My tablemate is idol

There was no one on duty in the hospital during the Mid-Autumn Festival, so Lin Hang stayed up all night and endured the pain until eight o'clock in the morning before calling the emergency call.

It took a whole morning to check and treat large and small trauma and internal injuries.

Walking to the entrance of the hospital, there was a chilly autumn wind. Lin Hang wrapped his denim jacket tightly, pulled up the mask, and planned to take a taxi home with a bag of bottles and cans for internal and external application.

After walking a few steps, he stopped at the same spot, tightened the handle of the plastic bag in his hand, and stared at the building next to him in a daze, as if hesitating for something.

After standing for a while, he turned around and went in.

"Psychiatrist, No. 28, you can come in now."

There are not many people waiting for a doctor in the corridor. It is different from the surgery here. It does not have the pungent smell of disinfectant. The walls are painted with a layer of water blue paint, which can help calm and appease the patients visually, but Lin Hang is still nervous. Rub the tiger's mouth of the left hand with the thumb of the right hand.

After hearing the call, he raised his head abruptly, and slowly stood up with support. There was a wound on his waist and abdomen that was painful as his body swayed.

Lin Hang cooperated with the doctor to answer some questions and took a professional psychological test.

"Seeing a psychiatrist for the first time? Frequent insomnia, low mood, and long-term inferiority tendencies... Judging from the results, it is only mild depression. There are many teenagers like you now, mostly because of school and family pressure .”

"However, from your own description, I feel that you are under a lot of pressure. If an adult encounters these things, he may be moderately depressed. It shows that you still have a certain ability to adjust. You usually spend more time with your family and friends. Take the initiative to talk, and you will gradually get better."

Lin Hang's face was pale, his teeth were biting his lower lip, and there was a pale tooth mark on his thin lip, which was not much blood. He only told the doctor about the pressure from school and work, he hesitated half of his mother's affairs, his father... and That person, he couldn't tell.

The doctor adjusted his glasses, and seemed to sense that he had something to say.

Lin Hang's phone vibrated non-stop. He took half of it out of his pocket, lowered his head and glanced at the screen. It was Zhai Yixun who had been sending messages, asking him where he was and if he wanted to go out for a walk together.

Lin Hang's heart trembled, but he didn't reply, and put the phone back.

"Have you... been emotionally frustrated? Seventeen or eighteen-year-olds like you often come for consultation because of puppy love. Last week, a girl yelled to commit suicide just because her confession was rejected." Doctor I saw a series of his actions.

Lin Hang stared at the doctor's nameplate on the table in a daze.suicide?He is afraid that he is a person who is not even qualified to solve his life.He is like a weak animal thrown into the deep sea. There are other creatures pulling him out or pulling him down in the sea and under the sea. He feels it is a luxury to breathe freely even for a second.

"It's just you and me here. If you don't feel comfortable telling your family, maybe I'm the only one who can listen." The doctor stretched out his hand and rubbed Lin Hang's brown hair forward.

Lin Hang looked down at his toes, his eyes slowly filled with tears, his dark brown pupils were soaked and watery, and there were also fine and small teardrops on his eyelashes.

The originally pale cheeks and the tip of the nose were covered with a layer of faint blush, which went all the way to the tips of the ears.After sobbing softly for a few minutes, he said something warmly in a crying voice, breaking the silence of the consulting room.

"I...I seem to like a boy." After finishing speaking, he hurriedly wiped away the tears on his face with the fabric of his cuffs.

The doctor was stunned for a second, then stood up and squatted down in front of him, smiling softly.

"Sexual orientation is not something to be sad about. It has been recorded in ancient China. It is a very normal thing. I know that it is always unacceptable to find it for the first time..."

"No It's not the doctor. I knew it when I was very young."

"It's true that I felt inferior for a long time, but I kept telling myself that as long as I don't really like anyone, everything...is fine."

"But... I... I..."

Lin Hang couldn't stop his tears, and the sobbing sound gradually became stronger.He thought that as long as he didn't meet, he could live like a "normal person" he thought, and his life was no different, except that he didn't need love.

Until the feeling of nostalgia that he had never had before gushed out, he knew that it was difficult for him to escape.He didn't know and didn't dare to test the other party's mind. If the other party didn't like men, or even if he was the same sex, he didn't like him enough, then what was he? Coming, bound people to heart-wrenching and painful.

"If two people have the same heart, they will find each other even in the fog."

"It should be a happy thing to like someone. You have concerns, you yearn for him, and you have the hope of living a better life. This is a good thing."

The doctor took out a tissue and asked Lin Hang to wipe away his tears.

Lin Hang's watery peach eyes, the lower eyelids were slightly swollen, and the tails of the eyes were red, like two walnuts in spring, he nodded with a vague understanding.

"Here, try this." The doctor turned around and took a candy from his drawer.It smells like durian.

"I...I don't eat this..."

"It's just a candy. Nothing is absolute, you have a taste, try... to accept something."

Lin Hang slowly unwrapped the candy wrapper, and put the round, light yellow candy into his mouth.At the beginning, there was an unbearable strange taste, but later, it could taste a bit sweet.

He remembered that on the food street that day, Zhai Yixun, sweating profusely, held up a box of durian cakes to invite him to eat, and he hurriedly avoided.How silly.

When Lin Hang came home, he was the only one at home on weekends.

He rummaged through boxes and cabinets to find things, and carefully turned over the pockets of each pair of trousers, but he still couldn't find them.What about the game currency?

The wound on his body was a little uncomfortable because he kept moving around, but Lin Hang refused to stop no matter what, he must find it.

After tossing and turning for an hour, I finally saw a round thing in a small corner next to the wash cup in the bathroom.

"Got you."

He sat on the bay window of the room with his bare feet, and kept rubbing the game coin with his index finger and thumb, staring at it but not paying attention.Every aspect of that person was flashing frame by frame in my mind like a movie screen.

It was his slight astonishment in the midst of fluttering butterflies in the setting sun that morning, the knuckle wrists he showed when he held the soy milk that morning, the way he hugged his waist laughingly and happily on the playground that day, and it was also the way he stood up on the podium as a substitute. The sharp and cold eyes when he cleared the siege.

It was the menu pushed in front of him, the cone handed to his mouth, the voice message that suddenly vibrated, and the little game currency in front of him.

"Will you find me?" he murmured.