the little things in life

When I saw MR.J, he was working. He was wearing a large blue and white patterned gown, not the overalls of the medical staff. Sitting in the crowd, he had a sense of immortality.Although he has lived in Country W for many years, and his clothing customs have basically integrated into the local area, he can still be recognized in the crowd at a glance because he is Caucasian.

Lin Chuyuan was about to go up to greet him, but Teacher Liang stopped him, motioning not to disturb him.So the two of them watched silently.A group of people sat around a patient, they held his hand, supported his shoulders, and talked to him, and the patient also spoke intermittently.The nurses brought flowers and placed them beside the patient. After a while, the patient gradually closed his eyes.The patient is not connected to ECG monitoring.Looking at it from such a distance, Lin Chuyuan couldn't judge the patient's condition at the moment.The group of companions stood up, kissed the patient's forehead in turn, talked in his ear, shook his hand and left the bed in an orderly manner.

After they left, the medical staff came over and connected the EKG machine.Only then did Lin Chuyuan realize that the patient had passed away.Unlike previous experiences, this dying patient was not connected to a lot of pipelines and intravenous infusion devices, and only had a nasal cannula for oxygen supply, so when he left, Lin Chuyuan thought the patient was just asleep.The family members didn't cry too much, and everyone left in a calm and orderly manner. MR.J went out with the patient's family members, watched him talking with the family members from a distance, and the conversation didn't end until the family members bowed to him.Lin Chuyuan and Teacher Liang watched and waited patiently.

After a while, MR.J came back, greeted them enthusiastically, shook hands, and invited them to his office. MR.J's office is piled up with all kinds of gadgets with the characteristics of country W, which looks a bit chaotic, including small black wooden carved rhinos, elephants, and some strangely shaped wooden carved masks.There are also some necklaces and beads of unknown material.Lin Chuyuan sat down and quietly listened to the chat between Mr. Liang and MR.J.I learned from the chat that the patient just now was a patient with an advanced tumor. After obtaining the consent of the family members, they implemented palliative care and did not continue to treat the tumor itself. Comfortable, do a good job of analgesia, increase the company of the patient's family members, and encourage the family members and patients to talk to each other.Let the patient tell his wishes, and the family members say goodbye to the patient.

MR.J said: "Actually, this process is like sending your relatives and friends off at the airport, except that you don't know the exact departure time of the plane in heaven, and your relatives will stay in heaven for a long time." He smiled and said: "People They always take this matter too seriously, sometimes they are unwilling to say goodbye, and try their best to let people miss the opportunity. In the end, everyone is unhappy."

Very vivid and fresh metaphor.Lin Chuyuan smiled, the teacher in front of him said the matter of carrying weight so easily, which made Lin Chuyuan's long-standing knot loose. MR.J said that it is his mission to allow families to bid farewell to patients without leaving any regrets, and he is very satisfied that he can work for this.Lin Chuyuan thought about Xiao Yu's matter, so he asked MR.J: "Teacher, have you ever tried hard, but the family members were still not satisfied?"

"There are many more cases like this than the ones you saw just now. In the traditional culture of many nations in the world, death is a bad and sad thing, which is normal." He handed Lin Chuyuan a thick book Lin Chuyuan stood up and took the thick booklet with both hands. "These are the cases I have done. At the beginning, many family members could not accept my point of view. They thought I was the devil who discouraged them from giving up treatment!" Lin Chuyuan opened the old book. It turned out that as early as 20 years Before, he had already started to try this work. "Slowly, a small number of families can accept my point of view, and only a small number of them can achieve the effect you see today." Lin Chuyuan was very lucky to encounter this low-probability event. "More often I have to face family members' abuse, crying, and even tearing, and I have to face a lot of negative things with them." He said it easily, as if talking about other people's affairs, between words He did not reveal these vicissitudes he has experienced over the years. "When you choose this path at the beginning, it is very difficult, you will doubt yourself, and you will stagnate. But you must firmly believe that what you do is very meaningful, and one or two failures cannot explain anything. Although, if you want to use If today’s case is used as a success criterion, the probability of failure in this job is much higher than that of success. I encountered an example. At the end of my work, my family members complained, and he came to find me many years later. I thank you, saying that I was immersed in the feeling of not letting go of my family and ignored my efforts. In fact, what I did relieved the pain of their families when they lost their loved ones..."

"Yes! The situation in China is not optimistic. Many families put the cure of the disease itself more important than the care of the patient, ignoring the psychological needs of the patient and the psychological experience during hospitalization. Our work has a great impact. There are many obstacles, and there are many difficulties..." Teacher Liang said. "But sometimes when I see the cases I have done, I feel that this is a particularly meaningful thing. After all, everyone has to face such a farewell..."

Time passed in a hurry as the three of them chatted happily.Lin Chuyuan benefited a lot from this visit.He wanted to know more, but he couldn't bear to disturb the teacher's rest time, so he reluctantly waved goodbye.

Those who pursue their dreams always shine brightly.Lin Chuyuan is very envious of MR.J. Lin Chuyuan admires and envies him for not being afraid of failure and his firm original intention.He looked back at himself who was dejected by the momentary failure, and smiled self-deprecatingly.Now he is much more relaxed. He discards the burdens of the past, sees the direction in front of him, and sees the path under his feet.There is still a long way to go, but as long as you go, you will not stop in place.

It was almost evening when he returned to City C. After a long drive, he chose to walk back to the dormitory in a daze.He sent Teacher Liang to the bus station, and then walked towards the dormitory by himself.Today's night is brighter than in the past, maybe it's because my heart is relaxed, and my steps are also brisk.A group of local people laughed and sang and danced on the side of the road. Lin Chuyuan was attracted by the cheerful singing and stopped to watch.I saw a small lake on the side of the bushes, and a group of people were gathering on the other side of the lake.They are old and young.Some are drinking beer, some are singing, and children are chasing and playing.He also seemed to be infected by the joyful atmosphere, smiling at them.Fragmentary glimmers of light flickered on the surface of the lake. It was night. Where did the light come from?Could it be... Lin Chuyuan just looked up, the brilliant starry sky... There are no high-rise buildings in City C, even at the edge of the city, you can still see clear starlight.The mottled starlight staged their own splendor in the sky, as if the ink-colored sky was covered with gems of various colors.Lin Chuyuan was shocked by the beautiful scenery in front of him, and his breath became stagnant.He even forgot to rush back to the dormitory as soon as possible to prepare for tomorrow's lecture.He just looked up like this, and his whole body seemed to have been condensed into the eternal time and space like starlight.The person who used to look at the starry sky together, where are you now?Will you look up at the same starry sky like me, entrusting endless thoughts?

The author has something to say: The brightest star in the night sky, please bring my thoughts to him~~

☆、Chapter 34

Chapter 34 Gifts

Xu Xingzhi took his mother to the hospital for rehabilitation today.My mother recovered very well, and her speech has basically returned to the same level as before.When he and his mother were walking in the garden of the hospital, they met Brother Zhuo Zhuo.

"Let's do it!" Brother Zhuoyue wanted to see him and waved to him.

"Brother, long time no see!" Xu Xingzhi was very grateful for Zhuo Liang's care for his mother during her illness.

"Auntie, hello!" Zhuozhuo greeted Xu's mother.

"Doctor Zhuo, hello!" Mother Xu smiled slightly.

"Hey! Aunt is recovering very well!" Zhuo Zhuo couldn't help but sigh when he heard Mama Xu's clear voice.

"Thank you! Brother." Xu Xingzhi thanked.

While exchanging greetings, the three of them walked to the garden of the hospital, found a table and sat down.

"What have you studied recently?" Xu Xingzhi asked

"It's not about the subjects of stroke." Zhuo Liang took out his cigarette and was about to light it, but when he saw his aunt present, he put the lighter in his pocket again. "Recently, I am very interested in hospice care. I have been to a hospice care institution cooperated by our hospital several times, and I think this work is very interesting."

"Oh? Then you and a friend of mine must be able to chat." Xu Xingzhi thought of Lin Chuyuan.I don't know if it's because Lin Chuyuan is not around, but he always notices what Lin Chuyuan likes, and imagines what will happen after he comes back.

"Oh, then I really hope to meet your friend." Zhuoyou raised his eyebrows with interest.

"Well, wait for him to come back! I will definitely let him chat with you." Xu Xingzhi thought that Lin Chuyuan would be very happy when he arrived.

"All right, I still have work to do, so I'm leaving first. Auntie, you should rest more and pay attention to review." Zhuoyou looked at the time, it was almost time to work.

"Okay, brother, contact again!" Xu Xingzhi said.

"Contact again!" Zhuo Zhuo waved his hand, turned and left.

Xu Xingzhi was very relieved that his mother recovered well. After he sent his mother home, he drove home alone.On the way, he suddenly thought of Lin Chuyuan, and then called Chen Ying.

"Yingzi, are you free?" Xu Xingzhi just missed Lin Chuyuan too much, and Lin Chuyuan in his own memory could no longer alleviate this kind of miss.He wanted to talk about Lin Chuyuan with his friends, and wanted to see him in other people's eyes.This will make the empty heart feel better.

"What are you doing when you're free?" Chen Ying felt a little strange.

"Let's go shopping with me to pick out gifts!" Xu Xingzhi thought that Lin Chuyuan would be back in three months, and he must give him a gift at that time, which will be unforgettable for him forever.

"I said you two are worthy of being a couple! Your brain circuits are so similar, you can ask me out when you buy a gift, I have enough dog food!" Chen Ying laughed angrily.

"Then if you mind, how about calling Wei Ruolin and Sun Peng?" Xu Xingzhi said.

"Forget it, one piece of dog food is enough, and then call that couple, will my single dog still live!" Chen Ying said.

"What gift do you want to buy?" Chen Ying asked him.

"I don't know, I'm still thinking, every time Da Linzi bought me a gift, it was your idea?" Xu Xingzhi asked.

"No, he asked me and I gave some advice, but in the end it was his own idea." Chen Ying replied.

"Ring, I want to buy a ring." Xu Xingzhi suddenly thought of it, so he blurted out.

"Oh my god! Are you asking for marriage?" Chen Ying laughed.

"Well, that's right, I want to propose and wait for him to come back." Xu Xingzhi was suddenly awakened by Chen Ying's joke, and now he felt that the ring was really a good gift.

"...Let's go out, we'll talk when we meet." Chen Ying had no choice but to answer.

The two made an appointment to meet at the T shopping mall. "Are you really going to buy a ring?" Chen Ying was still not sure if this person had a feverish brain or really made up his mind.

"Hmm! Do you think Da Linzi will like it?" Xu Xingzhi asked.

"If you give it, I think he would like a pack of tissues, too." Chen Ying replied.

"Does he like me that much?" Xu Xingzhi was very happy to hear this answer.

"Yes, he is a solid-eyed person. Once he likes someone, he will treat anyone with all his heart and soul, and he can't wait to praise him to the sky." Chen Ying said, "You probably don't know, but in fact, if you don't confess , he intends to have a crush on you forever."

"Why don't you say you like it? Is it happier to have a secret love than to be together?" Xu Xingzhi was a little puzzled.

"He is a very unconfident person. He can't believe that you will like him. He is afraid that if he says it, his colleagues will not be able to do it. Besides, he is afraid that if your relationship is discovered, it will bring you bad luck. Influence." Chen Ying said: "Of course, there are also some considerations about his mother, he doesn't want to see his mother unhappy. Hey...he is such a fool, in short, he cares about whether other people are happy or not .”

"Why isn't he confident?" Xu Xingzhi felt that with Lin Chuyuan's conditions, shouldn't he be the object of pursuit by girls in elementary school?

"He has probably been aware of his sexual orientation since puberty. At that time, no one told him that there was nothing wrong with it. He once felt ashamed of himself. He didn't dare to communicate with boys. He was afraid and hesitated for a long time. "Chen Ying said: "But it will be much better when he grows up. He can face up to this problem, and another reason is because... Liu Yishan." Chen Ying was a little hesitant. .

"Is it the big forest that Liu Yishan took the initiative to chase?" Xu Xingzhi said

"You guessed right. With his personality, he took the initiative to confess his love to you because you were so mad." Chen Ying continued: "After meeting Liu Yishan, he became much happier and more confident... ..But you also know about the latter.”

Xu Xingzhi became sweetly narcissistic when he heard Chen Ying's first words, that is to say, he was the first person Lin Chuyuan admitted to liking on his own initiative!He was so happy in his heart, he didn't hear what Chen Ying said later.There are many people who have confessed to Xu Xingzhi since childhood, but none of them can compare to this unique confession from Lin Chuyuan.

"Hey, do you want to go in and have a look?" The two walked to the door of the jewelry store, and Chen Ying reminded Xu Xingzhi.

"Oh, good!" Xu Xingzhi came back to his senses.

The lecture on theoretical knowledge is over, and Lin Chuyuan is going to do clinical practice next.In the past few days, he has been working and studying with the medical staff of the local hospital.Lin Chuyuan works hard and is very popular everywhere for his eagerness to help others. Soon he became the male god of the ICU.The local people, enthusiastic and bold, receive all kinds of banana rice, flowers and small wood carving crafts every day.When Mr. Liang came to see him, he jokingly said: "Don't go back, just choose one of these admirers to marry, and then follow MR.J to do research in country W!"

"No, no, I already have a lover." Lin Chuyuan replied quickly.

"Congratulations? Then when will you get married?" Teacher Liang asked.

"Not ready to get married yet." Lin Chuyuan had no choice but to falter in his answer.

"You have to hurry up! It's not too young, starting a family is a business." Teacher Liang urged again.

Lin Chuyuan could only smile foolishly, and scratched his head. He was a bit tired from work these days, and the food and accommodation conditions were really limited, so he felt like he had caught a cold.After get off work, he hurried back to the dormitory, covered himself with a quilt, and prepared to sleep.

Seeing his uncharacteristic behavior, Guo Jia asked, "Brother Lin? Are you feeling unwell?"

Lin Chuyuan covered himself with the quilt and didn't look back: "Well, maybe I have a cold!"

"Have you taken any medicine?" Guo Jia asked again, "If it's serious, it's better to take some medicine to relieve the symptoms."

"Hmm..." Lin Chuyuan didn't answer, but just responded politely. He felt that his eyelids were getting heavier and heavier.Going to sleep soon.

Guo Jia saw that he didn't want to talk, so he didn't ask any more questions, and went about his business quietly.

Lin Chuyuan slept for a long time this time. He had a lengthy dream. In the dream, he saw Xu Xingzhi with various expressions, some happy and unhappy. The most impressive thing was that Xu Xingzhi was wearing a black tuxedo with hands She held a bouquet in her hand, looked at him with those beautiful eyes, held his hand and put a ring on him, and said softly: "No matter in health or disease, in good or bad times, or in the eyes of the world, you will always be my lover." .”

The author has something to say: warning of small blades ahead~~~~ Please prepare toilet paper~~~

☆、Chapter 35