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The sun was about to set, and the narrow room was so hot that it was difficult to turn around. Jiang Shou, who came back from the outside, pushed open the bedroom door, threw her schoolbag aside and staggered down on the bed.

The afterglow cast golden ripples at the junction of the ceiling and the wall through the glass filled with water, like a swimming goldfish. After an unknown period of time, he who had not moved since he lay down turned over and faced the On his head, his sweat-drenched black hair was casually stuck to his forehead, and his eyes stared blankly at the texture of the goldfish's tail.Half an hour ago when I said goodbye to Fu Heng and the others at the station, he was a little dizzy at most. I don’t know if it was the overheated air conditioner on 209 or the nauseating smell of sweat. Uncomfortable mess.

He didn't want to move, even though the cold medicine was in the schoolbag not far away, his eyelids slowly drooped, let's go to sleep, it won't be so uncomfortable when he fell asleep.

Between sleep and waking, he heard the doorbell ringing outside.Anyway, either the aunt next door who came to visit Jiang Suqing or the property owner had nothing to do with him, he thought so, and pulled up a blanket to cover his ears and pretended not to hear.

According to the normal script, the uninvited visitor who came to the door at this time found no one answered and should leave, but the person downstairs did not know what medicine was wrong, and kept pressing and pressing, the ringtone became louder and more annoying, piercing through a large blur The mist reaches the depths of consciousness, even if you cover your ears hard, you can hear it.

"Who are you looking for? My mother is not at home for the time being. Uncle Xie's words..." He drowsily picked up the receiver and put it to his ear and said mechanically.

The dream-disturbing guy on the screen raised his head, even though the background was a hazy gray facial features, there was a kind of clearness that melted ink.

"It's me, Jiangchou."

He recognized this person's appearance, even if he turned to ashes.

Every night when he couldn't see each other, he wanted to see this person almost crazy.

"Are you home alone now? If yes, can you come out for a while? I..."

Just as he was about to answer, he suddenly bit his lips hard to keep himself from making a sound.

He is not awake now, if it is a hallucination, don't speak, don't believe it, only a lunatic will talk to what he imagined.

The shadow in the picture moved, and the rustling electric current blurred the original clear voice, as if it came from a very far away place, and it was hard to hear clearly.

"I'm here to find you... Hey, what's wrong with you? Open the door for me!"

The phone fell from his hand, his eyes turned black, his body tilted to the side, and slammed into the shoe cabinet in the entrance, making a loud noise.

The vision of the eyes, the perception of the hands and feet, and the hearing of the ears, these channels of perception of the outside world are being closed little by little, sealing him in a claustrophobic space with nothing but darkness.

"Open the door, Jiangchou, open the door for me, do you hear me! I will let you open the door! Open the door! If you don't open the door again, I will call the police! I will call the police now!"

Someone outside was banging on the door vigorously, shaking him so much that even he could feel the slow sliding down against the cabinet, and it was because of this that he was able to maintain the last bit of sanity.

The most uncomfortable few minutes passed, although his eyesight hadn't recovered yet, there was still only a swirling blackness in his eyes, at least he regained a little control over his body.He moved his numb fingers and groped to open the anti-theft door with the remaining strength in his body.

If he got it wrong, and it wasn't Zhuo Shuang who came here but a burglar, then he could only accept his fate... The moment the door opened, he lost his support and fell forward uncontrollably. He thought he would fall badly , but the arm that caught him was solid and strong.

His nostrils were filled with the familiar mint aroma of this person, and a force suddenly emerged from his heavy body, allowing him to slowly grab the corner of this person's clothes.

You finally came.He was trying very hard to make a sound, but he couldn't speak, only a faint breath.

"Yes, I'm here, it's okay, you'll be fine...I'll take you to the hospital now, do you have anything to bring..."

The black mist receded slowly, and he first saw small stains on the floor, followed by marks left by knocks on the cabinet,

In the end is a face full of pain and sorrow.

·

In the emergency department of the hospital, the hall on the first floor was crowded with medical staff pushing stretchers and family members waiting for the test results.

Jiang Choi sat on the seat that she had finally waited for, looked at the person in front of her, and said weakly, "I'm much better now."

"Drink some water first, you sweat a lot, I think you are going to collapse."

Zhuo Shuang handed him the newly bought medical records, visit card and sports drink together, then touched his forehead, the cool touch made him close his eyes involuntarily.

"Still having a fever." Zhuo Shuang noticed that he hadn't moved, picked up the bottle and unscrewed it for him, "Fu Heng said you looked fine at noon, why suddenly..."

He just sent a message to Fu Heng again, and Fu Heng was also surprised when he found out that Jiang Shou had become so ill. He even said that this was obviously not the case at noon, otherwise he and Wei Zhixun would have asked the class teacher for leave.

"Maybe... forgot to take the medicine." The slightly sweet liquid flowed down his throat, and Jiang Shou felt his drowsy mind a little clearer, "I don't know either."

He has been living in a muddle these past few days, completely losing his normal perception of the passage of time. If Wei Zhixun and Fu Heng were not there to remind him, he would probably even forget to eat.

Zhuo Shuang wanted to say something more, but the nurse calling the number over there called them.

"No. 87, No. 87, Clinic No. 87, No. [-]!"

"It's our turn." Zhuo Shuang pulled him up from the chair, "I just checked, the third clinic is over there."

Opposite the third clinic was the pediatric clinic. The corridor was full of parents holding their children. Zhuo Shuang held his hand tightly to prevent him from being hit by some rampages.

"It's fine for the patient to come in alone."

Shutting away Zhuo Shuang, the doctor handed him a thermometer to hold under his armpit, followed by the usual set of consultations.

With the cold stethoscope sliding on the skin, he tried to answer the doctor's questions as much as possible, and was interrupted by a patient who came in with a laboratory test form.

"Are you coughing up phlegm? If you're coughing... what are you looking at?" Noticing that he was absent-minded, the doctor asked casually.

The door of the consulting room was ajar, and he could always see the familiar figure leaning against the wall through the gap between patients coming in and out.

Zhuo Shuang's eyes fell on a place in front of him that he couldn't see, she didn't know what she was thinking, her whole body was preoccupied, completely different from when she was with him.

He looked away, "Nothing."

After the doctor finished writing the medical records, he typed a few more times on the computer, "Go over there to pay the fee first, then go for a blood test, and bring the results in for me to see after the test. Next."

As soon as he stood up, the chair was occupied by patient No. 88 who had been waiting for a long time. Zhuo Shuang saw him coming out of the consultation room, and the gloomy and gloomy look on his body disappeared like magic, "What did the doctor say?"

"Payment, blood test..." Before he finished speaking, Zhuo Shuang took the form in his hand away.

"You go to line up over there first, and I will come over later."

There were people in front of the blood test window, and he took advantage of the gap in the queue to look in a certain direction, only to see the quartz clock hanging in the lobby.

Quartz clock?Is there something different about this clock?Zhuo Shuang came back after paying the fee for the blood test, and the queue just happened to be him.

The nurse wearing a mask took the bill, sterilized the blood-drawing cotton and pressed the wound in one go, "I will get the result in 10 minutes."

When the two returned to the hall, the previous seats were already occupied by other people, so they had to stand in the corner.

He noticed that Zhuo Shuang was looking at the time again.One could be a fluke, two or three?Does Zhuo Shuang care about time?He lowered his head, trying to divert his attention by the flamboyant handwriting on the medical records, which looked like ghostly symbols.

Don't think about it.Whatever the reason behind it, just don't think about it.

"Would you like to go eat something?" Before he could answer, Zhuo Shuang denied the proposal again, "Forget it, it will be bad if you don't come back in time."

"you……"

He was about to speak when he was attracted by the movement not far away.

There were whispering voices everywhere in the hall. To sum it up, it seemed that there was a car accident nearby, and all the rescued people were sent here.

The wounded on the stretcher were surrounded by medical staff, and only blood-stained sheets and abnormally twisted limbs could be seen through the gaps in the crowd.

"You these days..." He wanted to ask a lot of questions, but in the end he only asked that one, "Are you okay?"

"Fortunately."

None of them directly talked about the incident a few days ago.

"Why don't you ask for leave when you have a cold?"

He moved his fingers, "I thought you would come to school."

The smile on Zhuo Shuang's face disappeared, and it took a long time to say softly, "Don't do this in the future, your body is your own, take care of yourself."

The white fluorescent lamps in the hospital made people panic. He touched Zhuo Shuang's hand tentatively, but he remained indifferent until he gave up Zhuo Shuang.

"Ah."

They stood side by side in the corridor like this, looking very close to outsiders.

"Next time I will remember to ask for leave."

From here, he could just see the scene outside, and he was startled by the passage of time—it was still bright outside when he first came here, but now night has fallen, making this place more like an island of UFOs in the dark.

If you don't think about it, it means it won't happen, no matter what Zhuo Shuang came for, at least he is still here now.

Ten minutes is not too long. When the test report came out, Zhuo Shuang took it in for him to show to the doctor.

Common colds and heatstroke, the doctor prescribed a fever-reducing injection and some anti-inflammatory drugs and let them go.

"Take two pills of this first, and then this. Remember to drink the granule when you get home." Zhuo Shuang finished taking the medicine, lowered her head and counted it in the bag, "I'll take you home."

·

The hospital is diagonally across the road from the Zhuyuan community. They took care of Jiang Shou who was still sick, so they walked very slowly. They usually walked for less than a quarter of an hour and only just finished half of it.

Cross the road from here, and then turn a corner to a relatively secluded path.The gaudy billboards in the shopping mall illuminated the road behind them as bright as day, but the night around them was so thick that it only faded slightly when they passed directly under the street lights.

"The money for the prescription..."

"Jiang Shou, I have something to tell you."

The two said almost in unison.

Jiang Shou was the first to fall silent, "You talk first."

Zhuo Shuang handed over the card she had been holding in her palm together with the bag in her hand, "The password is my birthday plus 91."

Jiang Chou stopped in her tracks, "What do you mean?"

Zhuo Shuang stared at his profile quietly, "Medical University is an eight-year program, and there are often practice exams, so there should be little time for work-study programs. If there are difficulties..." He was interrupted before he could finish speaking.

"What I want to ask is not this. I asked you why you want to give me this. Didn't you say..." Listening carefully, Jiang Shou's voice trembled, "...Did you say you want to go to college with me? ?”

In fact, he already guessed what I was going to do here, after all, he has always been a very sensitive person.Zhuo Shuang pretended to smile relaxedly, "Well, I did say that at the time, but people change, and now I have changed my mind."

"I'm leaving." He ignored the pleading look in Jiang Shou's eyes, and said as frivolously as possible, "Yes, it's what you think, I'm going abroad, anyway, TOEFL scores and application materials are ready-made."

"I can not understand what you say."

The moment the two fingers touched, Jiang Shou took a step back in panic, and the things in the bag fell to the ground with a clatter, causing the pedestrians nearby to look sideways.

"Don't tell me, I don't want to know..." Jiang Shou's cheeks and lips were bloodless, and his tired and sick face made him look even more pitiful, "I don't know

road……"

This night, he tried his best to resist the desire to touch Jiang Shou's hair.If possible, he also wanted to hug him, comfort him, and let him stop showing such a sad expression, but he couldn't.

"Liar." He clenched his hand hanging by his side tightly into a fist, "You understand clearly."

Jiang Shou's body shook for a moment, as if on the verge of collapse.

"I've come to say goodbye to you."

He endured so much that his throat was about to bleed, so he had no choice but to use the excuse of picking up things to avoid Jiang Shou's silent begging.

"I'll take you here, and remember to take your medicine when you go back." He put the bank card and the bag in Jiang Shou's arms without any explanation, "I'm leaving, and if I go back later, I won't be able to catch the bus."

Since they met, he has always been watching Jiang Shou's back. This time their roles were reversed, and it was Jiang Shou who watched him leave... He was slammed from behind without taking two steps. hold on.

The boy's body was not soft at all, and because he was still in the development stage, the protruding bones and joints were a bit harsh.

His whole body was stiff, he lowered his head to look at the arms around his waist, he was silent for a long time before regaining the ability to speak, "Go back, you are still sick, your mother has been outside for too long..."

"She won't worry." Jiang Shou leaned against his back, her voice was very small and indistinct, "She won't care about me anymore."

How strong is a person who has suffered a serious illness? Zhuo Shuang can easily break free.He slowly but cruelly pinched Jiang Shou's fingers to let him loosen the restraint on him.

"Don't leave me, Zhuo Shuang, don't leave me..."

is he cryingThe scorching place felt like it had been scalded, and it hurt all the way to the apex of my heart.

"I'm sorry to keep making you sad, I'm probably the worst boyfriend in the world."

"it's not your fault."

How could he fail to see that Jiang Shou always looked at him with strong dependence and nostalgia in his eyes, as if he was another fulcrum that constituted him.

"You always think of me so well, but in fact I'm not good at all."

Tang Lin was right, he was not worthy to talk about singleness and affection with her, and he was not worthy to promise the future to anyone, because he couldn't even control his own life.

They always think that they have crossed the most difficult step, but the reality is far more cruel than their pure imagination.

Their shadows overlap closely together under the street lamp, but the future road is clearly drawn at the moment he signed.

They are destined to go in different directions.

"Sorry, I didn't do anything I promised you..."

"Are you breaking up with me?"

"Well, after all, there will be no chance to meet in the future."

They all know very well that even if they say no to break up, so what, they can't meet, talk or even touch, what's the difference between the relationship maintained in the past and breaking up, it's better to explain everything here.

At least that way there will be no more unrealistic expectations.

"Forget about me, you'll meet someone else better."

"Impossible, I can't forget it." Like a drowning man grabbing the last straw, Jiang Shou said in a panic, "I can wait for you to come back..."

Two years in high school, four years in college, and graduate students... How many years will it take?Zhuo Shuang closed her eyes and tried her best to pour back the heat from her eye sockets.

"Stupid or not, what if I never come back in this life?"

Jiang Shou seemed to have never heard of it, "I can wait for you to come back, no matter how many years, as long as you don't be with me..." He was already in a daze, unable to think about other things at all, "I can..."

"I don't know how many years it will be. Maybe we don't like each other at that time. You will think I'm such a scumbag and regret wasting so much time on me."

He heard the sound of something breaking in his body, "I really have to go, Jiang Shou, now

Let's be real, we won't see each other again. "

Almost at the same time, he finally broke away Jiang Shou's last finger that was clasping him.

The moment he regained his freedom, a certain place in his heart was completely emptied.

Once he thought he owned the whole world, but when he came back to his senses, his hands were empty and he couldn't keep anything.

"Goodbye, Jiangchou." He whispered, "Goodbye."

Jiang Shou didn't speak, probably he also knew that it was better to say farewell than goodbye.

Having said his farewell words, he forced himself to leave with his back to Jiang Shou.

Probably the last time he had exhausted all his courage, this time Jiang Shou didn't catch up again, just being left in place and getting further and further away.

"Zhuo Shuang." Jiang Shou stopped him from behind, "I..."

He didn't dare to stop, if he turned his head here, he would no longer be able to leave with peace of mind.

He will hate me, he should hate me very much, how could he not hate me.Because even he felt that he was so hateful.

However, Jiang Shou didn't say the second half of this sentence until he could not hear it at all.