i see your calling

On April 03th, at 30:[-] in the morning, Lian Yan woke up again at this time.

This dirty and dilapidated hotel is really tormenting, the environment is poor, and it also comes with nightmares. This time when Shen Pingge woke up, he slept with his back facing him. Lian Yan received a text message from Shen Yiming. It was very long, and he subconsciously closed it. He picked up the phone, buckled it on the bed, closed his eyes for a while, and then slowly read the text message.

-Xiaoyan, do you think you are worthy of uncle?

-Uncle sponsored you to go to school when you were 12 years old, and then brought you home, food and clothing, and flat grid. I will not miss you. I want you to take care of this place, and I want you to make me peaceful As a family member of Ge, I even thought, when I die, the inheritance will be half of you, and you will be the same as my own son.

- are you worthy of uncle

Lian Yan clenched her phone tightly and continued to look down.

- Pingge has given up a lot for you. He will suffer from other people's eyes, and he will be called gay by others. What you will experience in the future is much worse than what I said. Obviously, you can live a little more comfortably. Why can't you take the positive path? ?

-Pingge is about to take the college entrance examination, less than two months away.Xiaoyan, don't burden him anymore.

Lian Yan blinked and turned off the screen again.He has a lot to say, but he can't say a word. Shen Yiming said everything right. It is a fact that he is being supported. If there is no Shen Yiming, he is probably in the orphanage now?Going to an ordinary high school, maybe I can't even go to high school, and after compulsory education, I have to go to work.

At [-]:[-], Lian Yan turned on the phone again, he guessed that his eyes were bloodshot, he felt tired, and said.

- but I like him.

He is not willing to give up.

Shen Yiming replied very quickly, he couldn't sleep either, said.

- If you like it, you must get it?In the future, you will encounter many things that you like and long for. Do you want to get them all?What if I can't get it?Xiaoyan, you can't be so selfish.

Lian Yan wanted to refute him, and typed a bunch of words, but the pile was too much, and it was crumbling, which made him feel guilty.So she deleted it bit by bit, Lian Yan threw away her phone, got out of bed, crawled to the other side of the bed, and curled up into Shen Pingge's arms. He didn't want to wake Shen Pingge up, but Shen Pingge still woke up. His voice was a little hoarse, he pressed the back of his head and stroked slowly: "Did you have a nightmare?"

Reality is scarier than nightmares.

Lian Yan asked him in her heart: Brother, do you know?

He can easily refute Shen Yiming—human desires are unlimited, yes, but he has already got it, he is floating in the sea, and he has already grasped the life-saving plank, how can he let him go again?Let go and die.

He kept this matter a secret, and he didn't intend to let Shen Pingge know that April [-]th was the second-mode exam, and he wanted Shen Pingge to get a good grade in the exam. Half of the luggage that Yang Zhi brought was tutoring. Regarding the materials and test papers, he felt that Shen Pingge was very good, and those test papers were all marked.

Lian Yan thought that they would stay in this hotel forever. Although the environment was not good, it seemed to be good-but the boss kicked them out the next day.During the construction of the city in the past few days, the hotels were strictly checked, checking in without an ID card. When Yang Zhi went to the villa, he didn't find Shen Pingge's ID card. Maybe Shen Yiming took it away, or maybe he just lost it.

Lian Yan thought, how could this be, they still have to go to school today.

The suitcase is temporarily placed in a small supermarket on the roadside, and the storage fee is 30 yuan.Shen Pingge rubbed his hair, said: "It's nothing." He sighed again, "Where are you going tonight?"

It's only been two or three days - Lian Yan remembered the promise she made, saying that she would give him her whole life, but in the end, his whole life fell into the hands of reality.

It's okay.

There must be a way to the front of the mountain.

all will be good.

But what if the car blows up and the bridge cracks?

There is no answer.

·

After the luggage is stored, I still go to school in a proper manner. Tuesday is gray, the typeface on the test paper is gray, the clock is gray, and the dust from the chalk is gray. When I was in a daze, I heard Pang Nian whisper to him: "My cousin Tell me he saw you this morning, outside the hotel, with suitcases."

Lian Yan looked over and nodded slightly for a while.

"I'm not gossiping, I'm just worried about you. I read the brochures outside saying that between boys...uh, that's called high-risk sex," Pang Nian said in a low voice, but Lian Yan was trembling all over, like a cold woman. "Take care to take...protective measures, and protect yourself. Next time, you should avoid people, don't be watched by others, and save yourself from speaking bad things."

Lian Yan suddenly covered her ears, refused to communicate, buried her face in it, her Adam's apple moved, and a choked sound came out.

do not talk.

If the world is noisy and noisy, it is good to be a mute. If the sound in the ear is too noisy, it is better to let him be unable to speak and deaf at the same time. This is... fairer.

He became a dying patient, he was listless all day, after evening self-study, he couldn't wait to find Shen Pingge, he found his hair charming, and the half-turned collar was also good-looking, they kissed in the hidden place of the campus, Shen Ping Grid's bodily fluids are the antidote.Lian Yan felt that she was extremely daring, and hesitated, wondering if she would be discovered if she did such dirty things here.

There was nowhere to go anyway, Lian Yan bit her lip, she might as well be more presumptuous.

The bodies were very close, the clothes rubbed against each other, and he smiled at Shen Pingge again.

Relying on the lack of light and the blind spot of the camera, Lian Yan squatted on the bed, Shen Pingge looked at him with dark eyes, and called him: "Xiaoyan." Lian Yan hugged him, listening to Shen Pingge He gasped for breath, feeling his fingers running through his hair.The smell is not pleasant, but Lian Yan's heart is full of satisfaction that cannot be vented, which almost makes him cry.

In the end, the eyelashes were wet, Shen Ping pulled him up, wiped his face clean, Lian Yan obediently raised her face, smiled as if something bad happened, bit his ear, and listened to him.

"It's all right now, I've made you dirty." Shen Pingge hugged him, and they huddled together in the corner, smiling softly, "You are my dirty child now."

Lian Yan didn't feel dirty at all, she didn't even feel any troubles anymore, she smiled a little silly, they stayed at the school, and walked slowly hand in hand, Lian Yan didn't ask him where he was going, he left everything to Shen Ping Ge, no matter where he goes, Lian Yan will follow him.

When they arrived at the supermarket where the luggage was stored, Shen Pingge asked him to wait by the side of the road, so Lian Yan squatted on the side of the road and waited for him bored, counting the grains of sand beside her feet, took a stone, and drew three small pieces on the floor. leaf.

After 10 minutes, Shen Pingge still hadn't arrived.The uneasiness that had always existed in Lian Yan's heart piled up, and she began to think wildly, wondering whether Shen Pingge had given up, and whether he had already returned home, which is why he hadn't come back for so long.But Lian Yan didn't stand up, she brutally suppressed her miscellaneous thoughts, didn't leave there, just squatted there, as if he didn't move, nothing would change.He bit his finger again, suspecting that in school just now, his teeth hit Shen Pingge, which made Shen Pingge hurt, so he got angry and left.

I can correct my mistakes, Lian Yan thought blankly, I only have an older brother.

Brother don't leave me.

Suddenly he heard footsteps, and a shadow fell around him, Shen Pingge came over and squatted beside him, Lian Yan smelled the scent of noodle soup, Shen Pingge smiled, still the clean boy, and said: " Still waiting here, so good."

Lian Yan's eyes were red and she nodded.

A bowl of noodles suddenly appeared in front of him, it was just simple instant noodles, Shen Pingge's face was blurred by the heat, but his voice was still very gentle, "Baby, happy 17th birthday."

This day is April [-]th, at eleven o'clock at night, the roadside is very cold, the lights are dusty, there is no moon, the city is sleepy, they are awake here, Lian Yan is at a loss at first, and then thinks of herself On his birthday, everything was out of control, and he started crying again. Shen Pingge held the instant noodle bucket in one hand and hugged him in the other, a little embarrassed and funny.

Lian Yan didn't think about why Shen Pingge just gave him a bowl of instant noodles.In fact, no matter what Shen Pingge gives him, he will be happy.It wasn't until later that Lian Yan found out that their luggage was incomplete that day, and all the money in it was lost. The owner of the supermarket asked Shen Pingge to refund two-thirds of the storage fee, saying: "There is no way. Son, it’s too messy here, I can’t find it.”

With 20 yuan left on hand, Shen Pingge bought a bucket of instant noodles, added an egg and extra hot sauce, and fed him hot.

Lian Yan cried for a long time until his voice became hoarse. Shen Pingge put the instant noodles aside and wiped his tears with a tissue. As for crying, I will prepare a good gift for you next year." He joked, "Add an extra egg and braised pork, okay?"

Lian Yan nodded with tears in her eyes, and kissed Shen Pingge lightly.

I really love my brother.

Lian Yan didn't take the instant noodles privately, and each of them ate half of it—to be precise, before they finished eating, a car stopped beside them. They were all wet with tears, stained together, black and thick, blocking his vision.

Lian Yan saw Shen Yiming.

Shen Yiming got out of the car, wearing a black suit and a navy blue bow tie. He just came back from the company. Shen Pingge stood up and looked at him. He hadn't seen him for a few days, but his eyes were very strange. .

Do you want to explain?In fact, they were not in such a mess, it was just that they were in a mess this day.

Lian Yan also stood up slowly. After squatting for too long, there were black spots in front of her eyes, and her ears were buzzing. Shen Pingge gently hugged his waist to prevent him from falling. Lian Yan could see Shen Yiming's lips moving , but it takes a lot of effort to hear Shen Yiming speak.

"You guys are really good at it," Shen Yiming's voice was difficult, his eyes were like a torch, "Even if you break off with me, you still want your so-called love, squatting on the street eating instant noodles and don't want to go home, Shen Pingge, you are so cold Who will inherit the heart?"

Lian Yan clenched her hands tightly, the noodle soup was a bit cold, and she couldn't warm her hands.

After being quiet for a long time, Shen Yiming finally turned and left.

"You win. Come on, get in the car."

The author says:

There are so few comments, sorry. TT

Young people doing errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.