Fall in love with the ex Bai Yueguang

After returning home, Xie Li waited all night with his mobile phone in his arms, but there was no information call.The longer he waited, the angrier he became. He blocked Tan Ke and released it while wiping away his tears. After tossing for half a night, he finally unpinned Tan Ke and set a new message do not disturb.

Xie Li thought heartbrokenly that he would give Tan Ke five days, and if Tan Ke didn't come to him to confess after five days, then they would have to break up.

The Cold War broke out suddenly, like the cold air quietly moving south, changing the world overnight.

Xie Li seemed to be silent from this world suddenly, as quiet as if this person never existed.

Tan Ke's outgoing calls were all forwarded to the voicemail box, and the messages he kept sending were all gone, as if there was no living person behind the frog head.

Tan Ke really underestimated the density of online life of contemporary college students.

In Xie Li's WeChat, there are groups of the same family, groups of the same level, groups of the same major, college groups, dormitory groups, and young boys may occasionally add a few "Let's study today" and "WeChat reading groups" on Douban Weibo and other places. Wild groups such as "team" and "we are all scientific research dogs".The daily received information is as high as 999 to the nth power.

As long as Tan Ke's chat box is taken down from the top of WeChat, President Tan will immediately be submerged in the vast crowd, the kind that cannot be fished.

Tan Ke couldn't sit still.

He hasn't heard from Xie Li for two days.I have heard a lot of social news about a car accident in a remote place and no one was rescued, being placed under house arrest by an MLM organization, being trafficked by human traffickers, and a male college student staying in a dormitory during the holidays playing games and passing out without anyone knowing about it, one after another. popped out.

Fang Xian laughed so hard that he couldn't straighten his waist: "What kind of trafficker would abduct a male college student in his 20s? Can he really sell it?"

Tan Ke didn't feel that his association was unreasonable at all, and he was burning with worry: "Did Shen Zhichuan see him these two days?"

Fang Xian took out his mobile phone slowly, and while sending a message to Shen Zhichuan, he said, "It's definitely fine. If something really happened, Chuanchuan would have called the police."

The message was sent to Stone Niu Ruhai, Fang Xian spread his hands: "I guess I'm busy."

Today is the last day of the High Energy Physics Forum.

In the morning, the closing meeting was held in the museum. At noon, the museum organized a dinner for all the participants in the four canteens, and specially arranged special dishes with local traditions.

Shen Zhichuan didn't attend the first class in the morning, and was called to the closing meeting to speak as a representative of the excellent young teachers of the Academy.

He had purposely worn his best suit, Scabal lapis lazuli and Savile Row tailoring.The usual trivial accessories were taken away, a pair of unremarkable diamond-shaped dark gold cuffs were hung, and the same dark tie was tied with an honest Windsor knot.

Only the tie clip sticks out, and the mother-of-pearl color shines brightly.At the end was the Princeton coat of arms in black onyx and citrine, so finely carved that the words on the open pages of the book and the ribbon below were clearly visible.

When Dean Gao entered the door, he stared at Shen Zhichuan's clothes and pondered for a long time, and finally turned his head secretly and whispered to the deputy dean next to him: "Young people nowadays really don't know how to manage a house."

Shen Zhichuan stood in front of the podium, pressed his front lapel and cleared his throat lightly.The slightly cool touch of agate and crystal felt like a needle pricking his palm.Even he himself couldn't tell clearly what was the purpose of wearing this tie clip like a ghost.

Panic came out of his palm in such an instant, Shen Zhichuan was a little panicked, as if the time with Fang Xian was only the thin layer of rock on the surface of Mercury, and the cosmic airflow still exposed the thick layer underneath. The planetary core made of metal is hard and cold, unshakable, and can never be changed.

Carson is tall, with curly brown hair standing out in the front row.He looked at Shen Zhichuan, undercurrents surged under his calm eyes.

Shen Zhichuan stood on the podium, and when he looked up, he met Carson's eyes.

Looking at each other for a few seconds, time flowed as usual, and nothing happened.

There was no voice that suddenly parted like a tide, as if there were only two of them left in the world, and no one of them suddenly raised their feet to approach the other, grabbed the other's hand and ran out of the auditorium.

Life is not a drama.

Only then did Shen Zhichuan feel that his panic just now was just groundless worrying, causing trouble out of nothing.

In fact, there is nothing to panic, and there is nothing that time cannot smooth out.

He curled the corners of his mouth and smiled at Carson, polite and gentle.Then his eyes slowly swept across the audience, and he spoke slowly as he had been trained in public speaking classes.

The timbre is smooth, the enunciation is clear and standard, the speed of speech is neither fast nor slow, and the emotion is rich.

Dean Gao kept nodding his head, and whispered to the deputy dean next to him, "Xiao Shen is the best in our academy. Look at it, how good it is, give our academy more face."

Shen Zhichuan's speech lasted only 5 minutes.After the speech was over, he bowed and walked off the podium, and went out through the back door, only to see the message displayed on the top of the phone.

Fang Xian said that Tan Ke hadn't contacted Xie Li for two or three days, and was very worried about Xie Li's personal safety.

Shen Zhichuan frowned, he obviously saw Xie Li yesterday, he was alive and kicking, with two big dark circles under his eyes.

He took off his suit and hung it on his arm, and returned a message to Fang Xian.

When Carson chased him out of the auditorium, Shen Zhichuan was leaning on the window sill of the auditorium corridor and looking down at his mobile phone, with a smile on his lips, gentle and touching, unknowingly, and dragging a suitcase in front of the gray building many years ago. The silhouette with a shy smile on his head and the person asking for directions almost overlapped.

But now Shen Zhichuan has faded away from his greenness, a tree that has completely stretched his figure, the green shade is charming and attracts people to approach.

"Sheen." Carson couldn't help but speak.

When he learned the name Shen Zhichuan, he spent a lot of effort.Stubborn and proud, Shen Zhichuan was unwilling to give himself an English name, forcing everyone to roll their tongues and call him in his weird and awkward mother tongue.

Carson finally found a shortcut. The pronunciation of Sheen and Shen are similar, and the meaning is beautiful. He excitedly went to find Shen Zhichuan, calling him this word over and over again, until Shen Zhichuan couldn't bear it anymore and drove him out with a flushed face.

The beautiful time of being in love, those memories that Carson deliberately avoided, rolled in like a huge wave breaking through the dam, and he was almost unable to stand.

"Sheen." Carson approached, calling again.

Shen Zhichuan finally raised his head when he heard the sound, and watched the other person approaching him step by step, the smile on the corner of his mouth slowly disappeared, and changed into a distant manner: "Carson"

Carson stopped only one step away from him, forgetting the purpose of chasing him, just staring at this person, watching endlessly.

In the end, Shen Zhichuan was the first to break the silence: "Do you want to find a place to chat?"

Shen Zhichuan didn't dare to go far, fearing that the dean would come to him later, so he could only take Carson to the nearest student cafeteria.On the road, I ran into two students he had taught. When I saw him from a distance, I walked over with lowered eyebrows and said hello respectfully.

Shen Zhichuan had imagined a similar scene ten years ago.He stayed in Princeton and started as the most humble assistant professor, slowly rose to lecturer, and finally, if he was lucky enough, he could get a tenured professorship.They can buy a house in the town, stand alone with a small yard, just like his mentor did, plant flowers and raise a dog.After dinner, they walked arm in arm on the campus. The two students they had taught hurried past and came back to catch up to say hello.

Now he and Carson are walking one after the other, and some students come to say hello, which is somewhat close to what he had imagined, but it is ridiculously different.

There were not many people in the student cafeteria, Shen Zhichuan led Carson to the seat by the window, pulled out a chair and sat down.

He looked at his watch: "In half an hour at most, I have to go back before the closing ceremony ends."

The thousands of words that Carson had prepared along the way following him were suddenly blocked back.He looked at Shen Zhichuan and hesitated for a long time before asking: "Are you and Fang Xian in love?"

Shen Zhichuan smiled: "Is this what you want to talk about?"

Carson opened his mouth to deny it, but Shen Zhichuan shook his head and interrupted him: "If this is what you want to talk about, then we don't need to talk about it. It's my choice who I fall in love with, and I don't need to report to anyone."

After he finished speaking, he stood up and was about to leave, but Carson hurriedly reached across the table and grabbed him: "Wait."

The table scraped against the tiles and was knocked slightly crooked.

The cleaning staff who were cleaning nearby looked up.

"No, it's not just this." Carson said hastily, "You sit down first, okay?"

Shen Zhichuan brushed away Carson's hand, and sat back in the chair.

"At that time, I didn't know you knew." Carson finally spoke after a long time, his voice was rough, "I didn't know you already knew."

Shen Zhichuan clenched his fingers: "So it's true."

Carson admitted with difficulty: "It's true."

"After you left, Alice told me that you already knew about that before the defense." He clenched Shen Zhichuan's hand into a fist and curled it in front of him, Yu Wen clenched it in his palm, "I don't know , I don't know you know."

Life is not a drama.

There is no misunderstanding ten years later, and there is no resentful spouse who can still spark love ten years later.

A piece of Shen Zhichuan's heart was gently removed by someone.

In fact, he later thought about this question belatedly. If Carson knew that he had known it and apologized frankly, could he forgive Carson.

But in fact this assumption is meaningless.

The moment of derailment has broken the agreement concluded in love.The fact of the crime has been established, and surrender cannot erase the pain of the victim.

Only at this moment did Shen Zhichuan finally realize that what he couldn't forget was not only the pain of being betrayed or being hurt by others, but also his own weak posture at that time - he didn't dare to question face to face, and he didn't even dare to say goodbye face to face.Hand over all the initiative, expecting the other party to be humble and repentant.

It took him ten years to figure it out.

Shen Zhichuan nodded, indicating that he knew, and then fell silent.

He didn't seem to have any intention of asking further questions, which was completely beyond Carson's expectations.

It seems that the reason for the betrayal at the beginning was because of being obsessed with ghosts in the world isolated by ice and snow, or because you were tired of the smooth life and your lover and wanted to escape.

Even Carson himself was almost blurred.

Shen Zhichuan looked at the time and felt that it should be over soon.

He put on his suit jacket again: "I don't know what to talk about. In fact, it's been too long, and I have forgotten too many things. On the day I left, I took the train to the airport. On the way, you asked me where I was. At that time I Thought I'd take the train back at the airport if you'd talk to me about it. Turns out you didn't."

Carson said hastily: "I don't know, I didn't know at that time..."

"Don't you really know? Do you really think that I will never know?" Shen Zhichuan interrupted him, "If everyone knows, only I will be kept in the dark forever? Do you think this is possible? How likely is it?"

A few questions in a row left Carson speechless.

Shen Zhichuan shook his head: "We are all running away. You run away from me, and I run away from you too."

He took off the tie clip on his tie, took out a square scarf from his pocket and wiped it slowly.The chuck of the tie is slightly worn, you can't see it if you don't look carefully.Only Shen Zhichuan knew that one of Carson's suits was buttoned inside, and this tie clip would often be worn down.

This thing originally belonged to Shen Zhichuan, but later Carson often took it with him.

Shen Zhichuan once joked that he should give this thing to Carson as a gift on the [-]th wedding anniversary.

He folded up the scarf, wrapped the tie clip carefully, and pushed it together with the scarf in front of Carson: "We Chinese have an old saying, 'One difference, two widths, each life is happy'."

He said that sentence slowly in Chinese, and Carson looked at him uneasily, as if he was reciting some ancient oriental spell.

Shen Zhichuan smiled slightly: "It was your fault for betraying back then, and it was my fault for not saying goodbye. We made up for our mistakes, so let's be late today."

"Sihere is no help, eletuskissandpart. But kissing is better, goodbye."

He stood up neatly, pulled away the chair, glanced at the blue and white square scarf folded into a triangle, and left.

Carson was left in place, frozen in place.He sat for a long time before he took out his wallet, took out two identical agate rings from it, and wrapped them together in a square scarf.

Shen Zhichuan felt extremely peaceful in his heart, which was the kind he never expected.

He thought he had a lot of questions to ask, a lot to say, a lot to point and curse at Carson's nose, but when he actually sat face to face with this man, those thoughts disappeared.

Ten years, he's been stuck here too long.He finally realized that he didn't really need an answer anymore, he just wanted to move on quickly.

He took out his mobile phone and called Fang Xian.

As soon as the phone was connected, before Shen Zhichuan had time to say anything, Fang Xian stopped him: "Tan Ke is next to me, he wants to ask if you saw your student today?"

Only then did Shen Zhichuan remember that his text message was interrupted by Carson before it could be sent.

Shen Zhichuan guessed with his toes, and he probably guessed that Tan Ke and Xie Li got angry because of the quarrel, and that's why they made such a joke about being blackmailed and unable to find anyone.

Shen Zhichuan looked down on this kind of behavior that he was in a relationship and made everyone around him uneasy, especially Tan Ke was already old, and he still did such a stupid thing.

"Xie Li is able to eat and drink well. I heard that he ate two bowls of spicy rice noodles yesterday." Shen Zhichuan walked briskly, with an unusually cheerful tone, "Also, Fang Xian, I want to discuss something with you."

It was the first time that Fang Xian heard Shen Zhichuan calling his full name like that, instead of being angry, he floated almost to the roof, disregarding that he was still turning on the power amplifier, and openly screamed: "Hey, Chuanchuan, you say, I'm listening."

Shen Zhichuan's voice came from the external speaker of the mobile phone: "We are both adults, so don't get involved in the love of high school students, okay?"

Fang Xian chewed for two seconds before he understood what Shen Zhichuan was talking about. Standing beside him, Tan Ke's face was already dark.

Fang Xian held up the phone that had been hung up, and laughed so hard he couldn't breathe: "I, my wife, don't let me play with idiots—hey, no, why are you so angry with a child?"

Tan Ke really had nothing to say to this troubled couple, but he couldn't afford to offend Shen Zhichuan, so he turned his head away in frustration.

When he returned to the office, there was something more worrying waiting for him.

Tan Qisheng called and opened his mouth to talk about Tan Ke and then bring Xie Li out, saying that he wanted to treat Xie Li to a meal.

The last time Tan Qisheng chatted with Xie Li for less than 10 minutes, Xie Li had a big fight with him and he was nowhere to be seen. Now where can he find Xie Li to have dinner with Tan Qisheng?

Tan Ke was very impatient: "I'm busy recently, let's take a while."

Tan Qisheng became angry when he heard it, and began to discipline his son over the phone.

Tan Ke was upset when he heard it, so he simply put the phone aside and continued to work by himself, letting Tan Qi scold.

Assistant Xiao came in just in time for Tan Qisheng to scold Tan Ke for taking a few classmates to the next city to participate in a basketball game when he was in junior high school.

Assistant Xiao suppressed the turbulent waves in his heart, and asked Tan Ke for instructions in a breathy voice.Unexpectedly, Tan Qisheng's ears were so sharp, he could hear this little movement, so he was so angry that he hung up the phone.

This time it finally stopped.

Tan Ke rubbed his eyebrows: "You ask Zhang Kaixuan to come over."

Assistant Xiao put away the folder and noticed that Tan Ke's expression was not very good.

The day before yesterday, he accompanied Tan Ke to work overtime until one o'clock, and finally he couldn't bear it anymore and left with the cheek.

Yesterday he went to meet two clients instead of Tan Ke, and went home directly after the end. It is not clear whether Tan Ke worked overtime or not.

In the past, Tan Ke's work intensity was high, and at least he paid great attention to the combination of work and rest, but these two days seem to be desperate.

Assistant Xiao wanted to persuade a few words, but felt that his status was really inappropriate, so he packed up his things and went out without saying anything.

As soon as Assistant Xiao went out, Tan Ke immediately leaned back in his chair and closed his eyes to rest.Today's air conditioner seems to be turned on extremely low, and it is so cold that I feel dizzy and weak.

He leaned back in the chair for a while, when he heard someone knocking on the door.He called out and opened his eyes to find the remote control of the air conditioner.

The remote is on the other side of the table.

Tan Ke stood up and wanted to get it, but suddenly his world was spinning——

When Xie Li received Tan Xin's call, he had just sent the Chinese-American physicist who was his life assistant back to the hotel.

The caller ID was a number he didn't recognize, Xie Li thought it was the courier brother.

Tan Xin spoke quickly: "My brother has a bad fever now, if it's convenient for you, can you come over and help me take care of his injection?"

Xie Li couldn't react for a while, and he didn't contact Tan Ke for two or three days. Why did he get sick?

"It's fine if you really don't have time." Tan Xin said on the phone, "Just ask him to persevere, since he's already this old anyway."

As Tan Xin said, she blinked at her elder brother who was lying on the bed, and continued to lie to the children without blushing and heartbeat: "If you accidentally fall asleep, at most you will be back to the hospital, you won't die, it's okay."

Xie Li was terrified when he heard it, and the more he listened, the more frightening he became. It seemed that Tan Ke's needle bucket was full of blood, and he was half unconscious from the pump.He quickly agreed: "I'll go, I can go, I'll go now."

Tan Xin hung up the phone and weighed the phone in his hand: "Brother, it's been twice, how can you thank me?"

Tan Ke was angry: "If you go out again in the future, I will stop Dad for you."

Tan Xin hugged her mobile phone: "No more, I'll be leaving at the end of the year, Zimbabwe, then you have to remember to cover for me."

Tan Ke was suffering from a severe fever, but he still managed to sit up: "Zimbabwe is too dangerous."

Tan Xinman shook her head nonchalantly: "We have security and equipment. When the local people see us, they are like Avalokitesvara Bodhisattva. Don't worry if Bodhisattva is in danger." She changed the subject, "Brother, what's the matter? Do you still rely on cheating when you see your boyfriend?"

Tan Xin somehow guessed a clue: "A quarrel? Because of Dad?"

She thought it was Tan Qisheng and Xie Li who said something unpleasant, which made Xie Li unhappy, so they quarreled, so she persuaded Tan Ke: "Dad really has a bad temper, and his children have no reason to be scolded by him for no reason. You just apologize for him, coax him, and don't let them have a chance to meet again in the future."

Tan Ke shook his head: "He likes Xie Li a lot, not because of this."

Tan Xin said: "Then why are you arguing? You still make yourself like this?"

Tan Ke didn't want to say any more, and lay back on the bed and pulled up the quilt: "Help me turn up the ringer of my phone to the loudest, and put it by the bed."

When Xie Li came over, he was just in time for Tan Xin to leave, so he hurriedly explained a few words and went out.

Tan Ke's bedroom door was closed tightly.

Xie Li sat in the living room and took out his phone.

After he blocked Tan Ke, he never checked the messages from Tan Ke again.He scrolled down the chat interface for a long time before he found Tan Ke's profile picture under a lot of groups.

Tan Ke sent him dozens of messages in the past two days.

At first, I asked him about his daily life as usual, and then I started to say that I was worried about him, because I couldn't hear from him, and I was afraid that he would be in danger, or that he would fall ill and faint.

Xie Li watched, tears began to fall down again, angry and sad.

Angry is that Tan Ke is unwilling to have a heart-to-heart with him, and sad because he is the one who cares about him, and he is the one who is sick inside now.

Xie Li ran to the bedroom door and quietly opened it, the curtains were drawn tightly, and the room was dark.

Tan Ke was lying on the bed, having received an injection and was falling asleep.

For some reason, Xie Li could see from the darkness that Tan Ke's face was bleak, and he looked extremely fragile with his eyes closed.

He was very sad.

Tan Xin said on the phone that Tan Ke almost passed out in the office because he was overthinking and did not pay attention to eating and resting because of too much overtime, which caused a cold and hypoglycemia.

Xie Li tiptoed in, not forgetting to close the bedroom door.

He quietly half-kneeled by the bed, stretched out his hand to try Tan Ke's forehead, and his palms were covered with sweat.

He just took his hand back when he realized that Tan Ke was looking at him with his eyes open: "Shen Zhichuan said that you ate two bowls of spicy rice noodles yesterday."