Give the slag and accept the end

Yang Fei shot the last jump several times, and passed the test on the fifth time. The perfect smile fell, no matter in terms of movement or demeanor, it was perfect beyond everyone's expectations.

It's just that after the person came down, he was not in the right state, his mood was depressed a lot, and his smile was unnatural, as if he was immersed in the role and didn't slow down. It wasn't until Director Liu gave him a small red envelope that he managed to look a little more natural and his smile was real some.Everyone laughs that Yang Fei is a money fanatic, but money is more attractive.

Originally, he wanted to stay with Yang Fei for dinner, but Yang Fei refused, he insisted on going back.In the end, even Director Liu put on an angry face. He couldn't keep him, couldn't hold him back.Fearing that something might be wrong with his emotional instability, actor Zhang Xing asked him several times, and he said nothing was wrong. In the end, Zhang Xing had no choice but to send him out of the film crew and watch him get into the taxi and tell the location.

When the car was about to leave, Zhang Xing stopped the car suddenly and said he had something to say to Yang Fei.

"What's the matter, Brother Zhang?"

"I forgot to tell you, before, when you danced for the fourth time, someone came to visit your class, but he left before you finished filming." Zhang Xing said.

Yang Fei was taken aback: "Who?"

Zhang Xing said: "If I remember correctly, his name should be Lin Shu. I met him when I was a guest on a quiz show before. Do you recognize him?"

Yang Fei's heart skipped a beat, and he clenched his hands tightly: "Yes, he is my classmate." He pursed his lips, paused, and said, "Also my friend."

Zhang Xing looked at him and smiled meaningfully: "Then you are very lucky, cherish your friends." After that, he added, "A role is a role, life is life, you can integrate life into the role, But it’s best not to bring the character into life, the reality is the reality at this moment, Yang Fei, try to be a real person who faces the reality.”

After saying this somewhat abrupt sentence, Zhang Xing greeted him and left.Yang Fei sat alone in the car, staring at his unconsciously clenched hands in a daze.

"Where are you going, young man?" the driver asked back.

Yang Fei came back to his senses and told the driver the address.The film and television base is not close to his home, about an hour’s drive away. He was so tired that he fell asleep in the car and had a bunch of messy and irregular dreams. He was not called by the driver until he arrived at the place. wake up.

Dazed, he gave the money and got out of the car, and walked into the community.It was already nine o'clock in the evening, the night sky was full of stars, the air was so cold that my eyelashes were frozen, and within 2 minutes my brain was frozen awake.He remembered what Zhang Xing said about Lin Shu's visit to the class, and hesitated at the gate of the community, trying to call Lin Shu, but the number was about to be dialed, so he hung up the phone again.

He lied again, and Lin Shu would definitely teach him a lesson again.He took out the red envelope containing 2000 yuan in his arms, looked at it, and then took it back.Taking a deep breath and a long breath, he walked towards the door of the unit.After walking a few steps, I suddenly heard a familiar voice.It was Lin Shu's voice.

"I don't want to tell you so much. I have already told you what I think. Whether you accept it or not, it is already a fact. I can't change it. At least I can't change it in ten years."

"No, ten years is not a deadline, and I'm not playing. I've said it many times, I'm not gay, I just want to be with him. Why?" Su Ying paused, lowered his head and smiled softly, "Because...forget it, you won't understand even if I tell you."

"If you insist on being so absolute, then I don't care. I respect your opinions, and I hope you will respect my choice."

Lin's mother on the other end of the phone was so angry that she couldn't figure out why her son suddenly became a homosexual.Even if it's really trendy to engage in homosexuality, it's fine, so why don't you let go of so many good ones, and insist on getting together with such a vain and pompous person like a clown.Threats don't work, and you turn around and want to sever ties with them, is it bewitched?

She said angrily: "Lin Shu, you really let mom down, I taught you for so many years, let you know etiquette, honor and disgrace, not to let you make such a tasteless decision, mom is not old fashioned, if You really like men, I can accept you to meet some men, but the premise is that they are some excellent people on the same level as you, instead of messing with an inferior character in a depraved way like now, fainting I lost my mind!"

Su Ying's tone was still the same as before: "He may be a bad character, but it has nothing to do with my choice of him. I'm glad you didn't make the same price-dropping behavior as in the TV series, and you are willing to communicate with me like this , I also accept your criticism, but I want you to know that no matter what you do within ten years, I will not give up on him. If you are willing to wait, then just wait ten years later, maybe I will have a new The change."

Ten years later, Yang Fei will die, and he will leave this world, and everything here will have nothing to do with him.

Mother Lin was so angry that he hung up the phone directly, and didn't know whether to continue to think of ways to impose economic sanctions on him or send someone to brainwash him.These are not too important, he is not afraid of anything, even if he is asked to die now, it doesn't matter.I can't die anyway.

He turned around to go into the building when he heard someone calling him behind him.

"Lin Shu!"

Yang Fei ran over, breathing white gas out of his mouth: "You, you came back from a business trip."

"Ah."

"Where's your luggage?"

"Let the driver take it back to my apartment."

Yang Fei wanted to ask "Did you go to the crew to find me", but he didn't dare to ask again.When he called earlier, he still lied that he was on his way.Lin Shu didn't let him lie, and if he lied again, he would be punished.

"You...have you eaten?" Because he went out today, he made an agreement with the takeaway in advance that he would not deliver it, and he didn't eat in order to come back early at night.

Su Ying entered the corridor and tore off his scarf as he went upstairs: "No, did you eat?"

"Me neither." He said quickly.

"Then let's eat together. I ordered takeaway, and it will be delivered in a while." Su Ying asked Yang Fei to open the door, and after entering, he turned on the light skillfully. Looking at it, he sighed, went to the bathroom, got a rag, came out and cleaned up without saying a word.

From the first time he entered this room, Su Ying knew what kind of person Yang Fei was.What kind of person makes his room dusty and full of garbage?A person who is confused and confused and has no plan for his life.

A person's room is the place where the person's privacy can be exposed to the greatest extent.Contrary to people with messy rooms, the rooms of people with strong beliefs, perseverance, and good face are often clean and tidy.Just like whether a person is sloppy or not does not only look at the outside, but also at the person's wardrobe, his shoes and socks, the color of the room, the interior furnishings, books, the way furniture is placed, the position of the head of the bed, etc. All can explain some things to a certain extent, such as personality, preferences, and psychological state.

For example, someone like Yang Fei who has to draw the curtains most of the time from morning to night, and would rather turn on the lights than expose himself to the sunlight outside the window, must be heavily guarded in his heart, living alone in his own in the world.

He lies constantly, timidly and cowardly covering up his true self, unwilling to let others see.He lives in his own world, and it is even more difficult to knock on the door of his heart. He may be moved or shaken, but with hesitation and fear in his heart, he will turn his head and regret it after making a promise.

Unable to keep promises to oneself, unable to accept the true self, like a raft floating on the river and sea, unable to stop by itself, drifting with the tide, controlled by the eyes and language of others, without self.Such a person is destined to be difficult to achieve, and his life must be like a raft. He wants to stop but can't stop, wants to walk but can't walk, and finally loses control of himself.

If there are noble people around, they can also guide him so that he will not go astray.If you meet bad people, your life can only be precarious and confused, suffering and worrying.

Su Ying didn't want to talk too much about these things with Yang Fei, because it was useless.The formation of these habits is long-term and difficult to correct for a while.

"Pull the table away, and I'll wipe the stool inside."

Yang Fei was extremely embarrassed. Since Su Ying left, he hadn't cleaned up the room again, and now his own room didn't know how messy or dirty it was.If it wasn't for Su Ying, he wouldn't be willing to clean up at all.

"Lin Shu, sit down, I'll do it." He quickly grabbed the rag and wiped the chairs and table, let Su Ying sit down, and hurriedly wiped the furniture and window sills.

Su Ying didn't object either. After being pulled out of the rag, he really sat on the chair and didn't move. He propped his head on one hand and watched Yang Fei clean up inside and out. He wiped the table and mopped the floor, tidied up the books and threw them away Garbage, went back and forth for half an hour to get the room tidied.

After the sanitation was finished and the takeaway arrived, Yang Fei took the initiative to go downstairs to pick up the takeaway, which was for two people.After coming up, the two sat in the dining room, and after sharing the chopsticks, they ate face to face without saying a word.

It's not that Yang Fei doesn't want to talk about it, it's just that he was taught too many times when he called Su Ying before. The other party always said to make him normal. , he simply stopped talking, there is nothing wrong with being quiet.

After eating, it was Yang Fei who packed up his things, while Su Ying went to the bathroom to wash up.He had prepared toiletries here before, in case of emergency.After washing up, he took a shower again, went out to Yang Fei's room after washing, and changed the sheets for him without authorization.

"Go wash up too, and take the shower by the way." Su Ying said to Yang Fei who was looking at him who wanted to speak but dared not.

Yang Fei nodded and turned to wash.

"Wash it clean." Su Ying said again.

Yang Fei's figure paused, and he lowered his head when he went out.

After changing the sheets, Su Ying went to the window, opened the window a little, lit a cigarette, and just about to smoke, remembered that Baicheng didn't like the smell of cigarettes, and although Yang Fei didn't say anything, he didn't seem to like it either. , So I pinched the cigarette again and threw it into the trash can.He looked at the moonlight outside the window and thought of a lot.

He thought of the emaciated child he saw by a river on the same moonlit night; he thought of the reckless boy he had kissed by the school sandpit; The old man staggered and chased him out, and fled back after seeing him; also, Fang Yi spent every night on the hospital bed with an oxygen tube inserted.

For Su Ying, they are completely different people, but at the same time, they are also one person.The same loneliness, the same stubbornness, the same love to purse your lips, and love to eat small noodles with the same taste.

Now, there's even the same face.

Baicheng once asked him, is this world real?Su Ying didn't answer, he didn't know how to answer.Because all the information he collected told him that these worlds were fake and could be manipulated, including himself.The endless time allowed him to live life after life. If he still had the energy to investigate the truth at the beginning, then he is not so persistent now.

He said that Yang Fei was an erratic raft, but in fact he wasn't?After an unknown amount of time passed aimlessly in endless time, when he was numb to the point of despair, he grasped the unchanging person in the ever-changing everything.

What kind of feeling is that?Can't tell.Probably no matter how disliked, hated, and upset the other person made him, in the end, he went back to this person in circles, just for that little bit of similarity and that little bit of change.

For that moment of pause and stability.

The cool breeze came in through the gaps in the windows, slowly sweeping away the gloom in the house, and replaced it with the smell of snowflakes.

When Yang Fei came back, he saw Su Ying standing by the window looking out, he couldn't see any emotion from that face, his eyes were as quiet as a pool of stagnant water.He swallowed, and walked over timidly.The other party turned his head when he heard the voice, closed the window after looking at him for two seconds, turned around and walked towards him.

"I, I finished washing."

"Is it clean?" Su Ying gently pinched his chin.

Yang Fei nodded slightly, with his eyes downcast, not daring to look at the person across from him.The opponent's thumb rubbed back and forth on his chin twice, and then he felt the opponent getting closer, closer and closer.The hand of the chin fan slowly slid to his neck, covering the back of his neck.

His heart was beating so fast that it was about to jump out of his chest, he swallowed mouthful after mouthful of saliva, and even he could feel the heat on his back, neck and ears. look.

"Do you know why I asked you to brush your teeth and take a shower?"

Yang Fei bit his lower lip.

"Do you know?" Su Ying pinched the back of Yang Fei's neck, put her head close to his ear and asked again.Yang Fei couldn't help shrinking his head from the warm breath, his ears turned red.

"answer me."

Yang Fei hesitated for a while, then nodded slightly.

"Good boy." Su Ying turned her head and kissed his lips, not deeply, not hard, and they separated after only five or six seconds.

Yang Fei's breath suddenly became chaotic, his chest heaved continuously, and his face was blushing to the point of bleeding.He lowered his eyes not to look at Su Ying, and squeezed the hands hanging on both sides of his body vigorously, trying his best to hide his panic.

Su Ying continued to ask him: "Then do you like me?"

Yang Fei nodded without hesitation this time.

Su Ying said, "Then you come and kiss me."

Yang Fei pursed his lips and hesitated for a moment, and slowly approached. When the two people's noses intertwined and their lips touched slightly, Su Ying hugged his waist and suddenly kissed him back fiercely, like someone who was about to suffocate snatching him away. The oxygen in the other party's mouth approached step by step, encroaching wantonly.

They kissed from the center of the room to the edge of the bed, and from the edge of the bed to the bed.The night was not comfortable, Su Ying treated Yang Fei as if he was venting some emotion, except for the first few kisses, it was not gentle.He seemed to have held back a lot of anger, all of which had accumulated until this night and erupted, demanding excessively, without the slightest gentlemanly demeanor.

No matter how much Su Ying tossed about, Yang Fei kept silent, but he could bear it.He thought it was a lie he couldn't quit that made the other party angry, and he felt that he deserved it.If it can calm the other party down, that's fine.Just like what Lin Shu's mother said, he is an inferior person, not good enough for Lin Shu.No matter why Lin Shu thought about him, he was the one who took advantage. He could not return much to Lin Shu. If the other party wanted it, why didn't he give it?

It was late at night when it was all over.Yang Fei was tossed so hard that he was so tired that he didn't know where to go.When Su Ying talked to him, his brain went blank, but he still insisted on talking to Su Ying for a while.

"Did you hear what I told my mother before?" Su Ying asked him.

"Ah."

"If I tell you now that what you heard from me before is all false, I just want to play with you for ten years and then I don't want you anymore, what will you do?"

Yang Fei buried his head in Su Ying's arms, and said nonchalantly, "It's okay, I'll let you play."

"Aren't you sad?"

"Sad." Yang Fei closed his eyes and said softly, "But we still have ten years."

People like him are lucky to have each other for a second.Ten years is already the most extravagant dream.

Su Ying stroked his hair and lowered his head to kiss his forehead. He looked away blankly, and he didn't know who he was talking to, "No... more than ten years."

After talking for a while, Yang Fei couldn't stand it anymore and fell asleep sleepily.Su Ying didn't feel sleepy, she turned sideways and kept looking at the familiar face next to the pillow, leaned over to kiss him for a while, and kissed again after looking at it for a while.Then he was tired too, so he fell asleep too.

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