i see your calling

From the corridor window, you can see the playground, the red running track, the sound of shooting the ball can be heard clearly along the air, and the close point is the brick red wall. Lian Yan stared blankly at Shen Pingge, but felt that everything was overshadowed for a moment , became a pale background, he could only see Shen Pingge.

Shen Pingge didn't rush him, but just stood there, watching him quietly.

"..."

Lian Yan listened to Shen Pingge's words, but she really didn't have the courage to go forward, all her strength was used to maintain him standing here.

He seemed to hear Shen Pingge sigh from afar, and watched Shen Pingge walking towards him.

Shen Pingge stood in front of him, leaned slightly, and said in a voice that could only be heard by the two of them.

"Shall we talk?"

Lian Yan answered for a long time, "Yes."

It was a bit late when they walked out of the teaching building, and there were not many people on the road. Lian Yan followed behind Shen Pingge, and when they left the school gate, they heard the hour bell ringing behind them.

"Tell me about it," Shen Pingge walked unhappily, with his hands in his pockets, "You can make gestures, or write on your phone, just say what you want."

Lian Yan took a deep breath, walked a few steps faster, stood in front of him, and gestured.

- Let's talk at home.

He looked at Shen Pingge almost begging.

Shen Pingge paused, "Okay."

Lian Yan was in a daze, he could hardly remember how he got back to the villa, Shen Pingge put the schoolbag on the sofa, Lian Yan stood at the entrance, clutching the belt of the schoolbag tightly, Shen Pingge just touched his hand Shoulder, Lian Yan avoided it with a big movement, moved her lips, and took off her schoolbag by herself.

"In the living room," Shen Pingge said.

Like a sinner about to be judged, Lian Yan lowered her head and said "hmm", sitting on the sofa, with fruits on the coffee table, red cherries and purple plums, under the light of dusk, it seemed to have been wiped sweet honey.

How should I tell him.

He can't speak, and Shen Pingge doesn't understand all sign language. They are like people from two parallel worlds, and it is difficult for them to communicate.

Lian Yan stared at the cherries on the coffee table, and suddenly handed over the phone in front of her eyes.

"Use this," Shen Pingge said, "You just need to type."

Lian Yan took a deep breath, took it over, and adjusted the memo on the screen.

Shen Pingge rested his arms on the back of the sofa and looked at Lian Yan quietly.The screen gradually dimmed, and Lian Yan pressed the screen to turn it on again, three or four times, before he finally typed on it.

- sorry, i lied.

"So Tang Wensi doesn't exist." Shen Pingge sat very close to him, his voice seemed to be right next to his ears, "Is that right?"

Lian Yan typed very slowly.

-right.

He could know what Shen Pingge was going to ask next, but he still felt a kind of unknown fear. He hid in a dark corner with his "like" and twisted and fermented, but Shen Pingge bit by bit drag out.

"Well," Shen Pingge said, "Who gave me those notes?"

Lian Yan clenched the phone tightly, her fingertips turning white.

If Lian Yan could be more cheeky, he could invent another person and put all the blame on him.But he also knew that Shen Pingge was not stupid, and he would not be fooled by him. Perhaps from the beginning to the end, he was the only one playing the role of the clown, and everyone was watching in the dark.

He couldn't lie anymore.

So he typed slowly on the phone screen.

-it's me.

Lian Yan deleted and typed these two words, and when the period was finally completed, Lian Yan felt a sense of relief. His back was sweating, and the light from the screen hurt his eyes. Lian Yan pushed the phone to Shen Pingge .

He breathed lightly, not wanting to let go of any details on Shen Pingge's face.

Even Yan is only 15 years old, he will be tired, he thinks to himself, let Shen Pingge know everything, let Shen Pingge understand everything, let him choose to leave or...continue.

If you leave, then leave.

Lian Yan made all the mental preparations, but she still regretted it when she pushed it away. He couldn't accept Shen Pingge's departure, but with just those two words, he read them all in one click, and it was too late to take them back.

Shen Pingge looked up at him, and Lian Yan met his eyes.

He had never seen Shen Pingge look at him with this kind of eyes, it wasn't hating or loathing, but an extremely strange eyes, as if he met Lian Yan for the first time and knew Lian Yan.

"..." Shen Pingge repeated, "You gave it to me?"

Lian Yan understood all the answers at once, she didn't need too many words, her eyes made everything clear, almost transparent.

He nodded mechanically, lowered his head, and watched the phone screen go dark.

The words "It's me" were drowned and swallowed in the darkness.

This is just great.

He no longer has to hide it, no longer has to lie, he can like it openly and aboveboard.But Lian Yan couldn't be happy at all, he even felt out of breath, as if his breath was deprived, his heart was twisted, and the pain was severe.

silence.

"Lian Yan."

Lian Yan looked up, the corners of her eyes were red.

"You..." Shen Pingge put down his hand, clasped his hands together, hesitated for a while, and asked, "Why?"

Lian Yan bit her lip, he and Shen Pingge were obviously so close, but they seemed to be separated by a long distance, a transparent barrier was erected between them, he could see Shen Pingge, but he couldn't feel it. To Shen Pingge.

Lian Yan grabbed his wrist, Shen Ping paused, but he didn't take it back, and let Lian Yan write on it.

Very simple two words, with a lot of gestures, Lian Yan wrote slowly, telling him the answer bit by bit.

-like.

It's because I like you.

I'm giving you those notes because I like you as hell.

It's the dirty words, the naked love I gave you.

Do you understand?

In fact, it doesn't matter whether you know it or not.

Shen Pingge doesn't like himself.

Lian Yan knew the answer, he thought he would be unwilling and resentful, but when he finished writing those two words and let go of Shen Pingge's wrist, he suddenly felt that it was no big deal.

He accepts everything.

He knew the answer a long time ago, it was he who was reluctant to admit it, insisted on being sentimental, and took the illusion as real - he is a boy, he is timid, he is useless, he is dumb, Shen Pingge has no reason to like him he.

Shen Pingge withdrew his hand, closed it, and then let go.

Lian Yan moved her mouth, but tears fell down quickly, two big tears, fainted two spots on the dark school uniform trousers, Lian Yan went to get the toilet paper, moved a little away from Shen Pingge, and began to wipe it indiscriminately tears.

No one wiped his tears this time.

It is impossible for Shen Pingge to hug him anymore.

Then don't hug.

He can find toilet paper himself, so what's the big deal?

But Lian Yan was still very sad, he wanted to cry so much, he was not manly at all, but he just couldn't restrain his emotions, Lian Yan stood up abruptly, turned around and left.

After walking a few steps, he suddenly heard Shen Pingge calling him from behind.

"Lian Yan."

Lian Yan paused, a flame lit up in his heart untimely, a small ball seemed to ignite him too hotly, his sobbing voice became softer, leaving all the silence to Shen Pingge.

He heard Shen Pingge say softly.

"sorry."

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