i see your calling

This love, love, how to try it out, Lian Yan couldn't figure it out, he turned around again, barely saw Shen Pingge clearly in the dim light, he thought, if it happened again, Shen Pingge would avoid it ?

He didn't know where to put his hand. He couldn't remember where his arm was when he was sleeping before. He touched Shen Pingge's hand at a loss. He retracted it like an electric shock, and after a while, he slowly stretched it out again like a tentative , holding Shen Pingge's hand little by little.

He himself was shaking violently, afraid that Shen Pingge would break free.

Shen Pingge just curled his fingers slightly, but didn't break away.

Shen Pingge said: "Continue."

Lian Yan heard her own heartbeat, and her ears hurt from the noise. He clenched Shen Pingge's hand, raised his head slightly, and touched his lips lightly, his face was very hot.It was just a small movement, but Lian Yan felt that this was more tiring than running 1000 meters, and she had no strength in her whole body.

"I didn't escape," Shen Pingge said softly, "Did I?"

Lian Yan said "hmm".

"I don't know if this is considered irresponsible to you. I haven't been in love with boys, and I don't know what to do. It probably doesn't work for girls."

Shen Pingge laughed, clasped his hand backwards, and pinched his fingertips, as if chatting casually, and chatted about another topic, "Everyone is unique."

Lian Yan said "um".

"It's so special that it seems unique and not that special."

Shen Pingge put his hands on his neck, feeling the beating of the pulse. He said, "They are all similar life cycles, and they are all the same fresh and vigorous."

"But you seem to be different from them," Shen Pingge sighed, "You are glass."

It has the same luster as gem pearls, but it is cheaper and more transparent, and it also has edges and corners when broken, piercing the soil and oxygen.

"I'm a person who lacks a sense of responsibility. Others' pain or happiness has nothing to do with me. It's nothing to do with others being broken or being held. But you are not, you only have me." Shen Pingge's voice was very soft , "How can you rest assured that the fragmentation and integrity are entrusted to me?"

Lian Yan trembled uncontrollably, clutching Shen Pingge's hand hard, the nails seemed to dig into the flesh, he seemed to want to make Shen Pingge's wound, let him feel his pain.

"I took it," Shen Pingge said.

Shen Pingge took over him completely.

Lian Yan felt an inexplicable burning in his heart, as if the blood in his body was warming up, he liked to clasp hands with Shen Pingge, it was Shen Pingge who was holding his hand, their palms were sweating in the same way, Shen Pingge was also nervous Yes, same as him.

He wants to talk.

Shen Pingge spread his palms and said, "Let's write."

Lian Yan became nervous and wrote on it. He still remembered to use his fingertips instead of his fingertips.

Every gesture is slow, Shen Pingge needs to perceive him.

- Then don't let me go.

The hands are closed, and the handwriting in the palm of the hand is also closed.

Shen Pingge said: "Okay."

Whether he is true or false, Lian Yan knows that the oath cannot be taken seriously at night, there are too many uncertain factors at night, but it is always sore and hot when listening to it, he obviously just squeezed Shen Pingge's hand for a few 10 minutes, but he felt that a lifetime also passed.

"I've read all the messages you and Wei Ziping sent, just prepare for the exam," Shen Pingge rubbed his hair, and said, "Leave the rest to me."

Lian Yan wanted to hug him, and he did. She pulled her hand out of his hand, put her arms around his neck, wiped the sweat from her temples on his clothes maliciously, and smelled his breath.He hadn't had a good night's sleep for several days, and felt sleepy at this moment.

He felt the heat on his waist, and Shen Pingge put his hands on his waist, stroking his back, as if coaxing someone.

Half asleep and half awake, Lian Yan listened to what Shen Pingge said.

"today is my birthday."

Lian Yan was so sleepy that she couldn't keep her eyes open, but she forced herself to say "um", and then he heard Shen Pingge say again.

"You are my gift."

·

In fact, Lian Yan didn't sleep well, he had a strange nightmare, probably because he had too much anxiety and deep memory when he stole the recommendation letter, even though the sweetness poured in one after another, he was still afraid.

He dreamed of Shen Pingge, who was 15 years old. He was surrounded by many friends whose cheeks could not be seen clearly. There were men and women. They laughed all the way. , but he couldn't keep up, couldn't yell out words, sweated and burst into tears in a hurry.

He saw Wei Ziping again, and the videos poured out overwhelmingly. They all pointed their noses at him and called him gay.

Lian Yan turned to look for Shen Pingge, but he couldn't find it, he didn't keep his promise, and threw him down, allowing him to shatter into a large amount of glass shards, refracting a lot of light under the light.

Shen Pingge pushed him awake, Lian Yan was covered in sweat, looked at him drowsily, hugged his neck and cried when he woke up - he didn't know what to cry for, he still didn't come out of the dream of.

Shen Pingge kept patting his back. After tossing and tossing for so long, he was no longer sleepy. Lian Yan turned to look at the window, but it was still dark outside. Shen Pingge said: "It's 04:30."

His voice was sober, as if he hadn't slept all night, but Lian Yan didn't ask.

"I'll take you to take a shower," Shen Pingge said, "You're covered in sweat."

Lian Yan nodded confusedly, let Shen Pingge hug him, he curled up in Shen Pingge's arms, heard Shen Pingge's heartbeat, warm water flowed down, and his clothes were stripped off, Lian Yan was blindfolded , Shen Pingge wiped the water from his eyelids again, Lian Yan suddenly started to feel ashamed, and pushed Shen Pingge's shoulder to let him go.

"Okay, okay," Shen Pingge thought it was funny, "Then don't soak for too long."

It didn't take too long to take a shower, Lian Yan took a shower casually, and now she was completely sleepless, when she opened the bathroom door, she saw Shen Pingge sitting on the ground, the room was not turned on.

There was that little house on the ground, Shen Pingge beckoned him to come over.

Lian Yan sat opposite him, the yellow light illuminated them, Shen Pingge turned a small switch on the back of the house, and then the small house jingled music, which was very clear in the room.

"When I look back, I want to make money by myself and buy a house like this," Shen Pingge pointed, and said, "It's about the same layout as this one."

Lian Yan wanted to find her own room, but Shen Pingge pointed to the innermost room, "This one is too small, well, if I have enough money, I can buy a bigger room, and you sleep here."

Lian Yan made gestures with him.

-And you.

"I sleep on the outside of the bed," Shen Pingge said. "If it's not too crowded, my dad will let him go downstairs. He always comes late, and going up the stairs makes too much noise and it will be noisy."

It's strange that they stay awake in the wee hours of the morning, sitting on the cold floor, discussing the unpredictable future.

Shen Pingge pointed to the bed inside: "Did you sew the pillow yourself?"

Lian Yan nodded.

"I see," Shen Pingge said with a smile, "it's all fluff."

Lian Yan laughed and went to cover Shen Pingge's mouth. The force was too great, or Shen Pingge didn't hide, and they all fell to the ground. But Ge held his waist, not letting him get up, and gently kissed his eyelids. The place where he kissed was so hot, Lian Yan was inexplicably scared, and tightly clenched his sleeves, their clothes rustled Rubbing against each other, the eyes could not look carefully, just looking at him.

"It's past five o'clock," Shen Pingge said, "it's morning."

Lian Yan said "Mmm", and he heard Shen Pingge whispering in his ear, "Good morning."

Shen Pingge said good morning to him.

It seemed to be bright outside the window, and rusty sunlight streamed out, the whole world was a huge prison, replaced with brand new light bulbs, there was still a small house next to them, the sound of tinkling music was still playing, it seemed that only They two criminals, what does it matter, a new day begins.

The author says:

It's been two days of Kawen, so I haven't updated it.