Give the slag and accept the end

"Xiaobao, are your parents treating you badly?"

After asking this question, Su Ying regretted it.

Su Ying knew a little about Xu Wei's past, but only a little, and it was all based on Jiang Xing's memory.For example, how Xu Wei's parents disappeared: his mother was killed by his father, and his father was sentenced to death.

All of this was happening under Xu Wei's nose. He witnessed his father slashing and killing his mother with a kitchen knife in front of him, and almost killed himself.

At that time, Xu Wei was already seven years old, an age at which he already knew and could remember many things.Eight | Nine is inseparable from ten, Xu Wei's illness was accumulated at that time.Before that, Xu Wei's family... Su Ying didn't know very well, and Jiang Xing didn't remember it, but it was conceivable that there would never be fewer conflicts, otherwise it would be impossible to trigger such a bloody conflict overnight.

Then Xu Xiaobao, this three or four-year-old personality, how much of Xu Wei's past does he represent?

"Xiaobao, do you want to play a game? I'll take you to play a fun game." He quickly changed the subject, and games are the best tool to deal with three or four-year-old children who can't concentrate.

Sure enough, before Xu Xiaobao could figure out what he asked before, his attention was drawn to the "game" he said.

"What game, Dad."

"Do you want to play the cooking game?" As he spoke, Su Ying played a small cooking game.

"want!"

Xu Xiaobao squeezed happily beside Su Ying, excitedly going to get the phone, Su Ying raised the phone up: "Wait a minute, let me see how to play."

"I can play!" Xu Xiaobao said.

"How do you know it? You are only three and a half years old. Have you ever played with a mobile phone before?" Su Ying responded casually. He opened the game, looked at the pot and a pile of flat vegetables and meat on the interface, and pressed the button on it. Pour oil into the pan, and then put a piece of meat into the pan to fry.

Xu Xiaobao's head was almost pasted on the phone screen, and he lay in his arms. Hearing his words, he said coquettishly, "I will. Grandma taught me. I have played."

Hearing the word "grandma", Su Ying's hand froze.

"Just put the vegetables in the pot, that's it." Xu Xiaobao didn't notice Su Ying's strangeness, he stretched out a finger to press on the screen, and slowly dragged a lettuce leaf into the pot.Then came the sound of "Gulu Gulu" cooking from the phone.

"Look, I can?" Xu Xiaobao proudly turned his head to look at Su Ying.

Su Ying came back to his senses and smiled, "Yes, Xiaobao is very smart."

Xu Xiaobao was very happy when he was praised.

"I can also cook meat, you see."

"Well, is it cooked?"

"No, we have to wait a while before we can eat."

"Really, but the guest is already hungry." Su Ying hugged him to play with him, stroking his head from time to time and complimenting him.

Xu Xiaobao kept saying "wait a minute, just wait a moment", without moving his eyes from the screen.Su Ying looked at his happy profile and couldn't help but patted his head again.

grandmother.Xu Xiaobao has grandma in his memory, and Xu Wei also has grandma in memory.I don't know if it's the same grandma, if so, then grandma Xu Wei should know the existence of these two personalities.

if you know...

"The rice is ready, Dad will eat it for you." Xu Xiaobao turned his head and held the phone in front of him, smiling so hard that his eyes narrowed.

Su Ying was stunned.

"Father, eat it, it's delicious!" As he said, Xu Xiaobao pretended to scoop a spoonful of "rice" from the surface of the phone with a spoon, and then fed it into his mouth.

"It's delicious!" Xu Xiaobao directed and acted on his own, his eyes sparkling, he finished "eating" himself, and then scooped up another spoonful for Su Ying, "Daddy, try my cooking!"

"..."

Forget it.

Su Ying struggled for two seconds, and cooperated with him in the performance, leaned up to take a bite, chewed it pretendingly, and gave him a thumbs up: "Well, Xiaobao's cooking is really delicious."

Xu Xiaobao laughed haha ​​and fell into his arms, touching his cheeks: "Father is so stupid, what you eat is fake food!"

The sofa was so wide, Su Ying was afraid that he would fall, so he quickly hugged him.Such a big boy lying in his arms laughing, and calling him "Dad" one by one, he can imagine how stupid this scene is.

But, so what?

Su Ying played games with Xu Xiaobao patiently all night, until Xu Xiaobao dozed off after playing, that's all.

"Little Treasure, you have to wash before going to bed."

"Father." Xu Xiaobao lay on the sofa and hugged his waist without letting go. After playing all night, the two became very intimate, and Xu Xiaobao also started to act like a baby to him.

"You can't do it without washing. The residue of the food you eat is in your mouth. If you don't brush your teeth, worms will grow in your mouth." Su Ying glanced at Xu Xiaobao who opened his eyes suddenly, and continued to threaten him, "The worms will eat you Teeth, when your teeth are gone, you won’t be able to eat.”

Xu Xiaobao got up and dragged him to the bathroom: "Brush your teeth."

The child is still obedient.Hmm...it's easy to coax if you don't listen.

"Good night, little treasure."

After washing up and going back to sleep, Su Ying put Xu Xiaobao in Xu Wei's room, covered him with a quilt, turned off the light and was about to leave when he suddenly remembered that Xu Xiaobao was only three or four years old.

The door was half closed, hesitated for a moment, and pushed the door open again.

Turn on the lights.

"father!"

Xu Xiaobao got up from the bed all at once, rushed over and hugged him tightly.

Su Ying sighed, he knew it.This kid's hands were so strong that it made him a little uncomfortable.

"Want to sleep with me?" He touched the back of Xu Xiaobao's neck, a thin layer of sweat covered his skin.Pulling the person away and looking at his face, his mouth was a little pale, and his eyes were a little red.

Hearing his words, Xu Xiaobao nodded quickly.

"Daddy, I want to sleep with you."

It's fine if Su Ying disagrees, after all...Xu Xiaobao is still a child.In comparison, he is now much more sensible than many children of the same age.

Su Ying comforted him a few words, then went to pick up his quilt.As he walked, he asked Xu Xiaobao who was tightly holding on to the hem of his clothes: "Why didn't you tell me you were afraid just now?"

In just a few seconds, he was covered in cold sweat.

Xu Xiaobao looked at him and smiled: "I just want to sleep with Dad."

Su Ying: "..."

Fortunately, Xu Wei's mind is only three or four years old now. If an adult Xu Wei said this to him, he might really be a beast.Think about the enthusiastic Xu Wei that night when you just crossed over.

Hey, let's take care of the kids honestly.

He was afraid that Xu Xiaobao would not sleep honestly, so he let him sleep on the side of the bed.Originally, each person should be covered with a quilt, but Xu Xiaobao insisted on hugging him, so he had to overlap the two quilts.

Although it's already summer, the nights in this northern city are still a bit cool.Fearing that Xu Xiaobao would be cold, he tucked the thin quilt over and over again, padded a few inches under Xu Xiaobao's body.

"Okay, go to sleep, let's see who falls asleep first." He was also sleepy.

Xu Xiaobao hugged his arm and said "hmm", pretending to be asleep and immediately started "snoring".

"..." What a child.

Su Ying didn't intend to talk to him, and pretended not to hear.The more the child is amusing, the more excited he is, let him play by himself, and it will probably stop when he has had enough fun.

Sure enough, after a while Xu Xiaobao became quiet.His mouth stopped, but his hands didn't stop. He stroked Su Ying's chin, as if he was very interested in the stubble.Su Ying still ignored him, pretending to be asleep.

Xu Xiaobao touched for a while, then slipped a little under the bed, buried his head in front of Su Ying's chest, and hugged him quietly.

The bedroom finally fell silent, save for the sound of their breathing.Su Ying thought that he had finally played enough and was going to sleep, and was about to breathe a sigh of relief, but the child in his arms suddenly said sullenly: "Dad, you are so kind."

Su Ying didn't know whether to continue pretending to be asleep.

"Grandma said that Dad likes Xiaobao the most, and Dad will be very good to Xiaobao, very good...very good."

Su Ying slightly opened his eyes.Even if he didn't look at it, he knew that Xu Xiaobao was crying in his arms, as if afraid of waking him up, he cried almost silently.

I don't know how long it took, Xu Xiaobao was tired from crying, and then really fell asleep.

Su Ying wiped away the remaining tears for him, kissed his forehead, like a promise in return, and said softly: "I will treat you very well."

It wasn't until late at night that Su Ying saw that it was getting late, and he had to go to school to move his things early the next morning, so he fell asleep.

What he didn't know was that after he closed his eyes, the person in his arms opened them.

The man's head rested on Su Ying's chest, listening to the solid and powerful heartbeat in that chest, without blinking his eyes.

After a long time, a faint voice sounded in the air.

"Ah, I'm so envious."

Xu Wei appeared when Xu Wei was ten years old. At that time, Xu Wei was isolated by all the children in the town because of his bad family history, and was often bullied in private.

When the adults saw Xu Wei, they walked around, pointing at Xu Wei that he was "the son of a murderer", that his mother was a "cheating girl" who "deserved to be hacked to death", and that the location of their family's ancestral grave was wrong. , Said that he is a bad breed, and his parents are like that, and he will definitely not be much better in the future.

Adults are like that, and their children have learned to dictate to Xu Wei after watching too much.

At first, I was afraid that Xu Wei was the "son of a murderer", and I didn't dare to do anything to him, fearing that I would be killed too.Later, after going to school for a long time, after discovering that Xu Wei was a wimp who dared not resist, he began to bully him recklessly.

Swearing is the lightest form of bullying, "bastard", "murderer's son", and "shit" are the most common. Xu Wei quickly adapted to these indifferent treatment.

Seeing that these didn't work, the children who bullied him began to use other methods: spreading rumors, tricking people, and beating people.

They spread rumors about who his mother slept with, who his father killed with a knife, that he was a bastard born to a homeless man by his mother, and that his grandmother actually raised him to sell him to traffickers. Only to keep him.

Then, they tore up his books, put worms in his schoolbag, and every time they sent his homework books, they screamed and laughed as if they had touched a cockroach.Some of them giggled and punched him in the face when they met him in the toilet, made him kneel down and dump the poop-wiping paper from the wastebasket on his head.

Those children, who were not even 12 years old, did things to Xu Wei that even adults would find vicious at the age when they were supposed to be the most innocent and cute, and they couldn't be sanctioned.

The appearance of Xu Wei happened one summer, when Xu Wei was once again blocked in the school toilet and was queued up by the senior children to pee on him.

At the beginning, it wasn’t too much, it was just the usual kicking and beating, but one of the children found it boring when he saw his insensitive face, so he proposed to urinate on Xu Wei’s face to wake him up and see if he Also this reaction.When the children around heard it, they found it interesting and agreed.

Xu Wei, who was used to being bullied, naturally did not dare to resist. He lowered his head in pain, waiting for the next escalating insult.

"Come on, who will pee first?"

"Let Brother Zhang come first!" Elementary schools already have the concept of "hands-on" and "big brother".

"Come on, brother Zhang please."

"Hahaha."

The children laughed together, not feeling how cruel what they did was.In their concept, Xu Wei's parents were sinners, and the sinner's children should also be sinners.For a sinner, whatever they do is right.

Who made Xu Wei the son of a "murderer" and a "cheating woman"?deserve it.

"Then I'll come first." The sixth grade student named "Brother Zhang" pinched his little bird to face Xu Wei, and poured urine on Xu Wei's face the moment Xu Wei shed tears.

There was a burst of wild laughter in the bathroom.

"Hey, he's crying!"

"Did you really cry? Couldn't it be Brother Zhang's urine that flowed hahahaha."

"God, why are you crying, ouch, don't cry, poor baby."

"Brother Zhang is mighty!"

No one knows why these kids do what they do, but the fact is, little kids are often more cruel than they admit.

Xu Weiwei was crying and thinking, if only he could grow up a bit, if only he could become an adult.If he becomes an adult, he won't be bullied like this again, he will definitely fight back, beat him back, scold him, and even pee back.He wants these people to taste the bullying he has been subjected to, and let them receive the punishment they deserve.

he wants……

he wants……

he wants……

Xu Wei gradually closed his eyes.

"Haha, who will come second?"

"I!"

"I also want!"

"Then let's guess punches, whoever wins will go first."

"Okay, rock paper scissors!"

"Haha I won!"

The little boy who won was about to untie his belt, and just took out his little bird to face Xu Wei.The malice in the childlike soul soaked in darkness by society was completely released, swaying fearlessly in this filthy world.

However, not all children are like that.

The little boy peeking outside the door swallowed, turned and ran towards the teacher's office.Halfway through the run, he heard the laughter in the toilet suddenly interrupted by a tragic scream, and then the laughter turned into a crying noise.

Xu Wei smiled as he looked at the child who was crying weakly on the ground with his hands in his hands.

"Useless."

All your happiness is because I helped you bear all the pain.

But you who are so weak and useless have everything I want.

In the darkness, Xu Wei nestled in Su Ying's arms and kept his eyes open until dawn.

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