Hidden heart

When he came to the elegant room on the second floor, he saw Fan Xuechen first, and then Zhang Jingyuan sitting beside him—the female student from the painting academy.

This time, Shen Yao stepped in lightly, while Fan Xuechen had been looking at the painting in front of him, and didn't notice his arrival at all.On the contrary, Zhang Jingyuan seemed to feel something, raised his eyes quietly, and when he saw Shen Yao, he opened his eyes wide, like a frightened deer, and quickly lowered his head again.

"What's wrong with you?" Fan Xuechen saw Zhang Jingyuan's hand holding the pen shake slightly, and said.

"No..." Zhang Jingyuan looked at Fan Xuechen with a blushing face, and said in a panic, "Mr. Fan, I... I'm sorry..."

"It doesn't matter. But when you paint, you should concentrate on nothing else, no matter what is in your heart, you can't bring those emotions into the painting, you know?"

"Understood." Zhang Jingyuan didn't know why, his whole face felt hot, "I don't know how sir did it?"

"Because my heart is only on your painting at this time, if your heart moves at this time, I can feel it from your brush."

"Sir, you are amazing..." Zhang Jingyuan wanted to ignore the two gazes coming from not far away as much as possible, so she put all her energy on Fan Xuechen's face.

Fan Xuechen suddenly saw that her face was flushed like fire, with hot sweat on her forehead, she couldn't help saying: "You...are you sick?"

"No! It's not..." Zhang Jingyuan quickly lowered his head again, and took a peek at Shen Yao. Shen Yao had already stood up, with his hands in his trouser pockets, looking at her with blazing eyes.

Her heart skipped a beat, she stood up reflexively, and said, "Sir, someone is here..."

Only then did Fan Xuechen notice Shen Yao, and said, "Why are you there?"

Shen Yao walked over with a half-smile, "I didn't want to disturb you, Xuechen."

Fan Xuechen glanced at Zhang Jingyuan, who was blushing with her head down, and said, "Go back first."

"Oh..." Zhang Jingyuan hurriedly put away the painting, and ran out in a panic.

Shen Yao laughed, then hugged Fan Xuechen into his arms, and said, "That female student is really interesting."

Fan Xuechen frowned, "You think she's interesting?"

"Xuechen, I don't mean anything else, I just think she's too self-indulgent. I'm looking at you, not her."

Fan Xuechen pushed him away and cleaned up the drawing paper and ink brushes on the table.

"Xue Chen, you really didn't feel me coming?"

"I don't know when you came."

"Then I should really envy her. Does she come to you every day? She spends more time with you than I do with you. "

"I'm just teaching her to draw, don't talk nonsense."

Shen Yao looked at his serious face, hugged him quickly, and said, "Xue Chen, I understand. I just want you to know how much I want to be with you."

"Have you ever thought about me?" Shen Yao gently stroked his face and asked.

Fan Xuechen lowered his head, seemed to be thinking seriously, and said after a while: "Yes."

"When?"

"When I'm not looking at pictures."

"Here are all paintings, so you don't miss me as much as I miss you." Shen Yao smiled and lowered his head to kiss those thin lips.

Fan Xuechen only let him kiss her, then pushed him away.

"Are you afraid of being seen by others?" Shen Yao suddenly thought of something, and said, "Are you afraid of Bai Yuwei?"

Fan Xuechen didn't answer, but glanced at the fading twilight outside the window, and said, "Where are you going at night?"

"Go to my house, okay?"

Fan Xuechen nodded, picked up the suit hanging on the side, and put it on.

*****

"Xuechen, stay with me tonight, okay?" Shen Yao hugged Fan Xuechen who was washing dishes from behind.

Seeing that he didn't speak, Shen Yao put down the bowl in his hand, made him turn his face away, and said, "Are you afraid of Bai Yuwei?"

"Do not."

"What is that for? You tell me."

Fan Xuechen bit her lip lightly, but still did not speak.

"I want to be with you, do you understand? You shouldn't refuse me like this."

"I shouldn't?" Fan Xuechen said softly, then turned around again.

"Xuechen!" Shen Yao became slightly angry, "You should give me a reason! Don't you just want to be like me?"

"Answer me!" Shen Yao forced Fan Xuechen to face him.

Fan Xuechen's gaze floated on his face indifferently, and said softly, "Shen Yao, what do you want?"

"Of course I want you!"

"What do you want from me?"

"I want—" Shen Yao said resentfully, "I want your whole person, isn't it right?"

"You're not wrong." Fan Xuechen's cold words seemed to carry a different emotion.

"Then why didn't you promise me?"

"I promise you."

"Xuechen!" Shen Yao looked at him happily, "You will stay with me from now on, okay?"

Seeing that he was silent again, Shen Yao said, "You can't live with Bai Yuwei for the rest of your life?"

"Then can I live with you all my life?"

Shen Yao was at a loss for words for a moment, and then hugged him: "Of course, as long as you are willing."

Fan Xuechen smiled in a daze, turned around and didn't speak anymore.

"I'll go back and get some things first." Shen Yao came to pick up Fan Xuechen the next day, and Fan Xuechen said to him.

Shen Yao thought that he was going to bring all the things from the studio, but to his surprise, he didn't bring anything related to painting, but just brought some items that he usually used.

"Don't you bring your paintings?"

"No need."

"Why? Don't you paint anymore?"

Fan Xuechen didn't answer, but said calmly: "Let's go."

Shen Yao had already arranged for someone to redecorate the house, and took him to buy a lot of clothes.Fan Xuechen followed by his side, showing neither liking nor disliking for what he did for her.Shen Yao hugged him contentedly, and said, "Xue Chen, you finally belong to me alone!"

That night, as soon as Shen Yao walked into the room, he kept kissing him. His kiss was more intense and eager than ever before, until he pressed the person in his arms to the newly made big bed.His hands unbuttoned the ascetic dark shirt, revealing the pale and thin body.

"Shen Yao." Fan Xuechen who had been lying silently under him suddenly called him.

"Xuechen," Shen Yao's kiss returned to his face with his voice, and said, "I want you."

Fan Xuechen's cheeks were flushed, as if drunk, but those hazel eyes were like moonlight in cold water, glowing with a very clear and cold radiance.He said softly and hoarsely, "Is that why you want me to live here?"

Shen Yao was startled for a moment, then smiled and said: "I love you, so I want to possess everything about you."

"Shen Yao, why do you love me?"

"I love everything about you..." His kisses fell down again, panting and saying: "Xue Chen, do you know how long I have been waiting for this moment? No one has ever fascinated me like you But... I like every part of your body..."

Fan Xuechen closed his eyes, his soul seemed to be immersed in icy cold water, no matter how hot his body was at this time, he couldn't erase the sadness from the bottom of his heart.

But Shen Yao couldn't feel this, he was only immersed in the pleasure of possessing, and he didn't think much about other things.

***

"Xuechen, come and have a look." This day, as soon as he got home, Shen Yao couldn't wait to drag him upstairs.

Fan Xuechen had never been to this room before, but when he opened the door, he seemed to have walked into that elegant room in an art exhibition, with stacks of snow-white rice paper, soft brushes, and exquisite ink paintings , glistening in the light.

"This is a gift from me, do you like it?"

"But today is not a special day."

"Who said no?" Shen Yao put his arms around him and said jokingly: "Do you know? This should be my wedding gift to you."

Fan Xuechen's water-like bright eyes shook as if a stone had fallen into it, and said in a slightly astringent voice, "Why are you serious?"

"Do you not like it?"

"No." He leaned into Shen Yao's arms, and suddenly called out with some emotion: "Shen Yao."

Although he clearly knew that this man couldn't give him what he longed for, but he still felt as if he really had a home at this moment.

****

In the days when Fan Xuechen was with him, Shen Yao never wanted to be separated from the person in his arms.Fan Xuechen acted more quietly, submissively and considerately than before, and they never quarreled again, or even blushed.

It's just that for Shen Yao, such a happy day showed a slight loss in a trance, and he didn't know why, maybe it was too peaceful and beautiful, or maybe it was because he thought he had completely got him.

"Brother Yao, why are you willing to come out today?" Seeing him drinking from a glass, Xue Ze hurried over and said, "I haven't seen you for more than half a month, those friends They're all asking me!"

"Come on, Siwen, this is our eldest son Shen!" Xue Ze winked at Shen Yao, and pushed Hao Siwen, a newly popular young lady in the film and television industry, to Shen Yao.

Hao Siwen lowered her head shyly like a lotus flower, and said hello to Shen Yao softly.Shen Yao smiled and clinked glasses with her. Hao Siwen only took a sip of the red wine, then covered his mouth and coughed lightly.

"Sir Shen, I'm very sorry, I'm not very good at drinking..." Her fair face showed two beautiful blush, a few white teeth slightly bit on the plump red lips, facing Shen Yao like this The mature and handsome man seemed particularly shy.

"Siwen, don't be nervous. Brother Yao is the most compassionate and cherishing jade." Xue Ze put his hand on Shen Yao's shoulder while holding the wine glass, and said to Shen Yao: "Brother Yao, Siwen is a talented woman. , I also like photography, and her photography works have won awards!"

"How come, don't mention my ability in front of Mr. Shen." Hao Siwen glanced at Shen Yao, then lowered his head a little shyly, and said, "I've been to Mr. Shen's photography exhibition, really. It's wonderful."

Hao Siwen's performance was as pure and pleasant as her appearance, Xue Ze certainly saw this and introduced her to Shen Yao.

These days, Shen Yao is devoted to Fan Xuechen alone, and seeing such a woman occasionally is considered a small pleasure.But as soon as the banquet was over, Shen Yao left immediately, Xue Ze didn't keep him anyway.