he came on the light

"I'm afraid you are the only one who thinks so, big brother. At home, my mother thinks that study is the most important thing. At school, the teachers think that poor students are useless. There are not many people as enlightened as you now, but if In the future, big brother, if you have a child, you probably won't think so again."

Xiaoxiao tasted the beautiful cake in front of him. He wanted to eat the cake here a long time ago, but found that after tasting it, it was nothing more than that.

"Smile, why do you think that way? In fact, there are many great people in the world who have accumulated a lot of money. They may not even be able to speak completely at your age, but in the end they were discovered bright spots and eventually became A great man who has become famous and famous for thousands of years." Xie Chuyun gently touched the smiling head, when did the once sensible and kind girl be filled with so much pessimism.

Xiaoxiao is now like a balloon that is about to explode. Maybe a simple thing will become the cause of its explosion. Thinking of this, Xie Chuyun's eyes are full of tenderness.

"Is that because they met Bole who appreciates them? But I feel that I am worthless, because no one will find my shining point. It would be better to spend 20 years like a gangster on the street, and wait until I am really eliminated by society. At that time, I will seek euthanasia again, at least in the past 20 years, I have been valued by others." Xiaoxiao said disapprovingly.

She doesn't mind telling others what she thinks in her heart, and she even wants everyone to know that she doesn't care about this life, she lives as she wants, dies as she wants, and she doesn't have any souvenirs in this world.

Looking into Xiaoxiao's firm eyes, Xiang Heng knew that the child was not joking.It's not so much that she looks down on life and death, it's better to say that she has never figured out what life is and what death is.

There are many cases like this in psychology. Why do many people choose to go to the rooftop when they can't think about it, but when they really take the leap, they choose to regret it. If they are given another life, they will never choose to end it easily Own.

The reason for this situation is that they have not thought about the true meaning of birth and death. Maybe they think that death can solve the troubles in front of them, but when the god of death really comes, they feel unprecedented fear. They think that death is worse than life, but most people have lost the opportunity to choose.

"Smile, do you know what it feels like to die?" Xiang Heng suddenly asked Xie Chuyun and glared at him, wondering why he had diverted his words to such a sad side.

Xiaoxiao is a young girl of thirteen or fourteen years old, death is still far away for him, why would he bring such a cruel topic in front of her?

In fact, what makes Xie Chuyun even more sad is that his father died young. When he was a child, he thought that death was something far away from him, but when he heard the news of the death of his blood relatives, it was so sudden, and the murderer has not been found yet. , He cast a shadow over Xie Chuyun's little heart.

Perhaps after returning from a midnight dream, Xie Chuyun would be awakened by the doctor's cold sweat, because in the dream he saw his father covered in blood, but he could do nothing but watch his father being dragged away step by step by the god of death.

Originally thought that such a sad dream would become numb after a long time, but every year on the anniversary of his father's death, Xie Chuyun would feel that his heart seemed to be covered in white, but only indescribable pain was left behind.

Xiang Heng's words brought back the fact that he had deliberately ignored all these years, forcing him to face death.

He seemed to be able to see his father's blood-stained face when he closed his eyes, and the way he was sent to the funeral home for cremation. All this was like a thunderbolt to him when he was young, but he was just a helpless man. Powerful children, there is no way to change all this.

Xiaoxiao shook her head, she didn't know the feeling of death, because she had never experienced it, but she was seriously thinking about the words of the handsome man in front of her, but she discovered something wrong with Brother Chu Yun before Xiang Heng.

"Brother Chu Yun, are you feeling unwell? Would you like some sugar water?" Xiaoxiao asked nervously, but Xie Chuyun waved his hand quickly, and then said, "I'm going to the bathroom."

He left in a hurry, even knocking the seat to the ground, looking at Xie Chuyun's back with some worry, as if he said something that shouldn't be said.

Xiang Heng was about to stand up and look at Chu Yun, but he was suddenly stopped by Xiaoxiao, "Brother, let Brother Chu Yun stay by himself for a while! Now he doesn't want others to see him."

"What happened, why did he become so emotional?" Xiang Heng asked inexplicably. Generally, this kind of situation is due to a stressful reaction, which may come from the original psychological trauma.

"What's the relationship between brother and brother Chu Yun?" Xiaoxiao suddenly asked curiously.

"We are friends." Xiang Heng smiled lightly, but he couldn't hide the sadness between his brows, but his heart left with Xie Chuyun. His eyes looked into the direction of the bathroom from time to time, and there was no movement. No.

"It should have surpassed this level of relationship, at least in terms of my brother. It seems that if I guessed correctly, my brother should be a psychiatrist. My mother asked you to give me psychological counseling, but I can Let me tell you with certainty, I am not sick." Xiaoxiao said firmly.

"Has anyone ever said that you observe people very carefully and your inferences are correct? In fact, I suggest that you can learn Chinese and English well now, develop the ability to deal with people, and become a psychologist like me in the future. If you If you have ideas in this regard, I can introduce some experts to you. You can go to practice with them when you go to university, but before that, you need to lay a solid foundation in psychology. Let's go, and make an appropriate response according to the patient's psychology." Xiang Heng looked at the patient with a smile, with approval and approval on his face.

"I'm just talking nonsense. Don't take it seriously. Just take it as a joke!" Xiaoxiao lowered her head, her eyes showing a guilty expression. To be honest, Xiang Xiang's proposal just now is like a The candy was placed in front of her, and he could see some words, but with her current ability, she couldn't do it at all. Even going to college was a problem, so how could an expert take him for an internship.

"The child believes in your inference just now, and also believes that you have this potential. But now I hope you tell me what happened to Chu Yun, why did he react so much when I mentioned death just now?" Xiang Heng asked worriedly, but there were already some brows in his heart.

"Don't you know that brother Chu Yun lost his father in his early years, then his mother was arrested and sent to a mental hospital, and he was sent to an orphanage for a while?" Xiaoxiao asked.

"So he is afraid that others will mention death in front of him?" Xiang Heng asked.

"I'm not very clear about this, but one day on the anniversary of his father's death, I passed by the door of his house and heard heart-piercing cries inside the house, so I knocked on the door, but no one answered for a long time. As a solution, I had no choice but to move from the balcony to the balcony of his house, and only then did I see brother Chu Yun crying on the table, holding his father's portrait tightly in his arms."

Xiaoxiao recalled the scene of that day, Xie Chuyun's heart-piercing crying still made her feel lingering fear.

For a long time, Xie Chuyun has always been a warm and sunny big brother in front of him, always with a slight smile on his face, even though his mother said that brother Chuyun's life is actually very hard, because In the early years, the household lost its financial support, and his mother was also addicted to gambling. He often used the money from his part-time job to gamble, and then attracted batch after batch of usury.

But life is so cruel, but brother Chu Yun can always face it with a smile. For a long time, Xie Chuyun was her benchmark, until one day his mother informed her to move, and she had no choice but to live with Chu Yun. Brother farewell.

She cried very sad that day, but Brother Chu Yun kept comforting her, saying that they still had a chance to meet, but after that they never met again, which became Xiaoxiao's regret.

When Xiang Heng heard about Xie Chuyun's past, it was already cut by a knife. He asked Xiaoxiao to sit here for a while, and he went to the bathroom to check the situation. Xiaoxiao nodded and did not stop him, because during this time Chu Brother Yun should have calmed down his emotions.

Xiang Heng walked to the bathroom and saw Xie Chuyun washing his face in the sink. His eyes were a little red and swollen, probably from crying just now.

"I'm sorry, I should have known that I shouldn't have brought up this topic." Xiang Heng patted Xie Chuyun's shoulder lightly, but couldn't help but hold this person in his arms.

"It's okay, this has nothing to do with you. I'm here today for psychological counseling for Xiaoxiao. My heart is too fragile." Xie Chuyun shook his head, gently pushed Xiang Xiang away, and rejected his kindness.

"No, to tell the truth, you are already very strong. You are the strongest and most stubborn boy I have ever seen. No matter what life treats you, you will stick to the bottom line in your heart, and you will stick to your heart. kindness."

In Xiang Heng's eyes, Xie Chuyun was perfect, seeing him crying so sadly, Xiang Heng was really heartbroken.

"It really doesn't matter to me." Xie Chuyun shook his head, but what he really wanted to say was:

You don't understand my pain, so you can't help me.

No one can put himself in his shoes to think about all this, everyone will only say that you are so pitiful, I really feel sorry for you and sympathize with you, but so what?

In the end, he still had to survive all this alone, and kept telling himself that he would continue tomorrow.