What is it like to find someone for your ex?

"I want to know, thank him...you know?"

Guan Qing's complexion turned pale, and as he pinched the hem of his clothes, his whole body slowly began to tremble.

Ye Zi didn't speak.

He sat on the edge of the bed, and the two of them were still in the same posture they had when they were chatting and talking between friends.Ye Zi supported the edge of the bed, covering her eyes with one hand.He was silent for a while, then smiled lowly:

"What Wang Yun did, do you think he doesn't know?"

Guan Qing was startled.

He felt as if he was stepping on ice, and his whole body began to feel cold from the soles of his feet to the bottom of his heart, and his heart was hanging in the air, for fear that the next step would break the ice, and his whole body would fall into the cold winter water.

must not escape.

"He, he is such a naive person." Guan Qing forced a smile, "I don't understand..."

He couldn't speak for himself.

This is definitely not a problem that can be solved by saying "do not know how to measure".Xie Xu is hiding such an important matter from him.Although his strength is weak, even if he knows it, he can't do anything, but...

This and whether he has the right to know are two different things.

What if something happened to the mother?

in case……

He thought of that woman who was so gentle that she had almost no principles. Her strength was not strong, but she had protected him in the severe cold of life.She has always known that it is not easy to marry a woman with a half-grown child, let alone in such a small place, she never once thought of abandoning him.

A bowl of hot soup in winter, a rag doll when she was poor, and stitching together the expenses for going to school... She didn't have much, and she gave it all to him, and never asked for anything in return.

"I do not believe."

All the expressions on Guan Qing's face gradually faded, he said calmly.

Ye Zi sneered.

Although they were discussing such a sharp topic, the voices and expressions of the two were very calm.The two bodyguards looked this way hesitantly, but did not step forward.The wind howled outside the window, as if it was snowing, and the coolness seeped in from the closed windows little by little.

Guan Qing stared at the small plate of apples on the table, and said word by word: "If Xie Xu didn't tell me himself, I wouldn't believe it."

He knew he was deluding himself.

He knew the truth was there, even under the cloth, and with a single breath he could blow it away and bring it all to light.But he couldn't, didn't dare, he could only circle around the cloth, looking at it carefully, whitewashing the peace.

"Really?" Ye Zi let out a breath and smiled.

He lowered his head and clicked something on his phone, when a noise suddenly rang out.The sound of porcelain being smashed on the ground was very vague, and someone said something, but I couldn't hear it clearly.

Guan Qing's heart was beating violently.

He had a vague hunch that he couldn't listen any longer.He reached out and held down the phone, frantically trying to press the power off button.

Ye Zi didn't move, he sat on the spot, holding the teacup, gently blew on the hot tea, and said with a smile:

"Don't want to hear it? It's okay. I don't know if your mother wants to hear it."

Guan Qing's hands froze.

Mother... is in Wang Yun's hands, and Ye Zi keeps in touch with Wang Yun.

He let go of his hand and fell back to his original position exhausted.He covered his eyes, and after a while he raised his head and looked at Ye Zi.

Ye Zi's face darkened.

"Don't look at me that way."

His voice was low and cold, and it seemed that the anger that he had suppressed for an unknown amount of time was about to break the embankment.

At that moment, Ye Zi's body erupted with too terrifying coercion.It's like some kind of wild beast in the primeval jungle, it watches, ambush, approaches you a little bit gently, and then kills you with one blow as soon as it shows its fangs.

The two trained bodyguards fell into a semi-conscious state almost immediately.

"This, shouldn't be." Guan Qing shivered all over, unbelievable.

That level of coercion even surpassed any existing record, and it was directly reflected in-the windows even froze immediately, and the quiet room with a little bit of freezing sound was exceptionally clear.

"Evolution, isn't it wonderful? This is what your thesis told me." Ye Zi smiled, untied his tie slowly, covered Guan Qing's eyes, and said in a low voice, "As a senior, give You take a class.

"Not only love can be used as an inducement...jealousy, anger, hatred, everything can be. Even stronger."

"Do you think your love is noble?" Ye Zi said, "It's actually so cheap, so vulnerable."

Guan Qing's vision was dark.

I don't know if it was an illusion, but Guan Qing noticed that when he was in danger, Xie Xu's protection for him...was weakened.I don't know if it's because their trust has cracked again, or because of something else.

The darkness brought a sense of insecurity. Guan Qing heard the noise of the audio playing in that overwhelming fear, and then a familiar voice——

"you--"

It was Xie Xu, his voice was so angry that Guan Qing could even guess Xie Xu's expression through his tone.

"Didn't you say that your love is extremely noble?"

"Does your lover feel the same way?"

"You said...does he love you more or his mother more?"

The noise disappeared, everything stopped abruptly, and the room fell silent.

Guan Qing sat there blankly, ignorant.

He was silent for a long time, then said blankly: "What do you want?"

He didn't even want to call Ye Zi's name anymore.

"I haven't marked beta." Ye Zi smiled and said.

"..." Guan Qing's hands were clenched instantly.

Guan Qing gradually began to tremble, and the trembling became bigger and bigger. Ye Zi looked at him, and after a while, he discovered that the tie covering Guan Qing's eyes...in the eye area, the color became darker.

--He cried.

Ye Zi was a little at a loss for a moment, he calmed down quickly, and he didn't realize that his tone softened and said, "It's not good to thank Xu anyway, why do you..."

"I really regret it." Guan Qing took a deep breath and said in a nasal voice while trembling.

Ye Zi didn't know why.

Seeing that Guan Qing didn't continue, he leaned back: "He is immature, and he never thinks about you when he does things."

He paused for a moment, and was about to continue, when a sudden burst of music sounded in the quiet space.

Ye Zi was taken aback.

Hearing the sound, Guan Qing's trembling became more serious, but he couldn't move.He wanted to turn his back on Ye Zi, but he couldn't.

Then, the music of 'Happy Birthday' sounded in the room.

The cheerful music seemed extremely ironic at this moment.

When the music ended, Guan Qing moved his lips but didn't say anything.

Ye Zi stood up, looked down at the small machine that played regularly, with a distorted expression on his face.

After the music ended, it was Guan Qing's voice.His voice was extremely gentle, with sincere wishes, he even smiled, as if he was full of happiness:

"Ye Zi, happy birthday. There are some things that I can't say in person, so I'll tell you in this way. I know you don't celebrate your birthday very much, but... 30 years old, it's quite memorable, why don't you celebrate it? "

"Thank you for taking care of me for so long. Thank you very much. Although we may not be able to be like before for various reasons, I sincerely hope that you can find the right person for you and touch your future."

"I am very happy now, very happy, never been so happy. I really hope that you can also taste the feeling of being in love-of course, you are so good, you will definitely meet the right person."

"That," Guan Qing took a breath, lowered his gentle voice and became a little more formal, "Actually, I'm sorry, I accidentally found out about your family for some reason. Of course, I don't mind Nosy, it's just...you are my friend, I don't want and can't watch you immerse yourself in negative emotions such as self-blame and hatred every day. They will wear you down one day, this is my personal experience. "

The wind outside the window gradually stopped.

The room was eerily quiet, only the sound of Ye Zi's violent breathing could be heard.

"You are good enough," Guan Qing smiled in the recording, her voice was clean, with the light of the warm March sun, not dazzling but bright enough to see the way ahead, "You don't need to do anything, It is good enough. This is what Xie Xu told me. Now, I will give it to you too."

"You don't need to control everything, you don't need to pretend, you don't need to be so tired, you don't need to carry so much."

"It's not your fault about your mother. Although she left on your birthday, it's definitely not your fault. You don't need to blame yourself for it. "

Guan Qing paused, and said solemnly:

"I hope you can...forgive yourself, embrace yourself, love yourself."

Ye Zi's breathing quickened, suppressing something.He held the corner of the table tightly, unable to see the expression on his face.

He has been walking alone on this road for so long, carrying a thick bag and a basketful of hatred on his back, painting his face with layers of oil paint, hiding his dark and desperate self. Someone I met laughed.

Until this day, someone reached out to a person wandering alone in the wild ice field.

He smiles every day, and it's not that he doesn't want to. Someone... listens to his crying, pain, anger, and loneliness.

But that person never showed up.And he was also deceiving himself and others in the day-to-day disguise, and in the end he almost believed himself.

For a while, he was even jealous of Xie Xu.

Obviously they are all pretending, obviously they are all equally bad in nature, why, why Xie Xu can be loved, forgiven, and... so close to the sun.

After her mother passed away, after so many years, Ye Zi's eyes were red again.

"Don't mind if you say such a strange thing." Guan Qing in the recorder smiled shyly and said, "Let's celebrate. I prepared a cake, which is probably in the refrigerator closest to you. I designed it Of course I didn't make it myself... I used your favorite blueberries, I hope you will be happy."

Guan Qing's voice was not loud, but he was very serious. He had obviously written a draft, but he tried his best to read it with both voice and emotion:

"I hope you can find the love of your life."

"hope you can……"

"happiness."

Guan Qing in the tape recorder is a bit distorted. In the evening when the snow gradually stopped, it was so gentle that people almost thought it was a hallucination:

"Senior Ye Zi, happy birthday."

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