Let the scumbags regret the old days

"I..." Xie Jinyu's breathing was messed up, and she uttered only one word, already with a vibrato, looking into Yujian's eyes, with a sense of helplessness, innocence and confusion.

Does he hate them?

Of course hate.

Every sleepless night, after being teased, hugging my numb body from pain, the killing intent surging in my heart is so real.

But when he really held the sword and stood in front of these people, his hand was unsteady.

The sword in his hand was very sharp, and the blade reflected the dazzling light, forming a line in his eyes, which made him want to close his eyes.

Obviously, he only needs to push the sword out lightly, just like he has trained countless times.

This thin layer of clothing and fragile flesh and blood can't stop the invasion of the sword tip, and can easily harvest their lives, but he seems to have been immobilized, stunned in place, unable to get off hand.

Isn't it his dream to kill enemies with his hands?

What is he afraid of?

Yu Jian raised her hand, as if she wanted to touch his hair, and then slowly slid it down. With a finger width, she vaguely depicted his eyebrows and eyes, which seemed a little affectionate.

"The path you are going to take is a hundred times more dangerous than it is now. If you can't overcome it, then I would rather you not go out of this door. I will arrange a suitable reason to send you back. The agreement is void, and you don't owe me anything. But if you dare to disclose anything related to Chengying Pavilion, I can guarantee that you will not survive the next day."

Yu Jian stared fixedly at Xie Jinyu with a pair of light-colored eyes, but she didn't seem to take him seriously, and casually said threatening words without any deterrent effect.

"I choose what kind of life I want to live, and I always have to pay some price, whether it is comfort or turmoil, as long as I think about it clearly." Yu Jian curled her lips, her round fingertips were covered with fine powder, Gently tapped his nose, and it was instant.

"Do whatever you want, don't be brave, I'll wait for you outside."

Then turn around and close the door.

The snow-white coat reflected water-like ripples in the candlelight, which was a bit dazzling.

[What if he can't do it? 】The system suddenly became curious.

It doesn't think its host is such a kind person.

I'm afraid people who are worthless will not be put in his eyes.

"If you can't do it, let him go back, otherwise? Can I still dig out what he has put into his head during this time?" Yu Jian leaned against the door with a casual posture.

"Hypnotize him at most, let him forget it, but that place... If he doesn't dare to change himself, he will not be so lucky this time, and he will not be so lucky next time. He chose it by himself, and the result is up to him." It’s normal and fair to take it upon yourself.”

【…】It knows it!

Erasing his memory is tantamount to turning him into that useless abandoned child again, and sending him back is tantamount to sending him to death!

[I really don't know that...] The system subconsciously said, but fell silent for an instant.

"What?" Yu Jian asked suspiciously.

【nothing】

I really don't know what the grown-up sees in him.

It looks gentle and harmless, but in fact, its heart is the coldest, transparent to the point of horror.

Xie Jinyu looked at the back of Yujian leaving, and panic surged in her heart.

He wanted to grab the corner of the man's clothes, but he didn't even have the strength to raise his hand. The iron sword he was holding seemed to weigh more than a thousand catties, which took away all his strength and courage.

Just now, the man's words kept echoing in his ears, reminding him of a fact.

If he is not strong enough to live up to his expectations, he will be abandoned.

completely discarded.

Back in the original muddy swamp, entangled by all kinds of tangled vines, drowned alive in it, unable to get out.

But this time, no one will reach out to him.

No one would stand in front of him and tell him firmly, "You can change your own destiny."

No!

No way!

Xie Jinyu's eyes were red, and she turned to look at the four people, her hands were so sore that she could hardly lift them up.

He opened his mouth, and bit down hard on the soft tip of his tongue. The severe pain rushed to the top of his head accompanied by a strong smell of blood. He even clenched his fingers tightly, and then took advantage of this force to stab down hard.

There was a sound of "噗呲", light and short.

Almost inaudible.

What followed was the man's face covered and a suppressed cry of pain in his throat.

With a sullen face, Xie Jinyu pulled out the long sword, and the man fell to the ground with force, and began to struggle and twist violently. The crimson pool on his body was rubbed everywhere by him, soaking the floor.

Then nothing happened.

The first time he killed someone, he missed the heart by two points, which is why he struggled for so long.

Xie Jinyu stood aside, staring at him until he was out of breath, and his trembling hands miraculously calmed down.

Imagination is always greater than reality.

In fact, this is really a simple matter.

Next time, he will definitely not miss it.

After two sticks of incense, the door opened.

Xie Jinyu was covered in scarlet, and the long sword was still dripping blood.

He walked a little wobbly, his feet were floating, and he reached out to pull Yujian's sleeve, but when he saw that the blood on his hand was about to wipe the white, he stopped.

don't want me...

He looked up at the jade slip, his vision was blurred, he opened his mouth, but he didn't even utter a word, he just wanted to vomit.

Stomach-like discomfort.

The warmth of human blood splashing on his face, the strong fishy smell lingering at the tip of his nose, and the puffing sound of the long sword piercing through the flesh echoed in his ears, making him extremely uncomfortable.

But he insisted on not showing a trace of vulnerability.

Just struggling to get closer to that person.

But she was afraid that she, who was covered in blood, would tarnish him.

Yu Jian looked at the unconscious child who was on the verge of collapse, and sighed involuntarily.

It seemed that since meeting him, the number of times I sighed increased day by day.

He didn't care about the blood stains, he opened his sleeves, wrapped him in his arms, put his big hand on the back of his head, and stroked it reassuringly, "You did a good job."

Is he being too harsh on him?

After all, he's just a 12-year-old kid.

But the outside world is even more cruel, even his status and environment do not allow him to be vulnerable, kindness and softness cannot be exchanged for tolerance and understanding, it will only be more cruel plunder and oppression.

"Don't blame me..." Yu Jian sighed softly, picked up the unconscious child and walked outside.

In the middle of the night, Xie Jinyu developed a high fever.

His physical foundation is already weak, and the high-intensity training in the past few days has completely overdrawn his physical fitness, coupled with the high level of mental tension, and this happened again today, and he suddenly couldn't stretch himself, and suddenly became ill. It was hot all over, like a small stove.

The best doctor in the pavilion came to see him and gave him medicine, but he vomited it all out.

The little boy didn't do it on purpose, but subconsciously, like a stomach spasm, he would spit out everything that was poured in.

The old doctor at the side was anxiously pulling his hair desperately, but there was nothing he could do.

Even if the acupoints are tapped and forcefully poured in, they will all choke out later, accompanied by a violent cough, and they don't know what to do at all.

"Go down first, and ask someone to bring over some spirits." Yu Jian sat by the bed, looked at the bastard's flushed face, and couldn't help but want to sigh.

Others may not know the reason, but he does.

When the child was sick, not only did he not have an imperial doctor to see him, but even those wicked court ladies and eunuchs would give him some messy things, such as... urinating.

Or some swill for feeding animals, and sometimes even ground croton powder.

The whole body was burned to the point of death, and the body would respond involuntarily, vomiting and diarrhea, and half of life was lost.

I don't know how he survived at that time.

Maybe it was because of the bad food, the child formed a conditioned reflex, when he was weak, he would not eat or drink anything, even if he was force-fed, he would force himself to spit it out.

He wants to live.

He didn't know what he was eating, and there was no one around him he could trust, so he chose to wait to die.

Even if it is medicine, I don't take it.

Get over it or die.

And he knew that no one would wish him well.

So he can only carry it to death.

The spirits and clean clothes were quickly brought up. Yu Jian lifted the child's sleeves, dipped the bandages in the spirits, and slowly wiped it on his body. He remembered that Old Gu had taught him that it could cool down for a short time.

I don't know if it's true or not, but give it a try.

And even if it doesn't work, he still has a system. At worst, he can't really let something happen to him by exchanging cool points for some pills.

After wiping for a while, the temperature on Xie Jinyu's body seemed to have dropped a lot. It was still hot to the touch, but not so hot.

"Hot..." The little brat muttered in a daze, his eyes rolled and he became somewhat conscious, but he still couldn't open them.

"Come on, take the medicine." Seeing this, Yu Jian hastily hugged the man halfway into her arms, let him lean on her body, brought the bowl of warmed medicine to her lips, and coaxed, " Be good, drink it and you'll be fine."

Xie Jinyu heard his voice in a trance, opened her mouth subconsciously, was fed by him, but spit it out in an instant, her eyes were red and transparent, and a few crystal tears escaped from the slits of the eyes, dripping on the jade. Jane's hands.

"Bitter...don't...no..." He groaned and whimpered.

Small beasts are generally pitiful and helpless, they can't finish their sentences, and stretch out their limp little paws to push back, but it's useless.

Yu Jian thought for a while, put down the bowl, and was about to lay the person flat and go to the system to redeem some elixir.

He just supported the back of the boy's head to put him down, and turned around to put the bowl, when someone grabbed his sleeve.

Xie Jinyu barely opened his eyes, dazed and without a trace of focus. His eyes turned left and right, but they didn't fixate on him. He just grabbed his sleeve with his little hand and pulled it towards her with all his might. He said in a hoarse voice, "Don't go... I was wrong...I was obedient...don't, don't want me..."

Yu Jian froze for a moment, not understanding what was going on with his sudden panic, but seeing the child rubbing his hands and wanting to grab the medicine bowl, she could only sit back helplessly, and leaned against his lips again, "Be careful not to choke. "

Xie Jinyu's mind seemed to have regained a bit of consciousness, this time she didn't make any more trouble, she held the bowl in one hand, and obediently drank it clean.

It's just that the bitter taste still made him wrinkle his face, subconsciously wanted to vomit, covered his mouth with both hands, and forced himself to swallow.

It looks pathetic.

"Drink it... drink it, don't leave..." After swallowing it all, he touched Yu Jian's sleeve and hand again, as if he was afraid that he would leave suddenly.

"Open your mouth." Yu Jian flipped his wrist, and took out a toffee from the space. He had stored a lot in the last life, enough for him to eat for several lifetimes.

Feeling something sweet and fragrant on the lips, and hearing Yu Jian's voice, Xie Jinyu subconsciously opened her mouth, a sweet smell instantly overwhelmed the disgusting bitter taste, and her frowning brows gradually loosened , pinching his sleeve with his hand, staring dazedly and fell asleep again.

After drinking the medicine and sweating, there should be no problem.

Yu Jian was about to go to rest, but found that the little brat pinched his sleeves tightly, as if they were buckled into his own flesh alive, no matter how much he pulled, he couldn't move them, and if he tried to break his fingers, he would make a few noises. Weeping in a low voice, the hearts of those who listened softened.

Forget it.

Yu Jian simply stopped being entangled, hugged the person inside, and lay down by herself.

Xie Jinyu woke up in the middle of the night, her body was so soft, her forehead was sweating, her body was completely cold, but her mind was groggy, and she felt a little hot. The feeling of the two heavens of ice and fire was really uncomfortable.

He opened his eyes, but they suddenly widened, staring at the man across from him in disbelief.

Yu Jian's sleeping appearance is not very good, but fortunately, she is still a little aware of the injury on the opposite side, and there is no movement that is too out of bounds. The hair poured down on the pillow like a waterfall, and a few mischievous strands fell on his cheeks, which made one's heart itch.

He has always known the beauty of this man. Before he met him, he never imagined that any man could be described as beautiful. It always felt a bit too feminine, but Yu Jian could bear the word.

Just so that he wouldn't mistake him for a woman.

His powerful strength is enough to break anyone's heart.

The previous memories slowly came back, and Xie Jinyu finally remembered why she was here.

Being sick is nothing short of normal.

For him, it was even more frequent than eating a meal that didn't go bad.

But after so many years, he hasn't died, so he doesn't really care, after a while, it will pass.

But when he woke up, he was on the soft big bed, and there was even another person by his side to accompany him. This feeling was so good that it was a bit unreal.

So good it makes me want to cry.

And he can still recall that sweet taste in his mouth now.

Xie Jinyu suddenly felt sore nose, but he held it back for fear of waking the man up.

That's it.

Let me stay a little longer.

Let me take another look.

I'm not greedy at all, just a little while...

He just kept his eyes wide open, staring at Yu Jian's sleeping face obsessively, his eyes grazing every inch of his face as if he wanted to completely engrave this face into his mind.

Yu Jian was sensitive, how could she not wake up being stared at like this.

He reached out and touched the little boy's forehead, the fever subsided, and there was still a little warmth left.

When he opened his eyes, he met a pair of almost obsessed eyes, and without thinking too much, the man broke out in sweat again.

With such an illness, he must not be able to get up, so he simply lifted him up, put on the clean underwear that was put aside for him, and yawned again, "Sleep again, tomorrow is a day off, no class."

After speaking, he finally regained his freedom and turned back to lie down on the couch outside.

Can sleep well...

From being dug out, to changing clothes, and then being stuffed under the quilt, Xie Jinyu was in a daze.

After realizing it, her face blushed, and she was so ashamed that she plunged her whole face into the cup, but she couldn't restrain the corners of her mouth that were desperately raised.

No one has ever been so kind to him.

there has never been……

He didn't know what words to use to describe his mood at the moment, he was as happy as he was getting a pet for the first time, and even far happier than that.

He once had a little pet, it was a little grasshopper, which he caught in the grass.

People who have never had anything, get something that belongs to them, the kind of joyful mood is unimaginable to others.

Xie Jinyu even made an ugly cage for it out of grass, watched it bouncing around in it every day, and said a few words to it from time to time, even though he never got a response, he was still happy.

Even the pain of not having dinner seemed less unbearable.

He carefully hid the little grasshopper under the bed, and only after those people had left would he take it out and play with it, enjoying himself.

This is what belongs to him...

What a fascinating presence.

But he couldn't protect it.

The group of people discovered it, and even more so, how much he cared about it. The two of them pinned him down, and trampled the little grasshopper to death in front of his face.

The last thing that belonged to him was gone.

that feeling...

It was as if the world had lost all light in an instant, and he didn't even want to hold on any longer, doing anything was futile, even being alive was so tiring, but he obviously did nothing wrong.

He just wants to live.

Why is it so difficult?

But now, Xie Jinyu's life, which has been dark for more than ten years, has regained light.

It was a touch of whiteness, with a gentle sweet fragrance, and a gentle tone of voice, and it entered his dream again.

very nice.

He thought he could live for him.

In this way, his life regained meaning.

Yujian didn't know what the little brat was thinking all night. He was tired after a day of tossing around, but when he woke up, there was no one on the bed.

After asking, I found out that as soon as Xie Jinyu was able to get out of bed, she immediately went to see the teacher. She didn't want to miss the class for a day, even disregarding her own body.

Yu Jian was a little annoyed, he wasted so much effort, even serving the little brat himself, just to let him ruin his body like this?

So he killed him aggressively. When the little boy saw him, he smiled for the first time ever, and called out softly, "Brother..."

The voice is still a little hoarse, not very pleasant, but soft, it makes people's apex tickle, and I can't help but want to feel a little bit of pampering, especially with such an intimate name.

Overly intimate.

"Why isn't your body running around? Do you think the burn isn't severe enough?" Yu Jian was stunned for a moment, but she didn't express any opinion on this title.

Seeing this, Xie Jinyu's smile widened a bit, and she boldly pulled the hem of his clothes, looked up at him, her eyes were warm, full of admiration, and very well-behaved, "Brother, don't be angry, I'm really It's already healed, but I don't have much strength in my body, so I won't attend the afternoon class, but I haven't learned what the teacher taught me yesterday, so come and listen more, it's always right."

"That's not in a hurry. At this moment, nothing is as important as your body." Yu Jian frowned slightly, her anger subsided a little, and her face was still full of disapproval.

"But I want to learn more and become stronger quickly." Xie Jinyu tilted her head, her eyes softened a little, and pleaded, "I will work hard, I will become very strong, brother wait for me Okay, don't want me."

He knew this person's attitude when he woke up from the jade slip bed, and now he said these words more for the sake of acting like a baby.

"No, come back with me now." Yu Jian said forcefully, "I need you to do something, but I don't need a sick person. It's not a skill to show off."

Xie Jinyu lowered her head, looking a little aggrieved, but got up obediently, and walked back with him.

He looked at Yujian walking fast in front of him, with a slightly angry back, and the corners of his lips curled up slightly.

There is no more pity and feigned grievance.

Brother is really soft-hearted.

The appearance of teaching people is so beautiful.

He was forced to drink the medicine, and another candy was brought to his mouth. Even though it was originally just to please him, he was still attracted by the sweetness.

Children don't always have much resistance to this kind of thing.

"Brother," Xie Jinyu said cautiously, "In the future, if I behave well, can you give me two more of these candies?"

He glanced at Yu Jian's face, and changed his words again, "One is fine..."

Yu Jian looked at her hands, then at the boy, with a little smile in her eyes.

A child is a child.

Afterwards, the bargaining between the two turned into this kind of childish slapstick, full of sweet and greasy milk fragrance.

Xie Jinyu grew up very fast. The teachers in the pavilion praised him for being very talented and very aura. In less than half a year, he was able to go on missions with him, and he fought extremely bravely every time. Yu Jian was relieved, but also faintly Somewhat worried.

Was he pushing the kid too hard?

In just half a year, the child's height has grown below his ribs, and as he grows, there are also scars on his body.

It is inevitable that he will be injured when he is on a mission. Even if he specially ordered someone to take care of him, it is still useless. A bit of flexibility advantage, always inevitable injury.

This time, he personally organized and planned an interception, and the target was his good second brother.

That is, the person who sold him to Yuxuelou.

This man loves to play, and he does a lot of hunting and outings. This time they ambushed him on the way out, and the two sides fought fiercely. Xie Jinyu personally confronted his second brother, took off his arm, and herself, was also secretly plotted by him. Wei stabbed in the shoulder.

It's completely an injury-for-injury style of play, as fierce as life-threatening.

Especially to myself.

When he came back from the last task, he had lost too much blood and passed out. After waking up, seeing Yu Jian's dark face, he could still smile cutely, "Brother, I'm back."

Yu Jian wanted to grab and beat this poor kid, but she couldn't do anything with his pale face.

He unconsciously exerted a little force on the hand that applied the medicine, and the little brat started whining again, "Brother, I hurt..."

"It hurts so much, forget it!" Yu Jian glared at him, hastily wrapped a bandage on him, and ignored him with a blank face, but the little brat made an inch of it, grabbed his sleeve again, and choked his throat softly. Acting softly, "Brother, can you stay with me?"

Will you stay with me?

It will be fine in a while...