the little things in life

When Lin Chuyuan brought up this topic, it was as if an old scar had been untied.

"I'm sorry, I didn't expect to make you more unhappy." Xu Xingzhi held Lin Chuyuan's trembling hand. "If you don't want to say it, just say something else." "Xu Xingzhi didn't want to make him feel uncomfortable.

"Although it's uncomfortable, I want to tell you." Lin Chuyuan gritted his teeth, as if he had made up his mind.

"My younger brother is also a patient with congenital heart disease, but no one in the family knew about it. Once, they had a school sports meeting...then an accident happened...my family was greatly affected. It was a big blow. My father was away on business at the time, and then he kept blaming my mother for not taking good care of the children. They divorced not long after. My mother lived in the shadow of my brother's accidental death for a long time... " Lin Chuyuan's voice was very low, and Xu Xingzhi felt complicated and depressed emotions from his tone.In the whole incident, Lin Chuyuan talked about his father and mother, but he didn't say how much pain he had suffered through that incident, but Xu Xingzhi didn't want to ask.He thoughtfully embraced Lin Chuyuan's shoulders, stroking his back from time to time and listening.

"Later, I majored in nursing by mistake, and discovered such concepts as hospice care and grief care. I am very interested, and it seems that I can untie my heart knot for many years." Lin Chuyuan finally talked about the topic. Going to the direction I am interested in, my hands no longer tremble. "So I read a lot of books and articles on this topic. When I met Xiaoyu's mother, I thought of my own mother. I wanted to help her so much, so I made a lot of efforts during this time. But today, Xiaoyu left , I think maybe I did a poor job..."

"I understand your feelings, your original intention." Xu Xingzhi tried to appease his sad but yearning heart.

When Xu Xingzhi met Lin Chuyuan for the first time many years ago, he felt his special temperament of being in the thorns but yearning for the sun.I always feel that he has a lot of unspeakable thoughts, but he tells the people around him that it's okay, I'm fine.He tried his best to hide his pain deeply, and magnified the beauty and warmth as much as possible.Some people want others to feel the same when they are hurt; some people hope that others will never be like him again, so they want to help those who are in a similar predicament.Lin Chuyuan is obviously the latter.

"Actually, I hope that everyone can face the inevitable death calmly, bid farewell, mourn and remember at a minimum, and then continue to live a good life, living and dying in peace. Instead of being under the shadow of the deceased's sadness, for a long time Can't get rid of it." Lin Chuyuan said.

"My daughter-in-law is awesome! You have an idea! I support you!" As soon as Xu Xingzhi said the words, the depressive atmosphere was slightly relieved.

"I forgot I have something for you." Lin Chuyuan handed him a gift box: "I just wanted to give you a gift, but I don't know what to buy. I want to buy something that you can wear close to your body and is not eye-catching. , I bought this for you." Xu Xingzhi opened a brown wallet. "Well, daughter-in-law, I'm happy to buy anything for me. Is this a token of love?"

"It's fine if you like it, and I won't buy things for people, please forgive me, Mr. Xu." Lin Chuyuan said.

"You are always Mr. Xu, Mr. Xu's. Can you call me a nice one, husband?" Xu Chuyuan said.

"You didn't ask me to call you Teacher Xu! Let's call her Miss Xu!" Lin Chuyuan laughed.

"My lord, can the beauty sleep with you today?" Xu Xingzhi started teasing again.

"That depends on what the Empress Dowager thinks. I didn't go home that day and my mother already thought there was something wrong with me."

Lin Chuyuan said: "Do you want to meet my mother and explain our relationship."

"By the way, why did your mother feel so disgusted when she saw me for the first time?" Xu Xingzhi recalled the scene of going to his house for the first time, and recalled the unfriendly eyes of Lin's mother looking at him.

"Probably because I came out to my family because of my ex, but...in short, it was a bad memory, which made my mother seriously question my vision. She didn't care about me going on this road Confidence." Lin Chuyuan didn't want to talk too much about Liu Yishan.

"Oh... then thanks to your bad memories, wouldn't it be too difficult for me to win the favor of the Empress Dowager." Xu Xingzhi said: "But I said that I will not let go, don't be afraid, let's go together Overcome these!" As he spoke, he held Lin Chuyuan's hand tightly. "Actually, you can consider going to my house first. After all, you took care of my mother during her illness. She should still have a good impression of you."

"Well, let's arrange it! Let me buy your mother something..."

Seeing that the parents' affairs had just been put on the agenda, Xu Xingzhi received a notice to go to H City to participate in the National Critical Care Medicine Forum, and he needed to go to H City to spend 5 days.The two of them are very busy these days and have no time for dating. Occasionally when Xu Xingzhi drives Lin Chuyuan home, he is also tired from working all day and doesn't want to say anything.Originally, I wanted to enjoy the world of the two while I was resting, but I didn't expect the first little parting after falling in love to come before my eyes in a blink of an eye.

"Is H city cold?" Lin Chuyuan asked the day before parting.

"It may be much colder than City K." Xu Xingzhi said, "Starting tomorrow, I won't be able to see you for five days..." Thinking of the pain, he hugged Lin Chuyuan even tighter.

"Then bring some more clothes. It's okay. We can make a phone call and play a video." Actually, Lin Chuyuan didn't feel well, but seeing Xu Xingzhi feel a little uncomfortable, if he felt uncomfortable, wouldn't the two of them want to cry.

"Will you miss me?" Xu Xingzhi leaned on his lover's arms and said coquettishly.

"I don't think who do you miss? Remember to call me when you don't have a meeting." Lin Chuyuan kissed his forehead.

The next day, Xu Xingzhi got on the plane and set off.Lin Chuyuan returned to a person's life.I don't know if it's because the weather is getting colder, or because the sticky spirit is gone, he feels cold all over his body.After get off work, he habitually walked to the underground parking lot. After searching for a long time, he couldn't find the red Mazda. Then he realized that Xu Xingzhi couldn't come to pick him up from get off work today.He froze for a moment, then smiled, walked out of the parking lot and walked home.At that moment, he realized that this person had been deeply engraved in his life, and it was difficult to get rid of it from his own life.

When Xu Xingzhi arrived in City H, he was very busy, having meetings and speeches during the day.In the evening preparing for the next day's speech, the miss I said at the beginning was also forgotten.Lying alone in the hotel at night, I always feel uneasy.Only then did he think of his lover in the distance. He saw that it was already two o'clock in the night, and was afraid of disturbing Lin Chuyuan's rest, so he suppressed his longing and hurriedly fell asleep.

Early in the morning, Lin Chuyuan was woken up by the voice of WeChat requesting video.He accepted the video and heard Xu Xingzhi's voice:

"Dear daughter-in-law, did you know that it's snowing in H city!"

The author has something to say: There will be a small broken car tomorrow~~~ Let's look forward to it~~~

☆、Chapter 22