What is it like to find someone for your ex?

"I don't need a lot of love."

Guan Qing looked at Xie Xu and said seriously:

"I just want the person I love to love me."

The two looked at each other from a very close distance, and Guan Qing looked at Xie Xu calmly.

Under Guan Qing's gaze, Xie Xu's face turned red little by little.After a long time, he whispered, "Okay."

Guan Qing didn't react, and said, "What's good?"

"Cough, it's nothing." Xie Xu touched his nose and said, "It's almost here, let's get ready."

"By the way, where is this going?" Until now, Guan Qing still doesn't know where the 'elopement' is going.

Xie Xu stuffed water, an umbrella and other things into the travel bag, and said, "Go and fight monsters."

"……what?"

Guan Qing didn't know why.

After getting off the plane, they changed to a car, and finally the road was too rough, so they had to change to a motorcycle.

The scenery in front of him became more and more familiar. He had walked this road countless times.

Carrying a simple schoolbag and wearing a school uniform with many patches, he walked from a remote town to a high school in the county seat.It was along this road that he led his mother out of the poverty and hardship that had plagued them for half their lives.

This is where he grew up.

The air is a bit cold in late summer, with the smell of grass stalks and dew, mixed with the unique smell of feed and excrement in the countryside.At this point, the whole town has fallen into a deep sleep, only the light at the entrance of a small store is still on, and I don't know who it is waiting for.

This is the place that often appears in his nightmares.

He often dreams that he failed the college entrance examination and wasted his life in a small town.Like every child born here, rude, ignorant, and ignorant, they will bully weak or poor children when they are young, and when they grow up, they will find a job under the arrangement of the family, get married, and then beat their wives and scold them. The old man, smoking and drinking heavily, swears and haggles over a dime in the mahjong parlor.

Or he may dream that he becomes smaller again, his father beats him and his mother, and his mother protects him, and his head is bleeding from his father's beating.He was pushed to the ground by the neighbor's children, who called him a "thief's boy" and called him a "broom star with a father but no father".

He got up and beat the child, crying and saying, "My mother is not a thief, I have a father."

The child burst into tears, several doors opened at the same time, and the adults inside came out. Everyone stared at him and said he was 'exactly like his wife-beating dad'.

His mother came out, slapped him with shaking hands, and then everyone apologized.It was obviously the few savings they had accumulated, and they gave it away just as they saw it.

He was clearly right.

……

Guan Qing fell into the memories and gradually trembled.

Suddenly fell into a warm embrace.

"I, let's go back, shall we? Go...to Hawaii, anywhere." He whispered without looking back.

"No." Xie Xu's voice was very gentle, but his words were unquestionable, "I want you to see it with your own eyes.

"Look—those things that keep showing up in your nightmares aren't really worth mentioning. They can't hurt you anymore."

Xie Xu took a step forward and turned around.

He looked at him deeply like last time when he tricked Guan Qing to let go when he was pedaling the bicycle, and stretched out his hand to him:

"I'll watch with you. Trust me."

Guan Qing's hand was stretched out in the air, hesitantly curled up his fingertips, and in the next second, Xie Xu grasped it completely.

Xie Xu's eyes clearly said, I don't allow you to escape.

I can face everything with you, but I can't live in a corner with you, living in the shadow of the past for the rest of my life.

He dragged him, walking step by step towards Guan Qing's dark and dusty childhood on the muddy gravel and extremely rugged path.

Into his nightmare.

There is a very simple guest house in the town.

The two arrived late at night without prior planning, so they had to spend the night at the guest house.The old man turned on a dangling incandescent lamp with a pull cord, his waist was bent very low, and his head was buried very low:

"Boss, here we are fifty per night."

It was clearly written on the outside that it was [-] a night, but Xie Xu gave him a piece of [-] directly, and the old man smiled until his eyes narrowed.

His mouth was full of yellow teeth, which were caused by years of smoking and drinking, and he still tremblingly took out a low-quality miscellaneous brand cigarette and wanted to give it to them.Mosquitoes were flying around under the lamp, there was dirt visible to the naked eye on the table, there was half a cup of residual tea in the cup, and there were a few cigarette butts in it.

"Huang Weiguo, you..."

Guan Qing lowered her head in a daze, finally distinguishing a little shadow of the past from that old look.

In fact, he is not old, but he is as old as his mother, but his body has been destroyed by excessive indulgence and drunkenness.

—— "Ye Anxian, you cousin, widow, no one wants to pretend to be aloof, hum. I see if you will come to beg me to sleep in the future."

At that time, Huang Weiguo also had yellow teeth, and his eyes were not as cloudy as they are now, but they were just as ugly.

He pointed at Ye Anxian with a wine bottle, and his mother protected him without saying a word.

If she was alone, she could fight him, but she still has children.

Not everyone has the capital to be willing to die.

"Boss? What's wrong?"

Huang Weiguo looked up at him tremblingly in fear. He didn't know what disease he had.

The lingering black shadow in his nightmares, the frighteningly naked eyes, gradually overlapped with the ugly old man in front of him.His wife and children were separated, and he survived by opening a dilapidated hotel and playing mahjong during the day for a little money.

"It's nothing." Guan Qing pursed her lips, "I'm Guan Qing."

At least he had to give his past self an explanation, he thought.

"Ah..." Huang Weiguo seemed to still have an impression, he looked carefully at Guan Qing's face, and saw Ye Anxian's shadow from inside - a trace of naked greed flashed in his cloudy eyes, which did not change with his age. decrease and disappear.But he quickly panicked and said, "Qing, Qingqing, before, before..."

Guan Qing didn't look into his eyes, and shook his head.The corners of his mouth flattened, he didn't know whether it was relief or what, but his heart felt lighter all of a sudden.He looked at Xie Xu with soft eyes: "Let's go upstairs."

There is no need to do anything, he did nothing, and these people have already received their due punishment.

Huang Weiguo, the former monster, can no longer hurt him.

So are you.

Xie Xu held his hand tightly and shook his head.

He looked at Huang Weiguo with cold eyes, it didn't look like he was looking at a living person.He said, "I'll give you 100 yuan and slap myself."

Then he opened his wallet and put it on the counter.

"Don't," Guan Qing frowned, "There's no need to do this, I've already..."

Huang Weiguo opened his mouth blankly, glanced at the wallet, and then thanked Xu.Suddenly, a gleam of light flashed in the cloudy eyes, and he quickly reached out to the wallet——

"you dare."

Guan Qing hardly saw how Xie Xu moved, anyway, the next second, Huang Weiguo was already kneeling on the ground, crying with tears running down his cheeks.

"Slap, 100 yuan." Xie Xu repeated with a cold face.

Huang Weiguo hardly hesitated, and immediately slapped himself.

"Not loud enough."

Trembling, he slapped himself again.

"Didn't you eat?"

He hit him hard, and his face immediately swelled up.Xie Xu handed him 100 yuan.

Like a hungry dog ​​seeing a bone, he walked over on his knees, took the money with both hands, looked at it carefully under the lamp, and folded it tremblingly.

Guan Qing couldn't see Xie Xu like this, he took Xie Xu's hand and said, "I really don't want him anymore, he doesn't deserve you."

It was only when I pulled it that Xie Xu was trembling.

He was taken aback, and hugged him from behind, Xie Xu was trembling all over, but his voice was cold: "He's not worth it."

— but you are worth it.

Guan Qing heard his subtext.He felt that his heart softened into a light cloud, he stroked Xie Xu's back lightly, and said, "You really don't have to do this for me, I don't care anymore."

"It's not for you," Xie Xu took a breath, his eyes flushed, "I'm for myself."

Guan Qing was stunned.

Xie Xu's status is wrong.

"Slap, 100 yuan. Say, I'm sorry, I was wrong." Xie Xu looked down at Huang Weiguo and said expressionlessly.

Huang Weiguo slapped himself again and again, and shouted loudly: "I'm sorry, I was wrong."

Until he was beaten by himself, his nose was bruised and his face was swollen, his nose was bleeding, and the saliva flowed from the corner of his mouth to the ground, his eyes were still shining with greed.

Xie Xu took out the money and gave it to him. He held the money tightly in his hand and kowtowed to him over and over again, saying that he had a "Bodhisattva heart".

Xie Xu kicked him contemptuously. He turned over and hit the trash can by the wall. The soot and banana peels came out together. He was still lying on the ground, giggling and counting money.

Xie Xu seemed to want to go up, Guan Qing hugged him tightly, choked up and said: "Enough!"

Xie Xu panted heavily.

"Thank you, that's enough, it's really enough, he doesn't deserve it. You stop, I'm afraid."

Xie Xu's eyes were red, he looked at Guan Qing in confusion, watching him call his name over and over again with tears in his eyes.

He finally gradually found a trace of sanity from the chaos.

...wake up.

Xie Xu stood there at a loss, raised his hand, and wanted to hug Guan Qing: "Honey, I—"

Guan Qing didn't retreat, looked at his eyes, but didn't seem to know him.

"You, are you afraid of me?" He pulled the corner of his mouth, but couldn't laugh.

Guan Qing shook his head.He put his head on Xie Xu's shoulder, held him in his arms like a baby, patted his back lightly, and said, "You don't need to do this, everything is over."

"I can't stand it." Xie Xu whispered.

He lowered his head, his voice trembling badly: "Thinking of how these people bullied you before, I—"

It was a treasure that he held in his palm and was afraid of falling.

How did he grow up in this kind of place, and how many dark things happened that made Guan Qing wake up in a nightmare in the middle of the night, with tears streaming down his face and trembling all over his body.

"It would be great if I could meet you sooner." Xie Xu hugged Guan Qing tightly, and finally sobbed like a child.

It turned out that he never knew that he was late for so many years.

He used to think he was doing well enough, but he didn't.

When Guan Qing needed him the most, when Guan Qing was most vulnerable and young, he was absent.Absent for a full 18 years.

The Guan Qing he met had already been scarred one after another in his heart by these people, but he still wanted to take out an intact place in his heart and smile at him.

At the end of that night, it was Guan Qing who patted him on the back gently and coaxed him softly:

"My childhood was actually not hard. My mother worked as a tailor to make money, bought delicious food, and went to temple fairs... By the way, let's go together when you have time? Don't you like those?"

He made up the matter of going to the temple fair.Buying delicious food is not made up.

Guan Qing has never seen anything good since she was a child, and a bowl of egg custard can be considered a top-notch delicacy.

"It's really not too late, at least I met."

It is lucky enough to meet Xie Xu.

"Okay." Like a child thanking him, he counted with his fingers, "Going to temple fairs, eating, and going abroad to play—"

He asked for prices and talked a lot.

I can't wait to book all the time for Guan Qing's next life.

And Guan Qing just hugged him all the time, smiled, and agreed one by one.

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