[Flower card love] turned into a thousand winds

Transparent drips flowed into the blue and white veins along the slender plastic tube, the sliding door of the ward was opened with a "slam", and a boy in a school uniform appeared at the door, he quietly greeted the middle-aged man lying on the hospital bed He looked away, and then closed the door behind him.

"Taiyi."

Someone called his name softly, the young man froze for a moment, and then put the schoolbag in his hand aside.

"Sorry, Dad, did I wake you up?"

The man shook his head, but because there were still two breathing tubes inserted in his nasal cavity, he couldn't make much movement.

This was a single ward that he was all too familiar with, but he never imagined that he would live in this ward as a patient one day. For a doctor, it seemed a bit too ironic.I used to hear people say that what doctors are most afraid of is getting sick, because the lies they once told patients did not work on themselves.He knows better than anyone how much medicine to use, how many times to use the knife, and how long his physical condition can last.

It has been a whole month since the onset of the disease, and his son comes here to visit almost every day.He is already a prospective candidate, and he is also the head of the school club. His usual time should be so short that he can hardly squeeze it out, but he still comes here every day.Stay quietly for an hour in this cold, off-white ward.

"Tai Yi, you don't seem to have much energy, aren't you used to going to school on the first day?" Noticing his son's tired face, he couldn't help asking.

"How come, Dad, you think too much."

Tai Yi forced a smile from his mouth, and dragged the stool to sit beside the hospital bed.The white quilt was extremely glaring in his sight, and he saw some dry marks on the corners of his father's mouth, and he felt a faint pain in his heart.

The voice of the other party was very weak, but Tai Yi could hear it very clearly.Probably because it has been a long time since I have had such a quiet conversation with my father. Most of the time when I come, my father is either checking or sleeping, so it is difficult to have the opportunity to sit down and have a good chat.My father's physical strength has not been as good as before. Recalling the healthy father who sat across the table and tempted me with the soju in his glass from time to time, it seems to have happened in the last century.

"By the way, didn't you stay for practice today?"

"what?"

"There are many songs."

Tai Yi looked embarrassed, looked away, coughed lightly, and said, "It's Ge Liuduo, Dad. Please give some thought to your son's matter, I have been a minister for three years anyway."

With great difficulty, his son's expression became slightly relaxed, and the man on the hospital bed also loosened his brows slowly.He raised the corner of his mouth, and a few fine lines appeared in the corner of his eyes: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, because Dad really doesn't understand that thing very well."

"I see. Dad only likes to study medicine. He can read a medical book like a brick and never forget it, but he can't recite all the waka songs written by Xiaocang Hundred People."

The man smiled shyly, and the thin tube swayed gently in his nasal cavity: "It's a pity that even if there are such medical books now, I'm afraid I can't read them anymore."

"..."

Maybe it touched the most untalkable topic, and the atmosphere in the ward became heavy all of a sudden.Taiyi lowered his head, his soft hair was hanging by his ears, his eyes were full of tiredness accumulated over the past few days.

"Father, I will go to Kyoto to study medicine."

"Really." The man replied lightly, as if he had already expected it, "Is it because of your mother's intention?"

"No. No, maybe that's part of the reason. But the most important thing is that maybe I haven't discovered until now what I really want."

The man let out a "hmm", looked at his son sitting beside the hospital bed, and said calmly: "Although that is the path your mother always wanted you to take, even your father thinks that Taiyi will become a good doctor in the future. Because Dad knows his son and has always been a very gentle person."

"But now, I don't even have the ability to save my father..."

As if touching a certain point in his heart, Taiyi buried his head deeply in the crook of his arms.His shoulders trembled slightly, his hair slipped between his fingers, and he tried hard to suppress the emotions in his heart.

"Daddy can't even save himself, so how can he force Taiyi." The man smiled softly, stretched out a pair of big hands from the white quilt, and touched the top of the boy's head, "Taiyi doesn't need to blame himself, Dad has you I have always been very proud of such a son. If possible, I really want to see Taiyi in a white coat. That look will definitely fascinate many young female nurses. After all, Taiyi, you are not always very It's popular with girls, isn't it?"

Facing the relaxed tone of the man, Taiyi didn't reply a word.He was just silent, as if only such silence could barely make him feel peaceful.

"Tell Dad about what happened in school." The man suddenly changed the subject and said, "Did your mother force you to suspend school?"

Taiyi raised his head in a daze, and his eyes met the soft gaze of the man.

Originally, he planned to hide this from his father, but he didn't expect to be seen through so quickly by the other party.Taiyi couldn't lie to such a father, so he had to turn his head and said: "Because I can prepare for the entrance exam in cram school or at home, and my mother is just worried that there is no way for me to study at school. She I have to go back and forth to the hospital to take care of my father, and Lihua will also take the private middle school exam next year..." His voice gradually dropped, "And with my current state, it will only affect others."

From time to time, the beating sound of testing equipment could be heard in the ward, and the liquid in the transparent bottle was still flowing drop by drop from the tube into the man's vein.There was a faint smell of disinfectant in the air, and this quiet atmosphere kept invading Taichi's mind, making him recall the scene of meeting Chihaya for the last time in the gymnasium in the morning.

Originally, he just planned to hand over the application for resignation to her, and maybe even make up a few farewell words impromptu.But at that time, facing Qianhao's barrage of questions, even he himself didn't know why, but he would tell her something that he probably never planned to say in his life.

Maybe it was because he had already arranged a way out for himself, maybe it was because he had the mentality that he would never see Chihaya again, that's why he became so calm in front of her at that moment.In the final analysis, he just transferred his pressure to the opponent.Is he really a gentle person like his father said?No, he's just a coward after all.

"Maybe I won't see that girl again in the future, so it doesn't matter?"

His father's sudden question made Tai Yi stunned for a moment, he looked into his father's deep eyes, as if he could see his own blurred image in his pupils.So fragile, so vulnerable.

"That child seems to be called... Ayase, Chihaya? It's the very cute little girl who used to be with Taichi a lot."

Tai Yi looked a little shocked, he blurted out and asked, "Dad knows about Chihaya?"

"Ah, it must have happened many years ago." The man turned his eyes and looked at the snow-white ceiling, as if he was gathering the memories buried in his mind little by little, "It was Taixiaoliu time, right?" At that time, Taichi was not punished by his mother for not playing such unnutritious games as Kakudo because he lost the game, that child came to our house."

"Eh?"

"It happened that there was an academic conference in the afternoon, so I got home early, and when I opened the door, I saw that small body with open arms in front of your mother." Auntie, please, please let Tai Yi come to Baibohui to practice !' Saying such words, to be honest, not only me, even your mother was almost taken aback."

"There is such a thing! I don't even know..."

The man laughed heartily: "Taiyi also knows how scary your mother is when she gets serious. Dad hasn't seen anyone dare to resist your mother like that for many years. That child is really stubborn and won't say anything. If you are willing to give up, Taiyi probably went to a cram school that day, if you see that child, I am afraid that your reaction will be bigger than that of my father."

Tai Yi looked at a corner of the quilt, and said to himself: "That guy is really stubborn."

"Ok?"

"For Chihaya, she sticks to the things she is obsessed with. She is that kind of person."

"Isn't it great? If you have a goal that you can stick to, then this kind of youth won't make you regret it." The man turned his head and looked at his son, "In Taiyi's life, there are also things that make you persistent." Is there something you're wearing?"

"I……"

Taichi looked at his father hesitantly, the slanting sun from the window quietly shone on the boy's handsome profile, the coral-colored hair shone faintly, forming a triangular shadow on the chin .

"Taiyi likes that child, right?"

As if someone had accidentally told the truth to his heart, Taiyi's expression wavered unnaturally.But soon, that momentary wavering turned into the emotions settled in his heart, and became obscure.

"Yeah." He nodded as if discouraged, and admitted to his father.

"Really, it seems that I am not a useless father, at least I can guess a little bit about my son's mind."

"It's just that my persistence seems to have been used in the wrong place."

"What's the matter, is your relationship not going well?"

Taiyi showed a self-deprecating smile, pretending to be relaxed and said: "Father really knows how to joke, dating or something, Chihaya is not looking at me at all."

"Really." The man slightly turned his head to Taiyi, "That's because you haven't worked hard enough."

"Huh?" Tai Yi opened his eyes wide, looking at his father, through the momentary serious look in his eyes, he knew that he was not just joking with him.

"Living in this world, a person will inevitably experience a lot of setbacks and tribulations. Sometimes we see things clearly, and sometimes feel confused, but that's only because we care too much about that thing, so that we will be confused. I worry about gain and loss, and I can't work [-]% for it."

"But I..."

"Ah, how long has it been since I haven't heard you say the word 'but'." The man lightly stroked Taiyi's hand, spread his palm, and compared it with his own, "It's still A pair of hands that haven't experienced wind and rain at all, compared with Dad's, doesn't it feel like 'too far behind'?"

Tai Yi stared blankly at his father's hands that looked a bit vicissitudes. There were thin cracks all over the slender and slender fingers, as if they were imprinted with the traces of time.Everyone said that an excellent surgeon has a pair of very beautiful hands, so he has always wanted to have a pair of hands like his father, but unknowingly, the almost perfect hands in his memory have become so beautiful Mottled up.

"Before you really give up, do you dare to say that you have tried [-]% of your efforts?"

"..."

"What Taiyi lacks has never been luck, but just a little bit of courage to learn to believe in himself."

Looking at his father's kind face, Tai Yi's heart suddenly softened.

"I often... feel that I am not needed." As if being opened up, the emotions that have been hidden in my heart for many years continue to emerge, "Obviously I have worked hard, but it took more than a year. Promoted to A-level. Obviously, I also want to turn Rui Ze into a strong school like Chihaya said, but after I was promoted to the third grade, I couldn’t recruit a single member. Whether it’s the last team competition before graduation, all the members of the team Everyone won, only I lost to the opponent by a gap of more than a dozen... So from time to time, I will have such thoughts, maybe I have been pulling everyone's hind legs all this time."

The man listened carefully, without saying a word.

"Obviously I always knew that Chihaya liked someone else, but I kept occupying the seat next to her, I couldn't bear the selfish thoughts in my heart that wanted to take her as my own, I kept pretending that I was just supporting her dream Such a hypocritical appearance, I..."

Before he finished speaking, a force slightly arched Tai Yi's head towards the man's chest.A pair of powerful arms caressed Taiyi's shoulders, the sudden warmth melted the bitterness in his heart, and the soreness in his nasal cavity paralyzed his nerves.

One day, when he found that all his pride had been lost to that woman, and he was standing in front of her bruised and bruised, only staring at her back from afar, he felt the deepest pain in his heart.

"Dad, I probably won't be able to forget her in the future."

Dark clouds covered the afternoon sun, and the ward suddenly became dark.Not far from the window, you can still see children playing on the lawn.

"This...is already very good." The man said slowly, "Dad was also young, and Dad has also gone through that kind of road. Even if he is by her side like a fool, doing something that he thinks is useless But Dad believes that those efforts will be rewarded one day, and any effort should not be underestimated, Taiyi, do you understand?"

The even breathing spread between the nostrils of the two, and the noisy human voice was isolated from the door, leaving only a touch of comfort in the air.

dong dong dong...

A sudden knock on the window broke the momentary silence.The two people in the ward looked towards the bed in the direction of the sound, and saw a few heads leaning out of the window, gathered together through the half-person-high vertical glass window.

They were wearing the same school uniform as Tai Yi's, and they were banging on the window while talking to the teenagers in the house.

The double-layered sound-proof glass was used in the single ward, Taiyi couldn't hear what the group of people gathered outside were talking about.Just looking at their expressions, it seems that there is some dispute, especially the fat boy is pressing the head of the tall girl, while the two short boys on the other side clearly keep a distance from the two wrestling together, talking in low voices.

Taichi froze for a while, he couldn't figure out why all the third graders from Karutabe gathered here.Of course, what he couldn't understand was why they didn't choose to come in through the door instead of standing by the window.

"A teammate from the club?" Taichi's father looked out the window with interest.

The boy nodded slightly, then turned and walked towards the window.However, just when he was about to open the window, the short girl suddenly crossed her hands on her chest and made a "wait a moment" gesture to him.

Tai Yi was stunned for a moment, seeing the four people outside the window hugged into a ball and squatted down.They were discussing something like elementary school students. After a while, everyone probably reached a consensus. They dug out their notebooks from the schoolbags at hand, and wrote something in the notebooks.

"Snapped"!The short girl who was the first to finish writing slapped the notebook on the window sill, and pointed to the words on the notebook through the glass window.

——The minister in my eyes is not an irresponsible guy who just walks away!

What happened to everyone... Taiyi couldn't help but wondered.

Immediately afterwards, the short boy also stuck the notebook in his hand to the glass window.

——At that time, I joined Mizuzawa Utabe because of Mashima-kun, and Mashima gave me very important memories.

Then there was the notebook, which was still stained with oily meat.

——Mashima, are you really leaving Utabe?If that's the case, I will undoubtedly become the strongest man, so is it okay for you? PS, Mashima, your mother is really scary, she guards the door, so we can only go through the window...

Taichi hadn't read Nishida's message before he was knocked out by the girl next to him.

Across the window, he could almost see the halo in Chihaya's eyes, and the girl's firm gaze made him slightly startled.

—Taichi, come back, I need you.

With a snap, as if something had collapsed in his heart, he instantly blurred his vision uncontrollably.

As the window was slowly opened by him, the girl's face gradually became clear in his sight, a gust of cool wind poured into his nostrils, and suddenly, he breathed much more freely.

Any effort will not be considered wasted, no matter how small, as long as there is time to condense, it will eventually attract the attention of the other party.

"Taiyi, isn't that child looking at you too?"

He stared at Qianhao's close sight, and heard his father speak quietly behind him.