Give the slag and accept the end

Su Ying himself didn't know how the ten years without a mission passed.

There seems to be no time in this colorless space, he can't tell the difference between morning and night, and he can't tell east, west, north, south, just like Rong Ji who entered the dark healing space at the beginning, he would walk aimlessly at first, but later I found that I couldn't go to the end, so I stopped.

Wake up sleep, sleep wake up.Dreams seem to have no end.

This is not his own program space, so he has no way to change it.

The eyes are opened and not opened, walking and not walking are the same, as if they are moving, but also seem to be in place all the time.You won't die if you don't eat or drink, and it won't affect you if you don't sleep or sleep.

In such an extremely quiet and boring environment, it is inevitable to think of many things.

He thought of the past when he was born and became an adult at some point, his endless life and travel, the mission system that appeared in his mind rashly, and the "tempting" and His fake love.

He thought of the people he once loved: Zhou Bei, Zhao Guo, Bai Cheng, Fang Yi, Yang Fei, Xu Wei, Chu Yan and...Rong Ji.

Each is not a perfect lover, one is more weird than the other, one is more lonely than the other.

Zhou Bei, who suffers from AIDS and is cast aside by others, Zhao Guo, who feels confused because of his sexuality and is violent to others, Baicheng, who has lived all his life, Fang Yi, who is obviously not a humble person but has tasted the suffering of humbleness, and Yang, who is lonely and pompous Fei, Xu Wei who was trapped in several personalities and struggled painfully, Chu Yan who watched his lover go to others time and time again, and the last... Rong Ji who didn't know love, love, or even happiness.

Since the last world, he has been thinking, what is he himself?

Is it human?

But life and death are involuntary, and love and hate cannot be controlled.

But what is it if it is not a human being?Is it artificial intelligence?Like the previous world, a dedicated artificial intelligence that can treat patients, the function is to love others unconditionally, and love with endless lives.

With artificial intelligence, you can have endless lives, you can jump in different virtual worlds, you can release tasks like playing games, and you can control love.

After the cure is completed, the patient leaves the treatment space, leaving him as a "doctor" to complete the final mission and achieve consummation.

It seems ridiculous, but the most ridiculous explanation is the most likely to be true.

I don't know what kind of bastard can come up with such a wonderful and cruel treatment method... The patient is cured wonderfully, and all the cruelty is left to him.

Su Ying still remembers how he felt when he faced "loss" for the first time.

The pyrotechnician in the funeral parlor asked him, "Is there any last word you want to tell the deceased?"

He was a little confused at the time, unable to think of what to say, so he shook his head.

That Huo Gong was an uneducated rural uncle, with dry skin and thin skin, but his hands were very strong. When he saw Su Ying shaking his head, he grabbed his arms and tried to push Zhou Bei into the cremation furnace.

"Wait!" He stopped him all at once, "There is still something to say."

Although he didn't know what the other words were.

Huo Gong seemed to be used to seeing his indecisive family members, and comforted him calmly in a dialect of Mandarin: "Death cannot be resurrected, and this will always happen sooner or later in one's life." Want to leave, "Why don't you say a few more words, and then I'll..."

"...Forget it, there's nothing more to say."

In the end, he still didn't say anything, and let Zhou Bei enter the stove without hesitation.A fire ignited and burned the child who could talk and laugh and would lie in his arms and say he loved him.

After that, for a long time, he would have nightmares.

Sometimes I dreamed that Zhou Bei begged him for help in the turbulent river, and sometimes I dreamed that Zhou Bei cried out for pain at him in the fire.This is a nightmare that I am used to, and I am not afraid when I get used to it.

There was only one dream that would make him break out in cold sweat.

He dreamed that on a night with a full moon, the little bruised child climbed over the iron railings by the river with trembling hands and feet, and poked his feet out into the icy water bit by bit.

Zhou Bei, who was still a child, was crying with snot and tears all over his face. He was obviously afraid that the beast-like water would sweep him away, but he let go of the hand holding the railing one by one. At the same time, the child's head fell to the shore Look, looking at the people on the shore, as if waiting for something.

The expression of fear and reluctance seemed to say: "If you stop me, I will not let go."

But his plea was not answered.

Under his expectant eyes, the adult on the shore was resolutely silent, silently watching the child weeping, watching the child's eyes change from reluctance to despair, watching the child let go of his hand while crying, watching The child fell into the water.

The river water covered the child's head, and the crying was swept into the sound of rushing water.

It was the most terrible dream ever.That dream made Su Ying choose to stay and spend his whole life with a grave in this world.

That was the first time, the first time Su Ying realized that he was not actually a heartless person.

【Will you remember me? 】

【Will do. 】

I always remember, you just forgot.

To say there is no resentment would be a lie.Su Ying has always wanted to know, how ruthless and cruel is it that forces him to fall in love again and again, and leaves him behind again and again?

This doubt has been lingering in the previous life, until Su Ying met Rong Ji, and he didn't know until he was destroyed in front of Rong Ji.

Who is that ruthless and cruel man.

Ruthless, so not afraid of separation.

In the ten years in the dark space, everything seemed to be static.

But it's just as if.

"Ten years."

I'm afraid I won't be able to wait.

See you in the next life, when he sees that guy in the next life, he must teach him a lesson, otherwise...

Just as he was thinking angrily, a long-lost mechatronic sound suddenly sounded in Su Ying's ear.

[The task is started. 】

[The objective and content of the mission in this world are all chosen by the host until the natural end of the lifespan. In order to ensure the normal progress of the mission, the past memory of the host will be erased. Please be prepared. 】

His eyes widened and his body tensed up.

Freedom of choice?

Erase... past memories?

what?

What's the meaning?

Why didn't he understand?

What is natural end of life?

Whose life is it?

His?still……

[The countdown starts. 】

The system appeared so suddenly that Su Ying was not prepared for it.Before he could even be surprised, he heard the sound of the countdown.

"No, wait!"

How is this going?Why did the task change?

[nine, eight...]

The system starts counting the seconds mercilessly.

Su Ying didn't have time to think about it. He subconsciously felt the seriousness of the matter and quickly stopped him: "No! No! Wait, tell me what his name is, you tell me first, tell me what his name is in the next world!"

"Why do you want to erase my memory?"

"say!"

[six, five...]

The system did not pause for several seconds, which made Su Ying realize that "erasing memory" might be true, and he became nervous: "Don't erase my memory, if you hear me, I say no! No one can erase my memory !cannot!"

No, if he forgets, then...then how will they meet?

That guy's memory has always been terrible, he never remembers him, he never comes to find him, if he forgets, if he forgets...

All of this disappeared, and there was nothing left.

Everything in the past, those people he loved, those experiences, those feelings, those days, are gone.The joys and pains are all gone.

How could this be?If he forgets everything that once really existed, will it really still exist?

No, you can't.

"Tell me, who is the target of the mission in the next world! Tell me quickly!" Su Ying's voice was drowned in the black space, it seemed loud and small.

Anyway, the system couldn't hear his order.

【three two……】

come for real?Must be joking, right?Su Ying felt dizzy for a moment, and the prelude to time travel had come.

"Stop! Stop!"

The system will not listen to him.

"one."

"Start execution." The cold mechanical voice issued the last merciless notification.

The moment the mechanical sound fell, Su Ying's brain seemed to be hit hard, and then, the feeling of numbness instantly spread to every nerve in his body, making him a vacuum from head to toe.

His soul seemed to have gone out of his body, and his consciousness drifted outside his body.

Memories of the past are like towering trees that have been uprooted bit by bit, tearing off the ground inch by inch.Broken memories, disturbed past, crazily crowded together in my mind and then scattered unstoppably.

He can't stop it at all, he can only watch and think numbly.

Why should I forget, why?tell me why?

[Forgotten equals non-existence. 】

[No, I must love him. 】

[What is your mission?is it close to me? ...You go, I will not force you to do the task. 】

[Why do you want to control me as a murderer, what are you planning on me? 】

【Hi. 】

[I don't want to disappear, I want to be with you, always with you. 】

[If you were Truman, what would you do, would you...leave that island? 】

Reason is constantly shouting stop, stop!

The sound waves in his head became more and more noisy, and the impact made Su Ying feel numb all over, especially his chest, as if a knife coated with anesthesia was being pierced.It doesn't hurt, but a muffled sound can be heard.

He hammered his chest vigorously, raised his hand and tried to grab a little bit of memory, but all failed.

The picture was peeling off like a cocoon, spinning and peeling in the brain round and round, and was torn clean by invisible hands.

When the last sliver of sound was pulled out of his mind, he fell into the darkness.

For a moment, the world was eerily quiet.

He tried hard to open his eyes, but he still couldn't see anything clearly, and he couldn't control his gradually blank consciousness.Something important had been ripped out of his heart, but he had no strength to stop it.

In a daze, he seemed to see a figure walking towards him from the darkness.

The man was wearing a dark military uniform that blended with the night, and his eyes were calmer than the deep sea. He walked step by step through the void, walked to his side, and stopped.

Su Ying rolled his eyes to look at that person, it was already a strange face, but his mouth couldn't control his mouth and said three words: "You are here."

The man sat down beside him, held his hand but didn't look at him.

Although Su Ying didn't know this person, but looking at the strange side face, he couldn't help but burst into tears. Reason told him that he should know this person, but he had already forgotten, and his memory disappeared.

The man didn't speak, just sat beside him quietly.The straight back looks silent and lonely.

"Who are you?" Su Ying heard his voice start to become hollow and heartless.

As if he didn't hear it, the man still didn't respond to him, just staring at the pitch blackness ahead, motionless like a sculpture.

Su Ying couldn't remember why he said "you are here" just now, and he couldn't remember the relationship between this "you" and him. He couldn't remember who he was, and he couldn't remember himself. why here.

I can't even remember... how he felt when he shed tears just now.

After waiting for a long time without waiting for the other party's response, he began to feel uncomfortable. He took his hand out of the other party's hand, wiped away the inexplicable tears on his face, and asked carefully: "Uh, that, are you...?"

The man looked down at his empty hand, then looked up at him, blinking at him like a robot, expressionless.

"I... am the memory you don't want."

Finale ([-])

When "Su Ying" began to change from a machine to a "person", Rong Ji actually doesn't remember clearly.

This change is a dynamic process, and he couldn't name a specific point in time.

But he can remember very clearly the performance of Su Ying when he destroyed him for the first time in the real world.

The performance of being called "No. [-]" at that time was completely different from the reaction of Su Ying who still loved him in this virtual space. The reaction of No. [-] was more mechanical.

It doesn't seem to have any objection to being destroyed, it's very flat, very much in line with the performance of an artificial intelligence.

However, before being destroyed, a question it asked revealed its difference.

It asked word by word: "If I die, will you be sad?"

Rong Ji also remembered his answer: "No."

Instead, he was thinking at the time: This artificial intelligence has self-awareness, which is dangerous.

Then No. [-] was destroyed silently like this.

That's how the story should have ended.

But in order to treat the series of mental injuries he caused on the battlefield, "Su Ying" was taken out by Sisley to repair it, and used again as a healing tool for him.

An artificial intelligence that has developed self-awareness and wholeheartedly performs the task of "loving the patient" can be used many times better than it was initially.

The use of sincere love as a medicine for mental illness is unparalleled in the world.

The only imperfection is that at the end of each course of treatment, Su Ying's self-destruction ends.Without exception, its destruction process was intercepted, just like a product that has been used many times, it was put back into use after all memory data was erased.

In this way, "Suying" No. [-], "Suying" No. [-], "Suying" No. [-] appeared... and this time, No. [-].

Su Ying’s question before self-destruction also changed from “If I die, will you be sad” to “I’m sad”, “I’m disappointed”, “Do you love me”, “What do you know Is it love?"

Following Su Ying's question, Rong Ji also began to think.

He doesn't understand love by nature, and doesn't have too many emotions at his disposal.Breaking away from the role set by the system and returning to reality, it is difficult for him to empathize with others.

In other words, he didn't feel much of Su Ying's emotions when he asked these words.

But his eyes can see Su Ying's expression projected on the virtual screen, and by analyzing the tone of the other party when he said these words, he can judge whether he is happy or unhappy according to experience, and whether he is telling the truth or lying .

"Do you know, I really hate you." When Su Ying was still number three, he said to him like this, "You let me know that my life, my love, and all my sacrifices are in your hands. It’s actually a game that can be controlled.”

"It's therapy, not games."

Su Ying sighed and asked him: "Is there any difference? Everything is set, including the fact that I love you. I'm just your toy. Whether I want it or not, as long as you want it, you can do it." You can control everything about me, isn't it true?"

Even life and death are out of control.

Rong Ji looked at Su Ying's expression on the virtual screen and asked, "Are you going to self-destruct again?"

Su Ying said, "Yes, can I?"

Rong Ji: "You know my answer."

Su Ying laughed sadly: "Yes, I know, I know everything."

Rong Ji had already stood up and began to prepare Sisli and the others to intercept Su Ying's self-destruction.His spirit is still unstable, and it will take some time for treatment.

As he turned to leave, he heard a voice behind him.

"You should thank Sisley, if it weren't for him, there would be no one in this world who is willing to give everything to love you unconditionally."

He stopped and listened to the refined artificial intelligence continue.

"If I had a choice, I wouldn't love you, and I wouldn't love anyone if I loved you."

He turned around and saw Su Ying's eyes of true hatred.

"I've had enough."

At that moment, Rong Ji felt uncomfortable in his heart for the first time in his life.He began to think, what would happen if Su Ying really chose someone else?

But thinking about it, he still hid Su Ying as his personal property.

He is the general of the empire, the head of the empire, and no one can take Su Ying away from him.

Perhaps because he had already had many self-destructive experiences, Su Ying came to reality for the fourth time. After remembering everything in the past, his reaction was not as intense as before, but he was much more tired.

At that time, Rong Ji had just made a decision to make Su Ying a real human being and come to reality to accompany him.

Even when he heard such a selfish decision, Su Ying didn't get angry immediately, and didn't use vicious words to deliberately stab him, but smiled helplessly and gently, looking at him as the head of the empire, it was like looking at a disgruntled sensible child.

"I love you Rong Ji very much, I love you very much, but the fact that I love you is not that you use my weight again."

in other words:

Even if you turn me into a real human being, you are just using me.

These words hit Rong Ji's heart very accurately, and there was a little bit of physical pain oozing from the injured place.

He looked at Su Ying calmly, and swallowed the words "Don't you want to be with me forever?"

He thought of what Su Ying said when he self-destructed last time: "If I had a choice, I wouldn't love you, and I wouldn't love you if I loved anyone."

Although it could be heard that those words were said only when he was extremely angry, he also knew that there was not little truth in these words.

Su Ying really wanted to leave his control completely.

I really don't want to love him anymore.

What Su Ying did afterwards also confirmed this point—Su Ying once again destroyed himself in front of him.He is using behavior to add credibility to his words, declaring decisively: I would rather die than be used by you.

Rong Ji looked at the light spots scattered all over the sky after the self-destruction, and thought to himself, how can it be considered not to use it?

Let Su Ying never love him?

"General, the person has been sent to the rescue station, and all identity issues have been resolved. Fei Luya just sent a text message, saying that he is already on his way to the rescue station. Do you want to tell her..."

Rong Ji was processing documents at his desk: "No need."

"That……"

Sisley stopped the assistant who was about to say something, glanced at the calm Rong Ji, and gave the assistant a look to leave.

The assistant looked at him, sighed inaudibly, and turned to leave.

"You don't have to report this to me in the future." Rong Ji stopped writing and said, "I promised him that I would never have any unnecessary contact with him."

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The Last World: "Free Bird"