Hidden heart

"Brother Yao, come out!" Xue Ze begged on the other side of the phone.

"I won't come out, you can play by yourself."

"What's wrong? Someone here misses you, the Brenda from last time..."

"Enough, Xue Ze! I won't come!" Shen Yao quickly hung up the phone.

He turned his head and saw Fan Xuechen was still sitting on the chair, looking at him.

Shen Yao walked over and heard him say: "If you want to go out, go out."

"Do you want me to go out?"

Fan Xuechen lowered his head and said nothing.

"Look, you don't want me to go out in your heart, do you?"

Shen Yao raised his sharp chin, and said softly, "Xue Chen, tell me what's on your mind, okay?"

Fan Xuechen pursed her lips, and said softly: "You stay here with me all the time, don't you feel tired?"

Shen Yao smiled, "How come?" He held Fan Xuechen half in his arms, and said, "So you have always cared about me like this in your heart."

Fan Xuechen turned her face away in shame.He is so self-respecting that he is always afraid that the people he cares about are just making fun of him.

Shen Yao flipped through the scrolls on the painting table and said, "Why are there no paintings by you on these papers?"

"I haven't drawn one."

"Didn't you say you want to paint? Why don't you paint?"

Fan Xuechen didn't answer, and after a while he said dryly: "I'll draw again in a few days."

Shen Yao hugged him and sat on her body, kissed his red and swollen lips, and said, "Didn't you think of me when you started painting?"

Fan Xuechen rested her head on his shoulder and did not speak.

"Sometimes I really envy your paintings." Shen Yao sighed slightly, and then said: "In your heart, am I also a painting?"

Fan Xuechen smiled faintly, "Do you think so?"

Shen Yao caressed his face and said softly, "I hope so."

"I hope so too." Fan Xuechen said softly and hoarsely, his eyes looked up to the sky, revealing an indescribable sadness.

Shen Yao was happy because of his answer, he said with interest: "Why?"

"Because..." Fan Xuechen said after a while, "This is closer to eternity."

"Eternity?" Shen Yao couldn't understand his words.

"Yes, eternity." He said and added: "It just never changes..."

"It will never change again..." Shen Yao repeated his words, and said with a smile: "Is there anything in this world that never changes?"

He didn't hear Fan Xuechen's words, he only saw that he closed his eyes and sealed his emotions in his own world forever.

Shen Yao suddenly felt distressed, so he lowered his head and kissed his forehead lightly, and said softly: "Xuechen, don't worry, I will always be by your side."

There was already a piece of silver outside the curtains, Shen Yao whispered in his ear: "When I come back from a business trip next week, let's go to the West Lake together, the snow scene there must be beautiful."

"Shen Yao..." Fan Xuechen suddenly hugged him tightly, and a different emotion was revealed in his voice.

"what happened?"

"will you miss Me?"

"Of course!" Shen Yao stroked his back, happy for his attachment to her. "I will miss you every day, call you, send you a video, you must answer, you know?"

"if……"

"what if?"

"If you haven't seen me for a long time, will you miss me?"

Shen Yao smiled, let him go, and said, "Why have I not seen you for a long time? Xuechen, do you care about me so much? Don't you want to be separated from me even for a moment?"

"you answer me."

Shen Yao looked at him seriously and said, "I will miss you, I will miss you very much, maybe I will miss you like crazy."

"Then what if... what if I die?"

"How come?" Shen Yao frowned and said, "Xue Chen, what are you talking about?"

"I heard that only death will become eternal. I don't know if it's true?"

"Xuechen—"

"Will you always remember me?" Fan Xuechen stared at him, as if waiting for an answer in his heart.

"I won't let you die!" Shen Yao suddenly felt panicked, he hugged the person in his arms tightly, and said, "You are mine, and you will always be me!"

He didn't hear Fan Xuechen's voice, and when he let go, he saw his eyes were fixed on the lamp on the table.

"What are you looking at?"

"I wonder if time will stand still at this moment forever?"

"Xuechen!" Shen Yao caressed his face and said, "What are you thinking?"

Fan Xuechen suddenly gave him a vague smile, and said, "It's nothing, I always like to think wildly."

"Are you worried about me? Are you afraid that I will leave you or something?"

"It's nothing, it's nothing..." Fan Xuechen murmured while hugging him.His head was buried in Shen Yao's arms, unwilling to say another word.

There was a moment of silence in the room.Shen Yao hugged the person in his arms tightly, and suddenly remembered what Xue Ze said about him, and a thought came to his mind - what would he do if he broke up with Fan Xuechen one day?

Will he leave silently?Or will you cling to yourself tightly?or he will—

Thinking of this, Shen Yao couldn't help but shudder slightly.

"Xuechen..." He raised Fan Xuechen's face.

Fan Xuechen slowly opened his eyes and looked at him, those clear eyes seemed to contain tears.

Shen Yao couldn't say anything, he lowered his head to kiss him.But the sweetness just now seemed to be stained with a little heaviness, and it was difficult to erase it for a while.

***

As soon as Shen Yao got in the car and left Fan Xuechen, he immediately sent him a video.

"Xuechen!" Shen Yao looked at the people in the video with a smile and said, "Have you gone back?"

"Well, I'm at home."

The people in the video seem to be a little different from usual, and Shen Yao doesn't know why, remembering the moment when he parted from him, his expression was so dignified and sad, Shen Yao could hardly bear to leave everything behind, and never leave him.

"What's the matter with you?" Fan Xuechen asked softly.

"I don't want to part with you, Xuechen, just let me watch you all the time, okay?"

"En." Fan Xuechen stared at him, and responded in a low voice.

"What are you having for dinner tonight?"

"The lunch dishes are not finished yet."

……

Shen Yao didn't turn off the video until he got on the plane.After getting off the plane, he called Fan Xuechen again.

I don't know why, but his heart always seems to be bound by a kind of tenderness, which makes him so reluctant to let go.It wasn't until this moment that he tasted a kind of "lovesickness".

It's already the second day in Hong Kong.After getting out of the elevator, Shen Yao's cell phone rang suddenly when he reached the door of the conference room.He didn't want to answer it at first, but when he saw the name displayed on the phone, he immediately walked to the other end of the corridor and picked up the phone.

"Xuechen!" Unexpectedly, it was Fan Xuechen who called him!Obviously he played the video for him in the morning.And this is the first time since Shen Yao met him, he called him on his own initiative, which made him feel incredible!

"Shen Yao..." Fan Xuechen's voice came softly from there, so far away that it seemed unreal.

"What's wrong? Did you miss me?" Shen Yao was half joking, he really couldn't imagine what Fan Xuechen could call him.

"Yes, I miss you..."

"Xue Chen..." Shen Yao's heart was suddenly filled with tenderness, this feeling is so wonderful.

"Shen Yao, I..." Fan Xuechen's voice became weaker, and Shen Yao seemed to hear the sound of crying.

"Xuechen! Are you crying?"

"No, no."

Shen Yao felt relieved, and asked, "What's wrong with you? Did you want to say something?"

"Yes. Shen Yao, I want to tell you..." The words were cut off here.

"Xue Chen?"

"I'm fine, are you busy?"

"I have a meeting right now."

"Then you... you go."

"Xuechen, what do you want to say? Tell me." Shen Yao started to walk back.

"Shen Yao, take care of yourself."

"Huh?" The conference room was already full of people, but Shen Yao still hesitated to go in.

"I'm hanging up, Shen Yao."

"Wait—" Shen Yao couldn't help calling him, "Xue Chen, I'll be back the day after tomorrow, and then we'll go to the West Lake to enjoy the snow together. After you come back, you continue to draw your paintings, and I will start to prepare the picture about snow." Photography exhibition, okay?"

"Shen Yao...Shen Yao..." Fan Xuechen only called him twice before the phone was hung up suddenly.

"Xuechen!" Shen Yao hurriedly called again, but Fan Xuechen's cell phone had been turned off, and no one responded to him anymore.

Shen Yao finished the morning meeting restlessly, his mind was in a mess, he got out of the elevator, and hurriedly called Fan Xuechen again.But it was still turned off, and the phone couldn't get through.

"Damn it!" He cursed, and found Bai Yuwei's phone number again.

"Yuwei, have you met Xuechen?" He asked eagerly after the phone call.

"Xuechen just said goodbye to me."

"What? Where is he going?"

"he's gone."

"Are you lying to me? How could Xuechen leave?" Shen Yao roared unconsciously.

Bai Yuwei smiled lightly over there, "Why should I lie to you? Mr. Shen?"

"Where did he go?"

"He should be back where he should go."

"where is he?!"

"You can talk about it when you come back. I have something to do now, so I'll hang up first."

Shen Yao was going crazy, although he still didn't want to believe Bai Yuwei's words, but the reality couldn't help but make him believe it!

"Xue Chen, did you really leave me?" He couldn't figure it out——whatever it was, he couldn't figure out why!

He couldn't wait for tomorrow's schedule, so he immediately booked a return flight and flew back to S city.