【Kaiyuan】Shewu Blurred

[I don't miss your smile, nor the feeling of laughing, but the days when we laughed together. 】

It has been a long time since Wang Junkai saw Wang Yuan's sleeping face when he woke up in the morning.

Needless to say in the earliest days, the two children were always inseparable, and they lived in the same room wherever they went. This long-standing habit made them even grow up and become boys with long legs and long hands. Still happy to squeeze the two of us into a single bed and then clutter up another bed with luggage.This has always been the case since then. The company prepared two rooms for them. When they were tired from work, they went to sleep separately. When they were in a good mood, they played together and finally slept on the same bed.

I don't remember when, probably after Wang Yuan entered high school, the two rarely shared a room, no matter how late they practiced or played, Wang Junkai would take the initiative to go to another room to rest.

The children are getting older and need their own space, the adults around think so.

But Wang Yuan didn't think so.

Neither he nor Wang Junkai are people who like change, especially the kind of change that breaks their original small world-so even if it is such a trivial matter as sleeping together or sleeping in separate rooms, there will be a reason for Wang Junkai's change.

What's more, for the two of them, there has never been the concept of space between each other.

But he didn't ask, and he didn't try to correct the change—they were no longer children, and some things hadn't been so logical for a long time, and he understood.

It took him a long time to get used to the cold bed in winter and the noisy mosquitoes in summer, to get used to not talking about the mountains until he fell asleep or no one humming a song in his ear to accompany him to sleep, to get rid of the emptiness of the other half of the bed.

Even though Wang Junkai would still help him set the time for the air conditioner, prepare electric mosquito coils for him, and tell him not to play with his mobile phone too late and go to bed early, and not to sleep with headphones... But a certain sense of distance still began to spread between the two of them, a little bit. Changing the way the two get along, it got out of hand until the distance between Beijing and Chongqing really separated them.

This is often the case. The change of two people does not come from a huge change, but because of an opportunity that appeared accidentally, and after many small things, they accumulate and change day by day. When they look back, they will suddenly find that Everything is no longer the same.

I was still a teenager running around in my hometown, but you stepped into the gate of adulthood overnight.

Since then, side by side has become back to back.

So on this morning after a long time, when Wang Yuan opened his eyes and saw Wang Junkai watching him quietly, his first feeling was a kind of long-lost alienation.

Wang Junkai didn't know if he was still awake or was thinking about something, his peach blossom eyes with the misty mist unique to the early morning fell on his face with tides, entangled his facial features and face, and he was inexplicably lonely.

"Wang Junkai...?" Wang Yuan didn't dare to look at him, and called his name softly, "Are you still feeling uncomfortable?"

Wang Junkai seemed to have reacted for a long time before he understood what he was talking about, cleared his throat and said, "It's all right, are you awake?"

nonsense.Wang Yuan complained silently in his heart, but his eyes still stayed on the other's pale face, thinking of Wang Junkai who was drunk on his back last night, clamoring for blessings and presents, like a kitten who completely lost his brother's air , Whispering about missing and friendship, Wang Junkai, who has been forcing himself to become cold and hard because of the distance, couldn't help softening. He coughed lightly to cover it up, and then said softly: "Happy birthday."

"It's over." Wang Junkai pretended to be angry.

"I said it last night." Wang Yuan didn't agree with him.

"I didn't hear it."

"It's because you didn't hear it, not because I didn't say it."

"……where is my present?"

"Already given you."

"I did not receive it."

"That's because you didn't receive it, not because I didn't give it to you."

"...Wang Yuan'er, your skin is itchy, right?"

"Leave me alone?"

……

The two of them rarely started the quarrel mode of elementary school students, and they had a great time arguing.

It really has been too long since we were bickering like this in the morning sun, pushing and shoving each other from time to time, covering each other under the quilt, and throwing pillows at each other as weapons...

Also after the two slept in different rooms, there was less playfulness like this. At the beginning, Wang Yuan would deliberately provoke, to tease Wang Junkai to fight back. Gradually, he found that Wang Junkai didn't fight back, but looked at it with a smile on his face. His smile was soft but meaningless, but there was obviously no intention of answering his call.

——Wang Junkai is avoiding.

Wang Yuan is not a very proactive person. It should be said that Wang Junkai has always been the only person he takes the initiative. First, because of his closeness, and second, because Wang Junkai knows how to respond to him, so when Wang Junkai's reaction changed drastically, he was actually at a loss. At a loss.

This kind of helplessness and loss has been accumulated for a long time, which made him feel very unhappy, and he developed an emotion called complaining.

People around said that Xiaokai would stop making trouble when he grew up, so he sneered and said deliberately: "He is already old."

But Wang Junkai still didn't get angry, didn't talk back, and still looked at him like that and smiled.

So Wang Yuan felt that he began to hate Wang Junkai and laughed.

It turned out that he liked Wang Junkai's smile very much, especially the kind of smile he saw when he was playing tricks. His eyes were bent, and the corners of his mouth were grinning, revealing small tiger teeth and cat lines. It was a silly, indulgent, gentle, and happy smile.

Not just the smile, he likes many things about Wang Junkai, the lines on the end of the eyes, the curvature of the eyelashes, the angles on the sides of the bridge of the nose, the width of the shoulders, the thickness of the palms... everything, he likes it very much.He felt that this couldn't be more normal. From the moment Wang Junkai became his senior brother, he appreciated and even liked all of this.

At first it was the appearance, then it was the feeling of training and playing together, then it was the expression of talking and the demeanor of contemplation, and finally, I even liked the atmosphere of being in the same room.

Even if there are so many liking emotions, otherwise he would not have worked hard for many years to maintain the glory of being side by side.

But it's different now, he hates the way Wang Junkai looks at him and smiles so calmly, as if he doesn't care about his provocation and declaration of war, as if he doesn't care about him at all.

He couldn't understand the emotion in those eyes, nor could he understand the meaning in that smile, he just felt that Wang Junkai no longer liked playing with him.

What they said was correct-Wang Junkai grew up, and left him alone to grow up.

Fortunately, on Wang Junkai's first morning, the rare bickering and fighting between the two made Wang Yuan vaguely see Wang Junkai's original appearance again.

They brushed their teeth noisily and sprayed each other's face in front of the mirror.

They laughed at each other's apple heads while washing their faces.

They even started a water fight and made a mess of the bathroom.

It seems that separating the two places is not all a bad thing - Wang Yuan thought so for a moment.

The two of them were arguing like crazy, and they didn't stop at the dinner table. You talked to each other and squeezed each other.

Miss Xiaoren hadn't seen the two of them like this for a long time, she looked around in surprise for a while, and then she smiled and said, "Why are you so happy?"

"How can you be happy?" Wang Yuan seemed a little embarrassed, and said quickly, "It's him who has been talking nonsense."

Wang Junkai quit after hearing this: "Hey, do you still think I'm long-winded?"

"When you get older, you talk too much, there's nothing you can do about it." Wang Yuan shook his head and pretended to look helpless.

"So much food can't stop your mouth," Wang Junkai picked up a piece of bread and stuffed it into his mouth, "Eat well."

Miss Ren couldn't help but also laughed: "Why, are you so happy to hear the news of "Moss"?"——her speculation is reasonable, Wang Yuan didn't show too much interest on Wang Junkai's birthday yesterday, Wang Junkai Also, although it looks very high, but the loss in the eyes can't be hidden, but the atmosphere of the two people suddenly became happy today, and nothing good happened recently except "Moss", it is not difficult to think that it is Wang Junkai who shared This good news, the two people who have always shared joys and sorrows, are naturally very happy.

It's a pity that this news was completely unfamiliar to Wang Yuan. He was stunned for a moment, then subconsciously looked at Wang Junkai, and accidentally caught the other's uneasy and embarrassing eyes.

Miss Xiaoren didn't pay attention and continued to say: "It's really a good opportunity, right? I didn't expect such a good work, and such a big production, and I finally decided on Xiaokai..."

A series of messages fell into his ears, making Wang Yuan's head really blank. It took him a long time to realize what Miss Ren was talking about—he had no choice but to respond, "Moss" was too famous, and the sales volume of the original book was astonishing. Not to mention a group of hard-core fans, the producer who obtained the copyright is a big company that often produces high-quality goods. When the news spread, some insiders mentioned them, but for such a heavyweight work, everyone would default to invite a bigger name Actors starred.It's not that their acting skills are not enough, it's just that they are not professional actors after all, there are several outstanding young students of the same age in the circle, "Moss" is not lacking in attention, and the producer is not a small company that wants to rub their popularity, there is really no reason to find Idol starred.

Unexpectedly, the final result would be their own. They chose Wang Junkai, who had just passed his birthday.

Looking back, it is actually appropriate. Wang Junkai is the same age, has a good image, can play the guitar and sing, and can perfectly interpret the character of the male lead. The most important thing is that the kind of smirk with sunshine and seriousness when he is serious is completely perfect. It's like the hero who came out of "Moss".

Wang Yuan has read the book "Moss", and his first reaction is that the producer is really discerning - there will be no more suitable candidate than Wang Junkai.

But the next moment he recalled many plots in the novel.

For example, the male protagonist rides a car for a summer with the female protagonist who has a broken leg.

Like two people practicing a waltz for the Yule Ball on a starlit rooftop.

Or the first kiss under the mistletoe on Christmas Eve.

……

There are too many such and such plots.

"The Moss" is really, a very romantic novel.

For some unknown reason, Wang Yuan felt an uncontrollable fire welling up in his heart. It wasn't a blazing rage, but a small, black flame. It wasn't hot or bright, but it couldn't be controlled by him. It spreads, and when it burns, it will turn black. It is dangerous and terrible.

He felt the black flames running wildly in his internal organs, but he didn't understand where it started. Was it just because Wang Junkai didn't tell him about "Moss" immediately?

No, no.He himself could vaguely realize that this little flame actually came from a kind of uneasiness in his heart.

He wanted to restrain himself, but couldn't.

So when Wang Junkai tilted his head to observe his expression and asked him in a low voice: "Wang Yuaner, are you angry?", he smiled instead: "No, why should I be angry? Isn't this a good thing?"

Wang Junkai was stunned for a moment, his face turned cold: "What does this mean?"

Sister Xiaoren finally noticed the subtle reaction between the two, and realized that she might have slipped her words and said something that Wang Junkai had not told Wang Yuan, so she quickly jokingly eased the atmosphere: "Yuanyuan is jealous, Xiaokai, how could you leave your brother and run away?" Are you going to fall in love?"

As soon as she finished speaking, Wang Yuan quickly raised his eyes to look at her, and suddenly had a bad feeling in her heart - the little angel is usually either gentle or amused, and occasionally such a salty look is really deterrent.

Sure enough, Wang Yuan sneered in the next second, with obvious sarcasm: "Jealous? I've never been jealous, don't you know? Don't get too involved in the drama."

The first half of the sentence was okay, but the latter sentence "Don't get too involved in the drama" made Wang Junkai's complexion ugly for a few shades——

This sentence originated from the time when the two of them had just gained some fame and the group had not yet debuted. Every day, a large number of comments could be seen saying "together" under their chorus. At that time, the two were really young , vaguely understood the meaning, but didn't seem to understand it. The staff joked privately, "Don't get too involved in the drama in the future." one thing.

Later, they really became popular, whether it was self-made dramas or large-scale variety shows, their popularity reached new peaks again and again, and at the same time, more and more fans were happy to see them interact. It's so natural to get along with each other, but it will really take on a different color in the eyes of others.

Even if they don't understand why, they can feel that the company is using their gravitas to attract fans.

Thinking about it carefully, it should be the first rebellion for the two of them, for both of them.

They didn't talk to each other, didn't touch each other, and they didn't even look at each other anymore. The interaction in front of the camera was barely there. After the shooting, it seemed that the tied rope was finally untied, and they quickly walked in two directions.The people around felt that something was wrong, so they persuaded and coaxed them, and even forcibly pulled the two together, but it didn't help, as it seemed that only each other could control them.

In fact, the two of them knew in their hearts that they were not angry with each other, they were all competing with themselves—what do we look like in the eyes of others?What are we in our hearts?

"Don't get too deep into the drama."——that's what it meant.

For the two of them, getting along so plainly became a good show in the eyes of others.

It was also at that time that the two of them suddenly grew up—yes, we are actors, the company is the ticket dealer, and the audience couldn't be more enthusiastic.

The two don't remember how they reconciled in the end. In fact, the process is not very important. Some truths will always be figured out, but it's just a matter of time.

Popularity floats on the surface, people's hearts are always noisy, crowds come and go, only each other is real and touchable.

Maybe I don't like being speculated for no reason, maybe I don't like feelings being used for profit, but compared to these, I don't like having any barriers with you.

It doesn't matter, it doesn't matter, what others think is their business, as long as we remain the same as before.

It's fine as long as you don't get too involved.

Bringing up old things again, and in this situation, Wang Junkai's reaction seems reasonable.

But Wang Yuan didn't look at his face at this moment, and said to himself: "This is not right, it will save so many people from talking about me to him all day long."

"Talk me about you?" Wang Junkai usually doesn't pass through his brain when he speaks, and even more so when he is angry. "Who still talks about you now? People who are not usually together."

This sentence directly hit the pain in Wang Yuan's heart. He was still worried about being alone in Chongqing, but he didn't expect that Wang Junkai, who was the culprit, would say this, making him unable to even refute, and he threw away his chopsticks and turned away.

Miss Ren didn't interrupt Wang Yuan and didn't interrupt Wang Yuan. Seeing Wang Junkai sitting still, she stuffed food into her mouth in anger, and said helplessly, "You don't know why he said that, but it's Annoyed that you didn’t tell him, you know he minds your trip to Beijing, why do you have to bring it up? Now it’s all over, I don’t have any meals, and I’m going back to Chongqing on an empty stomach today... Forget it, you Don't be angry, you'll get a stomachache after eating steamed rice."

Wang Junkai didn't say a word, he knew his reaction was too violent, but he really didn't like Wang Yuan's reaction.

He didn't like that Wang Yuan said it was a good thing to be in "Moss", and he didn't want to even think about falling in love with a stranger in the play.

He doesn't like Wang Yuan's saying not to get into the drama too deeply, this sentence seems to be able to probe into an unknown corner of his heart.

He didn't like the way Wang Yuan didn't want to get involved with him the most.

What Sister Xiaoren said is reasonable, Wang Yuan may just be angry that he didn't share the news in time, but he has no confidence in this very comforting answer, and a feeling called anxiety has seriously affected the tacit understanding between them.

Wang Yuan's uneasiness may have started when he chose to come to Beijing alone, but his uneasiness started much earlier.

It really shouldn't be too deep into the drama.

Wang Yuan's trip in Beijing this time is very short, and he will fly back to Chongqing in the afternoon.

When leaving the hotel, Miss Ren said that he didn't say goodbye to Wang Junkai, and got into the car on his own.

Sister Xiaoren had no choice but to follow.

It's only been a month - Wang Yuan stared at the scenery outside the car window and sighed in his heart.

The feeling he felt when Wang Junkai sent him to the airport last time seemed to be still haunting him, but he had already made another round between Beijing and Chongqing.

The sense of loss of returning to Chongqing alone has not changed, but the person who sent him to the airport is no longer him.

Sister Xiaoren observed his expression for a while, and seeing that he was still calm, she said, "Yuanyuan, I didn't come with the car originally, but there is something I want to tell you in advance."

Listening to her tone, Wang Yuan knew it was a serious matter, so he pulled himself together and focused: "What's wrong?"

"Xiao Kai is not the only one who has good resources this time, but you two too." Sister Xiao Ren took out a folder from her bag, "But both of you are quite busy studying now, so the workload won't be too much. Are you In the movie, he is a cameo in a TV series."

Wang Yuan was a little dazed and didn't know why he told him now.

"I only received the exact news this morning, but you made such a fuss this morning that I didn't have time to say it," Miss Ren's tone seemed a little hesitant, "It's a very good book, it's very suitable for you, and it's the male lead , the second male lead on the big screen."

Wang Yuan listened absent-mindedly, and opened the outline——

After only one glance, he quickly said, "I don't want to pick it up."

Miss Ren seemed to have guessed his reaction: "Don't jump to conclusions, read the script carefully, it's really a good work."

Seeing his unmoved and stubborn appearance, he said again: "Yuanyuan, you don't want to be left too far by Xiaokai, do you?"

Wang Yuan was startled, a little at a loss, but on the surface he pretended to be nonchalant and put his hands in his pockets—he may not care which of the three developed better, but he really cared about the distance between himself and Wang Junkai.

His fingers were tangled in his pocket, and he accidentally touched something, square and flat.

Wang Yuan lowered his head, and suddenly realized that he, who had been sulking all this time, accidentally went out wearing Wang Junkai's coat.

In the pocket is the birthday present he put in yesterday——

Wang Junkai did not hear his blessing, nor did he send out his gift.

Mixed feelings.

What Wang Junkai said unintentionally a long time ago rang in his ears:

"This is fate, Wang Yuan, you cannot resist."