"Seven Short Stories"

The snow that day was too cold.The bright red in the snow was too eye-catching, and it was still steaming white, rising into the wind less than an inch before breaking off abruptly.My heart aches terribly, not because of penetration, but because of you.

In this cold wind, my heart, which was scorching hot one second, cracked into countless shards the next second!

I have been silently waiting for you for an unknown amount of time, chasing you from naivety to over the wall; from the beginning of love, calling you a brother without telling you; from despair to watching you embrace his intimacy under the moon; from time to time watching you change ways to please your new lover And give up and leave... Why did your gentleness suddenly turn into a hard thorn for me?How long has it been since you looked at me?

I carry the resentment that you don't care about me, the deep attachment to you that you will never forget until death, the resentment that the soul after death can't even hook black and white, and the deep affection that the underworld refuses to leave me.

I developed a cold heart, a heart that no longer has warmth.But in this heart, there is you.I also molded a body with countless flower petals in the shape of those men you like.I found that all the men you like like flame red, which is the color I hate the most.Now, I choose the red peony like blood, for you, to be reborn.

Why rebirth, revenge!I want to retaliate against you for ignoring me when I loved you deeply.I want to take revenge on you, when I am humbled to the dust for you, but you indulge yourself more and more wantonly!

How much I loved you last time, how much I blame you now!

I asked myself, why don't I hate you! ?Don't they all say how deep love is and how much hate is?

Don't I love you?

No, I love you too much!Love so much that I dare to turn the infinite grievances, sorrows, and pains in my heart into resentment to the greatest extent!

Have died once, or is this stupid?Yes or no?

My heart is frozen and I still put you in the deepest part of my mind!

How can your indifference melt away my frost?

Now even your kindness to me has become cold.

But how long ago did you treat me well?

Oh, who cares, what I want to do now is to confuse you with the appearance you like now, and do something that I have never done before, dare not do, but have thought about thousands of times!I will try my best to make you unable to leave me, reluctant to part with me, unable to let me go, and then I will leave you without looking back!I want you to be unforgettable to me, and let you know what it means to love in the bone marrow but never get it again!

I think the expression on my face must be very proud.

I dragged the long hem of my clothes, and stepped barefoot on the yellow leaves that were heavily dewy in the early morning. The moisture from my feet expanded the pores on my body, and then shrank rapidly. I shivered, and the clothes on my shoulders slide.The delicate and fair skin was exposed, and the deeply sunken collarbone exuded the fragrance of flowers.

You will like it, aren't all the men in your arms constantly changing like this?

Pushing open the door, in the huge yard, you are drunk and laughing like crazy, surrounded by two fox-eyed men, kissing non-stop.

You laughed so heartily that tears came out of your laughter.

Ah.It seems that during the period of my death, you didn't feel anything at all.You are as happy as ever.Since when did you hate me and alienate me?You obviously treated me so well from the beginning!

Why does my heart hurt so much?Isn't it ice cold?Why is it more painful than when it is warm?It hurts so much that I can hear the crackling sound echoing in my body!

What a scum I am!I'm here to take revenge on you!No pain!

I think I must be smiling brightly now, I walked straight to you, with you in my eyes.I forcefully pushed away the two flattering men beside you, sat in your arms, drank the wine in your hand, put it in my mouth, pressed it against your lips, and looked at your moist eyes with a little surprise And the impulse of the moment, was picked up by you arrogantly, and entered the bedroom.

You threw me heavily on the bed, rubbed your head vigorously, and Mimi asked me: "Why do your eyes have the same spring breeze as his."

"He? Who is it?" I really don't know, there is a person in your heart who can make your tone soft, messy, soft and endless.

I feel like my body is shaking.

"The one I love the most, the one I can't get." You murmured.

I don't even want to sneer.

You hide it really deep, I have been by your side for so long, why have I never found out that someone made you so affectionate, you mentioned his expression, so regretful, heart-piercing, big tears fell I really I want to slap you hard!Do you know that my love for you is so deep!deepest!But you don't look down on them at all?Seeing you look so down and out, presumably the person you love is also dismissive of you!

I should be happy that you are treated like this!Didn't I come to take revenge on you?But why am I even more sad when I see you sad?

I face you, so unintentionally in front of my eyes, I don't hide my love for him.Let me feel endless sorrow for my rival in love who I don't even know who it is.

"Why can't I get it? Is there anyone that Mr. Hua Ling wants that he can't get?"

I really want to mock you.Seeing your current appearance, I seem to see the fierce and deep love I had for you before I died.But it seems to be mocking myself.

"Because I don't want to force others to be difficult, he has no thoughts for me, and I dare not express my feelings." The sadness of these words filled the whole room.Even me, who is already bruised and bruised, was touched.

No wonder you turned a deaf ear to me.It turns out that you care so much for the people you care about, and have such a good temper.The words you spit out are really intoxicating.

But my heart has lost a piece of slag.Falling silently, no drop of blood!

"You said that he and I both have spring breeze in our eyes, then you just treat me as him." Ridiculously humble.Has it become a habit, in front of you, I can be anyone.In the past, it was silently recited in the heart, but now it is recited as if praying before your eyes.

"But you are not him." You threw over a piece of my old clothes: "Put this on."

This dress was worn by me on your last birthday, but after getting drunk and waking up, I was changed into other clothes.How is it here with you?

"This dress fits me very well." I have always listened to your words and liked them according to your preferences.Willing with your willing.because I love you.

You know, I have another dress for you, exactly like this one on me.I have to sleep with my arms around the empty and soft clothes every night.

"You really look like him." You frowned deeply.

I wear my own clothes, you say I look like the one you love?Should I be happy?I'm like the one you want to love.

"Then, can you, love me?" I asked without confidence, quite aggrieved.I am really asking you at this moment, can you love me?

"But you are not him after all."

Your drunk looks so sober.There was a fire in your eyes that couldn't help but want to throw me down, but you pressed hard.I've already died once, you bear with it, but I don't want to hide my heart, I'm not afraid of anything anymore.I took off the clothes I had just put on, and only wore thin, close-fitting clothes. I put my arms around your neck and pressed my lips hard.You are indifferent, just staring at my eyes tightly.

"Do you resent me?"

My heart is trembling, I am in pain.I ignored you, closed my eyes, and pried your teeth open. After the entanglement, I smiled, maybe it was a very bitter smile: "I don't know you, so why do you hate me?"

"Yeah, it's just that your eyes instantly resembled his resentment towards me."

Have I ever shown resentment towards you before?How come, every time I see you, I love you deeply!But that deep love will fall instantly when seeing the man beside you who pleases you!

I'm really curious, who is the person in your mouth and in your heart?I haven't seen you being sincere to anyone before, you always change the people around you.Like a horse watching flowers, squandering yourself.The invisible ravages me.

It turns out that no matter how crazy you played in the past, there was no light in your eyes, because your heart was covered with an unattainable emotion.

I really want to see how good he is.

I looked at your face that I have loved for a long time, touched your sonorous and beating heart, buried my head in your warm and undulating chest, and choked up: "I have been hurt by love, maybe I am the same as him, so the look resemblance."

"Your tone is also very similar to his."

I'm a little stiff in your arms.Who exactly are you talking about?Who is similar to me?

There are so many Yingying and Yanyan around you, but I always pay attention to you. I really don't know who you are talking about.There are so many people who you are tired of coming and going, maybe there is only one person that you will never forget.But since you are like me, why haven't you thought about me?

Looking at the person in front of me who made me love so much that I lost myself, missing the lover in his heart so sadly, I laughed at why I went back to him to ask for trouble.I'm here to seduce him and take revenge on him.As a result, in just a few minutes, I covered myself with thorns that hurt me from head to toe, and let myself listen to him talking about the person he loves bit by bit, and my body was severely bruised!

In the last one, I couldn't stand your flirtatiousness, I chose to die, I can't see you anymore, it's fine if I don't.No, I don't have to fall in love with you bitterly.But I didn't know that the love engraved into my soul would make me reborn. I said that I came with resentment to revenge you!But now I touch my icy heart, there is still love for you, a love that is so cold but only increases.

How can I redeem myself?

"Hua Ling, I love you!"

"Love? You just met me, how can you talk about love?" You sighed deeply, and pushed me away: "I have loved him for so many years, and I have never told him. Why do I feel that these three Words, so unspeakable! I hate my own cowardice!"

I really want to beg you, don't tell me about him anymore, my heart is bleeding!My body is almost unsteady!

I am extremely greedy for your affectionate look. If these eyes look at me like this, I think I might cry.

But now I'm also crying miserably, I can't hide my distraught at all!

"I take it as him, is that okay?" I squeezed out the words dryly.What am I doing?Am I so shameless?

"I can't do it." Your voice is very decisive: "No matter what, you are not him."

I don't care, I won't let myself regret it again.I threw myself on your body, ripped off your clothes clumsily, kissed in a dense and messy manner, and cried: "I also have an unforgettable lover in my heart. We are sick and sympathetic, why don't we comfort each other!"

You let me play with you indifferently, and sighed softly: "Are we going to deceive ourselves like this?"

I can't listen to anything, so I gag your mouth and kiss you jerky.

You seem to have a reaction in your body, the sound of panting is slightly heavier, my waist is held by yours, and you push me away: "His waist is as slender as yours."

"Let's not mention the people we can't get in our hearts, okay? You want me, okay?"

"No, I won't touch someone like him. He is flawless in my heart. He is someone I never dare to touch. If he ever showed half of what you mean to me, I will definitely not Let him leave me, not half a step! I will definitely not attract so many people I don't like at all. He hates red the most. But I just let everyone around me wear red!"

"What did you say? He also hates red, heh, sure enough, I hate red too." I am so similar to him!Why don't you see me as his replacement?I don't mind!

At this time, I vaguely remembered that the two men beside him just now were wearing clothes that were similar in style to mine.I was absent-minded for a moment, and an incredible idea came to my mind, are you missing me?

How is it possible, how long has it been since you had a good word with me before I died, did you not take a look at me?

I wrapped my arms around your neck and hugged you tightly. To be so close to you, I thought for thousands of times: "If you can't get it, why bother to be persistent." Am I talking about you, or talking about myself? ?

What do you get in exchange for being too persistent?It is endless disappointment and desolation.I deeply understand the pain of ten thousand ants eating one's heart, how hard it is to bear, I don't want you to suffer such pain too!

"What's your name?" You asked me lightly.

What's my name? My name is Qing Nuan.But what should I be called now? I kissed your collarbone and told you vaguely: "I can call you whatever you like, and you can call me whatever you like."

"Then I will call you Qingnuan, and you will be called Qingnuan from now on."

My heart suddenly stopped at this moment: "What did you say?!"

"That's the name of the person I love. You really resemble him. You give me the feeling that he is by my side. I feel very solid."

I pushed you away with disbelief on my face: "The person you love the most is Qing Nuan?"

Is your favorite me?Did I hear you right?How can this be?You love me, you ignore me?You love me you treat me cold as ice?You love me you throw me into the abyss?You love me but you turn a blind eye to my love?What are you talking about?Hualing?

"Yes, his name is Qingnuan. He was my childhood playmate, and he liked to cling to me when I was young. Wherever I go, he goes. Whatever I do, he will follow me."

Yes, then I adore you, you are five years older than me, you look like you can do everything!When I was still unsteady on the road, you ran all over the street with me, wiped my nose, and picked fruits for me to eat.How many times I have staggered along with you and ran madly, how many times I fell...

"Later, when he got older, he wanted to hold my hand every day and call me brother. I was 12 years old and he was seven years old. I saw his immature smiling face and happily agreed."

I called you brother for 17 years, and you always agreed very quickly every time.No matter if I ask you to play chess or drink tea with me, no matter if I am bored and let you chat with me or sit beside me in silence, you will satisfy me unconditionally.No matter what you are doing, you will come to accompany me as soon as possible. How happy and satisfied I have been in those 17 years.I think I should be the happiest person!But I thought about why there are cold tears streaming down this happiness?It hurts and itches across my face.Sliding into the mouth, it is very astringent.

"Later, after I had been with him for 17 years, one day under the moonlight, I saw him chatting happily with strangers one by one. I was suddenly very angry. I was always by his side, and he He never made friends, he always called my brother with joy in his eyes, and asked me to accompany him to do some boring things. He asked too much for his company, no matter how important I was, he would push Don't do it, go and stay with him."

Hua Ling, yes, I still remember how kind you were to me back then, I remember it very deeply.It got so deep that you suddenly treated me badly. I tasted the honey in this memory repeatedly, but I tasted it extremely bitter!I don't know what I did wrong, but suddenly I am not in your favor.

"Did you know? That night, I killed that man"

No wonder I haven't seen him since.

"He dared to touch the person in my heart, dared to make him laugh. The warm smile can only be given to me!"

Only you thought about it in those 17 years, but you never told me!I was in so much pain that I couldn't breathe, I really missed those 17 years!

and after?what did you do to meWhat's going on with the love you say about me now?

"I don't know when I fell in love with him. I always thought of him as my younger brother."

younger brother?That's good too, it's better than seeing me as a stranger later on!

"But I don't know his mind. He is so beautiful, pure and flawless, like a lotus flower that has not been hit by rain, sacred and inviolable. I want to hold him high in my hand and keep him in my heart. But I always Wanting to possess him. I want to melt him into me."

I'm a little dazed, what you said is true, right, it's all true.But why can't I see any thoughts in you?You only do things that make me sad?

"One person told me that if he wanted to know if he loved me too, he would deliberately do something to make him angry and sad. When a person is in love, he will not deliberately show jealousy."

What you said made my mind go blank and my body stiff!

Don't you tell me that everything you did to drive me crazy was done on purpose, just to find my way?

I can't help but want to ask you aloud!

"But I did a lot of things that he didn't like, but he was indifferent, and then he slowly alienated me. I was not reconciled, and started looking for men who were completely different from him, and had fun with them. I wanted to tell him, I like men, but I like him but dare not say it."

I didn't, I didn't alienate you, I didn't want to see you do something that made me sad, I closed myself up, and recalled your kindness to me alone.Your sudden change caught me off guard and made me wonder what happened!At that time, I was in so much pain that I wanted to grab your collar and yell!Why did that brother who spoke softly to me suddenly become irritable and irritable!Yell at me?Why do you start to surround yourself with men who drive you crazy with envy.But in what capacity should I accuse you of interfering with you?Is it to call you the identity of the brother who has been calling you for 17 years?I have been with you for so long, I thought you already knew my mind, I thought we would always be together without words.It turns out that you didn't realize at all that my feelings for you have changed a long time ago?

"He was very indifferent to my behavior, and even stopped calling me brother. At that time, I knew that he didn't have me in his heart, and he just regarded me as a brother before. But after I did those things that shouldn't be done, I Even his brother couldn't do it. I was so depressed! I was sad, I was angry, the person I loved didn't love me! And because of my temptation, he started to hate me. I really regret it to the point of tearing my heart!! If Knowing that this kind of probing will make him feel alienated from me, I would rather not explore his thoughts for the rest of my life, and just let him call my brother until I die! At least I can still see his smile every day, and I can With him every day, I don't want to leave him for a moment!"

Hua Ling, my Hua Ling, why did you say your words now! !I'm crying like hell, and so are you!

My indifference to you at that time was because I tried my best to cover up the sadness in my heart, and I tried my best to restrain my deep love from you without you knowing it!I'm afraid that when I see you, I can't help but cry and curse loudly.I choose not to see you because I love you so deeply, as long as you think your nonsense will make you happy, I can keep silent.I just want to be by your side.

But how painful is it to silently guard this unobtainable love?

"Later, I turned my cold face on him, and I told myself, if you can't get it, don't be greedy. If someone hates you, don't be gentle. Why use your dignity to please someone who doesn't care about you at all? "

Who says I don't care, I care so much that I don't even want my own life, I care so much that I crush myself thousands of times, I care so much that I want to tell you how much I care.I drank so much on your birthday that I just wanted to tell you I love you.But I was so drunk that I passed out, and I was so drunk that I vomited blood, and I didn't dare to say what I wanted to say to you.You hugged and smiled with tears in your eyes, I think you don't need me.

"My ridiculous self-esteem caused my beloved to leave me. I saw him kneeling in the snow with a sword in his chest, smiling, and half-opening his eyes. My heart burst at that moment! He Didn't tell me why he chose to leave because of my indifference to him? But he was the one who turned cold towards me first! I'm just afraid that my emotions won't be responded to!" Your extreme collapse made me feel extremely distressed up!

The way you are suffering now is very much like the way I was before I died.This must not be pretending, I know it.I should be happy, the person you love is me!

But why does my heart hurt like a thousand arrows piercing my heart?

No, it should be said that not only my heart was hurting, but also my body. I felt that my body was not stable, and my hands and feet began to melt into peony petals one by one!The feeling of slowly pulling away like that is like Ling Chi!

I was so anxious, I heard what I wanted to hear, and knew that the person I loved loved me, my heart melted, and my obsession got the most perfect answer.

So next, I'm faced with my imminent disappearance?Yeah?I can not be reconciled!Not reconciled!The people I love love me too!But I know after death?

It turns out that the love and attachment to a person can be reborn, and the thing that is most wanted to know in the heart will die again.

The existence of resentment, how sad!

I broke down: "Hualing, I am Qing Nuan, I am Qing Nuan! I love you!"

With the last of my consciousness, I dump all my memories on you!I want you to know how much I love you, I want you to know how much I love you!I saw you crazily collecting my body broken into petals in the air, I think my current appearance is the appearance before I died, no matter how clear and shallow you can recognize that I am Qing Nuan!

I watched you break down and cry: "I know, I know, I should have guessed it from the beginning. Who else would have those spring-like eyes? A gentle tone? Qing Nuan, don't leave me! !I love you, I love you! I love you..."

But I can't hear what you said... My body disappeared... My heart melted... The you in my heart was put down by me... My eyes were annihilated in darkness... I should have disappeared with a smile... Just like when I was in the snow, when I pierced my heart with a sword, I thought I would laugh... this time... it's true... free... free with no regrets... I love you... Hua Ling.