Heal without medicine

Lin Qi is indeed very talented in design. When he was a student, his family was well-off, and the Lin family had too much spare money. Let alone Lin Qi is a big living person, even raising a few more would not be a problem, at most it would take up an apartment. .At that time, the Lin family could afford Lin Qi's hobbies, and there was no fixed amount of pocket money for a month, just by swiping with a credit card.

Outsiders don't understand the twists and turns of Lin's interior, and when they see Lin Qi, they have to politely call "Master Lin".Lin Qi completely felt that it was too formalistic. When others called him respectfully, he would get angry instead, so he got the reputation of being moody and domineering outside.

He had dealt with the jewelry designer who often came and went to Lin's house a few times, and he paid attention to everything, relying on the old man's honesty and honesty, he brazenly forced him to be his teacher.Carrying this hard-won relationship in my heart, I first came into contact with jewelry design as I wanted, and then I designed a lot of jewelry with all my heart, most of which were not satisfactory.There is only one ring that is not satisfactory. Lin Qi named it "Lidong" and gave it to He Lan as a gift.

As for why I applied for the architecture major...

Lin Qi suddenly stopped his thoughts of running away, only to realize that he was still pinching He Lan's wrist, and he slowly let go, leaving a few crescent-shaped purple-red bruises on his skin.It must be very painful, Lin Qi thought, took a deep breath, and mustered up the courage to ask: "Why don't you throw it away?"

"..." He Lan was genuinely puzzled. He lowered his head and glanced at the ring on the red string.On the ring was a fine hollow silhouette of winter mist, the surface seemed to be covered with a layer of real ice and snow, making one wonder if this thing would melt in front of him in the next second.

His answer was quite irrelevant, saying: "Because it looks good."

Lin Qi shrank his fingers and looked away as if he didn't care, but he was biting the ring tightly out of the corner of his eye.No matter from which angle you look at it, he is very sad.Lin Qi seemed to say clearly: "That's it."

He Lan helped him fasten the next buttons, and went out with Lin Qi to see the effect of the clothes.Two tall men stood side by side. In the mirror he looked at, Lin Qi's figure was cut into pieces, leaving only an incomplete half with red eyes.

He Lan didn't know what it meant to "look at the face", he was never someone who needed to look at the look.

Just like this situation, Lin Qi didn't know what kind of memories were evoked by the Lidong on his neck, and he clenched his fists tightly, in a trance.But He Lan Mingxu pulled Lin Qi to his side, telling him to get closer.

The two of them are finally in the same mirror.

Dazzling and exquisite glazed lights, a clothing store lady with a professional smile on her face, a high-definition full-length mirror...all of them are shrunk in Lin Qi's eyes and become very glaring.

He was still ups and downs in the slight collapse of subverted cognition, but He Lan naturally lowered his head and breathed closer.When he got very close, the man stretched out his hand sanctimoniously to pat the non-existent dust on Lin Qi's shoulder, and then said in a low voice, "I've imagined this scene before."

Lin Qicai seemed to wake up a little, and opened his eyes wide.But He Lan pressed closer to his ear, pushing his feet, or continued with a deadpan face: "At our wedding."

A wedding is a ceremony in which lovers are witnessed by everyone and promised to last forever.

Lin Qi said: "It's a pity, I never thought about this." He didn't know what sentence stabbed Ni Lin, maybe he was already very manic since he saw Li Dong, and he just needed to find an outlet to vent.He Lan gave it to him, so he firmly grasped it, wanting to be domineering and do whatever he wants.

He added: "I only think about when I can get rid of you." Language is like sharp arrows, which are used as armor to cover up when people panic.Obviously knowing that there are some things that cannot be said, but when things get out of control, the malice comes out. Lin Qi feels ridiculous and pathetic, and he sneers: "You are so disgusting. I didn't want to see you then, and I don't want to see you now."

This is really hurtful.He Lan Mingxu was not angry, looked at him and said, "Then tell me."

"What?" Lin Qi felt that he had bitten somewhere, and there was a bloody smell spreading from the tip of his tongue.

The employees of the clothing store quietly backed away when they were talking, and she knew it would be inconvenient to disturb the whispers among the customers.

He Lan didn't miss Lin Qi's eyes, stared at him and said, "Tell me everything that makes you sick." Lin Qi sneered, and it seemed that another wandering vicious soul occupied his body in an instant. He seemed to be really thinking.

Then he opened his lips: "I don't like short hair, I don't like jogging, I don't like movies, I basically don't like to eat anything, and I feel sick when I smell the things you send me. The last thing I like is waiting for someone, but you know I wait How many times have you done it? I am most afraid of pain, how did you treat me?"

The front seems to be a small fight, but when it comes to the last sentence, it is a real knife and a gun, and every word is poked to the heart.Lin Qi found a weapon that could sting him, and he didn't care if the gun would go off or not. , the pain is so painful that I wish I could die—”

"Stop talking." He Lan Mingxu's eyes were already filled with pain, and it was embarrassing for both parties to talk about this kind of thing.He didn't know what reason Lin Qi could use to defend himself against the wall, but his heart was indeed torn, and he was in pain.

Lin Qi wanted to continue talking, but He Lan covered his mouth with his hand, and he smiled sarcastically, the moisture from his lips wrapped around his fingers.

Pay the bill and get on the bus.Lin Qi was sitting in the co-pilot, knocking on the car door irregularly, looking at the neatly arranged street lights spreading far outside, pursing his lips in a daze, he didn't know where the momentum was lurking just now.

It's almost there.

The car was parked in the underground parking lot of the community, the dim light above the head distorted everything, and the dozing kitten was breathing slowly in the back seat.Lin Qi watched as He Lan locked the car door again.

I also specially turned it on and off again to let him know, it's so fucking naive to death.

"You like being in the car very much?" Lin Qi raised his eyebrows, insinuating provocatively.

He Lan looked at him deeply, there was something inexplicable in his eyes, if he had to describe it, it was called "distressed".Lin Qi hates this kind of emotion appearing on anyone around him, and even more extremely hates other people's sympathy or pity for him.

What I hate the most is that He Lan Mingxu actually showed such "dirty" emotions in his eyes.

It seems that he is very weak.

Lin Qi subconsciously said some unscrupulous words to break his expression.He Lan spoke first, his voice echoed slightly in the small space, but it was still pleasant.He Lan said: "Lin Qi, the way you are arrogant in front of others, or the way you dismiss something, and the way you pretend to be fierce with me..."

He seemed to be about to tell some terrible facts, but Lin Qi didn't have the strength to interrupt, and heard him say it smoothly: "...I really know everything well."

Lin Qi always felt that there was still some blood in his mouth.

He didn't get close, the two were separated by a safe distance, but He Lan seemed to have broken through Lin Qi's chest, and accurately grasped his heart through his ribs.

"So how long will you stay like this with me? I begged and asked and asked, and you didn't say anything. Seeing a ring is like going crazy, asking why I don't throw it away, are you Are you really pretending to be stupid or trying to trick me? If I answer perfunctorily, you will get angrier and say something like that to hurt people's hearts." He Lan suddenly sighed softly, and grabbed Lin Qi's hand Palm, tell him not to kill innocent palms again.

Lin Qi suddenly jumped up, rushed over and grabbed He Lan's skirt roughly: "Then you give me a serious answer."

The watery light of distrust flickered in the bottom of his eyes, his eyes were red, and he looked at He Lan Mingxu, one side was shocked, and the other was heartbroken.Too close, the smell, the subtle expression, the curled hair...every point brings back infinite memories of youth, so the heart throbs again in pain or confusion.

He Lan's fingertips were warm, and he slowly rubbed the corners of Lin Qi's eyes, which he liked to do before.Especially after some things happened, Lin Qi's little habit was discovered by him, and this gesture of wiping the corner of his eyes became He Lan's favorite.

Just haven't done it in a long time.

He Lan held Lin Qi's face, together with his scarlet eyes and tight lips, and asked him, "What do you want me to say?"

Lin Qi was like a cat whose tail was stepped on, and raised his voice in a gaffe, but the more he spoke, the more he couldn't control it: "I want you to say it?! You are too ridiculous, you figure it out, I am asking you, not you Me, you can fucking say whatever you want! Say it or not?!"

"I love you."

Lin Qi stopped suddenly, like a robot whose pause button was pressed in an instant, he was still staring at He Lan's eyes, his voice had been choked out, and he fell into the endless abyss with those deep eyes as the source.

Seeing that Lin Qi was motionless, He Lan said it again, adding the cause and effect to form a complete sentence: "The reason why I keep that ring is because I love you."

Lin Qi didn't want to admit that he was waiting for this sentence, but he was indeed waiting.If he suffers from mania, the person in front of him is the only tranquilizer, the one that works in one shot.And this sedative knows its own effect, so it is very good at taking an inch, and often pretends to be confused, deceiving the patient from body to heart.

So He Lan Mingxu is the most hateful person in the world.

Also his favorite person.

Lin Qi looked in the mirror in the bathroom of his apartment, the person in the mirror was pale, only his lips were as red as blood.He looked at his own face reflected in disgust, and stretched out his hand to open the storage table behind the mirror, where there were many medicine bottles crowded together, already occupying three small cabinets.

He is very familiar with the dosage of the medicines he takes every day, and he pours them out one by one quickly. The full pills are placed in a bottle cap.Lin Qi poured the pills into his mouth without drinking water, and when he swallowed it, he had the illusion of choking to death.

Before he went to bed, he checked the information on his phone. He Lan's message floated on the lock screen. There were only a few words, but it was very profound. He sent: "It wasn't once, it was always."

Lin Qi replied: "Persevere." He hid the other words in his stomach and stuffed them into his dream.When he was about to fall asleep, Lin Qi thought with certainty that when He Lan confessed his love, his heartbeat was really too fast.

It was so fast that everything else was temporarily forgotten in the corner.

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