【Mo Mao】Best Actor

Repairs cost money.

Brother Hei said: That little thing was also watered, and it squeaked in the cold.

The little thing had a fever, his whole body was hot, his face was flushed, and it was as soft as a puddle of batter.There are bloodstains from friction on your wrists, and you hold him.Your name is Maomao, but he is silent.

You put your index finger close to the tip of his nose, the scorching breath is like steam from boiling water.

You picked him up to see a doctor, but Brother Hei slapped the table and told you to stop messing around, how could a group of black households go to the hospital.He throws you two antipyretics and asks you to feed him. You pick up the pills and pretend to pour water.

You put him back on the bed and sneak out over the wall quietly.You walked through two alleys, and dug up at the base of the wall where the winter jasmine flowers were blooming. A tin biscuit box was covered with rust. You opened the lid, and there was money, banknotes and coins, mostly change.You took some out, put the box back where it was, ran to a small pharmacy, asked someone to buy a thermometer and antipyretics, and when you passed by a convenience store, you turned your head and bought something else.

You went back over the wall and fed him the medicine. The water flowed down the corner of his mouth, and the amount fed in was far less than the amount that flowed out. You were so patient and fed him slowly until he took the medicine and fell into a drowsy sleep.

You touch his head and your own, and then lower your head and put your forehead on his, the heat is transmitted, if you can ward off the disease, I hope he will transfer the pain to you, you are older than him and healthier than him You can bear it, you are not afraid of illness, but you just don't want to see him suffer.

He wakes up with chapped lips, screaming for water, the sweet water you feed him from the canned oranges you bought at the convenience store.

He told you that when he was sick, his family would buy him canned oranges, and he was looking forward to getting sick just because of the cans.You saw canned oranges and thought he was sick, so you bought them and used the money you had saved.

He drank sugar water, tears rolled down, maybe it was uncomfortable, maybe it was thinking of the past, swallowing and choking.He buried his still hot cheeks into your chest, weeping: I want to go home...

His tears stunned you.

You decide, you're going to take him home.

You are simply crazy. You have been abducted for so many years, and you don't even know who you are, but you want to send a child home.

You don't think you're crazy, you start planning, you start hiding more money in biscuit boxes, you beg, you steal, you cheat, you get caught and beaten, you don't care to rub your sore spots, you have a heart The most important thoughts are growing rapidly and crazily.

In the past few years, you lived like that, with no purpose and no future, and every day was the same.You didn't leave before, because you didn't know where to go even if you walked in numbness, but now it's different, you have a clear goal, and when you think of achieving it, your heart will beat fast.

You have made up your mind, you are going to take him to the south.His accent and the details of his usual dictation all seem to come from the south. As for which province?Go south first, you can always find him, and you will accompany him.

Since he had a fever, he has been listless and limp. When you sleep with him in your arms at night, you are always afraid that he will not wake up after falling asleep.If you want to take him away, you have to move faster.

No matter how long Brother Hei stretched out his hand, he couldn't grow the city.You can escape, you have confidence.

The money hidden in the biscuit box has increased, and you have considered enough, and decided to leave tonight.

You hid a shopping cart used in a supermarket in an alley with seven turns and eight turns. If he can't run, you can put him in and push him.

On this day, you came back with money in your pocket as usual.You look up, there are wires all over the alley, and several crows are parked, it is chaotic and ugly.You know that you will say goodbye to everything in front of you soon, and your steps are lighter.

You go back to that place, step over the threshold, and as soon as you enter the door, the room is filled with the pungent smell of alcohol.Take a closer look, as if struck by lightning——

So familiar that it hurts the eyes, the rusty biscuit tin sits on the table, empty inside.

Shunzi proudly stood by Brother Hei's hand: How dare you steal money, let me find out!

Holding a bottle of beer in his hand, Brother Hei smiled sinisterly: The wings are hard, really hard...

After taking a big gulp of beer, Brother Hei said in an outrageously casual way: By the way, that little thing died of illness, it's really unlucky, you and Shunzi go and throw him into the river, he has good hands and feet—

Brother Hei couldn't finish his sentence, the top of his head seemed to bloom, and blood gushed from the skull.

You stand in front of him, submerged in a place where the light cannot see, holding a wine bottle in your hand, half of which is incomplete, and the other half has exploded on Brother Hei's head.

Sunja screamed, and half of the remaining wine bottle shattered.

You rush inside and you find him.

He was lying flat on the bed, you grabbed him, he opened his eyes and looked at you: ...Brother Xiaoyu?

He is not dead, he is alive.

You trembled uncontrollably. After shaking for a while, you picked him up and staggered.

You ordered him to close his eyes, and with his back behind his back, you walked through the bloody area step by step.

Step out the door knowing you'll never go back.

From now on, you will keep running away.

You put him in that stolen shopping cart, push him and start running.When I have no strength, I walk, and when I regain strength, I run again.You purse your mouth tightly and don't speak, he nestled in the car and asked you: Brother Xiaoyu, where are we going?

Where else can you go, you have nowhere to go, you already knew it.

But before that, you have to send him home.

The more you go to the suburbs, the more desolate you are, and the roads are not easy to walk on. You have already abandoned the shopping cart and dragged him forward.You see a lighted place ahead, a gas station.

At this time, there were few people, and there was only a small truck parked next to the gas station.

It was the idea of ​​this truck that you hit, you saw it, Su XXXX is written on the license plate number, you can recognize this word, Su is in the south, you guys are going to the south.

The driver's seat of the truck was empty, and the driver should have gone to the toilet.You took him to hide behind the car, he was exhausted and drowsy, you finally pushed him and let him climb into the hanging bucket.

You were about to climb in, when you suddenly saw a figure approaching, you quickly rolled and hid in the nearby grass.

The grass in the suburbs is too strong, covering your body and blocking your sight.

The rumbling engine made a sound, the tires rolled over the ground, and the car started to drive straight into the distance.

You heard the sound and quickly got out of the grass.

The headlights are so bright that your eyes hurt, and when you close them and open them again, the pickup truck will move away from you in an instant.

You take a few steps forward, wanting to chase after him, but stop suddenly.

The camera zooms in slowly, from the dark distant mountains, the weeds everywhere, the figure of a young man under the bright lights of the gas station, advances and zooms in little by little, and finally presents his face on the screen.

The screen is fixed on a pair of eyes, without blinking, a hundred emotions are vividly revealed, but it seems that the monk has become a fossil after entering meditation.

The last shot is firmly fixed on your eyes that refuse to close.

Two big words on the screen:

the end of the play

Special "Going Home"

——Part Two

"Going Home" was the last movie that Xiaowu and I made. At that time, we chose this subject because the crime of trafficking was rampant in the first few years and the social influence was extremely bad.After reading some case reports, we decided not to choose the perspective of the heartbroken parents, but to start from the perspective of the abducted child.To choose a child who has been trafficked for several years, and a child who has just been trafficked as the protagonist, the two contrast each other.When the script outline was handed in, the factory was very supportive, and it was quickly approved, followed by casting. Unexpectedly, this was the beginning of the trouble.

At that time, I watched the tapes of child actors every day. They were quite handsome, but it just felt wrong. They were always a little bit less interesting than Xiao Yu and Mao Mao in "Going Home".You are an actor, you are familiar with filming, you should have experienced that sometimes it is the actor who chooses the role, and sometimes it is the character who chooses the actor.This kind of role has been waiting for a person who is naturally suitable for it from the day it was born.

We contacted some primary and secondary schools, hoping to find suitable candidates.I told them that the older one should look for someone who is not gregarious and disobedient, and the younger one should find someone who is cute, sensible and lovable.These criteria are still too general, and the last one was not found after screening.Probably because I was too picky about my requirements, so that in the end the school stopped talking to us.Fortunately, Xiao Wu agrees with me. If he really can't find a suitable one, he would rather overthrow the script and start over, rather than settle for a failed work.

Just then, here you are.

You were mixed with a dozen other naughty kids who came to the audition. Your class teacher secretly told me that you were his most troublesome student. He didn’t know how to discipline you. He never caught you fighting, but you are the recognized bully in your grade.

I laughed when I heard that, shutting you up with other kids in a room with a TV and toys, but only one chair.We opened the door half an hour later, and as expected, you were sitting on that chair with a robot in your hand, and everyone was at a distance from you, as if they didn’t dare to provoke you.

It's not just as simple as not being gregarious, your look and eyes have different emotions, you are different from other children, you can be picked out from the crowd at a glance.From you, we see the shadow of Xiao Yu.

Xiao Wu happily said, that's great, his script doesn't need to be rewritten, and Xiao Yu found it.I didn't dance like him, but I was very happy.If you have never directed a play, you may not understand it.What does it feel like the characters you imagined come to life suddenly one day.It's really, alas, not easy to find a character that fits perfectly.

Finding you is already a surprise, but finding Mao Mao is even more a miracle.

There are cute children all over the street, but it is not enough to just pull one over.What do you think, what kind of person is Xiaoyu?He has been abducted for many years, and he already has the depravity of being a gangster, but he still retains a trace of conscience.The Mao Mao we want is someone who can awaken Xiao Yu's conscience.

It is even more difficult than the emperor choosing a concubine!We found a few children who barely passed the test to audition with you, but it turned out that anyone who came was embarrassed and out of place, and you ignored it.You are a little brat who doesn't care about others, let alone take care of a younger brother than you.

Xiao Wu was joking with me, Lao Ling, are you looking for a young actor, are you looking for a child bride-in-law for Mo Yu who he likes?I couldn't even laugh when I heard it, everything was prepared, the script was finalized, and Mao Mao was missing, so I couldn't just give up.

An anxious mood, mouth foaming.Sometimes I just wander around the streets, watching all kinds of people walking around, saying that I am looking for inspiration, maybe, maybe I am walking, and suddenly I find Mao Mao .

Xiaowu said that I had a dream of a big head, and if Maomao was so easy to find, there would be no need for a bunch of people to go around in a hurry.

I ignored him, and I went out with my cane every day, for fear of being regarded as suspicious, and I also wore a pair of toad mirrors to block my sight.

This notebook is the film notes about "Going Home" that I recorded at that time.Although I am old, every time I look at it, I can still recall many things from that year.Fortunately, I have the habit of taking notes. You see, on this page, I recorded the process of my encounter with Maomao by chance.

It was raining lightly that day, I forgot to bring an umbrella when I went out, and the rain was not too heavy, so I braved the rain and left.I walked to an intersection and waited for the pedestrian lights to come on so I could cross the road.

At this time, a childish voice spoke to me: Grandpa, can't you see?

Ouch, it's all the fault of the sunglasses, I was treated as blind by a child.

I took off my sunglasses and was about to answer him when I was stunned.

He was holding a small frog umbrella and looked up at me. He was wearing a blue school uniform, yellow rain boots on his feet, and a red scarf neatly tied on his chest.

The moment I saw him, a big word crackled in my mind: Ling!

This kid looks good!And it's so smart!

So I abducted him... Of course it was impossible, I found his school, and finally persuaded his parents to let him audition.

His name, his school, he told me himself.Alas, I'm not at all wary, too simple, too easy to deceive.

Later, when I thought about it, I was afraid. Fortunately, it was me. If I were a personal trafficker, he might be like Mao Mao in the movie.

I don't know how much you remember, at that time, you ignored him at first.We lied to him, saying that you are just playing with him by ignoring him, and don't care about your expression, he just needs to go up and pester you.He's really going to pester you, and he doesn't reach out to hit the smiling face. He looks so smart, and the thousand-year-old ice can melt you.You will soon have nothing to do with him, and automatically enter the role of Xiao Yu.

Who made this Mao Mao born with the ability to soften people's hearts, with clear eyes and no taint of worldly taint.It’s so perfect. What we were looking for at the beginning is such a person. His sincerity and friendliness must come from the heart, and his sensible and well-behaved is not just for the sake of dealing with the teacher. Pretending and acting can’t deceive the audience, and it’s impossible to deceive the audience. Had a light rain.

What kind of person can melt the ice in Xiaoyu's heart, awaken his desire for a sunny world, show him a future he desperately wants to pursue, and let him violate the previous code of conduct and fight against cruelty and danger.Let him be willing to give, to care, to sacrifice himself, to save others.

Fortunately, we actually found it.

Only a truly gentle, pure, innocent and transparent heart can touch Xiao Yu's heart.

In "Coming Home," you guys did a great job, you guys made this movie a reality.Even though the movie was banned after only one week of release, I see it now, and I couldn't figure it out at the time.After the editing was completed and passed the review, it was no wonder that there was a mistake in the promotion, they actually thought it was a Children's Day movie for father and son to enjoy together.

It's so funny, many schools even organized the parents of the students to watch it together. They came in with snacks and drinks, and walked out with ugly faces.Parents organized a group to write a report letter, saying that there were a lot of uncomfortable scenes in it, which caused a psychological shadow on their children. The children had nightmares and cried endlessly, saying that they were afraid of being taken away by the old kidnapper.It's all your fault for making movies, why don't you make fun stuff?Why deliberately scare children?

As soon as the broadcast ban came out, Xiao Wu and I wrote an inspection, took all responsibilities, and left Chang'an Film Studio.Everything about this movie is also sealed and stored.

Retiring at the age of 70, we have already earned enough money. We have filmed many stories that we wanted to film, and won many awards. It is enough to live until we die. "Going Home" is my last movie with Xiaowu, and I am very satisfied with the ending.Although it was banned, it was highly rated in the circle, and it was nominated by Golden Rose that year.

Ah, I slipped my tongue... Cough, Mo Yu, there is something, we are sorry for you.

In fact, the organizing committee wanted to give you the Golden Rose Best Newcomer Award that year. If you were awarded, you would be the youngest person on the podium in the history of Golden Rose.It was me and Xiao Wu who refused, and they withdrew your name from the nomination.

"Going Home" was filmed for a whole summer vacation. After the summer vacation is over, you all go back to school and continue your normal life as a student.If you had won an award at that time, you were exposed to the spotlight prematurely, and it would definitely change your life.How should I put it...We old men are still very traditional, filming belongs to filming, I still don't want to affect you, just think that we want to protect minors, the cast at the end of the film is written with pseudonyms.Anyway, movies have been banned. As for whether you will continue to film and become actors when you grow up, it is up to you when you grow up to decide.

In this cardboard box, there are some burning discs of "Going Home", which contain the full version of the movie, unused shots, and the behind-the-scenes footage that the photographer secretly took of you. This notebook is the shooting notes I wrote, and these three books The photo album is a collection of stills and scene photos taken in that year.

I give them to you, it means that you did not run such a long way in vain today.You and Maomao are both young actors who impress me deeply. I wish you all the best in your future development.

***

When you left the courtyard, you took a cardboard box and an ear of stories with you.The old man is getting old, and he can't stop the chatterbox once he opens it.You have never been a patient master, thank you for being able to sit still and listen carefully.

You drive home at night. City B is stuck in traffic all the year round, and only in the middle of the night can you experience the thrill of driving fast.The road that is crowded with cars on weekdays suddenly becomes vast and open, and you are the only car on the road, and you are the only person.

The sky is dark, there are shadows everywhere, and there is no light along the way, only your car lights can see ahead.There are songs playing in the car, you rarely listen to the radio, you just plug in your phone and play random songs.

In fact, you seldom listen to songs, and the cloud still does not allow you to like, and pushes and plays a variety of music styles. You don’t care, anyway, it’s just to pass the silence.

Suddenly, you heard an English song, and a slightly hoarse female voice greeted: Hello?

Hello, it's me

I was wondering if after all these years you'd like to meet

To go over everything...

……

You hear the words and understand what they mean, so you turn up the volume.

Fortunately, accompanied by music, the city in the dark looks mysterious and unpredictable. Is the world real?Do you really exist?Will you stretch out your hand, everything is an illusion, and you are not a human body.

That's funny, where are you who bothers with this kind of problem?You have a firm vision, a solid walk, and you don't believe in destiny but only in yourself.No one can stop you where you want to go, and you can do what you want to do.Whatever you want, just reach for it.

But today you are different, you seem to be trapped, your thoughts are not controlled by yourself, you can't help thinking about another person.The face of a child, the face of a youth, is the same person.

Ling Zixu gave you a lot of information, the first one you read was the full version of "Going Home".The movie is 104 minutes long, and during the watching process, you sit motionless on the sofa without drinking a sip of water.

You were like this 15 years ago.The scruffy and haggard boy in the picture is inevitably green in his actions, how can he compare with you who are now known as the acting master.But his expression was extremely sincere, and when he looked at the child who grabbed the hem of his clothes, his eyes were so soft and warm.People who have been buried deep in the valley all the year round will see the sun shining down one day, that's what it looks like.

In the past, when you watched a movie, you would explore it from the multiple perspectives of the screenwriter, director, actor, and audience, just to hone your acting skills.But when watching "Coming Home", you forget to study the good and bad of this movie, you just watch intently and let yourself indulge in the story.

Fifteen years ago, you accidentally entered a film crew, played a role, filmed a story, and lived with another person in the film.

After shooting, you never saw the finished film, and you never got the chance to meet the other people who made the film with you.You go back to the original life track, you don't have the contact information of the crew, and you didn't expect that when the film was finished, it was really over with the sound of the board.

There is no later, the short intersection when we were young is just a coincidence.Time is always passing, taking away the time of childhood, you absorb the new world like a sponge, meet new friends, and open a new chapter.

That little bit of fate will eventually be forgotten.The faces in the memory become blurred, and the words spoken are not sure. The illusion and reality are closely intertwined, making it impossible for people to clearly judge their past.

You eject the movie disc and put in another disc.

You don't even know that in that summer, the photographer secretly followed you and took so many behind-the-scenes shots.

You see yourself holding his hand as the two of you go to buy popsicles.You chose the painted face ice cream, which you know is the best, he picked the brightest and most beautiful one, but it was too hard to bite when you opened it.

You helplessly watched him bite the popsicle with a bitter face, took it with one hand, and stuffed the ice cream with painted face to him: I'll change it with you.

Why?Why, he blinked at you.

You say, I am happy.

He laughed, his cheeks puffed up, his eyes narrowed.

Yes, when he smiles like that, you'll be happy.

You saw you sitting in front of a small table, and you were teaching him to write an arithmetic problem. If he made a wrong one, you hit him on the head with the cap of your pen.He covers his head and stares at you, and you deliberately scare him: If you don't take the questions seriously, I will beat you up.

He is not afraid: Brother Xiaoyu is not.

You feel that your majesty is damaged, and you snort: Who said I can't.

He smiled at you: Because I like Brother Xiaoyu the most.

You clutched the cap of your pen, with a look of hopelessness on your face.

He continued: Brother Xiaoyu also likes me the most!

You couldn't bear it anymore, and knocked his head again: where do you have the confidence.

……

You outside the screen, you who have grown up, suddenly burst out laughing.

You are much more thorough than the little you on the screen. That's not self-confidence, it's just telling the truth.

You clearly see who you, 13 years old, always set your sights on.

Have you ever thought that you, who were always considered difficult to get along with, once treated another person with such concentration, seriousness and sincerity.

He wiped off the scar paint on your face and laughed at you for turning into a big face.

You clutched the can of oranges and insisted on making him shout nicely, otherwise you wouldn't let him eat.

Take the scene where he curls up into your arms to sleep, he buries his face in your chest, and can’t stop laughing, as if everything is fun, so you have to put on a straight face and try to look like you are bitter and bitter, and take this The play lasted.

You are pushing the cart, and he sits in the cart and asks you curiously: Brother Xiaoyu, is this a cart for supermarkets?You squinted and said yes, I'm going to sell you.He jumped in the car and said he would sell you in turn.You end up arguing about the stupid question of who is worth more money, and you are so stupid that you don't see it.

He seems to like to pull the corner of your clothes very much, deforming the hem of your clothes. He asks you: Brother Xiaoyu, can you come to my house to play?

You said yes, you will go when you are on vacation.

He was very happy, jumped up and put his arms around your neck, and gave you a kiss on the face, it was so loud.

……

At the age of 28, when you saw you at the age of 13, your face twisted in embarrassment for a moment.

tsk...

It's just a kiss, it's really useless.

After mocking you bluntly, you opened the photo album on your lap. Coincidentally, the page you turned to was a snapshot of him tilting his head and kissing your face.

You couldn't help but raise the corners of your mouth, and said to yourself: I can't tell, Mu Xuanying, you were quite enthusiastic when you were young.

Turn to the next one, you and he exchanged popsicles in your hands, you stand facing each other, the sun is shining on the top of your head.There's a smile in your eye, and he's still clutching the bright popsicle wrapper.

You can't help complaining in your heart: choose things based on appearance, Mu Xuanying has definitely been a face control since she was a child!

... Fortunately, I am handsome.

You spent a long time looking at the gift Ling Zixu gave you, and a thin, warm stream of water slowly flowed into the bottom of your heart.

You closed the photo album, lowered your eyes, and sighed softly. This sigh was not melancholy, very satisfying.

——Only a truly gentle, pure, innocent and transparent heart can touch Xiao Yu's heart.

After 15 years, he reappeared in front of you and touched your heart for the second time.