Leaving the past behind 2019

"Let's live together!" The last person who said this to him was Wang Hewen.

"I asked, it doesn't cost much to set up a one-bedroom apartment around the school! Internet and electricity are all included, and we can cook by ourselves. Remember what I told you? I can cook, although it's not particularly delicious Yes, but it can be practiced, don’t you always think that the vegetable oil in the cafeteria is too big—”

In the second half of his junior year, the relationship between him and Wang Hewen tended to be stable, and he finally had enough of dating like secret agents. In order to stop secretly holding hands, the two of them returned to school early before the end of the winter vacation. I rented a house nearby and lived together.

At that time, there were a lot of students renting houses off-campus. There were young couples, and there were classmates like the two of them who seemed to have a good relationship with the outside world. Environment... In short, the nearby residents are not surprised by this, and no one will particularly suspect anything, even because they are students, they will not set the rent too high.

At that time, he didn't have any long-term ideas about the future, he just thought it would be good not to live in school, but Wang Hewen was different, his nature was more down-to-earth than himself.

During that time, Wang Hewen was like a hard-working bird, decorating their hut little by little, as long as there were not many classes, he would take Li Jiageng to go to the home shopping mall together. There is no fast logistics, and they have to run around in person if they want to buy anything. Both of them are students and they don’t have a car. They bought a desk lamp in this market and a coffee table in that market. Things, but they also need human flesh to fight back. Fortunately, they are both young men, not afraid of exertion, and they will be fierce again the next day after sleeping.

It didn't take long for their hut to become fuller. There was a stove in the kitchen, a TV in the living room, and a cover on the sofa. There was a problem with the original big bed in the bedroom, and one leg always creaked. They simply removed the bed. It was replaced with a spring mattress, and the decoration was a bit Japanese-style tatami.

I remember that day Wang Hewen played an old song on the computer, and hugged him in the small living room. He wanted to create a feeling of dancing together, but he couldn't dance, and he stepped on Li Jiageng several times.

"Thanks to your liking for men, if you were a girl, who would be so tossing around with you?"

"Isn't this a great sense of accomplishment? It feels like home when you do it yourself."

feel like home?Have it?Li Jiageng asked in his heart.

Forget it, he said there is it.

To be honest, the reason why Li Jiageng followed him more was because it was fresh, interesting, building a love nest with a man, like a newlywed couple, and now they bought red wine to celebrate - if his father knew, he would be angry Is it enough?What will happen to him?To burn this house like a doll?If that doesn't work, it's against the law.

Li Jiageng thought happily, he didn't even notice that Wang Hewen stepped on his foot again.

After that, things were lackluster.

What they wanted to do but couldn't do in the dormitory has become a reality in this world. They can cook with fire, play games until dawn, and use whatever electrical appliances they want, without the loud voice of the dormitory aunt and the neighbor There is a sudden knock on the door of the dormitory, and you can express your love unscrupulously...but that's it, life is no longer twists and turns.

Li Jiageng has always admitted that it is his own problem. Wang Hewen is not wrong. He takes his relationship seriously and wants to live a good life when he is settled down. The problem is himself.

It's because I'm tired of it.

If they did not live together at that time, but continued to fall in love secretly, after graduating from university and entering the society, would they still be together.

I don't know, there are no ifs in life.

…………

Li Jiageng held his mobile phone as if he was carrying a gun that had already been ignited, his chest was throbbing wildly, and he took it out after a few steps to take a look, as if the mobile phone was about to explode, he gently entered the password, and glanced at the WeChat dialog box , and turned it off in a hurry.

Li Henan: How about we live together?

There was nothing after this news, Li Jiageng didn't reply him, and Li Henan didn't ask any further questions, they both needed this blank space, to give the other party time to think about it, and give the other party time to regret it.

Is he serious?

Li Jiageng thought, because he, like himself, is reluctant to part each time?

How much does he want to be with him every day?

Then why didn't he continue to ask?Oh, that doesn't fit his style, after all he is Li Henan, even though their relationship is already so close, he is still stingy with words, and often he has several consecutive misses for you to love you in exchange for a sentence: Me too.

This wechat is already his most enthusiastic sweet talk.

Li Jiageng gripped the phone tightly, not knowing whether it was the hot body or his palms, he felt that he should reply him, it was already this time, it was impossible to pretend not to see it.

But what should I reply?

Finding a corner in the carriage, standing still, Li Kageng tapped the input box with his fingers, before he could figure out how to start, a call from Li Henan came in, the phone was set to silent, but only the three words "Li Henan" are here at Li Jiageng's place It has sound, like stormy waves, the kind of passionate sonata dedicated to important ceremonies——

The phone vibrated in Li Kageng's hand for a while, and finally stopped moving.

It was because of my bad signal that the car started.

Li Jiageng said to himself to the missed call.

As soon as the car stopped, Li Jiageng got off regardless of whether he arrived at the station or not, and then found a corner with the best signal to dial back.

Li Henan quickly picked it up: "Get off work?"

"Ah."

"No overtime today?"

"Um……"

Li Henan's tone was warm, without any disturbance, he didn't ask why he didn't answer the phone just now, nor why he didn't reply to WeChat, he was as calm as if nothing happened or as if all the troubles were just Li Jiageng's one-man show.

Li Kah Kee: "I was on the subway just now, the signal was not good."

Li Henan: "Well, I guessed it."

Li Kageng: "I'm very busy today, but fortunately I have an idea. I handed in three sketches. Sister Ling told us to go back and have an early rest today. No matter who's drawing is passed, we will start the hell mode tomorrow——"

He explained today's past as if he was pouring beans into a bamboo tube, as if he was afraid that the other party would interrupt him, but he was too worried, and Li Henan had no intention of interrupting.

Li Kageng: "...I saw your WeChat."

Li Henan: "Oh?"

Only then did the other party's tone become a little lively. Although it was only one syllable, it felt like a dead insect suddenly stretched out its tentacles, and the withered grass was blown by the wind, huh?Isn't that Cordyceps sinensis?

Li Jiageng was thinking about these things in a mess, and pulled out his mouth like reciting lines: "I am a person with very bad living habits, you can't stand mine... Besides, you like to be clean so much, I guess I will I can’t stand it either, it’s okay to live here a few times, but after a long time, it’s a torture for each other.”

There is no need to point out which one it is, and the other party will not ask specifically, as long as you start, you and I know exactly what he is answering.

Li Henan still didn't interrupt, but Li Jiageng could clearly feel that the other party was holding his breath, but he could only bite the bullet and continue: "Have you ever heard an old saying? It smells far away and smells near - every day, it's not new Now, isn't the current rhythm pretty good..."

Li Henan finally spoke up: "So, you are rejecting me."

"I..." Li Jiageng pinched the phone and felt that the phone was very hot, and his palms were sweating a lot. He changed his hand and found that this hand was also full of cold sweat.

"Actually, you don't need to say so much," Li Henan didn't want to let the topic hang in such an awkward way: "You don't need too many reasons to accept a person or reject a person, as long as I don't want to, that's enough."

I love you, I want to see you every day, I want to hug you every night, just because I want to, and in the same way, I just need to say: I don’t want to.

Li Jiageng pinched his phone, not knowing what to say for a while, is he going to bring out his painful experience and lessons?Just kidding, mentioning your ex in front of the current one is a big deal, and what can you do if you say it, besides letting the other party know that you agreed to live with your ex and have tried for more than a year?It will only make things worse.

"sorry."

Li Henan took a deep breath with relief: "It's okay, I actually expected it, but it's like listening to you answering it yourself."

Li Jiageng: "I...I miss you very much right now."

Li Henan: "Well, I know, so do I."

Li Kageng: "...May I go find you?"

Li Henan: "Now?"

Li Kageng: "Are you...inconvenient?"

His heart was beating wildly, his premonitions were always good, and he seemed to have messed things up.

Li Henan: "It's not inconvenient, it's because I might get off work late today, and I have a business dinner..."

Before he finished speaking, Li Jiageng hurriedly said: "It's okay! Then you go ahead, I... the car is here, I'll get in first!"