the little things in life

"Bang" the door slammed loudly, like a heavy punch, hitting Lin Chuyuan's heart.He sighed, and sighed at the fact that this could have been a beautiful and sweet night, but broke up because of the quarrel.I may have gone too far, but Xu Xingzhi's bossy attitude is indeed wrong.There is still a long way to go for the two of them in the future, and running-in is essential. Lin Chuyuan thinks that there is nothing wrong with a brief calm down, and maybe it is just a small test for this relationship.He continued to check the relevant information on medical assistance in country W.

In a blink of an eye, it was the Spring Festival, when the whole family was happy. Lin Chuyuan was on duty throughout the Spring Festival, and did not start to take vacation until the third day of the Lunar New Year.Chen Ying also came to his house to pay New Year's greetings: "Auntie, Happy New Year!"

"My daughter is here! Come quickly!" Lin's mother was very happy when she saw Chen Ying. In her heart, this was his own daughter.

"Auntie, let me help you clean up these dishes!" Chen Ying quickly took the dishes from Mama Lin's hand.

"Yingzi, are you here?" Lin Chuyuan just woke up from the night shift, and hurriedly got up when he heard Chen Ying coming.He walked out rubbing his sleepy eyes.

"Hey, busy people finally rest?" Chen Ying said to Lin Chuyuan while picking vegetables.

Lin Chuyuan walked to the kitchen and watched Chen Ying pick vegetables: "When did you become so diligent, I didn't see it."

"Hey, when will your boyfriend come to see the parents?" Chen Ying saw Lin's mother walking out of the kitchen, and took the opportunity to ask Lin Chuyuan.

Lin Chuyuan has been so busy in the past two days that he has no time to think about these children's love.When Chen Ying said this, he couldn't help feeling a little melancholy again. "Temporarily...maybe, I won't come again, after a while!" He missed Xu Xingzhi a little bit, and since he left that day, the two of them have never been in touch again, not even text messages or WeChat, no Know how he is.

"Argued? Break up?" Chen Ying sensed something was wrong.

"No, we won't break up." Lin Chuyuan panicked. He didn't know if he said this to Chen Ying or to comfort himself. "It's just that some things don't agree."

"What's the matter? Tell me and I'll listen." Chen Ying asked.

So Lin Chuyuan told Chen Ying that he wanted to participate in country W's medical assistance, and told him the whole story of the quarrel with Xu Xingzhi.

"Then you are determined to go?" Chen Ying concluded.

"I really want to go. My mother and I have also talked about it, and she also supports it." Lin Chuyuan really wanted to see the situation there, help those in need, and then broaden his horizons and learn knowledge. "After the new year, I will go to the head nurse and report my name first. I don't know if I can go. Maybe there are better candidates."

"Forget it, I don't think this place is a good place. I guess it's just a dream-chasing young man like you who yearns for it. It's not rare for others to go." What Chen Ying said still had some truth. "Then what about your boyfriend? You don't intend to coax him back?"

"I don't know how to coax, I'm quite angry, I think, he will figure it out in a few days." Lin Chuyuan said this "in a few days", in fact, he was quite uncertain in his heart, he didn't know what was going on. It will take a few days.He missed Xu Xingzhi, but if he contacted him rashly at this time, the two of them would be entangled in the question of whether to go to the medical rescue team, which is really not a wise approach.

The originally planned Chinese New Year visit to parents was shelved indefinitely because of the unpleasant dispute between the two.Lin Chuyuan felt very uncomfortable.He has a restrained and sensitive personality, Chen Ying knows very well that other things can be done vigorously, but when it comes to feelings, he starts to have difficulties.If it wasn't for Xu Xingzhi's appearance, she felt that Lin Chuyuan could curl up like a snail all his life, living in a snail's nest to escape his feelings.At this time, she also felt a little regretful, but it was better for them to solve the matter between the two of them by themselves.

After the new year, Lin Chuyuan made up his mind to join the aid medical team.He came to the head nurse's office.

"Mr. Mo, I would like to sign up for the W country aid medical team." Lin Chuyuan said.

"Da Linzi, I am very happy that you took the initiative to participate. I also thought that you are the best candidate for our department. You can bear hardships and stand hard work, and you are very enthusiastic. You have not yet married, and the family burden is light..." Mo There was a look of joy on his face.The two hit it off immediately on the topic of participating in the medical rescue team, and they talked very happily.

Xu Xingzhi deliberately ignored Lin Chuyuan throughout his working hours, and his whole body exuded the aura that strangers should not enter.The two persisted in the cold war for several days.Today, when he saw Lin Chuyuan walking out of Mo Yi's office, the words flammable and explosive were written all over his face.He knew that Lin Chuyuan had gone to sign up, and Xu Xingzhi, who originally planned to pretend to be an ordinary colleague and greet him with a few words to ease the atmosphere, immediately dismissed this idea, and he was very angry.

"All right, I..." Lin Chuyuan also saw Xu Xingzhi with a dark face.Wearing a white coat, he was tall and handsome, his brows were slightly furrowed, and the corners of his mouth, which was always gentle and smiling, also had a slight downward trend.I can't believe they've been fighting like this for more than half a month.If it wasn't in the department, he would definitely walk up and hold him in his arms, reliving the harmony of the past.

Xu Xingzhi hardly gave him a chance to speak, and passed him with an arrogant black face.Lin Chuyuan couldn't help wondering if the person in front of him was the person he admired, the caring person who would lean on his shoulder and act like a baby.The person in front of him clearly lacked the tenderness of the past, and looked like a stranger.Lin Chuyuan felt sad and annoyed. He somewhat regretted what he blurted out that day.What makes him even more sad is that maybe in Xu Xingzhi's heart, he is not as important as he imagined.

Lin Chuyuan didn't dare to go to the parking lot when he got off work like in the past.He's afraid he won't find the red Mazda, he's afraid no one will be there waiting for him.He was afraid of disappointment, afraid of confirming his thoughts, Xu Xingzhi didn't love him as much as he thought.On a cold night in early spring, he walked home with a long, lonely figure in the cold wind.

Xu Xingzhi frowned and smoked in the underground garage.He deliberately parked the car in a conspicuous place today, hoping that the person would be able to see him as soon as he came in. He smoked one cigarette after another, but the person hadn't appeared yet.For more than half a month, the two of them were in a cold war.Xu Xingzhi couldn't figure out why Lin Chuyuan was bewitched to go to that damn medical team.What happened to them?The first minute was still gluey, and the next minute he slammed the door and left.Should he apologize or question Lin Chuyuan? He didn't have experience with people, so he didn't know.He could only smoke one cigarette after another, but this did not relieve his restless and chaotic thoughts, but made him more and more anxious.He frequently raised his wrist to look at his watch, but as time passed, the figure of that person never appeared.

Two people who love each other speculate and hurt each other like this, they are so overwhelmed by love, even today when communication is so developed, they don't send each other a message in any form.

The author has something to say: Hey~~~ Dr. Tsundere Xu and Nurse Lin who think too much

☆、Chapter 30

Chapter Thirty The Lighthouse

Lin Chuyuan returned home and sat down by the bed.Mom saw that he looked wrong, so she followed him into the bedroom: "What's the matter?" Mother sat on the stool at his desk. "Mom, do you think there is a need to win or lose in love?"

"Of course not." Mother said. "What's wrong with you and Xu Xingzhi?"

"It's nothing serious, just some small conflicts, we will handle them well." Lin Chuyuan forced a smile, he didn't want his mother to worry.

"I don't know much about your affairs. Since you have decided to live a good life, you should cherish it." After finishing speaking, the mother got up and patted him on the shoulder: "You are a good boy, and you will handle it well."

After a while, Lin Chuyuan received a text message from Chen Ying: "What's the matter, you haven't coaxed him back yet?" Not surprisingly, her mother went to bring this rescuer again.

Lin: "Well, let's not talk about this, I have already signed up for the medical team, and I guess I will start at the beginning of next month."

Chen: "Then why don't you hurry up and chase him back, you're going to go for half a year, are you so willing?"

Lin Chuyuan felt a wave of longing again, and after a while he said: "I don't know how to tell him, he is very resistant to my participation in the medical team, but I think I'm right, it's something we've all been in for a short time. A dead knot that cannot be broken." Although the love period of two people is sweet, the running-in period also needs to adapt to each other.

Xu Xingzhi couldn't bear it any longer during the long cold war, he wanted to take the initiative to call Lin Chuyuan, he wanted to hear his voice, he could hardly think by himself.While struggling, he received a strange call: "Hello, who are you?"

"Xu Xingzhi, I'm Chen Ying, and I want to talk to you about Lin Chuyuan."

"Hello, tell me." This call is undoubtedly a timely help for the tangled Xu Xingzhi.

"I know your recent problems, I know Lin Chuyuan very well, you know this very well, right?"

"Well..." Although Xu Xingzhi had been jealous of Chen Ying, after he understood the truth, he envied Lin Chuyuan for having such a heart-and-heart boy.

Chen: "He may have told you about his brother."

Xu: "Well, he said something, but he hardly mentioned his own feelings in this matter."

Chen: "Hey, he is such a fool. In fact, he was very depressed at that time. He once thought that he had harmed his brother. He and his brother were in the same school, but he didn't find out that his brother had a heart problem earlier. He has been complaining about this matter. Yu Huai, the family also changed later, he even suppressed the sadness to comfort his mother while he was sad, in fact, he could hardly stand it at that time.",

Xu Xingzhi didn't expect the truth to be crueler than he imagined, so he couldn't help feeling distressed: "How did he get through that time?"

Chen: "He was lucky to have some good friends with him, and most importantly, he met a social worker in a chat room about how to adjust his mentality after the death of a loved one. The social worker has been guiding him to confide, telling him that his The idea is not correct, leading him step by step out of the shadow of the death of his relatives."

Xu Xingzhi thanked that person from the bottom of his heart: "That's great, is there any contact later?"

Chen: "Later, Lin Chuyuan's mental state became better and better. After confirming that he was completely fine, that person could no longer be contacted. Lin Chuyuan is very grateful to the person who helped him when he was most difficult. He I want to love and help people like him.”

Xu Xingzhi began to understand why Lin Chuyuan wanted to join the medical rescue team.He wanted to be strong, to be a beacon for those in the dark who grope for the light, like those who light themselves up in the dark.

Chen Ying continued: "He has a sensitive and introverted personality. He cares about your attitude. If you continue like this, he will think a lot. I don't think a cold war is the solution. Let's meet and talk."

Xu Xingzhi was very grateful to Chen Ying: "Thank you, thank you very much, I will meet him."

After Xu Xingzhi and Chen Ying finished talking, they immediately called Lin Chuyuan.

"Hello, do it." The call was connected almost immediately, and Lin Chuyuan's voice trembled slightly.

"Lin Chuyuan, I miss you." Xu Xingzhi didn't want to think about it any more. As soon as he heard that voice, the longing he had accumulated for so many days broke the embankment, and the surging waves swept over him and drowned him.He couldn't say anything else except thinking about him.

"Where are you, I'll look for you. I also... miss you, miss you very much." Lin Chuyuan's excited voice was still choked with sobs.

"It's just downstairs from your house." Xu Xingzhi opened the car door and got out of the car. He looked up at the window of Lin Chuyuan's bedroom.Lin Chuyuan was also looking at him.There was no one on the cold windy road, Xu Xingzhi stood there alone, the hem of his clothes fluttered gently by the wind, like a fallen leaf in the wind.

Such a scene grabbed Lin Chuyuan's heart fiercely!It hurt him to catch him.Lin Chuyuan hung up the phone and hurried downstairs, he didn't even have time to put on his coat.He quickly ran out of the elevator, ignoring the invasion of the cold, and hugged Xu Xingzhi.

"Sorry, sorry." He ran out of breath.

"I've been waiting for you in the parking lot today...but no matter how long you didn't come, I drove downstairs to your house." The more Xu Xingzhi said, the more wronged he became, his eyes were a little wet.

"I'm sorry, I should have contacted you earlier, my tone of voice was not good that day." He hugged Xu Xingzhi tightly and kissed his ear gently. "But I really want to join the medical rescue team. I won't change my mind, so can you forgive me?" He hugged his shoulders and looked into his eyes seriously.

"I know what you think, can you share some of your light and heat with me while being a lighthouse?" Xu Xingzhi said, "I'm afraid that you will be in danger, and I'm afraid of being separated from you." Xu Xingzhi Laughing self-deprecatingly: "I don't know why I have become so worried about gains and losses, become so... emotional, so impatient" He felt that he was finished, this relationship made him fall too deep, It even made him irrational, and made him lose the ability to judge and analyze.As he spoke, he shed tears.

"Why...why are you crying..." Lin Chuyuan was terrified by his tears, he wiped his tears with his fingers, then held Xu Xingzhi's face and kissed gently kissed his eyes. "Sorry, I shouldn't have made you so sad."

Xu Xingzhi was also frightened by himself. Except when his father passed away, he had never had the experience of crying.I don't know what happened to me today, a big man actually cried.After calming down his emotions, he noticed that Lin Chuyuan was only wearing a set of thin clothes for home use, and did not wear a coat.He quickly pulled him to the car, took a blanket and covered him: "Why did you run downstairs without a coat!" He scolded.

"I was anxious to come down and hug you, but I didn't care about it." Lin Chuyuan smiled foolishly. Xu Xingzhi originally liked him so much, and he gave in repeatedly for himself, which was beyond his expectation.

"Are you still afraid that I might run away?" Xu Xingzhi said angrily, while stuffing the charged hand warmer into Lin Chuyuan's arms.

"Well, I'm just afraid that you will run away. Such a good person, if I run away, who can I ask for compensation?" He took Xu Xingzhi's hand and held it tightly. "In the future, if we have any conflicts, we should stop the cold war, okay? Let's talk about it, and no one is allowed to speak angry words."

"Well, you can't talk for so long, and if you don't see each other, you can be angry for a day at most, okay?" Xu Xingzhi sat beside him.

"Not even for a day!" Lin Chuyuan hugged him vigorously, as if he wanted to rub this person into his own flesh and blood to completely fuse together: "Xu Xingzhi, do you know that you are my lighthouse." Lin Chuyuan Thank God for allowing him to have such a good Xu Xingzhi, thank him for being willing to step back for himself, and thank him for taking the initiative to call himself. "With your light to guide me, I can go on a long voyage with peace of mind!"

The author has something to say: parting is imminent~~~~55555 likes the setting of the lighthouse very much.

☆、Chapter 31