silent garden

"Okay, I'll think about it." Finally, Xia Qi replied to Lu Zhao like this.

The other party's gaze hidden behind the glasses was obviously happy, and then he went to find Professor Ye.

Of course, he wouldn't go to school just to ask Xia Qi about his future plans.Xia Qi is just one of the students he wants to see.Beiliang is recruiting in autumn, and his team wants to select newcomers, so he asked Professor Ye to recommend them and come to assess them in person.

After a while, the two went out with a bag of materials.

As usual, Professor Ye asked Zhou Huailuo to entertain the new junior, and Xia Qi had a meal.

"After dinner later, you can go somewhere with me." Before entering the restaurant, Zhou Huailuo whispered to Xia Qi.

"where?"

"My brother's there." Zhou Huailuo said angrily, the content of the answer was like no answer.

Xia Qi turned his head to look, only to see that his brows were tightly furrowed, and there was anger in his eyes.It looked like he was going to catch a traitor... Maybe he really was going to catch a traitor.

Xia Qifu thought deeply of Chen Zhixin——According to what Fei Tianlan said when coaxing him to be happy on the bed, if you don't like that type, let whoever loves it chase after him.

According to the current situation, the "who" probably refers to Zhou Huaiqiong.

"Oh." Xia Qi replied, "Okay."

This time Zhou Huailuo didn't choose that kind of expensive restaurant to entertain his younger brother. Their meal was simple and pure, and it ended quickly.

After the meal, Zhou Huailuo couldn't wait to dismiss Tian Hua, dragged Xia Qi into the car, and went straight to the next stop.A Japanese food store located in the art park, a small single-family building, quite emotional.

The store was packed, and the arches were hung with colorful balloons and small lights of various shapes.Most have "Happy Birthday" written on them, and some even have their names written on them.It really was Chen Zhixin.This is her birthday party.

Zhou Huailuo stood in front of the door looking at those light signs, his face was gloomy, his normally smiling eyes were now soaked with two pools of poisonous juice.Xia Qi suspected that he would pull those things off in the next second.

They stood for a while, and a clerk ran out from inside and bowed down to apologize: "Sorry, our place is booked out today, so it's inconvenient to receive customers anymore."

"I know, I'll just take a look." Zhou Huailuo said in a deep voice, but he didn't seem to intend to leave.Instead, he looked deeply into the arched door, and that dazed appearance was suspicious and dangerous just by looking at it.

The clerk was a little embarrassed.He looked at Xia Qi who was accompanying him, and asked for help.

Xia Qi raised his hand and shook it lightly, motioning for himself to handle it.The clerk hesitated for a while, then apologized to Zhou Huailuo again, "I'm so sorry, you can come to me next time, I'll give you a discount", and then went in hesitantly.

After staying for a full 5 minutes, Zhou Huailuo still had no intention of leaving.Xia Qi stepped forward and lightly bumped him with his elbow, "Since you won't go in, then go."

"No." Zhou Huailuo replied resentfully.

"If you don't leave, do you want to stand like a husband-watching stone?" Xia Qi stretched out his hand to pull him.

Hearing this, Zhou Huailuo turned his head abruptly, and stared at Xia Qi in horror: "How do you know?"

"I'm not blind. You are so dependent on your brother, anyone who has met can tell. You always count on Fei Tianlan and Chen Zhixin to be good, and you have been persuading me to stay away from Fei Tianlan all day long. You took good care of me before. For a while, it’s quite unnatural—I didn’t mean you didn’t take good care of it, but I just thought it wasn’t you. I didn’t realize until I saw your brother that you were imitating him.” After a short pause, Xia Qi pointed to himself, "What's more, I'm so ordinary that I don't look like a homosexual at all. If I'm not a homosexual, I won't think of me that way."

"I'm not!" Zhou Huailuo hastily retorted, with a somewhat fierce attitude.He was unwilling to leave the restaurant just now, but now he took the initiative to drag Xia Qi to a cafe opposite.

"I'll talk to you slowly."

"That's not the case with me and my brother." Zhou Huailuo clasped his hands, blushed, and argued for a long time.

"Oh." Xia Qi nodded lightly, did not ask any questions, and seemed to be listening attentively.

"My brother and I..." Zhou Huailuo's brows fainted with a little painful black, and the struggling emotions were hidden in it, "There are three children in my family, my eldest sister, my brother, and me. They are all very powerful, I can't. I I was a little autistic when I was a child. My parents didn’t have time to talk to me. They didn’t realize until I was three years old and started to use music therapy for me. Only my brother loves me at home. He often accompanies me to the music teacher’s class and likes to take me out .I never kissed anyone when I was a kid, only him. Do you understand?"

He looked at Xia Qi expectantly.

Empathy is obviously impossible, try to understand existence.Xia Qi nodded slightly to comfort Zhou Huailuo.

Zhou Huailuo sighed and leaned back in his chair, "So, you're right, I rely on him a lot."

Xia Qi pondered for a moment thoughtfully, but did not respond.

Zhou Huailuo caught his expression and hurriedly asked, "What do you think?"

"What do you think?"

"I think I treat my brother..." He frowned and chose a word, "What do you mean?"

How to answer this.Xia Qi has never had a discussion with anyone about boys' minds.Since he was a child, he has been very emotional. Before he came to Pinggang, he had been a day student and lacked experience in group life. He hadn't even participated in the sleep-talk meetings that teenagers often held.

The experience is too thin, he replied cautiously: "I think, you, for your brother, are a bit too much."

"Nonsense." Zhou Huailuo looked dissatisfied, "You still need to say this! I just want to ask, from your perspective, what do I mean?"

"..." A shocking problem.

Zhou Huailuo then began to analyze on his own: "I depend on him, he dotes on me, there is no problem. But I don't want him to get married and have children, anyone is 'other' in my eyes, how can others meddle with the two of us? So In essence, I'm intensely exclusive. That's the hallmark of a relationship. But, I'm not right, am I?"

Xia Qi looked hesitant: "...um."

"I'm wrong." Zhou Huailuo raised his hands above his head, clasped them together and hugged his head, showing a very distressed expression.

"But what can I do. I don't want to do this, I have no choice... When I think that he will marry someone else, have children, and he will have his own home, I feel so sad. How can he give that Girl's birthday... Do you know, this birthday party was carefully prepared for her by him. Both my parents said that the Chen family's high-tech energy is very good. If my brother marries her, his career will be prosperous It will help a lot. My dad quit the nuclear power company in the future, and our family will be in Pinggang like my brother... They don't care about me. If I'm divorced, I'll just live in the laboratory."

He hung his head, maybe crying, maybe not.

This pain seems a little funny at first, but after a while, it will feel very sad.

He already has an adult body, and he can act like an adult in his daily life and in his own field.But he was still a child at heart.

His memory, habits, dependence, love and sustenance are still closely related to the only person who loves him.He wants to monopolize him forever, but no reason in this world will accommodate him.

He is an outcast of common sense.

They sat in the coffee shop until after nine o'clock.After drinking three cups of coffee in a row, Zhou Huailuo finally calmed down.

At this time, Zhou Huaiqiong sent him a message.The phone was placed on the table, and Zhou Huailuo opened the message without hiding anything.

After reading it, he snorted lightly.

"Here." He signaled Xia Qi to watch too.

Those were three greeting messages, but the content seemed too intimate.

"Baby, are you asleep?"

"I'll go back later, love you."

Followed by a hug to sleep emoji.

Zhou Huailuo, who had calmed down, still had a brain, sighed, and said helplessly: "Look, this is not my problem alone. We are always like this, and it is not right at all... This problem is either life or death. Otherwise, you won’t be able to go back.”

Xia Qi looked at him, speechless.

"Let's go, I'll take you home." Zhou Huailuo put away his phone, took the car keys, left a few pink banknotes on the table, and left.

Back at Fei's house, Zhou Huailuo pestered him for a drink again.His pretentious appearance was pretty and pitiful, Xia Qi had no choice but to let him in.There is always beer at home.Zhou Huailuo moved one to the yard without seeing the other place.

It looks like he doesn't intend to go home.They drank right by the garden.The garden is full of flowers and plants replanted by Xia Qi, and most of them are growing gratifyingly.

Zhou Huailuo raised his chin and asked, "You planted these?"

Xia Qi nodded: "Basically."

Zhou Huailuo squatted in front of two rows of daisies.It is a plant that is easy to care for, it can live anywhere in the world, and it can be planted in all seasons.Now that the weather is getting colder, many summer flowers have already died, but they are blooming lively.

"The love hidden deep in my heart?" Zhou Huailuo asked while playing with a flower.After finishing speaking, he tilted his head and looked up at Xia Qi.

He spoke the language of daisies.Xia Qi twitched the corners of his lips, neither admitting nor denying it.

Zhou Huailuo and him looked at each other for a while, commented: "Fool." Then he got up to open the wine and handed Xia Qi a can, "You have changed all of such a big garden, you are really free... But, we all Pretty free."

Xia Qi paused, then said flatly: "The days in summer are too long."

After hearing this, Zhou Huailuo looked at him for a while and smiled helplessly.

"The days in summer are too long", this sentence was originally said by Zhou Huailuo to Xia Qi.That was the time when Professor Ye reprimanded him for not doing his job properly and for wanting to engage in agriculture, so he went to the Department of Agriculture.

He told Xia Qi that it was too boring to be alone at home, especially in summer evenings, it was not dark for a long time after school, he had nothing to do, so he had to plant flowers and plants.

Xia Qi didn't feel much about this in the past, but maybe because he was completely alone in Fei's house, he began to experience the loneliness and boredom of being alone from evening to night.

This garden helped him spend many days like this.

But he was luckier than Zhou Huailuo.Because when he was replanting the garden, he occasionally met Fei Tianlan who came back early.Therefore, this kind of time has a little more color to look forward to.

In short, this is an ordinary garden, and it is also his deep nostalgia in his heart.From this perspective, there is nothing wrong with the flower language of daisies.

The three cups of coffee they drank in the café worked so well that they were still alive after midnight.In the end, the yard was full of bottles and cans, and their head was dizzy, so they helped each other go upstairs, and fell down together in Xia Qi's small room.

And falling asleep is already in the middle of the night.

Both had a lot of missed calls on their cell phones, but neither of them checked.

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