【Xie Li】Returning to Sleeping Dreams

The palace lantern is placed on the bedside, in the shape of a double fish, carved bamboo and copper, gauze and silk horns, painted landscapes, white jade dotted with emerald green.The tea oil ignites a little bit brightly, exuding a faint fragrance.

When the two came back, they found that a playful little disciple had lit firecrackers on the mountain, and there was debris all over the place, and no one cleaned it.Xie Yunliu pushed Li Wangsheng back to the Tai Chi Hall to rest, and dealt with these disobedient disciples himself.

The paper door that separates the living room from the bathing place is half-closed, blocked by a screen, and the painting is a pure sun and snow scene, with green smoke curling up from the incense burner, and the faint light of the Changxin palace lantern next to it, reflecting on Li Wangsheng's face and body, There's something unrealistic about it.

The water in the warm pool is kept on fire all year round in the kitchen, and the bamboo pipes run from the ground to the disciples’ rooms. Naturally, the hot water in the Tai Chi Hall is always available.The hot air continued to flow from the soles of his feet. Li Wangsheng leaned against the stone-built warm pool, and his body slowly relaxed.

Under the smog, his originally delicate and indifferent face appeared a little misty, which made the fish between his eyebrows even more red.

This night is but a dream, this love is but a dream.No matter how poor half a life is, there is still a time to wake up from the dream.It's just that before dawn, before waking up from the dream, it's better to settle down.

Xie Yunliu punished those disciples for sweeping the snow for three days, and dealt with some other matters. When he returned to the Taiji Hall, he saw that the palace lantern was really well placed by the bedside, and the lights were golden and red, which made him feel very warm.

But Li Wangsheng was not there, presumably he was still taking a bath.

Xie Yunliu took two steps to make sure, but he never thought that the paper door was only half closed, the screen was also made of silk paper, the firelight from Changxin Palace Lantern came through, and the pure sun and snow scene was translucent.

The skin is as white as jade, and the obscene clothes and hair crowns are placed outside the screen, so as not to get wet.The long hair was loose, as thick as ink, and it swayed slightly as Li Wangsheng stretched out his hands to shower. It brushed over his waist and hips, entwined between his legs, and a long section floated on the surface of the water, strands and strands.

When Li Wangsheng stood up to wipe it, his eyelids were slightly closed, and his hair slid down the narrow arc between his waist and hips, and fell into the water. The light and shadow were so heavy that he couldn't see it clearly, and it only attracted reverie.

This should be Xie Yunliu's first time seeing Li Wangsheng in such a state of indifference.Although the screen is half-covered and the paper door is half-closed, it can indeed be seen dimly.

Back in the East China Sea, Xie Yunliu tore Li Wangsheng's clothes out of desperation, but without even making any preparations, he directly hurt him.Until the end, Li Wangsheng was only wearing a torn coat, and his long white trousers were stained with blood, but it was not completely wiped off.

There is also Dongying, although he cleaned and applied medicine for Li Wangsheng, Xie Yunliu was only flustered, heartbroken and irritable at such a dilapidated and desolate scene.

Probably no one would have thought of the color in Xie Yunliu's eyes at this moment.

His pupils are like black jade, like a bottomless abyss, thrilling.

The swaying of his mind at that glance made him not turn around and leave immediately, but stayed where he was, as if lurking, subconsciously holding his breath, holding his internal energy, hiding his body, and retreating behind the paper door, the emotions in his heart were surging, only himself Know.

Like a thunderstorm, it reverberated in my mind for a long time.Xie Yunliu's fingertips were numb with tension.

That is not brotherhood, not family affection, the only emotion that has been buried in my heart for 30 years and has never been unwilling or dared to touch.

The kind of bitterness and ecstasy buried in the bottom of my heart that I dare not ask for knowing that I have hurt the other party.

It is clearly desire.

Geng wants to be born, Jia wants to be born, and when Jia is born, the way of Geng begins to sprout.

Pull out the root of the sky and the marrow of the earth, and the white snow and yellow buds will grow by themselves.

Li Wangsheng was already wearing obscene clothes.

Xie Yunliu turned and left, meditating in the snow in front of the Tai Chi Hall.

Ye Xue was icy cold, and she couldn't hold back that trace of thoughts.He sat motionless, with thousands of insects and ants biting his heart, and there was a strange itching and pain.

Behind it is the Tai Chi Hall with a faint glaze color in the night, with a quiet beauty under the moonlight.He didn't dare to look back, he just closed his eyes and focused.The wind blew through the tall pine branches, and the silent snowfall could be heard all around.

He didn't dare to move, as if forever, he was willing to keep it like this.

It's just that after half an hour like this, Xie Yunliu opened his eyes, knowing that if he didn't go back, Li Wangsheng might be worried and confused.And I couldn't explain it myself, I didn't dare to explain it.

His mood was complicated, indescribably transparent, with ecstasy, but also endless chagrin and hesitation.

He once nailed Li Wangsheng on such a frame of shame, made him physically and mentally injured, and almost drove him to a dead end.

It's just that I'm in a mess, and I've already hurt him like this, how dare... how dare...

He slowly walked back to the living room, only to see that Li Wangsheng was still waiting for him.The bedside palace lamp was on, and Li Wangsheng put on another padded robe over his obscene clothes. He looked up at him at this time, his expression was still as gentle as in the past ten years.

But Xie Yunliu didn't dare to look any more, so he had to look down, and found Li Wangsheng's feet wrapped in plain socks were exposed outside his robe.

Quietly shrunk in a corner, as if slender and boneless, arousing love and pity from the bottom of the heart.

Li Wangsheng looked up and saw that his expression was different, he just felt that he was being affectionate, but he thought that he would go tonight no matter what.

When the morning light shines on the top of Chunyang Qianzhong again tomorrow, everything is nothing but the illusion of Taoism, and it is my own greed, hatred and ignorance.

I have been poor all my life, but everything is related to Xie Yunliu, I am afraid I will never be able to cultivate precepts, concentration and wisdom.

Li Wangsheng leaned in, and said: "It's a bit cold tonight. My quilt is already warming me up, if senior brother doesn't mind..."

Xie Yunliu was startled, he almost thought it was a dream, and also felt that his mind was impure and he was thinking too much, maybe he had ignored the kindness of his junior brother.

He went to the side of the couch and sat down, moved the lantern slightly away, leaned on the couch, deliberately not to look at Li Wangsheng, and said: "Why would I mind? Don't see it so late. Although the lights won't flicker, It still hurts to look at it for a long time.”

He lowered his head and talked, his eyes fixed on Li Wangsheng's feet.

Li Wangsheng was naturally aware of it.With a groan in his heart, he retracted his feet into his robe and stopped talking.

Xie Yunliu was taken aback, knowing that he had a knot in his heart, so he was very sensitive, and he felt unbearable even just looking at it.

Xie Yunliu felt a pang in his heart.He stood up, stretched out his hand, and grabbed Li Wangsheng's ankle.Through the plain socks, he lightly touched the branded area with his thumb, and Li Wangsheng's right foot was in his palm, so weak that it would shatter if he pinched it lightly.

Xie Yunliu said: "Wangsheng, I know this is your knot - it's also mine. But no matter how much you annoy me and hate me, you really don't have to hide it like this in front of me. How can I hide it? Yes, why do you think you are humble because of this?"

Li Wangsheng really felt that this brand was despicable, shameful and ugly.But it seemed that as long as Xie Yunliu said it, he was willing to listen and believe it.

Even if Xie Yunliu was just trying to relieve him and comfort him.

He stretched out his hand to grab Xie Yunliu's robe, and said in a low voice, "Yes."

Xie Yunliu's heart was agitated, but he slowly pulled back the corner of his robe and said, "I'll go take a bath first."

He has not fully dared to do anything to Li Wangsheng that might hurt him without knowing what Li Wangsheng is thinking.

Even if Li Wangsheng's action of pulling his robe seemed to hold him back, the one-tenth of the fear of "maybe hurting him" had already suppressed that emotion.

So Xie Yunliu just said in a low voice, you are puzzled, don't think too much.

Xie Yunliu went to take a bath.

Li Wangsheng curled up, only feeling a bone-chilling chill.

He shivered, the hope that he shouldn't have thought about, that hope that he didn't want to think about was like a candle in the wind, flickering, and turned to ashes.

The whole body is cold, and there is no warmth anymore.

It is because he thinks too much and is too self-indulgent.

Orthodox disciples of Taoism and Taoism are so shameless.

The ordinary warmth between teachers and brothers can actually think about what if, what if.

I'm afraid the senior brother has already noticed it, right?He just rejected himself in such a gentle way and saved himself.He was so good, but he had delusions after all.

Can't ask for it.Can't ask for it.

Such strong shame, such greed, hatred and ignorance, swept a kind of self-loathing.

Li Wangsheng thought, the dream will eventually wake up.

But, it didn't last until dawn.

Xie Yunliu stayed in the warm pool for a long time, and only when he felt that he could no longer stay and could restrain himself, did he put on his clothes and come out.

Li Wangsheng was already asleep, curled up inside, leaving more than half of the space for Xie Yunliu.

There seemed to be tears in the corners of his eyes, and half of his face was also shrunk under the quilt.Xie Yunliu looked at him quietly, bent down, and kissed him lightly at the corner of his reddish eyes.

Li Wangsheng remained silent.Xie Yunliu's heart was very quiet, as if he was faintly happy that he didn't wake up, but also faintly disappointed, and finally returned to innocence.