[Tutor] Kongyu name

I wanted to get rid of them quickly, not even noticing which road I ran into.The cold wind of December kept whistling past my ears, and the footsteps of the two people echoed amidst the sound of their heavier and heavier breathing.

Go a little farther, run a little farther...

Chaotic thoughts followed one after another, and there were no more thoughts in the brain, only this one thought remained.

You must escape from this place!

However, at this time-

"careful!"

A male voice suddenly exploded beside me. At the same time, there was an unexpected force from my wrist. I stopped my steps unexpectedly and leaned back, just in time to be caught by the arm that circled from behind.

"The signal light has changed..."

I froze for a moment, as if I had finally returned to the real world.The street in front of him was full of traffic, and the traffic light on the opposite side of the sidewalk was constantly flashing red villains.

If you really rushed over like this, it would be a bit scary...

I unconsciously swallowed my saliva and apologized out of breath: "Thanks, thank you..."

"Nothing." Sawada Tsunayoshi responded, and took a few deep breaths before hesitating, "What happened just now, why did you suddenly run?"

Only then did I realize that his arm was still on my shoulder at this moment, and we were so close that I could even feel the breath sprayed on my hair when he bent slightly and lowered his head to talk to me, It looks like fine snow silk, but it seems to be mixed with the warmth of the spring breeze.

And his other hand is holding my wrist tightly. I don't know whether it's because of running or the temperature of his palm that was originally cold. Before I realized it, there was an unusually intense heartbeat in my chest. .

This feeling was so strange, I slowly opened my eyes wide, but didn't dare to move. After a while, I remembered to answer his question: "Ah... that... actually... was blocked by a reporter from nowhere. Living……"

"Huh? Reporter?" Sawada said, retracting his hand and standing beside me, "Are you here to find Akutagawa-san?"

He smiled at me with a smile that cannot be ignored, but I shivered because of the sudden loss of temperature on my skin. "No, it's not me..." I lowered my head and briefly explained what happened just now, but subconsciously, I didn't dare to mention the fact that my photo was on the poster.

During this process, Sawada stood quietly at the side all the time. I couldn't help but turned my head again and looked at his hands in his pockets quietly. There seemed to be a few wisps of warmth remaining on his neck and wrists. .

That's the temperature of Tsunayoshi Sawada...

I was taken aback by this thought, and shook my head hurriedly toss it out.Fortunately, Sawada didn't notice my abnormality. He was looking back at the direction we came from, and he didn't know what he was thinking, and his expression was a bit complicated.

Could it be that he...has seen that poster already?Did he see that the person up there was me?

When I think of this, I can't help but get nervous.But after thinking about it, even if he recognized me on the poster, what is there to care about?Why should I worry about this?

I looked directly at his side face, feeling indescribably complicated.After waiting for a while, I still didn't see him looking back. I bit my lower lip and mustered up the courage to say, "Sawada-kun?"

"Ah?" Sawada came back to his senses as if he had just woken up from a dream, and turned his gaze back to me, "Sorry, I was thinking... If this is the case, will Akutagawa-san still go shopping?"

"what?"

I didn't react for a while, Tsunayoshi Sawada hooked the corners of his mouth, but looked away imperceptibly: "Maybe you will meet reporters outside?"

"Is that...you want me to go back?"

I didn't think about it at all, or rather, now I don't dare to go back and face Tou.But that's right, what should I do if I meet a reporter again?

I smiled wryly, and then I squatted down slowly by the side of the road where people were coming and going.I didn't know what to do, I just tried to keep my eyes open.

"But with Sawada-kun here..."

The boy was obviously taken aback, and after a few seconds he also followed me and squatted down.But he didn't look at me. His eyes looked across the street, but somehow they felt far away. "Even if Akutagawa-san said so...I'm not happy at all right now..."

How is this going?Why does he seem to be in a low mood?Have you been influenced by me?

"Sawada-kun...do you have something on your mind?"

Only then did he retract his gaze, and suddenly let out a breath: "No, it's nothing."

For a while, neither of them spoke anymore, they just squatted on the side of the road and stared at the ground silently.Time seemed to slow down suddenly, and the gray and chalky light of the sky spilled over the wall, drawing vague and irregular black shadows around our feet.

I was very confused, accompanied by panic for no reason.

I need a lot of time to organize my thoughts before I can determine how to proceed next.

"Hey, Sawada-kun, have you ever liked someone else? What do you think, what is the feeling of liking?"

Sawada didn't expect that I would ask such a question without warning, and was stunned: "Why did you say this suddenly..."

"I've said it before, I don't understand this kind of thing at all." I tilted my head and grinned at him. There was a not-so-obvious blush on his face, which was a bit cute. "But for me like this, I may have to seriously reject someone once."

He didn't answer, and I didn't want him to say anything, so I continued on my own.

"However, that person is too important to me, how can I not hurt him?

"What is liking? Isn't it the most beautiful thing in the world? Why does it always make people feel painful?"

At this moment, I have to think of my biological mother who was tortured by this feeling when I was very young.Even after being rejected by my unknown father, she still loved him deeply and wanted him to change his mind.And that love was like sex, finally killing her bit by bit.

But love shouldn't be like this, it shouldn't be something that hurts people.

Why can't my feelings for Tou turn into feelings of love?Where did the error occur?As Akari asked me before, what is the reason for my hesitation...

I turned my head involuntarily, and saw Tsunayoshi Sawada squatting beside me motionless, as long as I moved a little, I could touch his shoulder.The cold wind blew through the bangs on his forehead, and he stared at me with half-closed eyelids. His brown eyes were so clear that even the texture of his pupils could be clearly seen.

He didn't answer immediately, but looked into my eyes without moving, as if he wanted to find some answer from my eyes.Those eyes were so serious that people couldn't help but panic. I was shocked, and felt that my thoughts became clearer, followed by some strange emotions that became more and more clear.

Sawada curled the corner of his mouth, with a frustrated expression on his face: "I don't think your idea is wrong." He stretched out his hand, hesitated for a long time, and finally pressed his palm lightly on the top of my head, "According to what you believe That's it."

The sudden temperature spread along the hair tips to the chest cavity, and then spread to the limbs along the nerves.His strength was unexpectedly strong, so that I had to lower my head.I lowered my head, letting him touch my hair, and clenched my fists on my knees... Finally, I slowly lifted up and grabbed the hand that was still on my head.

"So... you will support me?"

His hands were bigger than expected, and the shape of the phalanx was clearly defined.I moved it in front of my face and gently pressed it against my eyes.

The hand I was holding was stiff for a moment, but I didn't take it back.

"……Um……"

I think, I have found the reason.

The reason for my hesitation is you, Sawada-kun.

Why are you by my side?And I don't want to blame you yet, because the culprit for this situation is only me.

I haven't been able to stop myself from liking you, and I've been shamefully delighted in discovering it.

This feeling is both sweet and painful.

I stood up abruptly, squinted my eyes and pulled out a smile: "I'm sorry, I really should just go home and stay here today. I'm sorry to trouble you for making this trip in vain."

Sawada squatted on the ground and looked at me for a long time, then slowly stood up.He bent his eyes, and there was no temper in his voice: "It's okay."

I sent him to the station, and the crowd who watched the excitement before had dispersed at this time, only a few people waiting for the train sat on the platform.The bus arrived soon. I stood behind and watched Sawada get on the bus. After thinking about it, I said, "Thank you, Sawada-kun."

The boy's back paused slightly, he leaned on the door frame with one hand, turned sideways suddenly, but didn't speak for a while.A thin cold light fell on his face, and those brown eyes suddenly glowed with a faint white light: "Akutagawa-san, is that person really important to you?"

"Eh?" I was taken aback, not knowing how to react.

But he didn't wait for my answer, and immediately laughed jokingly: "If you don't want to lose, why don't you try to accept it?" It's actually true."

"Of course..."

I opened my mouth to refute, but at this moment, the car door closed with a "click", and Sawada Tsunayoshi's smiling face just disappeared at the intersection with the bus.

However... Wouldn't it be more hurtful if it was discovered in the end that the two were really not suitable?

The cold December wind kept blowing across my cheeks. I stood on the platform without moving. After a while, I waited for a bus and jumped on it.

But I didn't know where to go, so I just wandered around aimlessly all day, only to realize that it was already dark