tidying up, Chu Quan made a video call with his grandparents.He was afraid that if his elders called at night and found out that he was in someone else's house for the New Year, he would be spoiled, thinking that he would not like to accompany them.In fact, the main reason is that the crew's vacation time is too short and it is not convenient to go back. He has already made up his mind to go home to accompany the elderly when "Dark Night" is finished.

Chu Quan's grandparents and grandparents are close friends in the neighborhood, so Chu Quan's parents are considered childhood sweethearts, and they even engaged in child marriage.Chu Quan was favored by the elders of the two families since he was a child. When Chu Hanlin abandoned his family, his grandparents even threatened to deny their son.After Chu Quan's mother, grandparents and grandparents passed away one after another, his grandparents held him in their hands and loved him even more.After Chu Quan became an actor, the time spent with his family dropped sharply, but they never complained, and they especially supported Chu Quan's career.

When Chu Quan thought about it, his heart was so sour.After the video was connected, his grandparents greeted him with smiles on their faces, and they seemed to be in good spirits.Chu Quan sat on the sofa chatting with the two elderly people.Guan Qianyue sat on the massage chair not far away, looked over here a few times, but didn't come to disturb him.

Chu Quan's grandma cares about her grandson's lifelong events