Heal without medicine

He Lan gently touched the back of his head, and said in a low voice: "On the day of the Qingshang reception, I met a man named Shen Li."

Lin Qi got up immediately, frowning.He Lan said: "He didn't tell me too much. After all, he wants to protect his privacy, but because of my identity, he said very little." Seeing Lin Qi's complexion softened, he felt a pain in his heart, and said: "He only said one sentence to me: 'Qi Lin has very severe PTSD for many things, objects, and people of various occupations, which is very abnormal.'"

"...Isn't it normal?" Lin Qi couldn't speak harsh words to Shen Li, he looked hesitant, and whispered: "Doctor Shen has never said such a thing to me in front of me."

Shen Li is a well-known psychiatrist introduced by Lin Qi abroad by his teacher, and Lin Qi received his treatment on the way to study.He has a lot of sympathy for Lin Qi, and he doesn't charge for diagnosis and treatment. He only said that he hopes to use his case as a research reference, and of course he will never disclose any information about the initial consulter.Lin Qi was working a part-time study at that time, and he was very nervous about money, so he agreed without hesitation.

When He Lan heard this sentence, he was very puzzled at first, but now he didn't understand anything, and he just felt distressed blindly, and said softly: "I said this to let you know that I had such a consciousness a long time ago that you Maybe something happened in my past. It wasn't Lin Anmi who sent me the video, I suddenly found out, I won't be shocked, you know?"

"..." Lin Qi was a little at a loss as he was holding his shoulders, and looked up at him.

"I've felt sorry for it beforehand." He Lan's eyes were filled with pain, and his voice weakened, "But these things about you...how can you make people feel so uncomfortable."

"Why didn't you tell me at the time?" He lowered his head and rubbed against Lin Qi's shoulder and neck. Before Lin Qi was so sad, he tilted his head and leaned against him, feeling that they were huddled together in a nest, licking each other. A beast of healing.

In fact, nothing can be changed if you say nothing, not to mention that Lin Qi is a person with such strong self-esteem, even if it has been nine years since this incident, it would kill him to say it again.He Lan just said that, venting the anger he didn't realize at the time.

Lin Qi suddenly felt very open, and said: "That's fine." He Lan said "Yes" in confusion, he raised his hand and hooked He Lan's waist, and said, "I'm going to cross this dirty river, isn't it? Did I meet you again?"

"It's the only fucking gift I've ever had in my life."

After that, Lin Qi never received any news from the Lin family again. He asked He Lan, and got his reasonable answer: "The defendant is probably in a state of desperation, so he rushed to tell everyone and asked for a lawyer to defend him."

Lin Qi was holding a pot of cyclamen petals in Helan's office at that time, pinching the blooming flowers until he was dejected.He was surprised but not surprised, with mixed feelings: "Ah, you sued them?"

"That's right." He Lan was processing documents, but stopped halfway through signing, got up and poured hot water for Lin Qi.When Lin Qi held his cup and drank water, his eyes were dark, and he said in a deep voice, "But in the whole Qingzhou lawyer circle, I'm afraid no one will take this case."

Lin Qi's fingertips were scorched red by the water glass, he opened his hands to look at it, and without saying a word, He Lan beside him said: "I know you care about their relationship with you, you can't bear it, so you just endured it for so long Give in. But I can't be generous."

That was the source of the pain that Lin Qi had been reluctant to tell for so many years, those people made him unable to let go from his childhood to his youth.He was always covered in cold sweat, woke up frequently at night, and could not sleep well overnight.

"Who do you think I am..." Lin Qi seemed to have just come back to his senses, and he glanced at He Lan wordlessly. The man was still frowning with concern for the country and the people. Qiu He said: "I don't want to bear it, it's 'not fighting an unprepared battle'. I have consulted professional lawyers and sued them, and the possibility of losing the case is very high. So I don't do useless work, because I hate letting myself disappointment."

"I've been sending money to them all the time in order to reach the bottom line of extortion, and try to buy Lin Yifan and Lin Anmi a luxury suite with food and lodging for a lifetime. Who knows that before it reaches [-] yuan, some people will not see me well, can't hold back You have the heart of being a demon." Lin Qi said coldly, he wanted to continue talking, but suddenly he shut up when he remembered something.

He Lan seemed to be able to read minds, and said straight to the point: "Are you still wondering what video I was watching?"

"..." Lin Qi seemed to have been turned on by this question, and his whole body became extremely tense in an instant, with his fingers raised on his knees, wringing each other uneasily, and his sitting posture changed from the relaxing sitting just now. Cheng sat upright.He Lan felt distressed and funny, pulled his wrist, and said, "I didn't watch it." Lin Qi immediately turned his head, his eyes turned a hesitant light, and He Lan stretched out his hand to assure him, "I really didn't watch it."

He Lan Mingxu is the type of person who "does not do anything wrong, and is not afraid of ghosts knocking at the door". He has believed in the principle of honesty and trustworthiness since he was a child, so he would not be deceived because of this betrayal of morality.

Lin Qi asked, "Why don't you read it? I thought you were curious."

"Because I know you don't want to let me see it." The water in the cup placed on the fish tank on the coffee table had already cooled, and He Lan stretched out his hand to push it away, revealing the red and white koi with tails and bubbles below.

Therefore, the art of speaking is indeed important. For this sentence, he can say that he does not want to, does not like, does not dare, does not hope... There are so many words to choose from, and he chooses the most tender and helpless "no." Willing to".It seemed that Lin Qi was really reluctant to ask him to watch it, and then sighed "my heart hurts to death" in a nasty way.

"It will be much better if you don't look at me." Lin Qi sat forward, followed his gaze, and looked at the koi swimming around in the fish tank.He thought to himself, sometimes he is very grateful for He Lan's careful care, such as ignoring Lin Anmi's emails, or even putting a coffee table and fish tank with koi in the office to reflect his youthful preferences.

Lin Qi said: "After all, who doesn't want to be perfect in front of their boyfriends? You see, the lively and cheerful ones should pretend to be quiet and gentle, the careless ones should pretend to be considerate, and the small-minded ones should pretend to be tolerant. The whole body is covered in dust Of course I want to pretend to be clean."

He Lan turned his head while he was speaking, Lin Qi was afraid of his gaze, so he hurriedly said indiscriminately, "So I can be forgiven, my crime is not worthy of death."

"Where did your crime come from?" He Lan was almost overwhelmed by his aura of taking responsibility, and said, "Where did the dust come from?" Lin Qi remained silent, and he couldn't help but grab his wrist. As expected, he clenched his hands tightly.Lin Qi didn't make a fist like an ordinary person. He stuck his fingers into his palm. This posture was uncomfortable and awkward. I don't know if this was another bad habit that he brought to the present when he received the so-called "corrective treatment".Old habits are hard to change, but He Lan will take the trouble to change them with him.

"It's true that there is a reason for the situation, but no one is qualified to sentence you to death. Lin Qi, there is no innocent victim in the world who insists on saying that he is guilty. You are not wrong, let alone dirty. You are here Everywhere is clean." He Lan slowly stroked his palm covered with crescent-shaped red marks, and his words were firm.

Lin Qi felt as if he was born just to wait for his words, his heart was beating in his chest, alive and hot.

He Lan said softly again: "If it's possible, I really want to go back and receive those 'treatments' for you. If you are sick, the virus is also here. I have committed sins, why should I let you suffer."

"..." Lin Qi smiled lightly: "Are you crazy? I chased you first, I forgot about that."

But he said: "I haven't forgotten it, I'm regretting it recently."

Lin Qi didn't answer.He Lan leaned over to hug the choked person, he always thought, if he found something wrong in time when he was 19 years old, even though he was weak and powerless, unable to save Lin Qi, giving him some comfort would be better than running alone Abyss is better.

So he always felt that he owed Lin Qi thousands of hugs.

Lin Qi put his shoulders on him and asked, "Are you still wronged now?"

There was some kind of ridicule in his tone. It was too late for He Lan to regret her past "grievances". Lin Qi's words hit the nail on the head. She put away both warmth and pity, and looked down and opened her teeth and claws again. Lin Qi.

When he looked at him, he found his eyes, so pure and bright, like a deep blue pool in a remote corner, suddenly favored by the compassionate sunlight, so although the ripples were slow and the pulse was soft, they still swayed leisurely.

It wasn't until this time that He Lan was convinced that Lin Qi really didn't want to be trapped by the past anymore—for him.

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