Fall in love with the ex Bai Yueguang

Xie Li held the mobile phone and walked to the door of the dormitory. The screen of the mobile phone lit up noisily, and the liquid crystal molecules under the screen ejected a name under the impetus of the current.

Xie Li couldn't help but let out a soft ah.

Cheng Guang poked his head out of the bed: "Are you okay? Turn on the light and don't knock on it."

Xie Li whispered back that it was okay, quickly opened the door, and got into the same dark corridor.

Holding the mobile phone in his hand, he walked quickly to the end of the corridor. The mobile phone flickered silently and brightly, expressing his heart like a speechless poet, boasting of the tacit understanding of love.

But human beings do not have a tacit understanding.

Too close and frequent contact will infinitely magnify the possibility of any small probability event until it happens.

This is hardly a miracle.

The real miracle is something else.

For example, the thing called love born in the vast universe seems useless and complicated, but it makes two strangers share each other's joys, sorrows, sorrows and joys from the moment they are connected, so they can't sleep at night.

Xie Li squatted at the end of the corridor on the dormitory floor, like all the male students in love in this dormitory building, holding the phone in his slippers, squatting under Bai Youyou's emergency light, pressing the call button urgently.

Tan Ke leaned against the wall outside the door of the ward, and the lights in the ward were also turned on at night. The glaring white light shone on the white wall, making the gloomy department in this area even more gloomy.Holding the phone up, the corners of his mouth were pursed into a straight line, as if he had devoted himself to the other end of the phone.

Amidst the electric current, the two of them remained silent with aspirations.

Xie Li squatted under the emergency light, sweating all over.The dense sweat on the back stuck to the old man's pure cotton vest, which felt cold and itchy, making him extremely uncomfortable.

The little bit of shame that Cheng Guang had just muttered in his heart was covered by the grievance vigorously, and finally he couldn't help but say, "Speak up."

It took Tan Ke a second to realize that Xie Li was talking.

The second the phone was connected, he was a little dazed.

Even after Tan Xin left, he stayed alone in the ward, recalling what happened throughout the evening, he couldn't believe it.Who would have thought that Tangtang would always lock his boyfriend in the car and spank his ass, and the cause was just a trivial meal.

Tan Xin said that no one wants to own a helocopterpartner.

The kindness and concern he thought he had were all constraints in Xie Li's eyes.His initial reaction to Xie Li's rhetorical question was anger, and then it turned into disappointment.

But looking back and thinking about it carefully, in the past 20 years, Xie Li's life would have passed smoothly without his participation?

He said with difficulty: "Li Li, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done anything to you in the car."

Xie Li sighed softly on the other end of the phone, and Tan Ke was heartbroken when he heard it.

"I don't know if you feel it." Xie Li said, "You've been treating me like a child. You beat me like a child. Only children get spanked."

Tan Ke hurriedly apologized again: "Li Li, I'm really sorry. I was so angry at that time, maybe I had a problem with emotional control. I'll make an appointment with a doctor in two days..."

Xie Li was anxious: "Shut up and listen to me!"

Low reprimand dashed from left to right in the empty corridor, and bumped back into Xie Li's own eardrum.

Anxiety and powerlessness rose in his heart.

There is always a gap like a moat between Tan Ke and him, a high wall built up by age and experience, the kind that he can't overcome at the moment——Tan Ke always treats him like a child.

"I'm not a child, and I don't want to be a child, at least I don't want to be your child." Xie Li said in a low voice, then stopped suddenly.

Someone came home late and came up the stairs at the other end.

Xie Li clutched the phone screen, trying to hide himself in the darkness.

The man opened the door with the key, turned on the light, and closed the door.The corridor was quiet again.

During the whole process, Tan Ke on the other end of the phone remained silent. ,

Xie Li sighed again.He knew that it was probably his words that made Tan Ke feel sad.

But even so, he still had to say it.

"No matter what you think in your heart, but I am an adult." Xie Li wiped the floor with the other hand, and sat down, "Maybe due to age, I have a part that is not so mature and cautious, even if it is In this way, I am also an adult. I really don’t like you always controlling me, such as forcing me to eat eggs. I remember telling you once that I don’t like it.”

Tan Ke's voice was dry: "Yes. You said it."

"But I didn't say why at the time. In fact, I should have said." Xie Li rubbed the back of his hands, as if there were mosquitoes, "Because I ate eggs every day in the orphanage, and I got tired after eating for a long time. Sometimes it really We can’t eat it, but we still have to eat it if we can’t, we can’t have leftovers.”

His voice was low: "Later, I went to high school and started boarding. After I was able to decide on my own breakfast, I no longer wanted to eat eggs."

"When to do what, what to eat, what time to go to bed, this kind of freedom is very insignificant. It may not be worth mentioning to you, but it is very important to me. Because I didn't have this kind of freedom before."

Xie Li actually didn't want to talk about these things, and always felt that it was too pitiful to say them.He didn't want to always expose these things.But it seems there is no other way.

If he hides forever, Tan Ke will never understand why he hates being controlled so much, especially when Tan Ke always treats him as a child unconsciously.

He does feel embarrassed to say these things.But if these embarrassments can even eliminate or just shake the barrier between them, Xie Li thought, then these embarrassments are worth it.

"When I lied to you before, I actually didn't feel relieved. If I knew it would become like this, I would have told you earlier."

After he finished speaking, he fell silent, and the phone was switched from his left hand to his right hand, and what stuck to the surface of the silicone shell was the sweat from his palm.

Tan Ke's silence is like a spider's thread that will be broken by the wind at any time.

He opened his mouth several times, thinking that he wanted to say something, but something blocked in his throat always tightly entangled his vocal cords, making him unable to speak.

He didn't expect that Xie Li's disgust was actually just because of this, or that he turned a blind eye to the facts before him.

Xie Li waited and waited.He speculated about the reason for Tan Ke's silence. Was it unacceptable, or did he think it was just an excuse for him to lie?

It would be ridiculous to break up for such a reason.But precisely for this reason, they cannot be together.

"If, if you find it unacceptable to leave me alone, then we'll have to—"

"Thank you Li."

Xie Li didn't finish his sentence, and Tan Ke interrupted him in the next second, "Why do you always think we will break up?"

Tan Ke crossed the airwaves with a thin and angry voice, overwhelming all hesitation and uncertainty: "There are problems between us, which can be resolved, discussed, and even I can make concessions. But you feel that you always talk about breaking up at will, Is this the attitude of an adult to solve problems?"

Assistant Xiao came over and stood beside him for a while before realizing something was wrong. Why does it sound like the boss is arguing with that person?But he didn't go, and he didn't go, he stood there without embarrassment, wishing that his ears had the function of shrinking.

Tan Ke took a few steps to the side, and softened his voice: "I was wrong today, no matter what, I shouldn't treat you that way. I just wished you well and your health," he paused, thinking about his words, "Maybe many times I ignore your feelings and make you feel that I am interfering in your life. I will pay attention to it in the future, okay?"

Xie Li hesitated to say a good word.

He wasn't sure if Tan Ke really understood what he meant.

"I still have something to deal with here. Let's talk about it tomorrow, okay?" Tan Ke turned to look at Assistant Xiao, and coaxed Xie Li in a warm voice, "Are you still coming to the hospital tomorrow?"

Xie Li thought for a while: "Go in the morning, I don't have class in the morning, so I'm going to deliver some food to my senior sister."

"Okay." Tan Ke signaled Assistant Xiao to come over with his eyes, "Then I will call you then."

Xie Li held the hung up phone, unable to express how he felt.

He expected another big fight, or a long conversation.But Tan Ke didn't seem to be fully thinking about it here, he seemed to be listening, but he didn't seem to.

Xie Li looked down at the time on the phone, it was 42:[-].

Assistant Xiao walked over and reported his contact with overseas clinics: "Moffitt seems to be reluctant to loan out the team, but MD Anderson is very happy, as long as the money is in place, there is no problem. But..." Assistant Xiao hesitated to the door Li took a look, "Judging from the current communication situation, the research carried out by Moffett may be more helpful to his condition."

It is almost impossible for Tan Ke to persuade Tan Qisheng to go abroad by himself, so we can only wait for Tan Xin to come tomorrow.

Tan Ke asked Assistant Xiao to go back to rest, and turned back to the ward by himself.

Tan Qisheng suddenly aged in a few days.

Cancer is a disease of wasting, devouring the energy and even willpower of patients, making them weak and thin day after day.

But there is another reason for such a sudden depression - the patient himself gave up the will to live, and finally opened his arms and walked towards the god of death.

The resolute and tall image of his father in the past collapsed in front of Tan Ke.

Tan Ke sat quietly in the ward, listening to Tan Qisheng's urgent and guttural breathing.He couldn't even remember when his father gave up treatment to survive.

Did he already know he relapsed?

Tan Ke didn't dare to think about this possibility.

His relationship with his father was always tense, with little communication.

Not only because he dropped out of school without authorization, but also because he had been resisting Tan Qisheng's authority even earlier.

As of today, he can’t even tell whether he really doesn’t like physics, or whether he deliberately deviates from the life path planned for him by his father.

Being born in such a family with such a father, needless to say the lucky part, but the unfortunate part is often difficult for others to understand.

He was forced to bear the glory of his father and the expectations that he did not want.

Unless he does something more earth-shattering, he will be Tan Qisheng's son in the eyes of others throughout his life.

Most people in the world know that Madame Curie and her husband discovered radium, but how many of these people know that her daughter is also a famous scientist who once cracked open the atomic nucleus and discovered subatomic particles?

Even if he already has the achievements he has today, there will still be people who know his family background, when introducing him, they will first talk about his father, and then mention that he almost inherited his father's mantle, as if he didn't take this What a pity to go down this road.

Tan Ke felt absurd at this moment, as if he spent the entire first half of his life just trying to become a person who completely ran counter to his parents' expectations.

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