Seagull

The warm sun in winter makes the sky very blue, but it doesn't make people very sun-drenched.Chang Ze and Zhang Lan were walking on the road, feeling very warm on their bodies, without the biting cold wind when they first arrived, and feeling more at ease.

"You have mountains, rivers and you here, and the air is really good. I really want to go back a few days later!" Chang Ze took a deep breath, feeling a little regretful.

"Are you... leaving? When?" Zhang Lan turned her head to the side and looked at the distant mountain, as if flowers were growing instead of trees, and then asked casually.

"Are you reluctant to part with me? The day after tomorrow. When I came here, I heard from a big sister that your sea is very blue and beautiful. There is no reason to leave without looking at it after you have come. Ah Lan, take me to the beach tomorrow. Let's go!" Chang Ze looked at Zhang Lan, leaned close to him, his arms were about to move around his waist, and he was about to hug him.

"It's not good-looking if you don't know it. She lied to you. The Chinese New Year is coming soon, so I just want to slaughter more pigs."

With that said, they had reached the street.I haven't been here for a few days, and the street has changed.It was deserted before, but now at a glance, the shop in Shili is bustling with decorations.What kind of couplets, red cloths, and firecrackers are neatly arranged, piled up on the table, and there are all the doorways.The streets are full of people coming and going, some are bargaining, some are choosing from thousands of choices, and some are paying New Year's greetings to each other in advance.

Chang Ze pointed at the products in the shop and burst into laughter: "It's so lively! Ah Lan, let me buy some of those for you to decorate! These couplets are festive, and you will be safe when you look at them! Oh, there are also pet clothes sellers , that little red dress must look good on Wang Zai! That one is also good..."

Zhang Lan kicked him impatiently: "No, let's go!"

Chang Ze had a look of pity, and turned his head several times, unable to let go of those things.

"Alan, what is that tall and pointed building over there? It looks very Western-style." Chang Ze noticed the building at the end of the shop, and asked Zhang Lan for advice as he didn't know where to ask.

"Church." Zhang Lan glanced at it.

"You still have a church here. This teaching has spread far and wide! Let's go and have a look." Chang Ze made a suggestion, but he did not give anyone the right to veto. He dragged Zhang Lan along and walked forward. More like telling.

"It's not that they don't open on Sundays." Zhang Lan just wanted to go home after buying groceries.

Chang Ze: "How can it be. There is no religion that can reject believers who consciously want to repent and convert."

Chang Ze didn't listen and dragged him in.The terrain here is relatively high, and there are countless steps leading to the upper classroom. Although there is only one floor, it looks as imposing as the three-story building of Zhang Lan's house.There is a large lawn next to it, and some golden verses recorded in the Bible are written on the stones of Lina.Next to it, there is a large open-air parking lot and basketball court, which can be regarded as a combination of work and rest, and the space is effectively used.

Chang Ze took Zhang Lan up the stairs, tried to push the door, and it opened!It looks huge inside, with a high ceiling.The upper right is filled with long glass windows through which clusters of light beams can be seen.A platform was set up in front, and a podium table was placed. The background was a color picture of Jesus shepherding sheep, and a cross was painted on it, saying "I am the light of the world, follow me and you will not walk in darkness". curtain.There is a piano on the right near the stage, and a podium in the center.In the remaining open space, countless benches were placed in an orderly and reasonable manner, probably for believers to sit on.The setting is ordinary, and there are no western sculptures or colored glass, but it feels sacred and solemn, full of majesty.It wasn't empty inside. An old man was sitting in the front row reading the Bible.

"Alan, come in quickly, let's go to pray!" Chang Ze thought he was overwhelmed by this scene, and lowered his voice unconsciously.He said so, but walked back with Zhang Lan, sat on the last row of benches, crossed his hands and made fists, making prayers.

"Do you believe this?" Zhang Lan looked at Chang Ze's series of actions and whispered.

"I believe." Chang Ze opened his eyes, turned to Zhang Lan and added: "I still believe in science and people. I believe in whatever makes me wish."

Chang Ze closed his eyes again, and the hall returned to silence, but he always felt that something was watching.

Zhang Lan suddenly remembered her mother's words: "My mother used to say 'God will watch quietly in his abode.'"

"What do you mean?"

Zhang Lan recalled asking her mother what this meant when she was a child.what is he looking at

His mother said: "He is looking at the evil and wrong people and things in the world."

"Then why is he watching quietly? Just watching?"

"Of course not, being quiet doesn't mean acquiescing. God watches and waits for a suitable opportunity to punish them, or a disaster, or something else." Mom touched Xiao Zhang Lan's head and told him another Bible story, Finally educate him: "Alan can't do bad things. Our Alan should be a good boy, don't be greedy, don't hate."

His mother, who was clearly hurt, had deep pain in her eyes, but she still had a smile on her face and lovingly taught herself not to hate.Her mother is so kind, but...

Zhang Lan waved away his memories and replied to Chang Ze: "It means that evil will be rewarded with evil. God sees all the bad things people do and will be punished.

Chang Ze was noncommittal.The two sat there silently for a long time, Zhang Lan couldn't help but said, "You... have you ever thought that your sister can't be found?"

"Of course I thought about it, isn't this the state now?"

"No... no, I mean it doesn't exist anymore." Zhang Lan didn't know whether it was because she was afraid that she might not be able to explain it clearly or because she would wake herself up in other ways, so she said more cruelly: "It's just death, and the body has turned into a fist. The loess, the kind whose soul is extinguished, is nowhere to be found."

Chang Ze frowned, feeling uncomfortable.This kind of discomfort came from the fact that Zhang Lan broke the psychological hints he and Chen Nan had made to themselves for so many years.It’s as if you were working hard on reading and revising, and wanted to get a good grade in the exam, but someone suddenly told you that you would be the last one in the exam, and your desire to work hard and look forward to it suddenly slacked off.When the dream wakes up, there will always be disappointment and unwillingness to accept it.

He stared at the cross until blood was left in his eyes, and then he closed his eyes with a wry smile: "I thought about it too. But I dare not think about it."

"If so, what are you going to do?" Zhang Lan asked as if she didn't see Chang Ze's pain.

"Find everything related to her, whether it's a corpse, loess, or whatever, find them, and bring them home."

"What about those sinners...or murderers who made your sister suffer so much?" Zhang Lan asked.

"Find it, hand it over to the police, hand it over to the law."

Zhang Lan was shocked. He didn't expect Chang Ze to say that he believed in the law and the words of the police.He couldn't continue talking for a while, he just wanted to take a closer look at Chang Ze's eyes to see if he was serious.

"Why, I didn't expect me to say such rational and mature words? I feel that I have been searching for so many years, but I am so regretful that I am not crazy?" Chang Ze saw the suspicion in Zhang Lan's eyes, "Put it in the early ten years. , I really feel that it is unfair, and I want to peel them off. But anyway, I have lived for so many years, and I have been looking for them for so many years. Now I just want to find Sister Jiajia, and I don’t have the energy to think about other things. Besides, you Chen Nan is still a As for the police, if I really did something, he would cut me off, and Sister Jiajia doesn’t want to see me like this. I am a good citizen who respects the law.”

"Do you think my image has suddenly become tall and majestic? Do you love me more?" Chang Ze bumped Zhang Lan's shoulder, confident that this would happen.

"..." Zhang Lan ignored, "What if they are not within the scope of legal judgment?"

"Then do as your mother tells you." Chang Ze didn't think about it, he didn't think there was such a thing, so he shrugged and just said casually.

Chang Ze didn't want to say more, so he changed the subject. "Your mother is religious?"

"I don't know. She just often told me some Bible stories, telling me not to hate, God will punish the wicked." Mom often read the "Bible", but Zhang Lan didn't know because it was one of the few books she could read. Or because she really needs to rely on it for comfort.

Chang Ze didn't care about these slightly theistic remarks, and only asked Zhang Lan's opinion: "Then do you agree with your mother's words?"

Zhang Lan: "It changed later."

"What happened later?" Chang Ze felt that this was a good opportunity to learn more about Zhang Lan.

"Later...then my mother passed away." Hearing what he said, Chang Ze couldn't ask further questions, and only picked another topic.

"You don't believe that God will punish those wicked people?"

"I believe..." Zhang Lan concealed the last sentence, but God had waited too long for the most suitable opportunity. If there was such a villain, he couldn't wait, and he was afraid that the punishment would not be severe enough.

Zhang Lan lied to Zhang Cen, he didn't want that person to stand in front of his mother's grave to apologize, he thought more.He didn't say anything, for that person, since he can't go to prison, he should try another hell.

"Can a person be redeemed as long as he repents? Can his deeds be erased? Can he become a lamb?" Zhang Lan asked.

Chang Ze didn't know how to answer him. He knew that Zhang Lan had the answer in his heart, so it was useless to say more.

"Why are we discussing theology so well? Let's go home and discuss the philosophy of love. What do you think, Alan..." Chang Ze whispered in Zhang Lan's ear.

Zhang Lan pushed his head away and walked out of the lobby first.

"What did you buy?" Chen Nan looked at the two of them with two bags full of hands.

Zhang Lan did not stop Chang Ze in the end.Chang Ze proposed to split up to save time, and left after allocating what each of them wanted to buy.Zhang Lan didn't care. It wasn't until Chang Ze was carrying a bag full of handbags and a red sleeve was sticking out of his head that Zhang Lan realized that something was wrong.Chang Ze walked towards Zhang Lan with a smile, with a proud face, he raised his hands to show him his achievements.Zhang Lan just felt speechless for a while, sometimes I really can't underestimate the stubbornness and stubbornness of the old man...

"Some must-haves for Chinese New Year! Look, isn't this dress really good!" Chang Ze showed Chen Nan the little red dress, but felt that it wasn't enough, so he had to put it on a model to see the effect.He ran after Wangzai, grabbed it, put it on, and picked it up to show them, "Isn't it very handsome, it matches Wangzai's white hair very well, and you can wear a hat." Chang Ze demonstrated.

Seeing Chang Ze stop Wang Zai from biting, stretched out two hands to open his mouth, Zhang Lanbiao ignored, Chen Nan felt sorry for Wang Zai, and only Zhang Cen could cooperate with a smile, praised Wang Zai for his good looks, and praised Chang Ze for his heart .