I practice Buddhism in an escape game

Xiang Feifei got up in the middle of the night to go to the toilet. On the way back, he found a person hanging from the beam next door. Li Nanzheng.He rolled the sheet into a thin strip, tied it to the door, and hanged himself.I don't know how long it has passed, but the person has already lost his breath, with his tongue sticking out, looking a little scary.Xiang Feifan dared to touch the opponent's hand, but his body temperature was gone.

The life teacher on the night shift sat at the door and dozed off, but didn't notice what was going on here.Xiang Feifan didn't call him, but patted Ke Yu who was snoring in the dormitory and sound asleep.

"Well, are you going to get up?" Ke Yu was dazed and began to put clothes on his body after being patted by him.

"No." Xiang Feifei pulled him back: "It's Li Nanzheng's accident."

"What happened?" Ke Yu asked drowsily, looking at the bed next door. Sure enough, the bed next door was empty: "Where did he go? Damn, this guy won't want to run away and get caught, right? "

"No, don't panic, don't shout, call the life teacher so everyone don't sleep." Xiang Feifan pointed to the door: "He committed suicide."

Ke Yu turned his head and saw a figure hanging from the door, his eyes widened immediately, he turned over and ran out of bed, and leaned forward to look.No joke, the roommate he had been with for two days committed suicide.

Ke Yu took two steps back, covered his mouth with force, not letting himself cry out, and after a few seconds, he put his hand down and murmured, "He... why is he?"

"Ah, by the way, it must be because of what his parents said yesterday." Ke Yu thought for a while and then said: "I thought it was too much when I listened to it, saying that he is garbage, and living can only waste social resources, saying that he is disgusting , shame the whole family, saying that if he knew a little bit of shame, he should have found a rope and hanged himself long ago."

The more Ke Yu spoke, the angrier he became: "You say a person's biological parents, how can you say such a thing to your child? Isn't this the same as forcing the child to die? After hearing these words yesterday, he couldn't say a word. I didn’t say it. It’s all my fault, I should enlighten him, but I saw my parents yesterday and argued a few words, and I was in a bad mood, so I didn’t talk to him more.”

"What is this?" Xiang Feifei suddenly caught a glimpse of a page on Li Nanzheng's desk, with a corner pressed by a book.The handwriting could not be seen clearly in the dark, the two of them took the paper to the toilet and looked at the light, it turned out to be Li Nanzheng's suicide note:

Dad, Mom, I'm sorry, I'm a failed son.I can't marry a wife and have children like a normal man, and continue the incense in the family.I like a boy, love him very much, I know this is wrong, sick, but I still can't let go.

I'm sorry for embarrassing my parents. I'm really a useless piece of trash. I live a miserable life. I often want to commit suicide, but I don't dare.I haven't slept well for more than a year, and sometimes I have auditory hallucinations. I secretly went to the hospital for an examination, and it was depression, severe.I dare not tell you two, but I am too hypocritical to think about it myself.But not being able to sleep would affect my class during the day, so I had to secretly buy sleeping pills.

After listening to my parents today, I finally made up my mind.I'm gone, so I won't be a nuisance to my parents in the future, and I won't waste social resources. In short, everything is my fault. I hope that after I leave, my parents can live a happier life.

Your son: Sincerely, Li Nanzheng.

After reading the suicide note, Xiang Feifei was speechless. What kind of parents can educate children with such distorted views, thinking that everything about themselves is wrong, that it is wrong to like the same sex, it is wrong to be sick, and it is wrong to even be alive.At the same time, I feel a little distressed, such a humble, confused young man.

He remembered that on the first day, Li Nanzheng was chatting with himself by the sink while washing the dishes. He was a very sensitive and fragile person. Too cowardly and withdrawn, did not give him a good education.Everyone's situation is different. Li Nanzheng loves his parents very much, and he firmly believes in what they say. There are indeed many distortions in his ideas, but it is not his fault.

"Put it back. His parents should take a good look at this suicide note. This is also his last wish." Xiang Feifan sighed.

"Well, should we tell the life teacher?" Ke Yu was a little out of ideas.

"My suggestion is not." Xiang Feifei said: "I'm afraid they will dispose of the person while no one finds out, and then tell the parents that he died of illness. But as an insider, you will definitely be warned and threatened. If you say that your roommate committed suicide, they will say that you are spreading rumors maliciously, and even take you to the discipline room for punishment. So now when you go back, you have to pretend that you don’t know whether you can fall asleep or not. Get up and see, the news of your roommate's suicide will not be covered."

"Well, he can't be allowed to leave in such an unclear way." Ke Yu nodded, agreeing to Xiang Feifan's suggestion.Go back to the dormitory boldly, lie back on the bed, sleepless all night.

Xiang Feifei also had a sleepless night. Although he only slept for three or four hours yesterday, he still felt uneasy when he encountered such a thing today, and his mind was full of chaotic thoughts all night.

In the early morning of the third day, the whole men's dormitory really exploded. The story of Li Nanzheng's hanging was widely circulated. When the life teacher heard the news, his face turned pale with fright.

During class in the morning, Li Nanzheng's parents rushed into the classroom and yelled towards the Mediterranean Sea: "What kind of broken school are you? My good son committed suicide within two days of coming here! You pay my son. I want to expose you !"

While directing the security guards to arrest him, Hai Hai said softly and forcefully: "Your son has severe depression, and you don't know about such a serious condition. It is obvious that you as parents dereliction of duty first. It is clearly written in the contract that, Students who enter the school must ensure their physical and mental health, and you have signed it. It is obvious that you have breached the contract first, and we will not be afraid even if there is a lawsuit. Of course, everyone is for the children, and as a school, I can understand your feelings of losing your beloved son. , In this way, on behalf of the school, I promise that all tuition fees will be refunded, and an additional condolence money will be paid to the two of you, the amount can be negotiated, do you think it is acceptable?"

Sitting in his seat, Xiang Feifan looked at the hesitant expressions of Li Nanzheng's parents, as if they were already estimating the amount of the condolence money, and couldn't help feeling even more chilled.He rubbed his sore temples, and stopped paying attention to the farce on the podium.

Maybe it's because he didn't have a good rest in the past two days, and it might have something to do with his emotions. Xiang Feifei had a severe headache this morning, and his head seemed to be stuffed with cotton wool, making him feel dizzy.After finally getting out of class, when he got up, his eyes went dark, and he almost fell to the ground.

"Sir, I'm not feeling well, I want to go to the infirmary to have a look." Xiang Feifan and Mediterranean asked for leave.

Hai Hai had just dealt with Li Nanzheng's parents, and lost a sum of money. He felt a fire in his heart, and this would hit Fei Fei, so he scolded unceremoniously: "Everyone else is fine, why are you sick every day! What? Feeling unwell again? Let me tell you, the school is not a hospital, they are all like you, so why go to school! Go back and sit down."

Xiang Feifan had no choice but to support his body and sit back in his seat.Ke Yu noticed that Xiang Feifan's face was abnormally red, and when he heard that he was sick, he touched his forehead with his hand, it was very hot, and immediately said loudly: "Sir, Xiang Feifan has a fever!"

Mediterranean stared: "Don't make noise in the classroom! Why don't you just have a fever, as for the one who yells? The teaching assistant took him to take his temperature. If it's less than 38 degrees, the two of them will be punished together!"

Xiang Feifan glanced at Ke Yu gratefully, followed the teaching assistant to the infirmary, and saw the female doctor again.

"Oh, why are you here again!" The female doctor still remembered this beautiful and well-behaved little brother, and greeted him with a smile.

"Looks like I have a fever. Please excuse me, sister doctor." Xiang Feifan sat on the hospital bed and took his temperature, which was 38.7 degrees.Xiang Feifan was relieved that he didn't have to implicate Ke Yu and get punished.

"Hey, the fever is severe enough, you need an infusion." The female doctor looked at the thermometer: "How can you last half a day of class like this? Is there any other discomfort?"

"It's just a headache, but everything else is fine." Xiang Feifan sat on the hospital bed and waited for the female doctor to put the needle on him, thinking that although the school's infirmary is small, it is still fully functional.

On sick days, it is more pleasant than listening to Mediterranean mantras in the classroom.After hanging the water, Xiang Feifei lay on the hospital bed to catch up on sleep, thinking happily that he could visit Sang Jingming again at night.For this reason, he deliberately saved the steamed buns in the patient's meal at noon and evening.

At night, Xiang Feifan quietly opened the door of the room with the fever still in his hands, and happily ran to the confinement room with steamed buns in his mouth.

"Sang Jingming!" Xiang Feifan skillfully opened the observation window.

"Xiang Feifan?" Sang Jingming walked to the door. Compared with last time, his legs and feet were much sharper. It seems that the effect of the medicine has completely faded.It's just that his face is a little pale, probably because he hasn't eaten for a long time.

"I brought you steamed buns again!" Xiang Feifan quickly stuffed the steamed buns in his hand.

"Are you sick?" Sang Jingming's voice was worried.

"I have a little fever, it's okay, I've already received an infusion, and I'll be fine soon." Xiang Feifan said with a smirk, feeling sweet in his heart.

"Yeah." Sang Jingming replied, "Be careful too. It's not safe here, try not to come here."

"A lot of things have happened in the past two days, and I also want to talk to someone." Xiang Feifan rubbed his toes on the ground, put his head on the door, and said in a muffled voice, "Yesterday afternoon was meeting time, and Wang Man and his family had a fierce quarrel. , I was taken to a special class, and I went crazy when I came out. Li Nanzheng also committed suicide last night. After my roommate was severely punished, it was like a different person. He didn’t say a word. There were seven of us in just two days , There were only two people in the accident, as if they were cursed. Oh, and the Mediterranean Sea, he came back and said that he would give you a special class and execute you publicly. To be honest, I am a little scared."

"Don't be afraid, I'll be fine." Sang Jingming's tone softened a bit, as if coaxing people: "Take good care of your illness and get well soon."

"Sang Jingming, can I... can I hold your hand?" Xiang Feifan hesitantly said.

"Hold hands?" Sang Jingming raised his eyebrows, not quite understanding what Xiang Feifan meant.

"I heard that a person's courage can be conveyed through the palm of the hand, can you share some courage with me?" Xiang Feifan held the observation window with both hands, pressed his face against the door, with round cat eyes, watery looking inside looking at.

Sang Jingming only felt that his heart was filled with a softness that he had never felt before. He knew that it was absurd and childish to say that the palm conveys courage, but he couldn't say a single word of rejection in the face of such eyes.He bent down, looked at Xiang Feifan, and stretched out his wide palm with thin calluses.

Xiang Feifan's hand was smaller than Sang Jingming's, and his skin was whiter. Sang Jingming's hand was a little cold, but Xiang Feifan's palm was very hot because of the fever.The palms were touching, and the warmth was transmitted between the two palms. Xiang Feifei really felt that the panic in his heart had been dispelled, leaving only peace of mind and joy.

"Sang Jingming, your eyes are blue, so beautiful." Xiang Feifan said in surprise.

"Beautiful?" This is the first time Sang Jingming has heard people use such a word to describe his eyes. In his vague impression, the pupil color of these eyes seems to have some bad connotations. Some people say "fierce", while others say " Evil”, and some people say, “If you are not of my race, their hearts must be different”.But no one said "beautiful" alone.

"Well, this is the first time I've seen this kind of pupil color. Generally, the blue eyes of Westerners are always light and grayish, but your pupil color is darker and purer, like the sky after the sun goes down. .”

Looking at Xiang Feifei seriously, he didn't notice how focused he was staring at him, but Sang Jingming's heart beat suddenly, looking at this handsome face so close, his skin was porcelain white under the moonlight Glossy, bright lips, opening and closing with the words, it is plainly tempting to give birth to a kind of desire.

The desire to take this beautiful person in front of him as his own.