Those who are close to you are sweet

Bai Leyan said that on purpose.

But it's not quite right to say "deliberately", because he had already made up his mind not to ask this question.

Because it's weird to ask such tentative words. After all, it belongs to personal privacy. If others are willing to tell you, then of course you can, but when you ask such words, it's not so good...

But just now when he lay on the balcony and saw Leng You and the girl beside him, that kind of thought burned again.In a short period of time, he couldn't suppress the emergence of this idea.So much so that this kind of dialogue appears nondescript at this moment.

Bai Leyan was silent.

He blamed this frozen atmosphere on Zheng Kaiyue, who had dropped out of school and was nowhere to be seen. Thinking of Zheng Kaiyue's so-called pursuit of cold travel before, Bai Leyan really wanted to shiver and shudder.

He is not the kind of person who doesn't understand anything, he has also heard that the world is so big that there are more than just heterosexuality.It's just that he never thought about it.For him, Zheng Kaiyue was the first gay he had ever met.

Of course, Bai Leyan was stupid back then, only when someone told him clearly "I'm gay" would he have the substantive sense of "Oh, so you like gays".Therefore, those who did not tell him clearly, such as Lin Yuzhang, Yang Yixuan, and Leng You, were all classified by him as members of the general public's heterosexuality.

He doesn't know why he wants to like someone of the same sex, or he doesn't understand why there is such a feeling of liking.

He never liked anyone else.

No one ever liked him because he was him.

Getting along happily is a very easy thing. Everyone likes people who have a common language with them. Bai Leyan knows this well. He plays himself as a person with many personalities and temperaments. He is enthusiastic when he is needed. , Do things when he is needed to do things, so everyone thinks he is the kind of person who can be a friend, reliable, calm, selfless and cheerful.

"who am I?"

"Where am I from?"

"Where should I go?"

Bai Leyan got stuck on a question.

He is Bai Leyan, and he can also be one of thousands of others.He is not unique, he is easily replaceable.

He's just a discarded, unwanted child.

Therefore, in this bleak world, he needs to work hard to please others and become what he should be in the eyes of others.

……

"She had her ears pierced." Leng You said slowly while sitting on his desk.

For some reason, he suddenly remembered the earrings on Li Lingwei's ears when he met Li Lingwei just now.

A small, thin, silver needle is supposed to go through the ear, make a tunnel, and then occupy that tunnel when the ear is injured, when the fibrous tissue needs to work, forming a raised scar.

Yinzhen meets flesh and blood all day long, so it naturally appears a little ruthless.It was the one who hurt the earlobe, and it couldn't show any sympathy.

It's super grim.

It's super fierce.

It is a painful weapon.

"She had her ears pierced." Leng You repeated.

Saying a sentence twice basically deepens the emotion in the words and doubles the impact.

Bai Leyan stood there motionless holding a stack of draft paper he had picked up.Then, he heard himself asking dryly, "And then?"

"She had a lot of piercings, three on each side." I don't know what she was thinking when she was piercing her ears. Was the pain obvious?Or, was it originally for the pain?

"Then?" Bai Leyan felt that he was dying of strangeness, and he didn't know what kind of answer he was trying to find out.

"I want to fight too." Lengyou felt that he needed pain, what kind of subtle, vague, but absolutely real pain.

He needs something to remind him when he is delusional and unconscious, "Don't say it, you like Bai Tiantian, you must not say it! It's the safest thing to be friends, be a roommate Ah, it's also the longest. Why bother to pierce the window paper, why bother each other?"

"I want to fight too." Leng You repeated again, as if he was talking to himself, and seemed to be firm in his mind.Ear piercing will always exist, as long as you make up your mind to get it, it will always exist.He touched his earlobe, and it seemed that he had touched the small hole, and the pain was excruciating.Bai Tiantian, you don't know anything, of course, this is the best, but I feel a little bit sad, only a little bit.

The emotion deep in my heart, what is the selfishness that wants to tell you that there is such an emotion regardless, what is the greed that wants to cuddle with you under the same quilt...

Sorry, I can't kill them.

They were aggrieved and shrunk in the corner, and I locked them in locked boxes on the tenth and eighth floors, and buried them deep in my heart.

But no matter how corner, no matter how deep, it still exists...

Bai Leyan let out an "oh", as if he had understood, he turned and went back to his desk, sorting out the scattered draft papers.

In fact, what he wanted to say was: "Don't get your ears pierced, is that okay?" But how could he say that?

What right does he have to ban other people's thoughts?

What position does he have to stop other people's actions?

Did you want to do it because you saw that girl had a bunch of ear piercings?

Is it because...it looks good?

That's why you came up with this idea?

Bai Leyan's throat rolled heavily.

Is it because the other party is good-looking?

Want to be closer to the other party's aesthetics, closer to the other party's appearance?

The sense of disobedience from before swept over Bai Leyan's heart again.

"Her earrings are so beautiful, so attractive to you?" In the end, Bai Leyan asked, obliquely, and turned into such a light, floating sentence that didn't touch the ground.

"Huh?" Because of this sentence, Leng You returned to the world with some angry and fiery emotions.

He stood up suddenly, and even knocked the chair tilted.He is a monster who goes crazy from time to time. When he is not feeling well, he makes others feel uncomfortable—this other person does not refer to "except himself" in the general sense, but only refers to Bai Leyan.

Bai Tiantian didn't know what bad things she did in her previous life. In this life, she met such a thing as him—meeting such a neurotic roommate who was secretly obsessed with him.

"Yeah... the earrings look good..." She stood up suddenly like crazy, and then sat down ridiculously.

Now, Leng You felt that he had to get his ears pierced.

"Then do you have any earrings you fancy?" Bai Leyan simply moved his chair to the side of Leng You, "Choose together?"

Leng You paused, and decided that he doesn't like Bai Tiantian at this moment, and he will like it back in the next second!

Why is this person like this?Forcing him to have his ears pierced, it hurts so much!If you like it, you can go by yourself!

With evil thoughts in his heart, Leng You's style of earrings became darker and more gothic.At first it was an ordinary cross, but later on it began to see less ordinary crosses.

Ordinary crosses have earhooks attached to the top of the cross, and they are flat when hung on the earlobe.

The not-so-ordinary cross is like a sharp knife, inserted directly into the earlobe, and the three-dimensional effect makes people feel painful.

It's also very cool when masochistic.

So, Leng You ran towards earrings with increasingly weird styles without looking back.

Bai Leyan didn't sit side by side with Leng You either, his chair was behind Leng You's side, allowing his arms to rest comfortably on the back of Leng You's chair.

He said he was looking at the earrings, but Bai Leyan was in a daze as soon as he sat down - he turned his head sideways, and in front of him were Lengyou's white and tender earlobes.

Leng You is thin, but the earlobe looks a bit sensual, it is the kind of earlobe that old people say is blessed, thick and heavy.

If the dean's mother-in-law was here, she would definitely like Lengyou very much, she would definitely pinch his earlobe lightly, and say to him with a smile: "Blessed, I will be a high-ranking official in the future."

The screen of Lengyou's mobile phone was brightly lit, and he swiped Taobao page by page in front of his eyes.I can't tell if it's because the phone screen is on, or because the sun is high outside now, and the thin fluff around the edge of Lengyou's ear is distinct.

Those are really fluff, thin, soft, and short. Bai Leyan thought that only babies would have them.

He subconsciously touched his ears, trying to find out the difference from his own ears, but as soon as his fingertips touched his ears, he was burned.

His ears were really hot, making his fingertips tremble a little.

Holding the hand that was scalded by the heat from his ear, he was confused...

Bai Leyan looked down at his fingertips, then looked up at Lengyou's white earlobes, but finally couldn't resist the urge to pinch them.

At this time, Leng You was really focused on choosing earrings, after all, it was something that was going to poke into his flesh, it hurt so much, so he had to find something he liked, right?

The pain should also be picked to satisfy one's heart and be willing to bear it.

So, when Bai Leyan's fingertips touched the edge of Leng You's ear, Leng You really wasn't mentally prepared at all.

He doesn't like contact with people, let alone any physical contact with others.

In his scenario simulation material library, if it is not an emergency, once you touch someone or get touched by someone, you should get out of the contact first.

However, right now, his whole body is stiff, he can't escape, and he doesn't want to escape.

The man pinched his earlobe and said to him, "It's a blessed earlobe."

Leng You leaned against the back of the chair dejectedly, and rested his neck on Bai Leyan's arm. Bai Leyan's arm was very strong, and he could feel his bulging muscles when he leaned on it.

What good fortune does he have?

Forget it, Bai Tiantian said yes, so let's take it as it is.

Not to mention a piece of meat.

"Well, if you're really lucky..." Leng You rested his head on Bai Leyan's arm and looked at him sideways, "Then you will share half."