Give the slag and accept the end

What does it mean to be born again?

If it happened again, the person who should go would still go, and the terrible past would still happen again, what would he do after being reborn?

Chu Yan couldn't figure it out, he felt that the worst decision he made in his life was to soften his heart to Song He again.

He shouldn't be messing with Song He anymore, he should stay away from Song He, go as far as he can, otherwise, he will fall into the predicament of his previous life again in this life, with the pain and harm that he can't get. guilt until death.

If he killed those people again, he would no longer be able to forgive himself as before.

Just when he felt that he was about to collapse again, someone grabbed his hand tightly, and then he heard Su Ying's voice.

"Chu Yan, are you okay?"

On the way home, Chu Yan was not in the mood all the time, and Su Ying asked him that he didn't talk much.

There is no way, Su Ying can only hold his hand, watch the news with him on the mobile phone, chat with him deliberately from time to time, but Chu Yan always looks like he doesn't answer, and even thinks he's annoying, His brows were locked and never let go.

Xiao Wei was driving the car in front, looking at the rearview mirror from time to time, feeling that his boss was too spoiled by this old man, and he was so spoiled for no reason.

They have only been together for a short time, but the familiar look gives the feeling of an old married couple.

"Boss, Brother Chu, did you know each other before?" He broke the silence in the car.

Chu Yan glanced at Xiao Wei, then at Su Ying.

"Well, we've known each other for a long time." Su Ying replied, "Otherwise, how do you think I managed to catch him in such a short period of time?"

Xiao Wei laughed dryly twice, and glanced at Chu Yan quietly.

"It's been a long time." Chu Yan said.

I have been messing with Song He for ten years, will I have another ten years in this life?Do you want to kill so many people for Song He again?

Is it necessary to continue to persist in such a relationship?

Chu Yan sighed.

Su Ying heard a sigh, turned to look at him, and asked in a low voice, "What's wrong with you? Are you uncomfortable?"

Chu Yan shook his head, looked at the concern on Su Ying's face, and then at the hand being held by the other party, feeling uncomfortable for a moment.

After arriving home, Xiao Wei left the car to them, and Su Ying said that he would let Chu Yan move into his house, and planned to pack up and move tomorrow.

Xiao Wei looked at Chu Yan's face the whole time, but he didn't see any objection from Chu Yan's face.

After Xiao Wei left, Chu Yan asked with an unfriendly expression, "When did I promise you to move to your house?"

"Your house is too hot, I can't stand it." Su Ying touched his chest, and said like a fool, "Recently, I have been suffering from heart attacks. I wonder if it's due to the heat."

After two days, the temperature was close to [-] degrees, and he didn't feel much, but Chu Yan was sweating non-stop every day, and he rarely took two baths a day.

There is only such a small bed in the house, and two people have to be squeezed to sleep, and it is extremely hot at night.If you don't sleep on a bed, you will be sleeping on the sofa. The sofa is made of low-quality leather, smells bad and is not breathable.He went to sleep on the sofa, but was ridiculed by Chu Yan, "If you have a heart attack due to heat, you will blame him on the sofa."

Install the air conditioner, Chu Yan's crappy house is not as expensive as his air conditioner, don't worry, I don't know how to live this day.

In short, if you can't do anything, you have to move.

Chu Yan originally wanted to hate him, but it is true that Su Ying's complexion has changed a lot during the past two weeks of living here, let alone a heart attack that he would never have once a year in such a short period of time. Made a mistake once.

Thinking of this, he held back the words again.

"Move or not?"

"Can you do it without moving?"

"No."

That's it.

After entering the house, Chu Yan took off his clothes, threw them on the shoe rack, and went to the living room with his upper body bare, poured himself a glass of cold boiled water and poured it into his stomach in one go.After just a few minutes of going up the stairs, his head started to sweat again.

Su Ying followed behind him, frowning as he looked at his bundle of clothes hanging on the shoe rack.

After filling two glasses of water, Chu Yan took a deep breath. He didn't want to say anything to him, and asked directly: "It's okay to move, but I want a room of my own and sleep in a separate bed."

"Separate beds?" Su Ying thought for a while, but was not very happy, "You might as well say that you want to separate from me."

"Actually, that's what it means." Chu Yan sat on the ground leaning on the sofa and let out a long breath, looking at the ceiling, "I thought I would never mess with you again in this life, and each went their own way, but you insisted Come up and say you have no memory, let me believe you."

He thought a lot along the way and calmed down a lot.

The extra ten years can't be lived in vain. If you want to kill those people in your dreams like before, and think of Song He as Song He all day long, and you have nothing but love, that would be too sad.

Anyway, as a man, if you have done the thing of jealousy once, you can't do it again.

"To be honest, I don't know how to trust you. You did a lot for them in your previous life, and you paid a lot for them behind my back..."

"But there's a reason for that." Su Ying interrupted him.

Chu Yan smiled and looked at him: "You didn't tell me the reason in your last life, why, you have lost your memory in this life, but you want to tell me the reason?"

Su Ying picked up his clothes from the shoe rack, was silent for a while, went into the bathroom and threw the clothes into the washing machine.

After coming out, he unbuttoned the shirt collar two buttons, three buttons, and four buttons.

"Should I wash first or you first?" Su Ying unbuttoned his shirt, took it off and hung it on the hanger, "Or wash together?"

Chu Yan stared at his upper body and gave a "tsk", and said, "Wash together? Are you afraid that I will fuck you?"

There is no flesh in that body, only a thin layer of muscles, very thin, it can barely maintain the beauty of the body, and it must have no fighting power at all.

In his previous life, he didn't know what he was thinking. He loved Song He so much that his mind was confused. Even when he went to bed, he followed Lin Daiyu, who was a hundred times weaker than him.

"If you let me do it last time, I won't ask you why." Chu Yan said.

"..."

"I'll keep my word."

Su Ying walked over and pulled him up from the ground and dragged him into the bathroom.

The room is small, and the bathroom is even smaller. Even if a person can turn around, two big men can only squeeze into each other.

Warm water poured down and poured between the kissing lips of the two men.The rapid breathing and the male smell intertwined, and one by one hurriedly took off the remaining cover on their bodies.

Chu Yan was still delusional, and his tone of voice became much gentler, deliberately seducing him: "You let me fuck you once, and we won't sleep in separate beds last time, okay, Xiaohe?"

"What a fart." Su Ying laughed and cursed angrily, turned him over and pressed him against the wall, and pressed his body against it.

Still want to fuck him?Why don't you want to go to heaven?

If in the first few worlds, Su Ying still had a "sense of distinction" for each task object, he didn't have much of this feeling from Xu Wei in the last world.

Yes, people are different.They look different, sound different, remember differently, act differently.

Everything was different, but he felt more and more familiar.This familiarity does not come from graphic audio or memory, but from the soul.

Just like the most vulgar "blood relationship" in the world, parents' selfless and unconditional devotion to their children is not because of his good looks, good health, or other things, but just because "he" is "he", "he "It's their child.

The same is true for Su Ying.

He was able to fall in love with Chu Yan at a glance, not because of the memories left by Song He, not because of Chu Yan's good looks, good voice, or anything else, but because Chu Yan is "he", his mission goal, The only one who has accompanied him through several worlds in his long life.

Although he has changed a lot of faces and looks, but as soon as the system's voice sounds, he knows: it's him.

So, at the moment of confirming the target, all the emotions and memories accumulated were transferred to the person in front of him.

"Slow down." Chu Yan gritted his teeth and grabbed his arm, "Your body...well..."

He shut up, afraid that he couldn't help humming.

Su Ying broke his head and kissed him: "It's okay, I can't die."

Chu Yan is not dead, the system can't let him do the task alone and die in front.To take a step back, even if you die, you can still be a ghost.

When it was time to go to bed, Su Ying was already exhausted. When Chu Yan asked him the "reason", he didn't realize the reason for a long time.

Chu Yan lay on the bed, facing Su Ying face to face.After lingering for a while, the tenderness in his heart was seldom aroused, and even the love that had finally cooled down began to resurface disobediently.

He thought of the "reason" that Su Ying told him, and asked him imaginatively, "You said you have a reason for being nice to them. What is the reason? Can you tell me?"

Su Ying closed his eyes and didn't return him for a long while.

He waited for a while and didn't get a response. He was a little disappointed, pursed his lips and wanted to turn around.

At this time, Su Ying grabbed him.

"Have you seen 'The Truman Show'?"

"what is that?"

"A well-known movie."

"I haven't heard of it." Chu Yan himself used to be a film king, and he has watched almost all famous movies in the world, but he has never heard of the one Su Ying talked about.

"Then let me tell you about the movie."

"you are not……"

Su Ying opened his eyes: "When I finish this movie, I will explain everything to you."

Chu Yan: "Everything?"

Su Ying turned to look at him and smiled: "Yes, everything, everything about me, everything about your doubts, I will tell you, it's up to you to believe it or not, but..."

He paused.

Chu Yan asked: "But what?"

"You have to promise me that you can't doubt my feelings for you, my love for you. If you doubt, there is no point in my continued existence." Su Ying stroked his face, "In this world, everything Might be fake..."

Including myself.

"But my love for you is true."

I believe it is true.