middle of the road

The first thing Chi Yu did when he went back was to throw away all the clothes that Chi Haidong bought for him in his closet.

Then he took two steps back and fell on the bed on his back. The emotions he deliberately concealed gradually regained consciousness in the empty environment in the middle of the night. His body was a little heavy, as if he was about to fall to the floor with his flesh and blood. Close your eyes to avoid the glare of the overhead light.

He doesn't hate Chi Haidong, really, because that's his original face, which was presented to him four years ago without reservation, let him make a choice between yes or no, he didn't choose the right one, he was blind He is credulous, so compared to him, he hates himself more, hates why he is so weak and easy to bully, why he still believes in him even if his conscience is not dead, and even goes against Zhao Shuangqing for him.

He can say that when he helped Chi Haidong keep the company, he considered the hard work of the whole family, considered the future planning, and even more noble, considered the social responsibility of the company, but he couldn't get rid of that moment. Dong Dong's selfishness under the remaining family affection.

Because he didn't forget what Chi Haidong said to him in the hospital that day, saying that he was his only child.

Now that I think about it, it's really ironic.

A little girl who was born in the same year as Chi Shan and who called him brother also lived in this world, just one wall away from the house they used to live in. Haidong is going to hide it from him for many years, but with his vileness, Chi Yu has no doubt that it will be a lifetime, and he will be kept in the dark for the rest of his life.

Maybe one day, because of the passing of the situation, he will look away and shake hands with Chi Haidong to make peace.

Chi Yu couldn't help sneering at the absurdity of this place.

Zhao Shuangqing said that saving Chi Haidong was equivalent to letting him spend money to raise other women outside. He didn't believe it before, but now it's a prophecy. It's obvious that his decision made some people unable to sit still. As for which decision it was, maybe Whether it was the sequelae of his abstention that directly affected her interests, or maybe it was his decision to stay that frustrated her hope of living in front of others, it was possible, but it had nothing to do with him.

All he cares about now is the fact that Zhao Shuangying didn't jump off the building because of depression, Chi Haidong pushed him down with his own hands, his hands were stained with the blood of his closest relatives, Chi Yu will never forgive this, All of Chi Haidong's deceit ends here.

Not only will he not stop those things that brought him to the brink of desperation and disappointed him, on the contrary, he very much hopes that he can have the same personal experience as him, and even more profound.

Lying in such a dazed way for an unknown amount of time, Chi Yu took out the phone from his pocket, installed the battery and turned it on. Chi Haidong called him countless times, from the time he finished sending that text message to the time he turned it on. 1 minute before.

Among the airtight communication records, there are only two exceptions, one is Huang Ming's and the other is Cheng Yang's. The interval between each other is less than 5 minutes. It should be that Huang Ming asked Cheng Yang after he found out that he didn't go back. up.

Chi Yu walked over, found out Zhao Shuangqing's number, hesitated, he was ashamed to go to her again, Zhao Shuangqing didn't forget anything, and he forgot, although he didn't forget completely, but after he asked her to show evidence over and over again When he went to prove Chi Haidong's innocence, he was indeed shaken. He was like a betrayer who shot at his allies after protecting the enemy.

It seems that he is no longer qualified to complain about Chi Haidong's bad deeds, but now he is so desperate to find someone to talk to, reality and memories pass by his eyes alternately, regret and self-blame are even more tormenting He is almost insane.

He didn't want to stay alone anymore, face all this alone, and drag himself into the abyss.

However, in his world, she is the only one who can express his opinion and empathize with what happened to him.

He pressed down, waited for a long time but still no one answered, beeping sound, until finally he hung up, Chi Yu turned over, curled up slowly, buried his face in his knees, just like that After a while, he picked up the phone again and called Cheng Yang.

After being connected, he gave two feeds over there before he regained his breath, and then, as if afraid of disturbing him, Cheng Yang called him softly, "Chi Yu?"

"Come and accompany me." Chi Yu said hoarsely, interrupting what he wanted to ask where he was going later.

"Now?"

"Yes, right now."

Chi Yu's tone wasn't good, but it wasn't too bad either. Listening carefully, you could even hear a little weakness in it, but I don't know if there is a lesson learned from the past, or Cheng Yang doesn't like his too commanding tone, and never He should be domineering, his voice cooled down, "Do you want to fuck again?"

"Do you only think of me that way now?" Chi Yu's face darkened, and he described himself as a beast in clothes, which made his hands tremble a little, "Or do you think you are so attractive?!" After finishing speaking He hung up the phone abruptly and threw the phone out.

He only lost control that time, but he was firmly nailed to the pillar of shame by Cheng Yang. He didn't know what kind of feelings he had for Cheng Yang, which made him run to find him in such an impulsive situation, and wanted so urgently. to get him.

But now, it doesn't matter if it's someone of the same sex who has a good impression, or a friend who crosses the border, he's a little tired of thinking and guessing.

Chi Yu turned over twice in a row, but couldn't find a position that would make him even a little more comfortable. He sat up, looked at the phone by his feet, picked it up again, and called Cheng Yang.

Cheng Yang answered, but didn't speak.

"I'm sorry." Chi Yu sighed, and rubbed his hands vigorously on his face, "I'm in a bad mood right now, can you come and accompany me?"

"I can't go away." Cheng Yang waited for a while before speaking, "Cheng Le is not here, Cheng Ying refuses to sleep at home alone, can you come over?"

Chi Yu didn't speak, he didn't want to move, he wanted Cheng Yang to accompany him, instead of him going to Cheng Yang to accompany him.

The two were silent, and just when Chi Yu was about to say it was over, Cheng Yang compromised, "I only have two hours at most."

"Then come here." It doesn't matter if it's two hours or two minutes, as long as it's even a second longer than now, he urgently needs it.

Cheng Yangguang came here on the road, and it took about half an hour. When he knocked on the door, Chi Yu checked through the cat's eyes before opening. He was afraid it was Chi Haidong. The last message Chi Haidong sent him was that I wanted to talk to him, but he was outside today, so it was impossible to rush over in such a short time, but Chi Yu still locked the door behind him.

He didn't want to talk to him, at least tonight, he didn't want to have any chance to sit with him face to face and listen to his defense.

Chi Yu's appearance was not very good, as if he had been hit by something, Cheng Yang saw it the first time he entered the door, he asked him where he was going at night on the phone before, but was interrupted by Chi Yu, it seemed that he didn't want to say anything, He didn't ask any more, but looked at him, "Did you eat?"

"Didn't I eat in the cafeteria with you, did you forget?" Chi Yu smiled with the corners of his mouth pulled.

"Then would you like something to drink?" Cheng Yang asked, "Let me warm you a cup of milk."

"No need." Chi Yu pulled him back, "I may not be able to sleep tonight, but I still want to sleep. You can go when the time comes, and leave me alone."

"Yeah." @无限好文, all in Jinjiang Literature City

Chi Yu turned on the air conditioner and lay down on the bed. On the way here, he sweated a little. Cheng Yang went in and took a shower. When he came out, Chi Yu had already turned off the light. He touched and lay down next to him, afraid that he would fall asleep. Cheng Yang Yang kept his eyes open and looked out the window. The floor was a bit high, and he couldn't see anything outside the window. After a while, he looked back. Chi Yu should have fallen asleep, but he slept very restlessly.

Cheng Yang was worried that he had a fever, or that he was not thorough when he asked for sick leave before. He touched his forehead and felt the cold sweat in his hand. Did he have a nightmare?

He moved over to him, reached out and pulled Chi Yu into his arms, and kissed him lightly on the tip of his nose.

Chi Yu has always been a little dazed, dreaming all kinds of chaotic dreams repeatedly, one moment is Li Tingzhi sitting on his bedside crying, and another moment is Chi Shan wearing a new dress and laughing in circles, but the most dreamy one is today That woman, that person whose face he couldn't even remember when he thought about it now.

In the dream, she was holding a knife, stabbing at his dead body one by one, while he was lying on the ground motionless, like that, it was obvious that he had died when he jumped down from the stairs, he saw his dead state, a burst of cold air suddenly Jumped from the soles of the feet all over the body.

He actually knew when Cheng Yang left, but he didn't wake up. He didn't open his eyes until the sound of closing the door came from outside.

He turned on all the lights, sat in the living room, felt too bright for a while, then turned them all off, and then sat like this until dawn.

At around six o'clock, Cheng Yang sent a message to ask if he could ask for leave for him. He told Huang Ming yesterday that he was fine, but Chi Yu said no.

It is impossible for him to have a premonition because of this, and he has been preparing for so many years. The only thing he can't accept now is not the death of Zhao Shuangying and Chi Shan, nor is he suddenly having a younger sister , but Chi Haidong has been lying to him.

Entering the classroom in the morning, the seat returned to the first row after two semesters. Chi Yu sat in it again, and getting in and out became less convenient. It was rare for Feng Jun not to read a book today. He lay on the table and Chi Yu left. He went to his side and knocked on the table, but no one moved.

There are noisy voices all around, Chi Yu doesn't believe that he can really fall asleep, if he wants to change it in normal times, he might just forget about it, jumping in from the outside is the same, or ask Cheng Yang to step back, but he is in an unusual mood today , so he bluntly knocked twice more.

"Knock what, you don't have eyes!" Feng Jun raised his head, and also saluted him rudely.

"Mom, are you sick?" Seeing his attitude, Chi Yu immediately became angry.

"You are the only one who is fucking sick." Feng Jun glared at him with contempt on his face, "Who knows who the hell is sick?"

"What do you mean?" Chi Yu tugged at his collar.

Feng Jun waved him away, "That's what it means, don't ask me if you are sick, ask yourself."

Chi Yu threw away his schoolbag and gave him a sharp push, "If you have the guts, please make it clear, don't be so fucking weird, I don't owe you anything!"

Feng Jun fell backwards and knocked over the books on Cheng Yang's desk, which immediately caused a lot of commotion. Li Rujiang and the others quickly surrounded him, pulling Chi Yu one after another, "Don't be as knowledgeable as him, you didn't pass the exam Find someone to vent your anger on."

"That's right." Tang Xiaowei has always disliked Feng Jun, "I haven't had menopause for three years, it's lucky that you can bear him for so long."

Feng Junren didn't fall, and Chi Yu's push wasn't too heavy, but because the seat was small and filled with all kinds of review materials, he staggered, and cut a small hole when his hand touched something.

He stood up, looked at the back of his hand and sneered, and looked at him with disgust on his face, "Chi Yu, you're so fucking disgusting, I've seen it all, the scandal between you and Cheng Yang."

Cheng Yang just came in through the back door, and when he heard this sentence, he stopped suddenly and looked up at Chi Yu.

"Damn it?" Of course Tang Xiaowei and the others didn't know what the "scandalous thing" he was talking about, they just thought he was going crazy again.

"What scandal?" Chi Yu clenched his fists by his side, with a pale face, he asked again in disbelief.

Feng Jun looked back at Cheng Yang, his face changed slightly, he turned around, picked up the book that fell on the floor, randomly pulled out a tissue to cover the wound, and cursed in a low voice as if unwilling, "Dead gay. "

The voice is not loud, but the enunciation is very clear, and everyone around can hear it.

"What did you say?" Li Rujiang asked.

"I said trash." Feng Jun cursed, and even glanced at Tang Xiaowei and the others, "The whole class is trash."

After the voice fell, everyone fell silent.

Because of poor grades, class one was looked down upon by the whole grade. Feng Jun, as the only talent in the class, always behaved out of tune with them.

But since this semester, the students who realized the importance of the college entrance examination have been catching up. The second model not only far exceeded the average score, but even surpassed the second class next door. Especially for a person who was accepted by everyone but only withdrawn. Feng Jun was not only a second model this time, but also failed in the joint entrance exam and the first exam.

So Tang Xiaowei was very upset when he heard it, and immediately pushed Chi Yu away and rushed up, "Mom, who the hell are you calling trash, keep your mouth clean!"

Li Rujiang and the others went to persuade him, but some people followed Tang Xiaowei in resentment, and the scene was chaotic for a while.

Someone gave Chi Yu a hand and pulled him aside who was standing dumbly and hadn't said a word until now, "Don't pay attention to him, he is a mad dog, he will bite anyone he catches."

"That's right, your grades are better than his, and it's not a day or two since he can't understand you." @无限好文，all in Jinjiang Literature City

"The pressure is too much. I think he has been a little mentally abnormal recently."

"..."

Everyone didn't believe it, and they didn't take that bad word seriously.

But since Cheng Yang stood here, Chi Yu had already seen his shadow in his peripheral vision, but he didn't even look at him.