cross me with love

Lin Jingyu didn't know why he said these words out of his mouth.

Before he could react, these words had already been uttered, and the things he tried so hard to hide were spread out under the sun, between the two of them.

There was a long and suffocating silence.

He Tangxi felt that his heart was suddenly held tightly by a hand, and he even found it difficult to breathe. He couldn't find his own voice: "Oh, you have seen it all."

He took a step back slightly, retracted his hand, his nails were tightly digging on the edge of the gift box, but the smile was still on his face.

His eyes were wide open, as if that would keep the tears from falling.

Lin Jingyu gave a low "hmm".

"Then, do you still want the engagement gift I gave you?" He Tangxi asked softly.Immediately he smiled again, and replied to himself: "I probably won't want it."

He stared into Lin Jingyu's eyes: "Right?"

Lin Jingyu didn't make a sound.He had never seen such a weak He Tangxi before, and suddenly felt a little powerless in his heart.

He Tangxi always does this when he is sad, pretending to be nonchalant on the surface, but his eyes are full of grievances and sadness, he can't stand him like this.

Lin Jingyu wanted to call him, but he didn't know how to say it. Calling Tangtang seemed too intimate in this situation. He couldn't call him by his full name, and he didn't want to draw their boundaries so clearly.

His heart also began to ache, as if being entangled by a thin thread, and then slowly tightened, the thread was strangled into the heart bit by bit, it was a kind of fine and continuous pain that could not be ignored.

There was nothing to say, and there was a long silence.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to bother you."

Finally, He Tangxi spoke suddenly, his voice was hoarse and decadent.

Lin Jingyu's heart also became sore, his eyes shifted, he didn't dare to look at the expression on He Tangxi's face, and he squeezed out an indistinct "hmm" from his throat.

The current situation made him feel flustered and embarrassed. He didn't know whether it was He Tangxi's love for him or He Tangxi who made him flustered. Everything was wrong tonight, and everything was moving in an irreversible direction .

He shouldn't have come, Lin Jingyu thought, he shouldn't have come at all.

"Go up," Lin Jingyu's voice tightened, and he said pretending to be nonchalant, "Let's just pretend that nothing happened."

He Tangxi didn't move, his hand was still holding the box tightly, his eyes were empty, and his voice was trembling.

"Can we go back to the past? Like when we were kids?" He Tangxi asked him.

Lin Jingyu didn't know how to answer, if this relationship was always kept in the dark and unknown, then maybe he could tell He Tangxi frankly, yes.

But he didn't know why he told this secret. They can no longer pretend that nothing happened. All these things are in front of them, and they know the answer to the question of whether it is possible or not.

But He Tangxi stared at him and persistently asked: "Can you?"

"Yes." Lin Jingyu was forced to run away, and fumbled a perfunctory answer in a panic.

"You lied to me." He Tangxi's tears suddenly fell, splashing a little water mark on the gift box.

He sniffed, and forced himself to force back all the sourness in his eyes: "Did you know it a long time ago, so you don't answer the phone or return the message, and find various reasons to hide from me?"

Lin Jingyu wanted to say no, but he couldn't utter a single word. It's so easy to tell a lie, but now he can't say it, and he doesn't want to lie to him.

Even if he lied to He Tangxi, he wouldn't believe it.

Silence was the answer. He Tangxi's voice was filled with heavy sourness, dragging his heart down, and the pain gradually became numb amidst the prolonged pain.He opened the gift box that he had been holding in his hand, took out the gift that took him half a year of hard work, and threw it into the distance.

A silver light flashed in the air and fell into the pool next to it.

A very slight sound was blown away by the wind before reaching Lin Jingyu's ears.

"Anyway, you won't want it anymore, so you might as well throw it away." He Tangxi explained to Lin Jingyu, his face was pale, and there was even a tiny smile on the corner of his mouth, but he looked uglier than crying.

Lin Jingyu looked at him worriedly, with pity, regret and other mixed emotions in his eyes.

She wanted to wipe his tears for him, but she didn't have the position to raise her hand.

"Tang..." Before he could call out, He Tangxi interrupted him: "I'll trouble you to make this trip tonight."

He whispered: "Actually, I have troubled you for so many years." Yu Qi was stuffed in his chest, and Lin Jingyu felt a lot of anger inexplicably when he heard He Tangxi say these words.

What is he saying?What do these words mean?Are you going to sever ties with him?

As Lin Jingyu thought about it, the anger in his heart burned even more. He took a deep breath to calm down the anger in his heart.

It is easy to expand people's emotions at night, but in fact, the relationship between them has not reached the point of irreparability.

It has been so many years, and the friendship of so many years cannot be broken because of these things. They should all be calm and calm, and sit down again after calming down for a while, and have a peaceful talk.

"You..." Lin Jingyu hesitated to speak, he let out a long sigh, "Go upstairs, we'll talk another day."

He Tangxi wanted to reply "Do we have another day", but he didn't say anything, didn't turn around, just looked at Lin Jingyu and waited for him to leave first.

"Then I'll go first." Lin Jingyu didn't dare to look at He Tangxi's expression, he was afraid of seeing his tears.

Lin Jingyu can be said to have fled in despair.

After Lin Jingyu's back completely disappeared from his eyes, He Tangxi moved slowly.

He walked to the trash can, and threw the exquisite gift box and the fantasy in his heart into it.

Lin Jingyu knew it, no more, he has nothing left.

He doesn't want to go home, it doesn't matter where he goes, wherever he goes, as long as he doesn't go home.

The wind blew away the flowers on the branches and fell to the ground. He Tangxi stepped on the flowers' corpses, and his heart felt like the flowers on the ground were trampled to pieces. He didn't feel any pain, only cold.

He walked forward, walked past one tree after another, past one lamp after another, and walked into the dazed night.

Tan Yuwei thought it was a prank when she received the call, but the urgent voice over there and the noisy background sound didn't seem like a prank at all.So Tan Yuwei hurriedly put on her clothes and mask and drove to the hospital.

When she arrived at the hospital, He Tangxi's injury had just been treated, and he had just been moved to the intensive care unit.

Tan Yuwei opened the door and burst into tears when she saw He Tangxi lying on the bed. She walked over slowly and asked, "What's going on? How did it happen?"

When He Tangxi saw Tan Yuwei came, a little smile appeared on his face: "He walked with his head down and didn't pay attention to the red light."

"Where's the driver who caused the accident?" Tan Yuwei suddenly stood up and said aggressively, "I have to sue him for bankruptcy!"

"Wei Wei," He Tangxi called her, his voice was so tired, mixed with endless sadness, "It's my responsibility, I let him go back."

Tan Yuwei's anger was exhausted, she sat down on the edge of the bed, looking at He Tangxi's hanging left leg in plaster, her voice choked up.

"You're already like this, you, you..."

She wanted to scold He Tangxi, but seeing how pitiful he was lying on the bed, she couldn't say anything.

"The body is yours, you should take care of it anyway, is your leg okay? Are there any other injuries? What did the doctor say?"

"It's okay, the leg is just broken, it will be fine after a few days of recuperation, the rest are skin trauma." He Tangshu comforted Tan Yuwei.

Suddenly, he said again: "Weiwei, he knows, he has a showdown with me."

Tan Yuwei was taken aback for a moment, and immediately realized the meaning of He Tangxi's words.

No wonder, no wonder he behaved very strangely today, no wonder he walked in a daze and didn't look at the red light, no wonder he made himself into the pitiful look he is now.

Tan Yuwei was silent for a few seconds, then asked him: "Then what are you going to do now?"

He Tangxi shook his head. He didn't know. From before to now, he never thought that this kind of scene would happen, and he never thought about what he would do after this kind of scene happened.

Tan Yuwei looked at He Tangxi, his complexion was very bad, there were bruises on his cheeks, he was buried in the pale bed, even his eyes showed a weak breath.

Poor, was the first word that popped into her mind.

Poor, Tan Yuwei thought.

It should be pitiful to love to this extent.

Tan Yuwei got up quietly and went out, she couldn't be so sad all the time, she had to do something to make him happy.

He Tangxi didn't notice Tan Yuwei's departure. His heart is empty now, and his mind is also empty. The continuous pain in his leg is mixed with the pain in his heart. He can't tell whether it's the pain in his body or the pain in his heart. .

It doesn't matter if you get into a car accident, but if your body hurts, your heart won't hurt so much.

"Happy birthday."

Tan Yuwei pushed the door open again and came in. She was holding a small cake in her hand, and the bean-sized candles swayed with her steps.

Birthday?He Tangxi thought blankly, whose birthday is today?

Tan Yuwei had already walked in front of him holding the cake: "Although the cake is a bit small, let's eat it."

"What's the date today?"

"May eleven."

Since entering college, He Peizhuo no longer forced him to visit his mother's grave at this time of year, and He Tangxi also intentionally avoided this time. Over time, he gradually forgot about this special date.It turns out that today is May [-]th.

"Yes, but my birthday is May [-]th." He Tangxi said.

"Really?" Tan Yuwei frowned and thought about it for a while, and then said with certainty, "That's right, I have seen your ID card before, and the date of birth is May [-]th."

It was only then that He Tangxi realized that May [-]th was his real birthday, and the many birthdays that Lin Jingyu had celebrated with him before were all fake.

How can a wish made on a holiday come true?

So Lin Jingyu wouldn't love him, and he couldn't wait for Lin Jingyu to love him.

Tan Yuwei brought the cake to He Tangxi, urging him: "Make a wish and blow out the candles, a new year and a new beginning."

He Tangxi looked at the dancing flames in front of him, and slowly closed his eyes.

Since it was all fake before, he made a real wish on his real birthday that might come true.

He hoped that Lin Jingyu would be happy in her engagement, happy in her marriage, and happy every day in the future.

"call."

The candle is extinguished, and it is time to wake up from the dream.