【Xie Li】Returning to Sleeping Dreams

Xie Yunliu's heart was like frying oil, seeing Li Wangsheng's cheeks were flushed and his tentacles were hot, there was nothing he could do. After a while, the waiter brought up the soup, Xie Yunliu hurriedly took it, thinking to feed it to Li Wangsheng quickly.As soon as he took his mouth, he was poured half a bowl of hot soup and medicine. Li Wangsheng's mouth was so hot that he was almost bubbling. He coughed and vomited, making a mess on the bedding.Shopkeeper Luo heard the movement, looked around the door, and kindly reminded Xie Yunliu that he couldn't be impatient.

Li Wangsheng fell asleep drowsily, Xie Yunliu just tried his best to be patient, and kept blowing the dark brown soup.After a cup of tea, I tasted it and it didn't burn my mouth anymore, so I drank half a sip, lifted Li Wangsheng's armpit, let him half pillow on my shoulder, and fed it into my mouth.

Just mouthful after mouthful, after feeding the rest of the medicinal juice, Xie Yunliu gasped for a moment, Li Wangsheng suddenly wriggled a few times, his eyes closed tightly, which seemed to be a sign of a convulsion.

Young children sometimes have convulsions during high fever, but it is rarely seen in adults. However, Li Wangsheng's internal injuries recurred at this time, and the knife wound on his back hit the edge of the bed during the convulsions. .Xie Yunliu hurriedly sat down at the head of the bed, half-holding Li Wangsheng in his arms, letting his back shoulders lean against his chest so that he wouldn't hit hard objects.After he calmed down, he brought some warm water again, mouthful by mouthful, to moisten his chapped lips.It wasn't until dawn that Li Wangsheng fell into a deep sleep.

Xie Yunliu stayed by Li Wangsheng's bed for three days in undressed clothes. He no longer cared about the slightly surprised eyes of the inn clerk watching him feed Li Wangsheng medicine and water. The eyes of others were compared with Li Wangsheng's life. , what do you count?Shen Langzhong came to check Li Wangsheng's pulse every day, but the snow-white brows could not be relaxed, and the continuous fever and lethargy were not good omens.Xie Yunliu didn't talk much, he fed medicine and water, wiped his body and combed his hair, those things that he had never done for Li Wangsheng when he was a fellow practitioner, he did them all by himself.When Li Wangsheng fell asleep, he looked at his sleeping face quietly, but felt that Li Wangsheng in front of him seemed farther away than ever.

Xie Yunliu seldom had any in-depth and long conversations with Li Wangsheng. At this time, he felt that there seemed to be endless things to say, and he wanted to tell his junior brother, clearly expressing what was on his mind every day for the past eight years, but Li Wangsheng probably wouldn't hear it, just like in the years when he went to the country and left his hometown, he could only entrust each other's concerns to the bright moon.

People say that lovesickness can turn into ashes, but now I believe it.

Junior brother, you lost again.

Senior brother's swordsmanship is excellent, if not for many concessions, I would have lost more than one move.

Haha, don't be so serious, the future is long, huh?Let's stop here today, brother will take you down the mountain to play.

Well, brother, let's go, I have to practice the sword technique I just did a while ago.

Really not going?Then I can go.

Li Wangsheng was always so serious, so serious, young and mature, which made Xie Yunliu feel boring at that time.It doesn't matter if you don't go, you will also have a straight face if you bring you, and you won't have fun.Xie Yunliu thought this way, flying farther and farther in his own world.He couldn't see Li Wangsheng behind him, his eyes were all his shadow, looking at him for years, blue sea and blue sky, night and night with all his heart.

Only for one day, to be able to truly stand beside senior brother.

When the unsatisfied desire for protection shed the shell of sympathy, revealing his disgust and impatience for tarsal maggots, Xie Yunliu finally found that his attitude towards cowards was contempt.Zhuo Ran's swordsman is like a solitary sword in the dust. He does not pity the weak at all, but only asks for someone to stand shoulder to shoulder.

At that time, he still didn't seem to think of Li Wangsheng, because he was immersed in the pain of being betrayed by his master and younger brother, and he couldn't sleep peacefully every night for eight years.

That night when he was outside the door, he heard the conversation between his master and his younger brother. He seemed to be saying that the entire Chunyang Palace should not suffer because of Xie Yunliu alone.

At that time, Xie Yunliu's heart was seized by deep fear, not because he would be handed over to the court as a traitor, but because of the possible separation from his closest relatives.

Xie Yunliu's relatives were weak all his life. When he was adopted by Lu Yan, his memory of his parents was already blurred.After being a fellow practitioner with Li Wangsheng for seven years, the bond that was fused into his blood has already turned into a natural existence like breathing, as if it should have been like this since a long time ago.

Xie Yunliu knew Li Wangsheng so well that he thought he would never leave.

He knew that Li Wangsheng practiced so hard and practiced Taoism, and knew that Li Wangsheng gradually became stronger. It was like this eight years ago, and at this moment eight years later, he is still the only one who can stand side by side with him and face the world together. .

That's why Xie Yunliu always felt that Li Wangsheng would always be by his side and didn't need his care.

But now, what he believed in was shattered overnight, and the life and death of the junior whom he regarded as his closest relative from the bottom of his heart, who would never let him worry about him, was uncertain.

Eight years ago, I decided to leave, but now, Li Wangsheng is leaving me.Xie Yunliu never thought that one day, he might say goodbye to Li Wang. At this moment, this question seemed to be a bottomless abyss, which made him feel a fear that he had never felt before, and it was chilling to the bone.

Husband carries me in shape, labors me to live, and when I grow old, slows me down to death, so the one who is good at my life is also good at my death.

Xie Yunliu once thought that he had already penetrated it, but he didn't know that if it is not tied to emotion and not attached to the heart, it will be empty and quiet, while caring will lead to chaos.

It is related to Li Wangsheng's life and death, and it cannot be separated from the delusion of all living beings.

During the years of cultivating Taoism together, Li Wangsheng's existence has been integrated into his breath, so familiar that he doesn't need to care about it; outside the time in a foreign country, the memory of Li Wangsheng is the source of his pain, anger and resentment hover in his heart, but Never thought, why do you hate him so much?Until the blood is exhausted and the tears are exhausted, it is worth looking back.

The other pole of love is not hatred, but indifference.

He didn't forget Li Wangsheng because of the long mountains and rivers and the time flies. On the contrary, those warm eyebrows and eyes, in the midnight dream, gradually turned into the sober moonlight.

And Li Wangsheng has always been as he expected. After going through a thousand calamities, he still quietly stood beside Xie Yunliu, without asking any questions or complaining.It's not because of indifference by nature, but as Xie Yunliu himself said: my junior brother treats me very well.

Feeling unacceptable, going deeper.

If there really was a covenant in the previous life, wouldn't it have been fulfilled in this life from the moment they met?

Xie Yunliu has been wandering for half of his life, and for the first time he understands what is, and it is too late.

If one day the yin and yang are separated, I am afraid that no matter how much I want to say, it will be too late.

It turns out that there are still so many things on my mind that I never told you.

Li Wangsheng woke up after nightfall on the fourth day.In the summer night, cicadas croaked and frogs sounded, and fireflies were dotted between the window lattices, and the galaxy hanging in the sky could be vaguely seen.The whole body seemed to be filled with the bitter smell of decoction even in the crevices of the bones, and the body was still hot, which was very bad, and there was a faint feeling that something bad was going on.He saw Xie Yunliu lying on the pillow and sleeping lightly with his eyes closed, his normally lively eyes were a little red and swollen, stained with tear stains.

In Li Wangsheng's memory, he had never seen Xie Yunliu weeping, so he panicked and stretched out his hand tremblingly, caressing Xie Yunliu's brow.

Xie Yunliu woke up suddenly, saw Li Wangsheng's black jade-like pupils, and stared at him fixedly, in the light reflected in those eyes, little ripples appeared again, his eyelashes trembled slightly, and the ripples shattered into a piece of water , It seemed that the frost and snow that had gone through eight years of cold winter finally melted overnight.

Xie Yunliu saw Li Wangsheng's teardrops from his red and swollen eyes, slipping into his temples, and said softly: "In the world, life and death are nothing important, but it's not up to you." After a pause, he added: " If the medicine and stones are ineffective this time, senior brother should honor master for me."

Before he finished speaking, Xie Yunliu's lips and tongue blocked him.Li Wangsheng's fever has not subsided, his mouth is hot, he only feels that Xie Yunliu's cool lips and teeth carry the smell of medicine on his body, and he understands it, it is even more bitter, and the tears fall even more urgently.

Before the kiss was over, Xie Yunliu pressed against Li Wangsheng's lips, and said in a low voice: "If you die, I will follow you immediately on Huangquan Road, Master, I will have no face to see him again."

Li Wangsheng vaguely recalled the banter between the two of them when they were children, and they agreed to grow old together, and forced a smile: "Yes, we once agreed that we will grow old together."

Xie Yunliu didn't forget either, he just stuck on the center of Li Wangsheng's brows, feeling the heat, as if he wanted to look into his eyes, and said softly: "I am still the same today, I want to make an agreement with you to grow old forever, you are not allowed Leave me alone."

Li Wangsheng was bitter in his heart, he also had a thousand words to say, and wanted to tell his senior brother, fearing that he would never have another chance, he just blinked desperately to hold back his tears, and responded with a trembling voice.

Either it is reluctance to go back, or it is reluctance, since then I have left you alone, and I will die in the world of mortals.

Xie Yunliu suddenly raised his voice: "No, it's not what you think!" Fu slowed down his tone again, and only said to the two of them: "It's not a child's joke, it's just like what is said in the congratulatory speech, grow old together , united forever."

Li Wangsheng's tears suddenly burst like a dike. After a lifetime of longing and watching, he finally got his sweetheart's promise for the rest of his life. His sobbing voice was choked with words: "Wangsheng promises his brother today's promise, and will never leave him for the rest of his life."

Xie Yunliu took Li Wangsheng's plain white wrist, interlocked his fingers, bowed his head and kissed away the wet tears from the corners of his eyes.

How lucky is this life, the mountains and rivers are as old as before, and the old people are like yesterday.