Sao Nian, draw your knife!

With one thought of hatred, a million barriers are opened.

Zhou Qing touched his left chest, and something in his mind collapsed along with the barren altars.He has never been happy. From the past to the present, not taking revenge is a heavy burden on his shoulders, and taking revenge is a tight bondage of self-loathing.

Let's stop here, he also thought about his life.

"You wait for me outside the door."

"Okay, I'll go out and smoke a cigarette."

Hualian turned and went down the stairs with a cigarette in his mouth. Zhou Qing took a deep breath, took out his notebook, opened the door and entered the ward.Xu Shixian maintained the posture before he left, staring up at the ceiling wanderingly, and turning his eyes to Zhou Qing stiffly when he heard the voice.

"came back?"

Zhou Qing threw the notebook to him, dragged the stool and sat down, "Don't you want to know why I know the details of your relationship, my brother's diary, other than that he never mentioned you to me. "

Xu Shixian stretched out his left hand, which had not been pricked, and hugged the book closer, and pressed it against his chest so hard that his knuckles turned white. The thing that was hanging around was his life.

Zhou Qing looked away and glanced at his toes, then stood up and put his schoolbag back on his shoulders, "But there is nothing good in it, pervert, violent maniac, rape/rapist, and animal are all synonymous with you, besides scolding you, I still scold you , if you want to torture yourself, just watch."

"It's none of your business."

What's wrong with scolding him, he deserves scolding, Zhou Dang scolds him, he deserves it.

"That's right, the two of us are considered clean, do you understand what I mean?"

Xu Shixian glanced at him lightly, "I won't show up in front of you again, I have a way to solve my father's matter, you go, even if you want to continue living in his name, but you dare to let his Don’t blame me for being impolite if your name gets dusty.”

Zhou Qing shook his head and smiled, with a hint of comfort in his smile, "Should I sympathize with you?"

"I don't need your sympathy."

Zhou Qing raised his hand and glanced at his watch, "Okay, don't see you again."

After Zhou Qing left, Xu Shixian turned on the bedside lamp, moved his stiff body and sat up.

After staring at the cover for 10 minutes, he opened it with trembling hands.

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If you want to be like my brother, you can make a lot of friends. 】

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Qi Fang said that I am not slow but really cold. In fact, I just can't speak, and I am really not cold. 】

[XNUM X Year X NUM X Month X NUM X Day

A lunatic said that playing snooker was love at first sight, but I have never been to a bar and I don’t know how to play snooker. He said to give me two days to prepare to go with him, not to let me consider but to order notice, fascist !Should I tell my brother? 】

[XNUM X Year X NUM X Month X NUM X Day

It hurts. 】

Xu Shixian covered his eyes in pain, he no longer dared to recall the beginning, bloody spread, fate held a sharp knife and asked him if he was afraid, he was afraid.

Terrified.

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Got hit again, if only I could kill him. 】

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madman!abnormal! !fascist! ! ! 】

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He always forces me to eat things I don’t want to eat. I miss the school’s old sauce keel, which is expensive but delicious. 】

[XNUM X Year X NUM X Month X NUM X Day

I failed, if I can't kill him, I will be beaten to death.I want to go home, I really want to go home...]

[XNUM X Year X NUM X Month X NUM X Day

I can finally go back to school and continue studying!My brother said to take me to play tennis, I don’t have much athleticism, I hope he won’t find me annoying ^v^]

[XNUM X Year X NUM X Month X NUM X Day

My mother will be sad to lose a son who is as sensible as my brother, and my friends will be sad to lose a friend like my brother who is cheerful.Therefore, it is better for my brother to live. 】

[XNUM X Year X NUM X Month X NUM X Day

If only we hadn't started so badly, maybe...]

Among the more than 100 diaries, only the second half of this article has been blacked out.

Before getting into the car, Zhou Qing took out two pages of paper that he had torn out of his pocket, shredded them thoroughly and threw them into the trash can.

In a thread-bound book, tear off the page with words and then find the corresponding full page in front and tear it off. No one will see that it has less than one page.

Xu Shixian will not see the solace he has sought for many years, it will be landfilled and incinerated along with the garbage.Whether Zhou Dang likes him at all, he will never find the answer in his whole life.

Hualian drove Zhou Qing to the hotel in his Land Rover, Zhou Qing was very silent all the way, the thick emotions in his eyes were like unmelted ink, his arms were propped by the window frame, he was silent and gloomy.

"Brother Qing, what are you thinking?"

Zhou Qing moved, and his voice was slightly hoarse, "No..."

He was a little nervous, and wanted to confess everything to Zhang Ming. He simulated countless scenes in his heart and brewed several sets of excuses, but no matter how prepared he was, he couldn't erase the anxiety in his heart.

"arrive."

Zhou Qing coughed a few times and got out of the car, raised his head and locked on the high-level in the dark, swallowed heavily, Zhou Qing rubbed his hands together.

"Brother Qing."

"what happened?"

"Call me anytime if you need anything, then I'll go back to the hotel first."

"it is good."

The Land Rover disappeared into the night, Zhou Qing pulled up his mask, took out his room card and swiped it to get on the elevator.

Standing at the door, his heartbeat calmed down. He really wasn't a "cowardly" owner. Zhou Qing swiped his card and opened the door. The slippers at the door of the bathroom were neatly placed outwards. The door was wide open, indicating that the owner had just favored it. In a ball, Zhou Qing searched the two rooms inside but found no one.

Zhang Ming had indeed been waiting here, but he had just answered his mother's call 10 minutes ago and took the elevator down to the parking lot.

Hold on, hold on, Zhou Qing breathed out and called someone.

Temporarily unavailable?

Zhou Qing stretched out the quilt, kicked the slippers to make it look like he had been here, then closed the door and rushed downstairs.

He really thought that with Zhang Ming's axis strength, he would wait until twelve o'clock in the middle of the night at least, and the people left at nine o'clock. To be honest, he was a little flustered, and he might not know that even a little bit of emotion would become a thing under the circumstances that people's expectations have been lowered several times. The last straw that broke the camel's back, he didn't want to be the straw, and Zhang Ming couldn't be the camel either.

The front desk said that the room was not registered, and it would not be used by guests at ordinary times. It would only be checked in when Mr. Zhang came. Only then did Zhou Qing know that it was also his man's investment.

Only Zhou Qing can't think of, there is nothing he can't play with.

Rushing to the gate, staring at the busy street, Zhou Qing stood on the side of the road with sore eyes, telling you to cry, don't cry if you want to die.

The mask was pulled down to the bottom of the nose, Zhou Qing looked at the tree head next to him and thought about going over and hugging it, he will not leave tonight, just waiting here.

"Zhou Dang... are you leaving?"

The author has something to say:

There are still two or three chapters to the end of the main text. If the little angel has something to watch, you can tell me. I will think about it in advance (^[-]^)/~~

Make a discussion, can you not collect it when it's over... Can you give me a V-line width after the end... (rubbing hands expectantly)