Leaving the past behind 2019

Li Henan came back very late that day. It is said that he had a night of verbal arguing with the "old guys". He was more tired than undergoing eight operations in a row and drank a lot of wine. With the perseverance, he took a shower before going to bed, and fell asleep after touching the pillow. Seeing him like this, Li Jiageng didn't have the heart to say anything else. Anyway, he only came home for dinner on Sunday, so it wouldn't delay anything if he said it a day later.

There are quite a few people in the company who hand in semi-finished dishes. After all, in this day and age, it is so convenient to fill your stomach. Unless you love cooking or full-time "cooking women (husbands)", no one is too lazy to face pots and pans after a hard day. , not to mention cooking for the boss.

The temporary package storage at the front desk has never been so lively. The courier boxes from Xbao, Xdong, Xxiansheng are piled up high, and every colleague who goes to pick up the delivery has a tacit smile on his face.

"Wow, you two teams are too perfunctory, aren't you?!" The group leader Tiantian who came to drop by ordered the quick-frozen semi-finished products on the table one by one: "I bought everything, why don't you go for dim sum? Fish-flavored shredded pork, Shredded pork in Beijing sauce, shredded chicken in red oil...are they all from the generation of silk?"

"It means we have team spirit!" Li Kah Kee replied calmly.

"Sister Tiantian, what did your group buy? Don't say you made it yourself, I just saw Xiao He go to pick up the courier."

Sister Tiantian smiled mysteriously: "It's right on top of you, we are from the 'block' generation!"

Sister Ling and Xiaoyan said together: "Boring!"

Li Jiageng was quite serious, "Nuggets? Braised chicken nuggets, sweet and sour fish nuggets, what else can I make nuggets? Pork ribs?"

Sister Tiantian smiled sweetly: "Guotao tofu cubes!"

Sister Ling laughed and said, "Hahaha——and said that we are perfunctory, at least we are all meat, and you are even mixed with vegetarian!"

The first group and the second group were originally in a competitive relationship, but through Huaxin's devilish squeeze, the two groups were unified, especially Li Jiageng, who became a celebrity among them, and now the first group and the second group have close contacts, especially Tian Sister Tian, ​​it's good to have a close relationship if you have nothing to do, but it's not convenient for the second group to talk small things.

There are still three days until Friday, and the official day of Mr. Zhou’s birthday is Saturday, but that day is a legal holiday. No matter how big Mr. Zhou’s face is, he will not be moved. Everyone spared a rest day to celebrate his birthday, so the dinner party night was set at Friday night a day early.

Unable to tell Li Henan that day, Li Kageng told him face to face after returning home from get off work the next night. Unexpectedly, the other party's performance was unexpectedly flat, but it aroused Li Kageng's desire to inquire more.

"Is your relationship with your family not good?" Li Jiageng finally asked before going to sleep.

"I can't say whether it's good or bad, so be it, we have no expectations of each other." As usual, Li Henan took out the lighter before going to bed, and rubbed the flint with reflex.

But if it's not good, why would such a big company be entrusted to you to manage?This sentence was held in his throat and he didn't ask it.

Li Henan looked at his expression and said: "You want to ask, if the relationship is average, why do you still let me manage the company?"

"Hey." Li Kageng also took out a cigarette and held it in his hand.

"After all, I am his own son, so it is easier to use than others."

"Uh..." It sounds like the relationship is really not very good.

Li Henan asked again: "He was not rude to you, was he?"

"Who?"

"Li Shuonan."

"Ah, no!"

Li Henan nodded, and Li Jiageng said again: "He really looks like you." After a while, he said: "Not only the appearance, but also the temperament and demeanor. If I can travel back to see you in junior high school, I guess it will be that look."

"Oh, really." Li Henan seemed to be out of interest, and Li Jiageng didn't continue this topic. The two of them puffed on a cigarette, and soon finished it. Li Henan went to the ground to open the window, Turn on the ventilation system again.

Against the dark night, his profile was unusually handsome and upright. Li Jiageng was a little absorbed in watching, but the other party suddenly said: "I have never been close to him because there is too much age difference."

"Well," Li Jiageng nodded in agreement. He is an only child and has never had experience with brothers and sisters. But if he suddenly had a younger brother who had diapers when he was adolescence, he probably wouldn't be able to get along with him, so he should avoid it. Not enough.

"But he looks okay, not like an ordinary young son who is spoiled and spoiled."

Li Henan sneered: "How could you spoil him." He turned his face and asked, "Have you ever played that kind of large-scale RPG online game? The one where you need to design your own characters."

Li Jiageng didn't understand, so he replied: "Of course."

"I'm the tuba that they abandoned, and Li Shuonan is the trumpet that they started to practice again. They want to avoid any possibility of being disabled again. Therefore, how can I be pampered? It will only...be more harsh."

"Ah." Li Jiageng didn't expect that the other party would suddenly come up with such a metaphor. Thinking about it carefully, his scalp was a little numb. Can raising a child be like this?

"So I think he is quite pitiful, but there is no way, and I can't help him."

"But he looks fine."

"Well, just like me at that time," Li Henan stood by the open window and took out another cigarette, "Growing in a beautiful glass tower, I wanted to be the best in everything, and I thought it was As a matter of course, as long as the fever is less than 38.5 ℃, piano lessons and calligraphy lessons cannot be stopped. If it exceeds 38.5 ℃, it is considered a high fever, so you can practice at home. Once I accidentally burned my finger. My mother’s first reaction was not to help me. Looking for ointment, but scolding me for dragging down the progress of schoolwork... I thought every child grew up like this."

"..." Li Jiageng didn't know what to say, he jumped off the bed, walked over slowly, took the hand that was not holding the cigarette, and held it firmly.

Li Henan smiled slightly at him: "I'm fine."

"Until that accident happened to me." He tilted his head and pointed to his left ear: "If it wasn't for this accident, I would never know that there is another possibility in life."

"With mild concussion and nerve damage in the ear canal, I stayed in the hospital for about two weeks. I didn't have any homework in these two weeks. I just had to lie or half lie down. The only things I had to deal with were regular checkups and a lot of medicines. , and, I can actually watch TV.

At first I was so empty that I was going crazy—if you don’t advance, you will retreat. This is what my father always reminded me. He hoped that my life would always move forward. I can’t stay where I am, but I didn’t do anything for two whole weeks. I closed my eyes and dreamed of papers and exercise books for the first few days, but after a week passed, I only dreamed of the funny soap opera episodes I watched during the day… …I fell, and I blamed myself at the time.

Two weeks later, I can go home and recuperate. Because of my ear problems, I don’t need to practice the piano any more. When my mother told me the news, she looked like a dead relative. I thought I would be very depressed, after all, it was me. I am relieved that I have not been able to shake things that I have been exposed to every day since I was four years old.Maybe it was from then on that they thought I was beyond redemption. "

After returning to school, the teacher mobilized many students to form a mutual aid group with him to help him with his lost homework. Zhong Jiabei was one of them, but young people did not have much longevity. The members of the mutual aid group gradually grew from eight at the beginning It became only him and Zhong Jiabei, and the friendship between him and the latter also grew wildly at that time.

He has always been clear about that accident, that afternoon rainstorm approaching the basketball court, who threw the basketball like a vent.

He also always remembered, before he lost consciousness, the other party's panicked and frightened expression made him lose his voice.

During the mutual aid study with only two of them left, Jiabei took good care of him, even guarding him on the left side when crossing the road, just because he said that after the left ear is deaf, he would be a little afraid of crossing the road, because he always felt that the hearing There is no sound from the rear left.

So even if the directions of their two families were one in the south and the other in the north, Jiabei still sent him into the car unshakably.

Jiabei thought he didn't know, so he treated him well with a penitent heart like atonement, and he also pretended not to know and enjoy these kindness.

He was sure that he was hopeless, and he was no longer the same Li Henan as before.

He also learned from Jiabei that most kids his age are doing something after school. There are no piles of exercise books, and there are no endless grade tests, competitions, and improvement classes. They can take their time. Walking home, I took a can of ice-cola leisurely on the way, and turned into a billiard hall on the way, as long as I could catch up with dinner on the way back, it was the first time that Li Henan did his homework at the small bar of the billiard hall. , For the first time, he felt that an off-track life is also quite good.

He didn't tell Li Jiageng any of this.

Some things are only suitable to be buried, buried in the rotten dust and mud deep in the memory, but I am afraid that when the memory is stirred, some roots that should not be exposed will also eagerly emerge.

Li Jiageng hugged him from behind, still holding his hand tightly with one hand, while the other hand passed under his ribs, hugging his chest, this posture is both leaning and hugging.

"It hurts me to hear it, but it seems to make me feel better when I say it."

Li Henan put down the cigarette, and pressed his hand on his chest: "I've been fine for a long time, I've already escaped."

"So, your brother..." Now thinking about Li Shuonan, I feel very uncomfortable. How many expectations should I have shouldered with my back that I tried my best to straighten?

Li Henan sighed with a wry smile: "We have never been close, he probably hates me, I am his template."

"Maybe it's not like that. Although I only saw him for a short while, when I mentioned you, the feeling he gave me was definitely not disgust, but..." Li Jiageng weighed the words and chose the one he thought was the most appropriate: "Xianxian. He envies you very much and knows you very well. He can tell at a glance that you and I are not ordinary friends. He said that you will never allow ordinary friends to change your house."

"yes."

Li Henan let go of his hand and picked up the cigarette on the window sill again, "Unfortunately, I can't help him."

"Are you going on Sunday?"

"Go, but I won't stay for dinner. I agreed to eat the big meal you prepared."

Li Jiageng hurriedly said: "Don't, it's better for the king to take both the rain and the dew!"

Li Henann spewed out a mouthful of white mist, and smiled vaguely: "You don't understand, the atmosphere in my house is not suitable for eating, and it will cause indigestion."

Li Jiageng muttered: "At first your brother suspected that we were related, but this is great, I must have thought I was blowing pillow talk with you."

"who cares."