cross me with love

He Tangxi made up his mind, and immediately got ready when he got home.

He didn't want to make the scene too grand, a more intimate and warmer scene would do.

It is best at night, when the sky is full of stars and the cool breeze blows, he and Lin Jingyu lie side by side on the bed.

Then they would chat, talking wildly, from the past to the present and then to the future.He would tentatively ask Lin Jingyu what he would do if a boy liked him.

Lin Jingyu is so smart, he must know what he meant. At that time, he will, he will He Tangxi can't think of the expression that may appear on Lin Jingyu's face at that time, his subconscious reaction, whether it is shock, disgust, or something. happy?

In fact, it's not that he can't think about it, it's just that he doesn't want to think about it. Even if he wants to continue thinking about it, he must think about it in a positive way. He dare not and is unwilling to think about those bad reactions, even if he knows that it is very possible. will happen.

He Tangxi sometimes felt that he was selfish and scheming. He thought that Lin Jingyu really rejected his love, but he had such a sense of responsibility to him, and he could use Lin Jingyu's responsibility to him to threaten him.

He still has three years left in high school, and he still has the most important hurdle in his life—the college entrance examination.Even if Lin Jingyu didn't want to be with him, he could let Lin Jingyu be his lover for three years because of him.

He Tangxi hated that she was not a girl. If he was a girl, she would definitely seduce Lin Jingyu to sleep with him first. It would be best to conceive his child, so that Lin Jingyu could never leave him for the rest of her life, and be tied to him forever.

He Tangxi planned to confess his love quickly in these two days. Even if Lin Jingyu rejected him, he would still have more time to pester Lin Jingyu and pester him to change his mind.

But he planned well, but he could never keep up with the changes.

In the past few days, the scores of the college entrance examination were awarded, and the Lin family was also very busy.

He Tangxi also went over to join in the fun. He was sitting next to Lin Jingyu. The computer screen in front of him was the list of various colleges and majors. He felt a little cold, so he moved closer to Lin Jingyu. Stick to the skin.

He Tangxi opened his mouth, his voice a little astringent: "Which school are you going to apply for? Do you stay here or go out?"

Lin Jingyu had thought about it a long time ago. He is actually a family-loving person, and he doesn't want to be too far away from home or He Tangxi. It happens that there is a university in the city, and the domestic ranking of top majors is also strong, so he wants to apply there.

"Let's stay here." Lin Jingyu pointed to the university in this city with a false finger on the screen, "This school."

"Yes, but your score is mostly A, don't you want to go?" He Tangxi was very conflicted, he expected Lin Jingyu to fly higher, but also wanted him not to leave him.

"No," Lin Jingyu inquired about the school's major information, "This school is pretty good, and the major I want to study ranks first in the country."

He Tangxi felt relieved when he heard this, it's great, Lin Jingyu is in the best school with the best major, and he won't stay away from him.

After finishing the professional application, they couldn't settle down. Although Lin Jingyu's scores were very good, they were still afraid, afraid that the score line would rise this year, and they were afraid of being transferred or slipping.He Tangxi didn't know much about these things, but he still worried along with the Lin family's parents, even more than they did.

In contrast, Lin Jingyu's mood is obviously much more relaxed, he has absolute confidence in himself.

This worry did not subside until the first batch of admissions began, and Lin Jingyu received the admission notice.

But after receiving the admission notice, the people who asked Lin Jingyu to go out to celebrate were one after another, and the reason for the appointment was also irresistible-everyone will be in different places in the future. Not sure if we can see you again.

Among them, Zhao Chen made the most frequent appointments, saying that he could not do without him because he organized a class party, and that it was his birthday that day, and it was so lively to get together.After calling twice, Lin Jingyu agreed.

Zhao Chen also specially asked Lin Jingyu to let him bring He Tangxi with him, anyway, they went to evening self-study together for a year, so they can be regarded as half a classmate.Lin Jingyu asked He Tangxi for his opinion, and He Tangxi wanted to go with him.

After a group of them met, they went to eat first, and after eating, they went to ktv to sing.

There were more than a dozen people crowded in the private room, drinking, chatting, playing dice, and singing with microphones. The private room was in a mess. He Tangxi sat next to Lin Jingyu, watching the excitement around him with great interest.

Zhao Chen sang a song at the top of his voice, then turned his head and looked around, his eyes fell on He Tangxi who was sitting in the corner.

He drank a little too much, the microphone was loud, he pointed to He Tangxi and said, "Come on, big nephew, don't just sit around, let's sing a song."

He Tangxi was half-pushed and half-pushed to the front of the karaoke stand, and a microphone was stuffed in his hand: "You can order whatever you want to sing, just go up there."

"This, this..." He Tangxi was in a dilemma, he had never sung in front of so many people.He looked for help to Lin Jingyu who was sitting in the corner, and Lin Jingyu was also watching him and nodded slightly to him.

With just one glance, He Tangxi knew which song he was going to sing.

He had heard this song before and liked it very much. After confirming his liking for Lin Jingyu, he found this song again from the playlist and listened to it repeatedly.

He thought, if there is a song that can express his feelings for Lin Jingyu, it must be this one.

He thought, if there was ever a song that could say what was in his heart, it would be this one.

He sang a Cantonese song, Miriam Yeung's Alchemy. This song was too sad and intense, and the ending was not very good, but He Tangxi just liked it.

He likes the feelings contained in this song, just like his feelings for Lin Jingyu, tenacious and stubborn, no matter how the outside world comments on how the world changes, but his love - will never change.

When the prelude sounded, the private room, which was still noisy just now, suddenly became quiet. Everyone listened carefully to He Tangxi's singing, and Lin Jingyu also listened carefully.

He Tangxi spoke.

Cantonese is broken, but the feelings are sincere.

Give me a ball of fire to test me and prove that I have loved so hard.

I don't expect much, as long as I got it, the throne beside you.

Give me a flood to calm me down, too many tears have gathered into a river.

Exhausted and hoarse, please like me, I have done everything, can't I move you?

It turns out that there is no fate with you for the time being, and it will become more suitable in the coming year.

Someday the stubborn stone will turn into gold, I can wait.

Convinced that loyalty will win sooner or later, and that stubbornness will eventually be respected.

Waiting for you to change your nature like alchemy, unless you lose your humanity, how can it be frozen forever.

It turns out that there is no fate with you for the time being, and it will become more suitable in the coming year.

No matter how hard or embarrassing it is, I will endure it.

He sang very seriously, he stared at the TV, watching Miriam Yeung singing with a determined expression, he didn't dare to look back, he was afraid that his eyes would betray his heart.

He really hoped that Lin Jingyu could understand that this song he sang was for him.

He really hoped that Lin Jingyu could understand his feelings and understand his passionate love for him.

Lin Jingyu's eyes were fixed on He Tangxi, and his brows were slightly frowned.He Tangxi sang so emotionally, he couldn't help thinking, could it be that He Tangxi fell in love with someone again, and for whom was he singing such an affectionate song?

Lin Jingyu listened, feeling a little angry in his heart.

After He Tangxi finished singing, Zhao Chen took the lead in applauding. His face was flushed with embarrassment and excitement. He sat back beside Lin Jingyu and asked him expectantly, "Brother, how is my singing?"

Lin Jingyu forced a smile at him, and he said, "You sang very well."

In an instant, all the flowers in He Tangxi's world bloomed.

It was almost eleven o'clock when the group came out of KTV.

Zhao Chen drank a little too much, and shared with others the gossip he had heard recently, saying that Lu Juan, who often competed with Lin Jingyu for the first place in No. [-] Middle School, had gone abroad.

What he heard was that Lu Juan seemed to be in love with a boy in his class, and the boy's mother asked Lu Juan to leave her son by sending him abroad as a bargaining chip.

"I heard that boy is fair and delicate like a girl, what's his name... Lin, Lin Qiao..."

Zhao Chen couldn't even walk steadily, so he staggered a few steps and bumped into Lin Jingyu, and then put his arms around him as a handrail: "What age is this, and this bloody rich family plot is still going on, if it weren't for my brother In Yizhong, he said that he knew the inside story and told me that it was true, otherwise I would not believe it..."

He was dizzy and couldn't walk steadily, so he hugged Lin Jingyu two more times, and he said in a rambling manner: "Hey Jingyu, do you think this homosexuality is disgusting? Two men ..."

Lin Jingyu gave an absent-minded "hmm".

He Tangxi heard it from the side. He couldn't describe what he felt in his heart. It was so empty and empty inside, and there was nothing.His heart was strangely light, completely blank, and the weightlessness of the fall made He Tangxi a little dizzy.

He felt that his teeth were hollowed out by moths, numb, and only when the wind blew over did they feel a little sore.

His world darkened, and even the moon became desolate.

He Tangxi silently completed Lin Jingyu's unfinished words in his heart.

"Well, homosexuality is disgusting."

"Well, He Tangxi is really disgusting."

At the same time, He Tangxi felt lucky. Fortunately, he didn't say it. Fortunately, Zhao Chen asked this question, so that he knew the answer in advance, so that he could give up his naive and ridiculous hopeless confession in advance, so that he didn't have to face Lin Jingyu's rejection and "" nausea".

In fact, before he had imagined Lin Jingyu's possible reaction to his confession, he had imagined how Lin Jingyu would reject him.But all his ideas are not as lethal as the word "um".

He was not as strong as he thought.

He also doesn't have that much courage to threaten Lin Jingyu. Anything that can use his college entrance examination to threaten him to be with him is bullshit.He's not a girl, he can't seduce him and get pregnant and tie him up, he's a boy, he's gay.

He likes Lin Jingyu, but he can't get Lin Jingyu.

In fact, he is more afraid of losing than gaining.

He can hide his liking for Lin Jingyu, he can pretend that he doesn't know anything, he can hide it from himself and everyone else, he can continue to be Lin Jingyu's good neighbor, younger brother and "son", although he can't get his love, but He also has Lin Jingyu's responsibility and concern for him.

He couldn't bear that Lin Jingyu disgusted him, and he couldn't bear that Lin Jingyu would gradually alienate him and gradually become a stranger.

He can wait until the day when Lin Jingyu changes, he has time and patience.Anyway, apart from Lin Jingyu, he wouldn't like anyone else, and he wouldn't like anyone else in this life either.He can wait until the day when Lin Jingyu will love him.

How did that song end up being sung?

The stubborn stone will turn into gold one day,

He can wait.

Expect no matter how hard or embarrassing,

He will bear it.

Lin Jingyu took two steps forward, and then he found that He Tangxi who was following him had disappeared, so he subconsciously turned back to look for it, and he was relieved when he saw that He Tangxi was still following him.

He separated Zhao Chen who was leaning on him with his hands, and then asked.

"What did you just say?"

"I did not hear it clearly."