Fall in love with the ex Bai Yueguang

Tan Ke's action of picking vegetables was half a beat slower than the naked eye.

He gave a low hum, as an admission, and then put the tofu into Xie Li's bowl: "Shen Zhichuan came to see me this afternoon."

"What did he say?" Xie Li was in a hurry and didn't eat, even put down his chopsticks.

Tan Ke looked at him: "Let's talk after we finish our meal, shall we?"

Xie Li didn't insist, picked up his chopsticks and continued to eat.He thought, it would be fine if Tan Ke didn't want him to go that much.Shen Zhichuan actually couldn't force him out, could he?

The meal was eaten in unusual silence.

Tan Ke didn't even touch the spicy shrimp with onion, ginger and garlic.

After dinner, the two of them went into the kitchen to wash the dishes together.

Xie Li offered to come to wash the dishes, and Tan Ke took an apron and put it on for him from behind.

When he was wearing the belt, he suddenly said, "My dad was very frugal when I was young."

Xie Li was startled, and looked back.

Tan Ke stretched out his hand to remove the bangs on his forehead, and rubbed his chin affectionately: "Tan Xin and I can't have leftovers, and we have to eat everything clean."

Xie Li didn't understand what Tan Ke meant when he said this, so he had to wait with his eyes wide open.

Seeing his ignorant look, Tan Ke couldn't help feeling a little emotional.

At the beginning, he was always confused by Xie Li's immature appearance, thinking that the other party's heart was immature and needed constant support and care.

But later he realized that Xie Li was actually very mature, as he himself said, he has been trying to be an adult.

This relationship is not completely equal, at least not in Tan Ke's mind at first.

But Xie Li insisted on putting himself in an equal position, demanding equal attention and equal communication.

Xie Li is the real leader in this relationship.

After Tan Ke hung up the phone in the afternoon, he kept thinking, if Xie Li just didn't want to go abroad, what power does he have to force Xie Li to go abroad?

"My father will ask us to eat all the onions, ginger, and garlic." Tan Ke kissed the little boy's smooth forehead, and wrapped his arms around his waist affectionately.

Xie Li's T-shirt was tucked into his trousers in a mess and wrapped around his waistline.This child has perfectly inherited the fine tradition of science and engineering boys from their physics college.

Tan Ke reached into his trousers to straighten his clothes, and continued: "To anger my dad, I said that I don't eat onions, ginger, and garlic."

Xie Li thought that the domineering president was born calm, indifferent, rational and self-sufficient, and never thought that he would be rebellious.

"What happened later? Did you stop eating at all?" He couldn't help asking.

Tan Ke now thinks of his childhood, and still finds it a bit ridiculous.He shook his head: "My dad could tell right away that I was looking for trouble, so he asked my mom to put onion, ginger, and garlic on all the meat and vegetables at home. So I really didn't eat meat at all for about half a year."

Xie Li thought about it, and felt that this was indeed something that Tan Qisheng could do: "Then what happened afterwards?"

"Later," Tan Ke narrowed his eyes and recalled, "Later, my sister-in-law felt sorry for me and took me out to eat. It may be a psychological effect, or it may be that I really don't want to eat anymore after not eating for a long time. Anyway, I really eat No more."

Xie Li touched Tan Ke's hand, not knowing what to say.

He has no parents, of course there are shortcomings.Tan Ke and Tang Wanwan have parents, but they also have shortcomings.It seems that shortcomings are something that is inherent in human beings, and they are never allowed to have a perfect piece.

Xie Li stared at the bowl in the sink and didn't know what he was thinking, Tan Ke continued to finish the sentence: "It was a long time later that I realized that green onion, ginger and garlic are also vegetables in my father's heart, and they must be eaten and not wasted. That has something to do with how poor he was when he was a child, but I never lived a life where white rice was more precious than gold. So I don’t understand him, and he doesn’t understand me either.”

Day after day, year after year, the gap is like sand wrapped in a clam shell.But this sand is wrapped in the heart, but it will not become a pearl.

Guanshan is difficult to overcome, and what is even more difficult is the sand in people's hearts.

Tan Ke wrapped his arms around Xie Li's waist, slowly tightened his hands, and held him tightly in his arms: "I thought about it today and realized that I really didn't do well before. Always interfering with you makes you feel Unhappy. I may have my dad’s problem unknowingly, thinking that I am doing it for your own good..."

"No, Tan Ke." Xie Li hurriedly said, he wanted to turn around, but Tan Ke hugged him so close that he couldn't move.

"Listen to me first." Tan Ke said, "In fact, think about it carefully, what if you drink a cup of milk tea with sugar, as you said, you know the limit in your heart, and you can manage yourself completely. Other things It's the same. I think I probably have a desire to control in my character, so when I see that your expectations are different from mine, I can't help but interfere. This is wrong, I should believe you."

Xie Li didn't expect that Tan Ke was still reflecting on this matter, and would analyze himself to him so frankly, admitting his mistakes and apologizing.

He felt a sore nose and couldn't speak.

Tan Ke didn't care about his silence, it just seemed that he had saved a lot of words and finally had a chance to tell him.

His voice is low and gentle, like the best cello. From the resonating box, a sound as deep as the night comes out, and through the chests and backs of the two tightly pressed together, it reaches Xie Li's ears without any distance. in his body.

"Shen Zhichuan called me in the afternoon, hoping that I could persuade you to go abroad. But I don't think I should persuade you, and I should not use my expectations to describe you. If you want to go abroad or don't want to go abroad, I will support you. You are me Lover, I trust your decision."

Xie Li's tears finally fell down, and fell along his cheeks onto Tan Ke's hands around him.

The anxiety of the whole day followed the tears and fell together.

He finally had a sense of stability with his feet on the ground and his heart being put back into his chest.

All because of the people around him.

"I'm a little scared, Tan Ke." Xie Li swallowed the tears that flowed into his lips, and confided incoherently to his protector, "I know it's a good thing, but I'm really scared. I, I'm not good at English, I never thought about going out, what if I can't understand what others are saying, what if I miss you..."

Tan Ke exerted a little force on his hand, turned Xie Li around, and held him in his arms distressedly: "Don't be afraid, don't be afraid baby, listen to me."

He wiped Xie Li's tears away, lowered his head, and looked straight into the little boy's eyes: "If there is no English problem, do you want to go?"

Xie Li bit her lip, thought for a while, then nodded uncertainly, but said, "I don't know."

Speaking of English, Xie Li suddenly remembered something, and reached out to grab Tan Ke's clothes: "I want to tell you something, don't be angry, okay?"

Those eyes had just been crying, they contained water vapor, and the end of the eyes was slightly red, like the first crabapple flower that bloomed in spring, so lovely.

Tan Ke was dazzled, and didn't even ask anything, just nodded: "I'm not angry."

Xie Li was not sure if he was really not angry, and said hesitantly: "I lied to you about another thing, I have been going to Teacher Yang's place since then. I'm sorry."

He quickly hugged Tan Ke's neck, and kissed the corner of the man's lips twice, leaving a little trace of the kiss.

The moment he backed away, Tan Ke stopped him and put his hands around the back of Xie Li's head: "Little liar, do you just apologize like this?"

Xie Li also felt very guilty: "At that time, I just wanted to finish what I promised Teacher Yang, and I didn't want to argue with you. I'm really sorry."

Tan Ke didn't give in at all: "I taught you how to apologize more sincerely."

Xie Li's face suddenly turned red.

He remembered that kiss, and Tan Ke's first kiss.At that time, the sunlight passing through the polarized car film gently brushed his side face, and hot memories flooded his heart.

Xie Li stood on tiptoe, reached out to support Tan Ke's shoulder, and kissed her with her eyes closed.

It looked almost sacrificial.

……

In this kiss, Tan Ke was surrounded by unknown emotions.

For what he has, for what is delivered to him.

Under the bright light in the kitchen, Xie Li's lips parted slightly, panting, blushing: "Now, I'm finally sincere."

He tugged on Tan Ke's sleeve coquettishly: "There is nothing else to lie to you."

Tan Ke suddenly bent down, picked up Xie Li horizontally, carried him into the bedroom, and placed him on the bed.He squatted down and took off the apron on Xie Li: "Change out your clothes, I'll go wash the dishes."

The apron turned around, and it was put back on Tan Ke's body.

Xie Li changed his clothes and came out, found his schoolbag in the living room, took out his laptop, sighed, and continued to write the article Shen Zhichuan asked him to write.

Everything is in his mind, the formulas calculated by himself, the definitions written down by himself, like orderly and jumping notes, from human mathematical symbols to birth and destruction, stars and dust in the dark universe.

Xie Li stared at the formula for a long time, until Tan Ke turned on another light in the living room for him, and he suddenly woke up.

Tan Ke came over, holding a stack of things in his hand, and sat down next to Xie Li.

"I haven't told you about my school days yet." Tan Ke said, handing a photo album to Xie Li, and flipping through one of the pages, "Look, this is the house I rented back then. "

Xie Li took it over and watched it carefully.The room was not very big, nor was it luxurious. The only eye-catching thing was a huge window, which was almost close to the base line, and one could walk through it by raising one's legs.

"You can see the Delaware River directly from here, and the school is on the other side. I drove over here every day when I was in school." Tan Ke pointed on the photo, "The scenery is very beautiful in autumn."

He turned a page: "Here is the Department of Physics."

Tan Ke held Xie Li half in his arms, flipped through the photo album, and introduced to him the location on each photo.

There is a bronze statue of Andrew Flemi in front of the graduate school with a gray tile roof, a three-hole arch bridge with a flag tip in front of the Department of Chemistry, a study room with a wooden dome and a warm wall fire in winter, and a Gothic church with stained glass windows.

Cherry blossoms in April, the old post office on Nassau Street, the inconspicuous iron gate of Princeton University, and groups of graduates passing through the gate...

Tan Ke gently flipped through the photo album, took Xie Li's hand, and described to him the scenery on the other side of the mountain.

The author has something to say:--

Xie Li: For the little bit part, please go to the microwave.Microwave it and you'll know.