Give the slag and accept the end

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It is said that when Zhou Bei was salvaged, his whole body was soaked white.

When Su Ying and Zhou Jiang were taken to the morgue by the police, Zhou Jianping was already there, crying while hugging the man wrapped in white cloth.

This father who is not a father finally hugged his child for the first time in his life, but it was when his child died.

"The bureau received a courier this morning. We checked the date. It was sent a week before the deceased's death. There was a letter and a box inside." The policeman dragged the box and the letter in his hand.

Su Ying and Zhou Jianping reached out to pick it up at the same time. The policeman was stunned, not knowing who to give the box to.

"Give it to me." Su Ying pushed Zhou Jianping's hand away, and took the box and letter directly.

He put the box on the table and opened the letter.

It is Zhou Bei's handwriting, but also his language style.This letter was written to the police station, and the specific content included three parts.The first part narrates that the reason for my suicide is that I have lived enough, indicating that I did plan to commit suicide, and the motive of suicide has nothing to do with anyone, and no one needs to be responsible for it.The second part divided their own property. Part of the 4000 million assets was assigned to Zhou Jianping, and the other part, including the studio, was left to Su Ying.The third part is about what happened after his death. He hoped that he would be cremated. After the cremation, he hoped that Su Ying could take him home to have a look, and then look at the old dog Chanchan and the pot of prickly pears he planted. There is also a small goldfish that is dead and only one is left.

What to do with the ashes is up to Su Ying. He personally prefers to be buried at sea, but if he must be buried, he should be buried in a place with few people, because he doesn't like socializing, even if he dies.

Funerals should not be a big deal. People who have not sat at the same table for dinner do not want to see them, for the same reason.

At the end, he thanked everyone in a very formulaic way, but he only left out Su Ying, and only said that the box was for Su Ying, and no one could open it except Su Ying.

According to the suicide note, Zhou Bei's body was cremated that night.From such a big person to a small can, Su Ying took him back home and spent his last night at home.

"We're going home." Entering the house, Su Ying said something to the jar, put the jar on the porch, bent over to change his shoes, and shouted "Cicada" as he changed.

A long time passed, and there was no sign of Chan Chan.Su Ying searched for the jar for a long time before finding it at the foot of the bed in his bedroom. It was lying on the floor on the side where Zhou Bei usually slept, and he only moved his ears slightly when he heard the master's voice, lazily. He whimpered loudly, not even wanting to lift his head.

It is already thirteen or fourteen years old, and it is completely an old dog. It started to suffer from cataracts the year before last, and it can hardly see clearly.

Cicada has not been out of the house much in the past year, lying at home all day, Zhou Bei was afraid that it would be suffocated in the house, so he bought a small handcart and often carried him out when he went out. Now that Zhou Bei is gone, I don't know if he can get used to it.

"Cicada." Su Ying touched Chanchan's head, picked it up and put it on his lap, and put the jar in front of it, "Come say goodbye to your brother, after today, you will never see him again gone."

Chan Chan seemed to understand what he said, she stuck out her tongue and licked the jar, then stared blankly with her sickly eyes, and closed her eyes after feeling tired for a while, and slowly stuffed her head into Su Ying. In his arms, he whimpered like a puppy.

Su Ying patted it: "We always have to say goodbye."

Su Ying hugged the pot and bid farewell to the only remaining goldfish, and fed the fish a few grains of food by the way: "I bought eight for you, and you only have one left, and they are all stuffed to death. You have said several times that fish will never die from starvation, and those who have nothing to eat and drink in the water will be full if they drink water, but if you refuse to listen, you will feed them three times in the morning, noon and evening, and a bag of fish food will be finished within a few times.”

"Don't you want to see the prickly pear? Look, it may be because you haven't thought about watering it recently. Your pot of prickly pear has begun to grow slowly. You watered it before so that the roots almost soaked. "

"Lu Ming called me last week and asked me to take Chanchan to the pet store for a nutritional injection. It may not live long. It hasn't eaten much for a few days. It's probably only one or two days. It's been a month."

"It's better if you leave first, so that you don't have to be sad when you send it away. You have such a good relationship with it, and you cry so much..." Su Ying stopped talking, "Forget it , Let’s not talk, I’m going to cook.”

In the evening, he still made a meal for two, set up two bowls and two pairs of chopsticks, and put the pot on the table next to Zhou Bei.

He poured two glasses of wine, one beside the jug.He touched the glass lightly with his own glass, dried himself, then picked up the other glass and poured the wine on the jug.

"In the past, you complained to me that you have forgotten the taste of wine after not drinking for ten years. Now you can do it. Tonight is a good bottle of wine. You have to taste it."

"The food is still made according to your taste. Eat some. You will have no good food in the future. I won't cook anymore. Cooking is really troublesome. If it wasn't for your pleasure, I wouldn't do this. It’s not like I don’t have money to eat out.”

Su Ying had no appetite, so he put down his chopsticks after only a few mouthfuls.

"You eat first, I'll go and see what's in the box you gave me."

Su Ying went to fetch the box and put it on the table.

"I'm going to open it." As he said, he untied the knot and opened the lid of the carton.

The moment he opened the box, he froze for a long time.

It was a red headband in the shape of Christmas elk horns, carefully wrapped in a translucent silk scarf and placed in a box.

There is a Christmas card next to the headband, a round window is cut out in the middle of the card, and the head of a Santa Claus emerges from it. As soon as it is opened, Santa Claus' head starts to shake and sings a merry Christmas song.

The card read: Please forgive me for taking it back without permission.This is the first Christmas gift in my life, I cherish it and I am very happy.The only regret is that I didn't wear it for you to see, but I secretly took a picture and put it at the bottom of the box. You have to make sure that no one is around to see it. I don't want others to see my childish appearance.

The words were accompanied by a laughing emoji.

Su Ying smiled: "Cicada is a dog, don't count."

He put down the card, lifted the cardboard covering the bottom layer of the box, and took out a photo from it.In the photo, Zhou Bei is wearing a white down jacket, with small deer antlers on his head, smiling with his eyes bent, a little shy and timid, but still very good-looking.

That appearance reminded him of the scene when he saw Zhou Bei in the hospital when it was snowing. He smiled and waved to him, then turned and ran into the snow with a clean smile like a little prince walking out of a painting.

But there is no such a timid prince in the world. The prince should be cheerful and confident, showing eight teeth when he smiles, not Zhou Bei who hides anxiety and cautiousness in his smile.

His fingers brushed Zhou Bei's cheeks in the photo, and the corners of his mouth turned up, thinking that if he hadn't thrown away the headband, the child would have smiled more happily.

Ten years have passed, and he has long forgotten when Zhou Bei picked up this headband, and he is unwilling to explore how the other party feels about this headband that he threw away as the first thing in his life. This Christmas gift has been kept in a treasured possession for ten years.

It's all over, and now Zhou Bei will not tell him again.

He said to the jar: "I saw it, it's very beautiful."

He got up and went to the bedside table in the bedroom to take out their photo album and clip this photo into the last page of the album.

After discussing with Zhou Jianping, they decided to let Zhou Bei be buried. Sea burial is unthinkable for a conservative person like Zhou Jianping.Because of Zhou Bei's suicide, his head turned gray almost overnight. If it wasn't for that white hair, Su Ying would never have believed that Zhou Jianping really had a father-son affection for Zhou Bei.

If you really have feelings, why did you dare to admit it until the last moment?No wonder Zhou Bei called him immortal.

According to Zhou Bei's request, the funeral was not organized in a big way, only a dozen or so people came.Some of them were former fans of Zhou Bei from the same city, and they might have heard about the incident of committing suicide by jumping into the river, so they came here without authorization, and another said that they were Zhou Bei's former classmate, a classmate.

They all came here with red eyes, so Su Ying didn't drive them out.

After the funeral was over, Zhou Bei got down the soil smoothly, and within a day, the grave was erected.The stele was engraved by Zhou Jianping, with a series of names of ancestors written on it, and Zhou Bei, the son of Zhou Jianping, was written at the end.

It may be that they don't know how to define the relationship between Su Ying and Zhou Bei, and Su Ying's name is not engraved.

Finally, Su Ying gently placed a bouquet of daisies on Zhou Bei's grave.The moment he got up, he suddenly felt as if he had just realized: Oh, this person is really gone.

He has seen too many lives and deaths, and he has died countless times, but he has never felt this way.

This feeling is as if he and Zhou Bei snuggled up on the sofa and watched a long movie, until the last word was spoken from the protagonist, the screen slowly turned dark, and the ending song sounded, Zhou Bei was reluctant to let go He said to him, "I haven't seen enough, so it's over."

The sound of the system resounded in his head.

[Congratulations on the successful completion of the host mission. You can choose to die naturally in this world and enter the next mission world, or directly enter the next world. 】

【Leave. 】

Su Ying looked around at the heavy or sad people, thinking, if he leaves too, how many of these people will remember Zhou Bei for the rest of their lives?

Zhou Bei said that being forgotten equals non-existence, so let him stay.Stay with this kid again.

In the days without Zhou Bei, the earth still rotates normally.Within a few days, everyone started laughing and went back to live their happy days.Those who should go are gone, and those who are left still have to live.

Chan Chan died on Christmas Eve and left without a sound.He buried Chan Chan next to Zhou Bei's tombstone and asked them to be companions underground.

Time passed too fast, and soon Zhou Jianping died, Su Qinyun died, Zhou Jiang was old, Liu Yi was old, Lu Ming was also old, and even the child he went to eat the full moon wine also got married as an adult .

This group of them takes family portraits every year, from a few to a dozen; from a dozen to dozens.Everyone spent their lives happily, and everyone in the family portrait had a smile on their faces.

It was still an ordinary night, he fell asleep and had a dream.

It was by a river, and it was pitch black.He saw a child squatting by the river crying, and kept wiping his tears with his sleeve.The child cried very sadly, his face was in a terrible mess, but he didn't make a sound at all, only a slight choking sound, looking very pitiful.

He glanced at it and didn't pay much attention. He passed the child and continued to walk forward. After walking a few steps, a crying "uncle" suddenly came from behind him.

He turned his head and found that the child was gone, and the person squatting there crying was Zhou Bei. He hadn't seen him in decades, and he almost forgot what Zhou Bei looked like, but he recognized him when he saw him.

Seeing that he turned his head back, Zhou Bei also raised his head, his face was still full of embarrassment, his body was dripping wet, shivering like a kitten wet by cold water.

Su Ying walked over, squatted in front of him, took out the face towel in his pocket and wiped his face carefully: "Don't cry."

Zhou Bei looked at him, with tears in his eyes, holding his hand and sticking it to his face, laughing and crying at the same time.

"Don't cry, why are you still acting like a child at such an adult." Su Ying wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes with his fingers.

"I miss you."

"is it?"

"Ah."

"Then why did you leave in the first place?" Su Ying stood up, unwilling to look at him again, and did not want to hear his answer, "I'm leaving."

Zhou Bei asked, "Where are you going?"

Su Ying looked at the sky: "Leave this world."

"Will you still visit me?"

"Maybe there is no chance to come back again." Su Ying shook his head and asked him, "From now on, you will be alone, are you afraid?"

"afraid."

Zhou Bei walked behind him and wrapped his arms around his waist.He pressed Zhou Bei's hand and patted it lightly, watching the moonlight fading in the sky, the countdown sounded in his mind.

[The countdown starts, ten, nine, eight, seven...]

"Don't be afraid." Su Ying grabbed his hand and held it tightly.

【three, two, one】

Don't be afraid, I will remember you.