Give the slag and accept the end

Zhao Lijiang once wrote a sentence on the front page of his notebook: If a person is not remembered, then this person does not exist.

When Zhou Bei saw this sentence, he didn’t quite understand it. He had gone to college, and those who could go to college had been brainwashed by Ma Zhe, thinking that everything is material, including people.Existence is objective, and objectiveness will definitely leave traces in this world.

According to this theory, no matter whether it is remembered or not, as long as a person appears in the world, even if he dies in a second, it is considered to have existed.

From this point of view, Zhao Lijiang's words are purely idealistic.

But sometimes Zhou Bei also thinks that if a person is not remembered, it means that he has lost all contact with the world, so even if a person really existed, so what?Isn't being out of touch the same as not being there?If memory can preserve all the past, what is the purpose of erecting monuments after death?

He couldn't figure it out, and he didn't want to think about it any more. It didn't make any sense.After all, he had lost the courage to commit suicide at the age of 12. Since then, no matter how painful his life was, he never thought of dying—he didn't want to be forgotten.

Zhao Lijiang was brave, he chose to die; at the same time, he was cowardly, he chose to make his death a show that the other party would never forget in front of Zhou Bei, at least before Zhou Bei died, he would be killed firmly remember.

After more than two months——

"What do you want to eat today? Write it down in a notebook." Su Ying handed Zhou Bei the small notebook and pen hanging on the wall, Zhou Bei nodded, took the notebook and wrote a few words on it.

Su Ying stood on the side and leaned against the wall waiting for him to finish writing, and took a look: "Shooting cucumbers? The doctor said you need to supplement your nutrition, so you want to eat cucumbers? Well...forget it, I'll give it to you Let’s make cucumber broth, it’s too crude to shoot cucumbers.”

Zhou Bei bowed his eyes and nodded, agreeing.

Su Ying patted his head, kissed his face with a smile, and said softly: "Watch TV for a while, I'll call you when I'm ready."

Zhou Bei shook his head, stood by the kitchen counter, pointed at the dishes and gestured a few times.

"Want to watch me do it?"

Zhou Bei nodded.

"Okay, let's watch it, and make it for me after you watch it." Su Ying said.

There are two figures in the kitchen, one doing the other watching, and the atmosphere is harmonious.From time to time, Su Ying talked to Zhou Bei, taught him cooking skills or chatted a few other things, while Zhou Bei stood by and listened obediently, nodding cooperatively and bending his eyes.

Just, not a word.

After New Year's Eve, Zhou Bei was speechless.The doctor said that he was too stimulated and temporarily lost his language ability. Although he can recover, the process is slow, ranging from a few months to a few years, and he needs psychological intervention as the main treatment method.

Although there is no difference from Zhou Bei's appearance, he can still talk and laugh as before, and he will not refuse to make some intimate moves with him, but the biggest difference is that he cannot talk.

Su Ying never expected that General Zhao Li's influence on Zhou Bei would be so great.If time could be turned back, he would never let Zhou Bei go out with him. God knows how he felt when he found Zhou Bei who was almost frozen in front of the inpatient department that day.

At that time, there was no spark in Zhou Bei's eyes, even if he saw him, he didn't react at all, like a robot.He yelled more than a dozen times before waking Zhou Bei up, and when he asked what was wrong, Zhou Bei even smiled at him.

Not a smile at all.

After returning home, he found that Zhou Bei was suddenly unable to speak, so he ran to investigate and found out that the person who jumped off the building was Zhao Lijiang.It was later learned that Zhao Lijiang fell to his death in front of Zhou Bei on purpose.

The police came to investigate and found Zhou Bei. Although Zhou Bei didn't say a word, the other party still made a report through Zhou Bei's text messages, defining the case as love suicide, and handed in the report to continue the Chinese New Year. went.

It just so happened that there was a family member of a reporter at the scene of the case. Hearing that the incident might be a murder caused by a male-male relationship, and that the object of the deceased’s admiration was a good-looking gay university graduate student suffering from AIDS, he realized that the incident could be hyped. , So I came to interview Zhou Bei, trying to portray him as a disgraceful homosexual who is promiscuous, and lead the topic of social discussion to the current rotten life of homosexuals.

Zhou Bei was harassed in this way when he was still in the ward, and Su Ying beat him away with a stick in a rage. The reporter made up a random blog post and posted it on the Internet after returning from the injury, but one night, this article The article "AIDS graduate students maliciously spread the disease and caused people to jump off the building to die, Xin Huan conspired with others to beat others to cover up the truth" was spread all over Weibo, with extremely high hits and comments, and became popular on the homepage.

Su Ying never played Weibo, and when he found out about this, he could no longer control the situation.There are many reporters who come to interview after hearing the news, but few are willing to listen to the truth. They prefer to make up a story that they think is reasonable.

So even though Su Ying didn't say a word to Zhou Bei, those reporters learned about Zhou Bei's past from Zhou Bei's school and the people Zhou Bei once knew. From these "dirty" experiences, they each told their own stories. The truth in the book made ambiguous and provocative remarks.

For a while, the Internet was full of swearing, and netizens called for this damn homosexual who spread AIDS to be shot.

Those ancient anti-gay remarks in the past have been revived in this country. Some say that homosexuality itself is a crime, which is inconsistent with human ethics and common sense, and violates the laws of social reproduction; some say that the number of homosexuals is too small, and the minority obeys the majority. A group that accepts discrimination in the corner; some people say that it is best to let homosexuals be infected with AIDS, spread among homosexuals, and completely eliminate this group through natural selection.

Among them, the sentence with the highest praise is: God gave you a gun, but you use it as a shit stick. You never thought that this shit stick would also become a gun for sniping gays.

Fortunately, during this period of time, Zhou Bei has been recuperating in isolation in the hospital, and has not seen those messy things on the Internet.

After dealing with Zhou Bei's matter, Su Ying spent a lot of money to find someone to arrange an interview with a reporter from the National Daily, clarify the relationship between Zhou Bei and Zhao Lijiang, and take out the police investigation report and Zhao Lijiang's disease report, It proves that it was not Zhou Bei who spread AIDS, Zhao Lijiang's death had nothing to do with Zhou Bei, Zhou Bei was the victim.

The interview draft was sent out, and money was spent on promotion, but no one believed it.Netizens are more willing to believe a dead "weak person" than someone who has the ability to ask the national daily to clarify things.

What's more, this person is still Zhou Bei's "uncle" in name.What kind of a good person can be with a brother-in-law's illegitimate child?

The scolding became louder, and the energy turned to Su Ying's head again. Even the employees of Su Ying's company knew about his "lovely anecdote", and many people looked at him with a trace of malicious inquiry.

Su Ying didn't care about these things, he was not a very good-tempered person, and he fired all those who talked gossip.After being fired, those people began to spread rumors about Su Ying without any scruples as revenge.

The more critical this moment is, the more human nature can be reflected.Su Ying doesn't care about these remarks. He has lived for too long and already knows what a complicated species human beings are.

It's just that he didn't expect to stand up in the end, and the first person to speak up for his real name online would be the female secretary who had beaten Chan Chan before and was sent to the branch office by him.

After the female secretary spoke out, other company employees began to testify for him, saying that he is a good boss who is fair and just and never treats his subordinates harshly.The records of the company's public welfare projects have also been displayed on the Internet platform one after another, and those who have been helped spontaneously expressed their support for Su Ying.

That's how things often go, in reverse and in reverse.You can never see the truth until the last moment.

The Internet world is in chaos, but for Yu Suying, all of this is nothing.

He doesn't care about anything but Zhou Bei.

He seldom goes to the company now, unless it is extremely important, otherwise all will be left to the vice president to solve.He promoted the female secretary to be the vice president's deputy in return for speaking out for him.

For two months, he has been with Zhou Bei every day, cooking for him, chatting with him, or taking people out for walks, sports, and travel.

Zhou Bei suffered from insomnia every night after Zhao Lijiang’s suicide, so he let Zhou Bei sleep in his room, shared a bed with him, chatted with him every day, and hugged Zhou Bei to sleep when he was too sleepy. .

Slowly, Zhou Bei could barely sleep for a while, and he gradually calmed down.As long as you can fall asleep, it is a good sign, which means that things will pass.

Some things are okay for some people, but not for others.Those who can't make it through will be like Mr. Su and Zhao Lijiang, who say they will die, and leave everything regardless.They were released, but left behind a group of miserable people.

Only then did Su Ying realize that Zhou Bei would die too.His script had been written long ago, and he would die one day in ten years' time. Whether he wanted to or not, he would leave this world irresistibly.

Su Ying thought that maybe he was really a cruel person, using a person's last life to achieve his wish.

After dinner, when Su Ying went to wash the dishes, Zhou Bei stood beside him and suddenly made a long-lost voice.

"elder brother……"

Suddenly, Su Ying missed the bowl and fell into the sink, making a "clang".

"Did you just speak?"

Zhou Bei looked at him and smiled, and tried his best to make a sound: "Brother...Brother."

"Call again."

"elder brother."

"continue."

"elder brother."

Su Ying was silent for a long time, then patted Zhou Bei's head: "Yes."

Zhou Bei threw himself into his arms with a smile, and the two laughed together.

At that moment, Su Ying's heart suddenly jumped for no reason.