me and the king next door

In the past, I was very young and impulsive, and I didn't even have the intention to sit down and chat with Ms. Liu, or wait for her to calm down and talk.

Those ugly words that I said are still harsh and ugly now, and they were my nightmares for a long time after her death.

At this moment, I was in a state of anxiety, I lowered my head, not daring to look at her, and unconsciously clasped my fingers.

From the corner of my eyes, I saw Ms. Liu slowly put down the vegetable sprouts in her hand. She also hesitated for a long time, maybe several minutes. Ms. Liu asked me: "You and Wang Xun..."

I didn't speak, Ms. Liu swallowed her saliva: "Jiayu, tell me everything, you know?"

I nodded.

Ms. Liu asked me: "Is the two of you on good terms?"

As soon as she finished speaking, I subconsciously looked up at her expression. Her face was not as pale as in the previous life, but her eyebrows were knit together, her eyes were looking at me, and she was nervously waiting for an answer from me.

I nodded, and every time I moved, my heart became calmer.

When Ms. Liu saw that I had admitted it, she sat down on the chair. My heart skipped a beat. The experience of my previous life was vivid in my memory. I was really scared, so I stretched out my hand to pull her, and shouted anxiously: "Mom..."

Ms. Liu suddenly smiled at me: "I'm fine."

She slowed down: "I... I knew it a long time ago."

I was startled.

Ms. Liu tried her best to force a smile on her face: "When you came back last time, I saw him kissing you in the corridor."

What Ms. Liu said was too reserved. The last time it was not just Wang Xun who kissed me, but more precisely, I hugged his neck and he hugged my waist. The two of us kissed inseparably in the corridor. We kissed for 5 It took only a few minutes to let go. I remember that Ms. Liu was not at home that day. It took a long time for her to come back after we went back. It turned out that she had seen it all.

I felt embarrassed for a moment, and squeezed my sleeves a little bit awkwardly.

Me: "Wang Xun and I... have been together for more than two years."

There was a slightly surprised expression on her face, we stared at each other, and Ms. Liu suddenly didn't know what to do.

She stood up and wiped her hands on the apron awkwardly: "I, I'm going to cook..."

I watched Ms. Liu talk incoherently, entering the kitchen and then coming out, coming out and then going in again, either forgot to take the food or the basin.

I was a little confused by the situation in front of me. The quarrel and cold war in my memory did not happen. I was even prepared to be scolded, or I would not contact Wang Xun for a long time, but I didn't expect that such a It was easy to bring it over, and the family was very peaceful until dinner.

Ms. Liu filled a bowl of soup for me, handed it to me, and filled a bowl herself. She lowered her head and took a sip, then said in a low voice, "I'm sorry, I misplaced it, why is it so sweet?"

I know that Ms. Liu's heart is not as calm as she appears on the surface, but it is because of me that she is holding back.

My eyes suddenly blurred, and I couldn't see clearly whether it was soup or vegetables.

My face suddenly became hot, and Ms. Liu reached out to help me wipe away the tears on my face.

My nose was sore, and the tears that were still wrapped in my eyes flowed down after a brush. I cried out in a crying voice: "Mom..."

Ms. Liu bowed her head and wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes with her hands.

I grabbed her hand and put it on my face: "Mom, hit me, hit me..."

Ms. Liu's hands trembled, and she touched my face lightly. She said, "I don't blame you."

But her eyes were red: "As long as I see you happy."

I can imagine how sad it would be for a mother with a child in a single-parent family to know that her son is gay, but Ms. Liu didn't say anything. Instead, she came to comfort me and told me not to be sad.

I put my face in the palm of her hand, and couldn't stop scolding my previous self in my heart, how disobedient and naive I was, to do such a thing.

After Wang Xun got home in the evening, he called me. I felt indescribably sad and spoke with a strong nasal voice.

Wang Xun felt my depression, but asked me jokingly: "What's the matter, why did you catch a cold when I left?"

I laughed, "Yeah, I miss you so much."

Wang Xun kissed me coquettishly, and smiled softly: "Jiayu, what's the matter?"

I lay on the bed, rolled around, and lay down in the pillow: "My mother knows about the two of us."

Wang Xun was silent for a few seconds, then he asked me: "Jiayu, are you okay?"

I thought of what happened at the dinner table just now, and my eyes couldn't help getting wet again.

I wiped my tears, and suddenly felt that I didn't deserve such a good Ms. Liu. I treated her so badly before, but in exchange for her gentle treatment, how could I deserve it.

When I cried, it was obvious that I would take a deep breath, Wang Xun heard it all at once, I felt his breathing was in vain, and said to me in a panic: "No, it's okay, even if Auntie doesn't Agree... don't cry, let's take it slowly, no one can accept this matter all at once, it's normal for Auntie to disagree at first...it's okay, it's okay Jiayu..."

He kept saying this over and over again: "I'll come back when Auntie gets better..."

He suddenly laughed at himself: "Auntie definitely doesn't want to see me..."

"Tell her that I lied to you...it's not your fault..."

When I heard Wang Xun say this, the tears flowed even more fiercely, and I hiccupped: "Yes! It's your fault..."

"If it wasn't for you...if it wasn't for you..."

I squinted my eyes, feeling sore in my heart, if I hadn't fallen in love with you, we both would have lived a normal life, you wouldn't be sad, and I wouldn't be sad either.

But I just fell in love with you...

I cried: "Wang Xun, you are a bastard..."

Wang Xun: "I am, I am..."

I was out of breath, and the sad things that were about to be forgotten rushed out of my mind: "Why don't you say you like me? Why do you like me and push me outside...Why do you like me?" You still treat me so coldly...you like me why don't you help me when Bai Yansong and the others make fun of me..."

These words were said by me indiscriminately, with the bull's head wrong and the horse's tail, but every word said the things that made me sad in the previous life. Whenever I think about it now, I still feel sad and sad in my heart.

Crying and crying, I asked him: "Why do you like me and still treat me like this..."

This sentence is more, but it is asking that Wang Xun from the previous life.

After losing Xie Jiayu, Wang Xun lived like a walking dead.

It is obvious that all the roads in life are walked for another person, every plan made, every step stepped is for another person, but in the end, they lose completely.

I remember Wang Xun crying bitterly in the dream, although I don’t know if that is what really happened in that world, I just remember that he cried very ugly and sad, holding my urn and crying my name, that I, none of us have had a good time.

Fortunately, this time we are together.

Wang Xun's nasal voice suddenly became heavier, and his breath was unsteady: "Jiayu...I love you."

end:

another world.

Knowing that when Xie Jiayu died, I was with my little nephew in Florida, USA. It was not Wang Xun who called, but Lin Wei. He told me that Xie Jiayu was dead.

I haven’t heard this name for a long time. After my brother died, I came to the United States after graduation and lived with my sisters. I haven’t heard the name Xie Jiayu for many years.

The moment I heard the news, the first thing I thought of was Wang Xun.

I know a secret, a secret that no one knows, not even Lin Wei, that Wang Xun likes Xie Jiayu.

I still remember that summer, when I saw Wang Xun kiss Xie Jiayu, after he finished kissing Xie Jiayu's face when he was still a teenager, he looked at him with a deep pampering look in his eyes.

I didn't know that boys would like boys until after the incident between my brother and Fu Jing happened.

Without that incident, I would never have known that Wang Xun liked Xie Jiayu, because Wang Xun didn't show any liking for Xie Jiayu at all, even after graduating from high school, the two went their separate ways, I didn't see it, Wang Xun liked Xie Jiayu. At that time, I even wondered if I was wrong. That kiss had no other meaning.

But I can see that Xie Jiayu likes Wang Xun. Although we are always together, Xie Jiayu treats Wang Xun differently. I didn't think about that before, but later I found out that Wang Xun treats him When I look at the two of them, I always feel that something is wrong.

When I was a teenager, I was ignorant and reckless. I knew that Wang Xun liked Xie Jiayu. It happened that Xie Jiayu was also obedient to Wang Xun. I made a lot of jokes about Xie Jiayu. Now that I think about it, I feel very unreasonable and excessive.

I got on the plane back to China, a place I haven't been back to for more than ten years.

After Xie Jiayu's mother died, he was an orphan, and all his funerals were organized by Wang Xun.

When I returned to China, Lin Wei drove over to pick me up. I asked him where Wang Xun had gone, but Lin Wei didn't say a word.

It was not until the day of the funeral that Wang Xun came back in a hurry.

I, Lin Wei, and Wu Ziyu were sitting in the private room waiting for him. We agreed tacitly without mentioning Xie Jiayu's name. When Wang Xun appeared, I was a little surprised. He looked terrible. Although he said that he tidied himself up fairly tidyly, but with the bluish-black stubble around his face, he looked thin and thin.

After he greeted us, he sat down, didn't see him smile, his eyes were dull, and he drank the tea in his cup silently.

I have stayed abroad for a few years, and my personality is much calmer than before. Now the four of us are sitting together, not knowing what to say, and it seems particularly awkward.

Wang Xun is the one who has the best relationship with Xie Jiayu. I think he must be the saddest one after Xie Jiayu passed away.

However, compared with us, Wang Xun is the one who seems the calmest. He lost a lot of weight because of the non-stop running around. Seeing us all sitting dully, he stood up first and held up the table. The cup on the table: "I have a bad stomach recently, so I will bring tea to the bar. Today I will be the host, and thank you for coming to see Jiayu for the last time."

After he finished speaking, he drank it down, and I picked it up and drank a cup.

Wang Xun: "Eating vegetables and eating vegetables, we brothers haven't had a good time together before."

After the party, Wang Xun said he had something to do, so he left first. I took Lin Wei's car to the hotel, and asked casually, "Where did Wang Xun go?"

Lin Wei was silent for a while: "He has been sleeping in Xie Jiayu's house for the past few days."

I looked at the scenery outside the window, and the colorful light hit my face. It turns out that Wang Xun still has a little affection for Xie Jiayu until now.

From junior high school to the present, it must have been seventeen or eighteen years. I don’t know anything about them during this period.

Xie Jiayu's funeral was scheduled for the weekend, and it happened to be raining that day. Xie Jiayu's parents were gone, and his grandparents also passed away one after another. Except for Wang Xun, he was really naked. I suddenly felt a little pitiful for him.

Wang Xun got out of the car holding his photo frame. On the photo frame was Xie Jiayu in his twenties. He pursed his lips and smiled, a bit embarrassed. I don’t know where this photo came from, but I feel it came from A screenshot was taken from a certain photo, and the person looking for the photo seemed to have spent a lot of effort to find this one.

There was someone beside Wang Xun holding an umbrella for him. His face was gloomy, revealing a gloomy feeling all over his body.

The photo frame was placed on the mourning hall with his own hands. There are not many elegiac couplets around. Some are from me, Lin Wei, and Wu Ziyu. The ones after that are all names that I have never heard of. It seems to be their company. employees.

Xie Jiayu has been around Wang Xun all his life, and he has no friends. I know he doesn't like us, but in the end, it is the person he hates the most, which sounds very ironic.

I've been to a few funerals, not many, but none as quiet as this one, where no one cried.

Wang Xun invited eminent monks to save Xie Jiayu. We stood outside and waited for the mourners to finish before going in.

After the eminent monk finished the ritual, Wang Xun nodded at him. It was a monk with a round face, and said to Wang Xun, "My condolences to the benefactor. The deceased has rested in peace and will go to the Land of Ultimate Bliss."

Wang Xun nodded, ordered someone to arrange for the mage, and arranged for the next thing. Holding a box in his hand, he said to us: "This is Jiayu's ashes."

It was then that I found out that he had been busy with travel and dust for the past few days, and he flew to the bay where Xie Jiayu's plane crashed, waiting for someone to salvage the body and claim it.

The remains of corpses after a plane crash generally drift with the tide, and few are found. I know that in that accident, no one on the entire plane survived. A total of [-] corpses were salvaged. Luckily, there were some of them, at least the soul returned. I lost my hometown.

After the funeral, we will go with him to the cemetery. Wang Xun said, we are Xie Jiayu’s friends, and there are too few people who see him off, so he will not be too happy, even though this person had no friends when he was there. , but most like lively.

After we got out of the funeral home, it rained harder and harder. We were in a commercial vehicle, and no one in the car spoke since we got in the car.

The cemetery was chosen by Wang Xun a long time ago. It is said that the feng shui of this place is very good. At the beginning, it was very boastful, saying that the soul buried in it can be reincarnated and reborn, so a cemetery has been sold for a sky-high price, but I don’t believe it. .

All the way up from the bottom, we were more or less drenched, especially Wang Xun, whose whole body was soaked, but he still remained expressionless.

I thought that maybe Wang Xun's feelings for Xie Jiayu were just like that, otherwise why this person stayed by his side for so many years, but the two of them still had an ordinary brotherhood, and they didn't stray a step.

But it wasn't until we got to the cemetery that I realized how wrong I was.

I stood at the back, holding an umbrella.

Suddenly there was a burst of exclamation in front of me, I was startled, Wang Xun was holding the box, and rushed straight into the hole dug for Xie Jiayu, Lin Wei was a little late to stop him, half of his body went in , the trouser legs fell inside, and a lot of dirt was rubbed on the dark leg tubes, looking extremely dirty.

Lin Wei shouted with red eyes: "Wang Xun, are you crazy? Are you crazy?"

From my return to the present, even at the funeral just now, Wang Xun didn’t shed a single tear, and his eyes weren’t even red, but at this moment, he broke down and burst into tears. He frantically knocked Lin Wei away, holding the box and trying to jump go down.

I was shocked by the scene in front of me. After several people struggled for a while, I threw away the umbrella in a hurry and went down to find people.

He held the box tightly in his hands, and kept yelling two words in his mouth, Jiayu, Jiayu, my Jiayu...

The rain fell heavily, and his murmur seemed to be buried in the rain, which sounded vague and distant.

……

The day I left, the sky was clear and clear. I wonder if it was because of the continuous rain in recent days, but there was a rainbow hanging above the sky.

At the airport where Wang Xun sent me, he looked even thinner. I was choked up with a thousand words, but I couldn't say anything. I could only pat him on the shoulder and say take care.

Does Wang Xun like Xie Jiayu?I want to like it, but I don't understand why they go around and get themselves into a dead end.

(End of text)

The author has something to say:

I actually... finished writing... because the idea came, I wrote so much in one breath.

In the end, after thinking a lot, I wrote the ending from Bai Yansong's perspective, the authorities are fans!It feels like after they get together, there are not many things to write, well, that's it.

Tomorrow, three episodes will be dropped one after another (should be three beeps)...

After writing this book, I actually feel very deeply. What I wrote is really average, but I am really happy to see that there are many comments below. I am very happy that everyone has voted for me. (Or moved... I am easily moved)

After I finish writing every day, I will always pay attention to the comments. I am very happy to see each one, and I will share each reader’s message with my friends, because I am so happy. Although this book is still very good, I see these comments every day Encouragement really never thought of giving up.

I'm just a little transparent, but you still let me stick to it. I hope to write more books in the future!Be as big as I want to be hahahaha (is that a bad sentence?)

I definitely hope that I can write better, and I hope that more people can see my work, and I also want to see what I like greatly. I feel that the original intention is super good!

It’s finally over, and I feel very reluctant. I’ve been writing this article on and off for more than four months, hahaha, sometimes I’ll goo, so I’m sorry everyone!

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