gentle fall

I never forget to love you.

Even if I once said, maybe I don't love you that much anymore.

Her smile is gentle and clear, and the dust on her body has been washed away by the years. She was originally a clean and gentle person, but at this moment she has a kind of determination that still waters run deep.

The time of parting and the days of traveling to other countries not only did not dilute her feelings, but on the contrary made her see her own state of mind and see clearly the predicament.

Because of that decades-long secret love, maybe she had too deep obsession in her heart, even if she hugged and kissed, she was still uneasy and restless.

Even though it has been so long, she is still the little girl who was pushed into the swimming pool. She looks strong, but she is still waiting for that person to pick her up and tell her not to cry.

That person had quietly forgotten her, and she was often afraid, afraid of the coming of the next forgetting.

As time passed, she got used to being in a strange environment, made new friends, went shopping in a strange city for a walk, and even learned to swim with her friends. She was no longer afraid of the sea, even though water was once her nightmare.

Until she was on the street in a foreign country, sometimes because she saw a familiar figure and hurried to catch up, she was very disappointed when she found out that she had recognized the wrong person, and she cried while walking, crying all the way, and walked back to the apartment. Only then did she know that the child in her heart had grown up.

I love you, but I don't need to be attached to you.

I have my battlefield, I think, I will become a better version of myself.

Wen Huaiyu held her fingers, trembling slightly.

Ji Yirou said softly: "It doesn't matter if you don't like me anymore. Actually, I've already thought about it...but when I saw you a few days ago, I couldn't hold back and lost my temper with you."

Wen Huaiyu shook his head vigorously, hugged her, and tightened his arms: "Who said I don't like you anymore!"

Her embrace is warm and sweet, Ji Yirou leaned into her embrace, touched the top of her hair, smiled calmly and gently: "Then I will stay by your side."

"sorry."

"sorry."

"Sorry……"

Wen Huaiyu hugged her and said softly: "I went to see you... Before you knew it, you laughed so happily. You have never laughed like this before."

"I only dare to look at you from a distance, and dare not take a step forward."

"I'm so afraid that you won't laugh or be happy when you see me."

What Ji Yirou wanted to say, Wen Huaiyu sat up straight, and pressed his finger on her lips: "Listen to me. You idiot, why did you go to Zhou Minchu secretly and didn't tell me, why did you let me know nothing... ...Why are you always so strong, why are you still smiling at me now?"

"I drafted the divorce agreement without asking what you mean. You are angry with me. I know it. I will never be so self-assertive or an asshole in the future. I'm sorry...Rourou, I have so many things I haven't told you before, it seems a little too late to say it now..."

"I didn't trust anyone before. Growing up in this kind of family, I couldn't believe my closest relatives. So for you... I don't believe you, I just... don't know how to rely on you. I'm used to putting everything I keep all the things in my heart, and I will not say all the truth.”

Sometimes she clearly loves someone, but she feels that this is an unspeakable thing.

She doesn't know how to face her truest feelings, and because she is too strong, it seems that only "anger" is the only emotion that can be expressed frankly.

No one taught her how to be nice to the person she likes, and no one told her that it was enough to be honest and sincere in everything.

Ji Yirou touched her cheek: "I know it, I know it all. You are not happy, and I have always known it."

But it doesn't matter, she has learned to laugh now, learn to act like a baby in her arms, and learn to be happy.

Wen Huaiyu bit his lower lip: "I... am not happy. Because I don't know what can be happy. Sometimes I laugh, and I don't know why I laugh."

Smile is the best mask in the world, loneliness, resentment, loneliness and disappointment can all be camouflaged very well.

Ji Yirou stretched out her hand and pressed the corner of her lips: "Then don't laugh. I will be happier in the future, and then I will share this happiness with you in half, it will be fine."

She was in a daze, and the girl blinked playfully, and quickly kissed the corner of her lips: "How is it? Do you feel happy?"

Wen Huaiyu couldn't help laughing, and hugged her in his arms: "Happy. As long as you are by my side. You are not allowed to go."

The girl leaned in her arms and acted like a baby, her voice was milky: "Baby, how can you love me?"

Wen Huaiyu: "I... Let me think about it... I will give you all my real estate, my money, my clothes, my bags, my jewelry... I will give you all, and I will hand over my salary..."

She became more and more flustered, and suddenly felt that she had nothing. She wished she could cut her heart out, and she became even more at a loss for words: "I... I don't know either. As long as you want, I will give you everything."

Miss Wen, who has always been eloquent, also had such a clumsy day, without any grace, the more she talked, the more confused she became: "I will find a third-party agency to make an agreement, we..."

"Hey!" The girl let go of her hand in dissatisfaction, raised her head, but her smile was charming and bright, and she quickly climbed onto her back: "I'll punish you to carry me downstairs."

Wen Huaiyu didn't expect her to make such a request, and he was in a daze while carrying her down the stairs.

Ji Yirou turned her head and tapped her forehead: "Idiot."

The parrot in the living room heard a new vocabulary and imitated it cleverly: "Idiot! Idiot!"

The old man playing with the birds next to the bird stand still had an indifferent attitude of watching the show: "Come down? Are you going to go through the formalities? Xiao Zhao is just at home, so I asked him to drive you there."

Wen Huaiyu was still racking his brains to answer Ji Yirou's question, but he was so annoyed by his words: "What procedure? When are we going to go through the procedure? Grandpa, you are old, so forget it, Why are you making it up out of thin air!"

Ji Yue took the time to pamper the smart parrot: "Really?"

Wen Huaiyu snorted and declared his sovereignty seriously: "Of course. This is my wife. Don't miss her."

She and Grandpa Ji are naturally at odds, and they are always provoked by him, wishing to find a chapter and cover it with Ji Yirou... Forget it, just cover it with herself, and write "Mrs. Ji" three words Big characters, let others know that she has a family.

Ji Yue sneered, and cursed with a smile: "Go away, little thing, go out for a walk, don't stay in front of my eyes, you're so annoying."

He, he doesn't want to worry about these little things anymore. At his age, every day he lives is one day less. It's better to warm up a pot of wine as soon as possible and chat with old friends.

He told Wen Huaiyu to get out, this time Wen Huaiyu didn't hesitate and completely tricked his granddaughter away.

Later, when Ji Yue couldn't find anyone for a few months, when he was jumping angrily, the parrot in Ji's living room also scolded harshly every day: "Little thing with no conscience!"

At that time, Wen Huaiyu took Ji Yirou to float in the sea, so he couldn't care how he scolded her.Since she was young, she was thin and close, and even her own daughter-in-law was almost lost once. Now she can't wait to turn into a dog skin plaster, so that she will stick to wherever her daughter-in-law goes.

On this day, Wen Huaiyu woke up in the middle of the night and subconsciously went to grab the person next to him, but he couldn't find him. He lost all sleepiness for a moment, didn't even bother to put on his shoes, and hurried to the deck to find someone.

Ji Yirou was on the deck, seeming to be on the phone, Wen Huaiyu heaved a sigh of relief, and gradually let go of her concerns, she stood by and looked at her, and only went to ask after she finished the call, "Who is it?"

"Grandpa, we haven't been home for a long time. Sometimes there is no signal at sea these days. The old man is worried, so he asks us, when will we go back?"

Wen Huaiyu hugged her from behind, embracing her full of arms, as if she had the whole world with satisfaction: "If you don't go back, you won't go back."

Now she is not only jealous, but also has a good memory, and she holds grudges especially, and she still remembers the old grudge that Grandpa Ji pushed her to go through the formalities.

The sea is calm and calm, she hears the wind passing by her ears, as if she can hear the sound of time passing by calmly, and how lucky she is, in her short life, to be able to hold the person she loves and stay by her side.

"I thought you were gone again."

She suddenly said sullenly, revealing endless disappointment.

After so long, she still dreams sometimes, dreaming of that cold winter rainy night, and dreaming that she saw Ji Yirou's bright smile across the road, then jumped on the bus and disappeared into the wind... Then she She always wakes up with a start, thinking that everything in the dream is reality, and is so flustered that she has to hold Ji Yirou in her arms to feel at ease.

"I won't go," Ji Yirou lowered her voice, "As long as you still like me, I will stay by your side until one day..."

"No, no, no, don't say it!"

Ji Yirou smiled softly, and leaned into her arms: "Okay, then I won't say anything."

Wen Huaiyu kissed her on the cheek, and said in a low voice, "Baby... It's agreed, you are not allowed to leave for the rest of your life."

The girl turned around and kissed her, hooked her neck and whispered: "Then...then I'm sure of you."

Wen Huaiyu's voice slowed down, passing through the sea breeze, revealing infinite gentleness: "Okay... this life is yours."

I longed for freedom like the wind.

But he never thought about the rest of his life, and spent all his time circling his fingers gently for her.