I really want to be a good person!

When Nian Zhifei woke up, it was still dark and the room was pitch black.And Qi Yaohui was sitting on the head of the bed, looking at him with a gloomy face, silently blending into the darkness.Nian Zhifei was frightened by him, so he didn't come up in one breath, and immediately choked and coughed again and again.

"Nian cub?" Qi Yaohui, who was meditating at first, woke up in shock when he heard the sound, and hurried forward to stroke Nian Zhifei's back to comfort him.After his breath stabilized, Qi Yaohui brought a glass of water to him in the dark again, showing extreme hospitality.

"...Thank you." Nian Zhifei gulped down most of the water in one breath, then shook his head vigorously, and finally couldn't help but frown and stare at Qi Yaohui. "you……"

But before Nian Zhifei finished speaking, Qi Yaohui had already taken the water glass, pressed his forehead with one hand and said softly: "It's still early, you can sleep for a while."

Of course Nian Zhifei knew it was still early.His original habit was to get up at 4:30 every morning for a morning run, but too many things happened later, his mood was bad and his sleep quality gradually declined, and now he wakes up before 4:[-] every morning.

But the focus of things now is the question of whether it is early or not?

I saw Nian Zhifei moved his body back a little, reached out to unscrew the bedside lamp, and pulled away the quilt to look down.The clothes and pants on his body are still neat, but the sleeping place is a little wrinkled, obviously nothing happened last night.

Nian Zhifei raised his head and looked at Qi Yaohui in disbelief: "I... fell asleep last night?"

Qi Yaohui nodded slightly, stood up and supported Nian Zhifei's shoulders, trying to push him back to the bed. "You're drunk, go to sleep for a while, I'll look at you."

Nian Zhifei didn't move, he looked at Qi Yaohui silently for a while, and suddenly began to unbutton his clothes.

"Nian Zai, don't do this!" Qi Yaohui instantly understood what Nian Zhifei meant, and hurriedly held his hand, and hugged him tightly. "Be good, don't be like this, I won't force you to do anything you don't want to do..."

Nian Zhifei's heart sank, and he asked anxiously, "Have you changed your mind?"

——Yes, undifferentiated is indeed unattractive.

But Nian Zhifei knew very well in his heart that he had already experienced a failure in differentiation.Even if it splits up again, he is not sure about splitting into an Alpha, but splitting into an Omega is very repulsive, and he will fail again in all likelihood.Compared with pheromone depletion, undifferentiated is really a much safer choice.At least he doesn't have to go through a life-threatening estrus every month. Every burst of severe pain reminds him that you are a monster!

"Yes, I've changed my mind." Qi Yaohui carelessly kissed Nian Zhifei's temples and earlobes, stroked his back and whispered in his ear. "Xiaozai, I was wrong, I really shouldn't have treated you like this..."

Nian Zhifei only felt his head explode with a "buzz", and he couldn't hear Qi Yaohui's words at all.All he knew was that Qi Yaohui had changed his mind, he didn't want money or sex, so what did he want?Nian Zhifei bit his lip hard, forced himself to point at Qi Yaohui's open and closed lips, and tried his best to keep calm.

"what do you want?"

"...I'm too narrow-minded, I'm not considerate of you enough..."

Qi Yaohui was racking his brains to confess to Nian Zhifei his bad words and deeds during this period, but before he could finish speaking, he heard Nian Zhifei ask him again in an almost hoarse voice, "What do you want? ".Qi Yaohui was taken aback for a moment, and finally woke up from his own world, and looked down at Nian Zhifei.

Nian Zhifei's face was white and sweaty, but his eyes were unfocused, which was almost a precursor to a breakdown of sanity.

"Nian cub?!" Qi Yaohui was terrified, hurriedly held Nian Zhifei's face, kissed him frantically, and swore at the same time. "Young cub, wake up! Look at me! Look at me! I was wrong, I was really wrong! It's me who shouldn't bring up old scores again, I shouldn't lose my temper, I swear, I won't say it If you want to be 'Nian Zhifei', then continue to be 'Nian Zhifei'. I will never tell anyone about the past! Nianzi, I swear, believe me! I don’t want anything but you ! Cubs!"

Nian Zhifei was woken up by the kiss, or rather, by the roar.He stared at Qi Yaohui in a daze, and after a while he said softly: "You won't tell, you will keep it secret, you swear?"

"I swear!" Qi Yaohui nodded his head heavily, and regretted his mistakes to Nian Zhifei. "I'm an idiot, bastard..."

Nian Zhifei didn't want to listen at all, but asked stubbornly: "What about the conditions?"

"No conditions!" Qi Yaohui looked at Nian Zhifei with piercing eyes, and confessed affectionately. "I love you!"

Nian Zhifei smiled almost mockingly, shook his head feebly, and did not speak.

"Nian Zai, don't you believe me?" Qi Yaohui said eagerly, holding Nian Zhifei's palm against his cheek. "In my whole life, I have only loved you. I said I wanted to break up because I was angry. I...I'm angry that you kept it from me for so long. I was angry that you used to..."

In the middle of his speech, he suddenly choked again.

"I thought I could forget you completely, but I can't do it at all. I can't stand not seeing you for a second... Young boy, I figured it out, and now I really figure it out. Is he in the past, okay? Turn the page, let's start again! Just the same as before, okay? I swear, I will never hurt you again, I won't bully you, I won't bring up the old things again. Young boy, give me another chance, I know you still love me too!"

Nian Zhifei stared at Qi Yaohui dumbfounded, almost thinking that he was still in a dream, the weakest but also the most beautiful dream.

Qi Yaohui looked at Nian Zhifei eagerly, and said in a low voice almost begging for mercy: "Nian, please talk! Promise me and say 'yes'."

But Nian Zhifei slowly withdrew his hand and hugged himself into a ball slowly.

"...Nian Zai..." Qi Yaohui looked at Nian Zhifei who refused his approach with distress, and his heart gradually filled with loss.

After an unknown amount of time, Nian Zhifeifang choked up and said, "You said you didn't love me, you said I wasn't worthy..." He didn't look up, but tears still fell silently from his closed eyes. "You scolded me so badly...you suspect me and... Qu Jiang..."

"Nianzai, I was wrong, I was really wrong." Qi Yaohui hastily apologized.

Nian Zhifei only shook his head slightly, quietly wiped away his tears on the quilt, and finally raised his head to look at Qi Yaohui.

"You're right, you're just, forgive me. I killed Chen Hai, but my life is worth another life; a bad background is not something I can choose, and now I have another identity, an identity you can accept ;Even, even my previous messy scandals, you are willing to turn over the chapters, and you finally forgive me."

Qi Yaohui was speechless, unable to utter a single word.Because every word of Nian Zhifei hit his heart.

"Thank you, thank you Qi Yaohui, I will be grateful to you for the rest of my life, thank you for keeping it a secret for me." Nian Zhifei nodded nervously, quickly moved off the bed and put on shoes and socks. "I swear, I will abide by the law and will not make you regret today's decision."

"return!"

Seeing that Nian Zhifei put on his coat and couldn't wait to leave, it seemed that he couldn't bear to be under the same roof with him for a moment.Qi Yaohui finally came to his senses and dragged him back.

"If you don't speak clearly today, no one can leave!"

Nian Zhifei couldn't get enough of his alcoholic strength to stand still, staggered two steps and fell backwards on the big bed.The fall made him dizzy and nauseous.But he leaned on the bed and gritted his teeth for a while, and still said word by word: "Qi Yaohui, you heard clearly! I don't want to! I'm not your dog, I can come and go when you call me! I won't let you choose for me, who should I be!"

His voice was hoarse and full of hatred, and every word seemed to be crying blood.

"You'd better pretend you don't know anything about my affairs, and then stay away from me. If you pester me and threaten me again, I'll kill you!"

"Are you going to kill me?" Qi Yaohui couldn't believe it at all, his eyes turned red in an instant, and he almost wanted to choose someone to eat. "Nian Zhifei, with our friendship, you want to kill me?!"

Facing Qi Yaohui's horrified gaze, Nian Zhifei couldn't help but silently turned his face away, but quietly clenched his fists.

The air was silent for a moment, and in the entire room, only the suppressed breathing of the two people was heard.It seems that two volcanoes are about to wake up from their slumber, trying their best to suppress the high temperature magma.Because both of them are very clear that once the volcano erupts, it will destroy the world and it will be difficult to recover.

After an unknown amount of time, Qi Yaohui's deep voice stirred the fragile nerves of the two of them again.

"Nian Zhifei, I admit that I am not so magnanimous. I am not as good as you think. When I think of the things you have done in the past, I will go crazy with jealousy! Even to this day, I am always fantasizing about those things. Kill the men who have slept with you one by one! But tell me, which man in this world would not be jealous when encountering such a thing? Unless he doesn't love you!"

"...What you said is very reasonable." Nian Zhifei looked at Qi Yaohui calmly and replied softly, "Qi Yaohui, you are really the greatest catcher in the world. Any Omega who has ever lost his footing would dream of having an Omega like you Alpha, become their final destination..."

Speaking of this, Nian Zhifei suddenly smiled mockingly.He knew that he should be grateful to Qi Yaohui for his generosity, and comforted himself that he did not misjudge Qi Yaohui's character.But the fact is that an unprecedented rage instantly engulfed his reason.

"But you got one thing wrong, I never lied to you, I'm not Long Xinghe! Except you, I have never loved anyone, I have never slept with anyone! So, why do you misunderstand me, I Are you going to suffer in silence? If you forgive me, I will be ecstatic to accept it? Why?!"

Qi Yaohui was shaken by Nian Zhifei's roar, and uncontrollably took two steps back in embarrassment.Looking at the cold-eyed Nian Zhifei, he asked in disbelief: "Are you really not Long Xinghe?...Then who are you?"

"Who am I?" Nian Zhifei repeated, and suddenly burst out laughing, with tears running down his face. "Qi Yaohui, you say you are ridiculous? You say you love me, but you don't even know who I am! We have known each other for so long, and you don't even know who I am! Do you love me? You love me What?"

Qi Yaohui was startled suddenly, for a long time, countless questions accumulated bit by bit rushed into his heart like a flood that broke through the gate.

——Why does he always deny that he is Long Xinghe?

—Why is he always avoiding leaving his mark?

——Why did he say "That's not me"?

——Why does he say "God" when he prays?

——Why does he care so much about the identity of "Nian Zhifei"?

Qi Yaohui couldn't answer any of these questions, and an indescribable fear gripped him tightly, making him clearly aware that he had never completely solved the mystery of Nian Zhifei.

"Impossible! Impossible..." Qi Yaohui shook his head desperately, feeling shuddering. "If you weren't Long Xinghe, how could you restore Feiyue Group's accounts? How could you know where the body was dumped in Xinyi Hall?...If you weren't him, but you weren't Nian Zhifei...Who are you?"

Nian Zhifei had completely lost interest in talking, he got up and straightened the wrinkles on his pants, and walked out step by step. "It's over, Qi Yaohui, let's end it! This is not the love I want, it's completely different from what I thought... I don't love you anymore."

"Nian Zhifei, speak clearly!" Qi Yaohui yelled, and without even thinking about it, he ran after him and grabbed Nian Zhifei's arm.

Unexpectedly, before Qi Yaohui's fingers touched Nian Zhifei's clothes, his eyes blurred, and Nian Zhifei's back instantly magnified.Immediately afterwards, Qi Yaohui felt a piercing pain in his stomach, and his body fell heavily backwards.

Nian Zhifei succeeded in one blow, then quickly tripped over Qi Yaohui's feet, turned his body and clasped Qi Yaohui's throat with his five fingers like iron tongs, and smashed him hard to the floor.

Hearing a loud "bang", Qi Yaohui's back muscles tightened due to severe pain, and he felt that the whole hotel was shaking in front of his eyes.Facing Zhifei's eyes in a trance, his coldness and sternness bursting out from the dark eyes are the same as that of Long Xinghe in that alley back then.

But this time, Qi Yaohui didn't struggle to resist any more, he just stared at Nian Zhifei silently.He wants to use his own life to bet on the year and know that he will not be able to do so.

As time passed by, Nian Zhifei's five fingers slowly tightened.

"Huh...hh..."

--What am I doing? !

But when Qi Yaohui's chest gradually let out a suffocating scream, Nian Zhifei instantly let go of his five fingers, and knelt down beside Qi Yaohui with all his strength.

"Cough, cough, cough..." Qi Yaohui, who had just been let go, immediately covered his neck and coughed frantically. He felt his neck bone shattered, his chest was in severe pain like a knife cutting fire, and his heart beat violently as if he was about to explode.But Qi Yaohui was still struggling to speak. "You are him...you are the Long Xinghe I know...cough cough, you love me, so you can't kill me..."

Nian Zhifei knelt down on the floor, crying and laughing, almost going crazy. "...Yes, I love you..." He murmured almost absent-mindedly, "I thought you loved me too, I thought I would be special, I thought, I thought... it wasn't me who became Nian Zhifei Yes, he died accidentally, I never harmed him...I fulfilled his wish for him, I took care of his family, I know I shouldn't hide it...but I'm also human, I want to live too...I I thought you could understand me, I was wrong... I was wrong... I just need to keep it in mind, I shouldn't take it seriously... I was wrong..."

From the first day he met Qi Yaohui as Nian Zhifei, Qi Yaohui had been suspicious of him.How could Nian Zhifei not know that for the sake of safety, he should stay as far away from him as possible?

However, he has lived as "Nian Zhifei" for so long, cautious, frightened, not daring to make a wrong step, and not daring to show the slightest flaw in front of anyone.Only Qi Yaohui... Only when he was in the ring with Qi Yaohui, when he quarreled with him, when he fell in love with him, did he feel that he could be himself occasionally.He even had the illusion that besides the excellent and perfect "Nian Zhifei", Qi Yaohui would also like him a little bit, the real him.

It turned out that he was wrong.

So far, what else can Nian Zhifei say?

But yes, I am willing to bet and admit defeat.

Qi Yaohui didn't know how to treat Nian Zhifei to be special enough, and all kinds of doubts about Nian Zhifei made him even more confused.It can be seen that Qi Yaohui, who didn't want to end the conversation after Nian Zhifei got up after venting his emotions, still tried his best to stay: "Nian Zai..."

Qi Yaohui knows better than anyone how stubborn Nian Zhifei is.If I don't talk about it this time, if I want to pry his mouth open next time, I won't know the year of the monkey.

Nian Zhifei ignored it, he wiped away his tears, raised his head, looked at the extremely oppressive ceiling and sighed. "God! I really hate you!"

The door opened and closed, Qi Yaohui lay on his back on the cold floor silently covering his face, and sighed in frustration.