ruthless here

Air traffic control, we waited on the plane for more than an hour before taking off.

Yu Fan's meticulously drawn makeup has long been blurred and dimmed.

I stretched out my hand to wipe her tears, and when I spoke, my voice was hoarse, "Go to sleep, don't waste the business class."

She blinked, "I'm not sleepy." She asked me again, "Where's my coat?"

"The stewardess took it."

"yes."

"are you cold?"

She nodded.

I helped her cover the blanket and adjusted the air outlet of the air conditioner.

Yoyo has fallen asleep a long time ago, and he still can't understand what happened.

Outside the porthole is the distant Beicheng, overlooking thousands of lights in the night.

It's been four hours since I got the call.

Mom was crying on the phone.

Cerebral hemorrhage, in rescue.She cried and said she had signed a critical illness notice, and she asked me what that meant.

I subconsciously went to look at Yang Congbai, and he was also looking at me.

Everything came too suddenly, I told myself to calm down, I can't panic.

After hanging up the phone, Yang Congbai asked me, "Go back?"

"Back."

"when are we leaving?"

"Go now."

I called the insurance company to report the case, explained the work to Song Mingyu, and packed Bai Youyou's luggage.Yang Congbai booked the plane ticket for me, and I asked her to book Yu Fan's as well.After Yu Fan entered the door, he was very shocked, but also very calm.

She was sitting on the sofa in the living room, holding the hot water Yang Congbai handed her with both hands.Ke Ke snuggled up to Yu Fan's side. She dressed up beautifully today, but it's a pity that her aunt didn't praise her.

"Where are you going?"

I turned around and went back to the room to get the bank card, and heard Yu Fan tell Ke Ke from behind, "We are going back to our hometown."

"Then when are you coming back?"

"..."

Ke Ke was in a hurry, "Are you guys coming back?"

"..."

Yang Congbai followed me into the room and closed the door.

"You want to take Yoyo away?"

"Yes. Please help me take a leave of absence from him and the kindergarten."

"What about cocoa?"

I don't want to talk to him about it.

I took my bank card and turned to leave.He grabbed me, I thought he was going to argue with me, but unexpectedly, he also gave me a card.

"You take it first, the password is Coco's birthday."

I took it and held it tightly in my hand.

"Go back and listen to the doctor, and contact me anytime."

Yes.

He is also a doctor.

This is so cruel.

I looked into his eyes, speechless.

"Don't be afraid."

In the cold winter night, we hurriedly bid farewell in front of the terminal building.

I asked Yang Congbai to drive away without turning back to see me off.He helped me take down the hastily packed luggage, and he finally had a look of uneasiness on his face.He seemed to have something to say, and the short 5 minutes allowed to dock were simply not enough.

"Yu Fei, if..."

His words were interrupted by Ke Ke, "Uncle!" She called me in the car.

"I'll call you when we get there."

I took Yu Fan's bag, turned around and left with Bai Youyou in my arms.

Ke Ke shouted louder behind her, "Uncle!"

The car door was slammed shut.

After the first operation, my father became conscious for a short time, even half-opening his eyes.I knew he could hear us shouting, but soon fell into a coma again.

The next day, my father was transferred to the special care unit, where he was consulted by a specialist and given imported medicine.His head was swollen beyond recognition after the second operation, and I dared not let Yoyo see him again.On the third day, my cousin came to change shifts for me and Yu Fan. We were halfway home when a phone call came saying that the situation was not good, so we had to turn around and go back.

The doctor asked the family members for their opinions, saying that it was meaningless to continue the rescue, and asked if we should have a third operation.

Yu Fan burst into tears.

Without hesitation, I said, "Do it, of course."

My hands were shaking badly when I signed, and the simple strokes were so embarrassing.

Seeing him being pushed in again, I said silently in my heart, please persevere, persevere, I still have something to tell you.

After the operation, the chief surgeon with pale sideburns told me bluntly that it was already a miracle to be able to get off the operating table alive.

"What to do next, your family members discuss it and make preparations in advance."

I can only nod numbly in thanks.

Mom came to the hospital to deliver meals. I don't know whether she loved my father more or us more, "If it doesn't work, don't make your father suffer anymore."

It's too late.

From the moment I got the call, I told myself that there was still hope, don't regret it, it's not time to regret it yet.But as soon as she said those words, I finally had to admit that it was already too late.

I haven't found an opportunity that I think is right, but he probably won't wake up anymore.

"Mom, what are you talking about?" Yu Fan wiped away her tears, "This is the best hospital, we have the best doctors..."

"Mom, I have something to tell you."

Perhaps it was because he was staring at death directly, the moment he opened his mouth, it was no longer as difficult as imagined.

"I have a daughter who is five years old this year and is my own."

The ward was so quiet, the instruments made icy sounds, and my father's breathing was like the ebb and flow of the tide.

I knew he was out of hearing.

"It was born after my girlfriend broke up with me back then. I only found out this year...she married a senior brother of mine."

Yu Fan looked at me in disbelief, "...you mean Yang Congbai?!"

"Coco is my child."

I finally confessed my other life.

Mom stared at me blankly. After a while, she asked me, "Does he know?"

"he knows."

I knelt down and took her hands.

"Mom, do you want to see Ke Ke? I can ask him to bring Ke Ke over, let her come to see you, and come to see Dad..."

She cried and I cried too.

She finally shook her head, "It's cold, don't bother the child."

Yang Congbai called in the morning.

Yu Fan had already accompanied his mother home to rest, and I went to the window sill at the corner of the corridor to eat takeaway wonton stew.On the other end of the phone, he reported in detail the trivial things that happened in the past two days.It snowed lightly in Beicheng last night; Coco wore a newly bought down jacket; a new batch of durians arrived in the supermarket downstairs, and he bought one, but Coco thought it stinks; Su Zhe burned a hole in his sweater while cooking at home, but he didn’t notice it. I even wore it to the hospital...

I was sleepy and hungry and didn't have much energy to deal with him.

He paused, and then said, "I called Director Zhang yesterday."

"Director Zhang?"

"Correct."

It was the doctor who performed the operation on my father. It is said that he was the first doctor in the provincial capital, known as Zhang Yidao.

In fact, I know in my heart that the journey has been smooth and taken care of since I was admitted to the hospital. It must be Yang Congbai who managed to say hello to us behind the scenes.

I swallowed the wonton in my mouth, "Really."

"Actually, I don't know him very well..."

Yang Congbai said that Zhang Yidao was a student of his uncle's younger brother, and his level was very good, even if he was ranked in the whole country, he would be ranked well.Yang Congbai also said that in terms of experience, he may not be as rich as others, but at least he is not inferior in terms of seniority.

"...I also asked Su Zhe, and our opinion is basically the same as that of Director Zhang."

I swallowed the last wonton into my mouth, "So it's hopeless?"

"Yu Fei..."

"I know." I threw the plastic spoon into the bowl, "The doctor has already told me very clearly, you don't need to call me to tell me."

"I know you're having a hard time..."

"You don't know!" I yelled, but it wasn't enough, "Don't use the routines you use to deal with patients' families against me!"

He stopped talking.

I heard my own breathing, so intense, so ridiculous.

In the silence, I heard Ke Ke asking, "Dad, when will Uncle and Yoyo go home?"

My tears flowed down.

"Do you want to talk to Ke Ke?" Yang Congbai asked me.

"...No."

"Then I'll take her there."

"No need." I wiped my eyes with the back of my hand, "My mother said it's too cold, don't let the child toss."

There was a moment of silence over there, "Okay, I understand."

I hung up the phone.

Yu Fan came to replace me in the afternoon, saying that Yoyo was having a temper at home, and told me to go back quickly.

When I went to the toilet, I looked at myself in the mirror, my beard was unshaven, my eyes were red, and I looked haggard.I haven't changed my clothes all the time, it can be said that it is very tasteful.

It is said that there is no filial son in front of the long sick bed. Although the words are cruel, the truth is true.Many children and many blessings are not the dross of old thinking.If both Yu Fan and I have married and have a spouse, how many people can support us at this time.

At least get some more sleep.

Walking to the entrance of the hospital, a taxi stopped just in front of it.The people inside just got off, and the door was still open.I was afraid that others would preempt me, so I hurried over and shouted, "Master, do you want to go on Yongchun Road?"

The person who just got off turned around, and I was also stunned.

He hugged me firmly in his arms.

This is Yang Congbai.

How could I not recognize it.

He still had that clean smell, condensed in the dry and cold north wind, as if there was some kind of magical power that could soothe anything.

The master was anxious, "Are you going or not?!"

I fell asleep leaning on him as soon as I got in the car.

I just brought Yang back home from the white-collar workers without any plan, and Yoyo was overjoyed.I was only looking forward to my father, but I didn't expect my uncle to come too. Buy one get one free, he is very satisfied.

Contrary to Yoyo's joy, Mom was not only surprised, but even a little overwhelmed.

"Auntie."

Rarely, Yang Congbai was also a little cautious, "I brought some change of clothes for Yu Fei."

Mom subconsciously thanked her, and after thanking her, she was even more at a loss.

I quickly said to her, "He is an expert, come and show Dad."

Hearing what I said, she may have also discovered that Yang Congbai came alone, and she finally found a suitable position for him.

"Doctor Yang," she still called him, "...I'm really sorry, please make a special trip."

I took a shower and changed clothes.I accidentally scratched it while shaving, and the cut was not small.After I came out, I went to find a Band-Aid. There was a stew in the kitchen, and the smell wafted out.Two people were talking in the living room, I stopped and listened.

"Feifei, he has been honest since he was a child... He and Yoyo have lived with you for so long, didn't he cause you any trouble?"

"No...how could it be."

"Don't blame him either. If he knew at the beginning, he wouldn't have left the child alone...Don't worry, Doctor Yang, we will take responsibility and take good care of Ke Ke."

After a brief silence, Yang Congbai said, "I will also take good care of Keke."

Mom was a little panicked, as if she was afraid that Yang Congbai would misunderstand her, thinking she thought he didn't take good care of him.

"Doctor Yang, that's not what I meant! I mean, if you plan to remarry..."

"I don't have that plan."

There was a brief pause.

"...Don't blame Auntie for talking too much." Mom said guiltily, "While the child is still young, with such good conditions as you..."

"Auntie, Keke is already very sensible."

"That's right! Doctor Yang must have taught Ke Ke very well. It's hard for you all these years..."

I walked over and interrupted her, "Mom, where's the Band-Aid?"

I touched the opening on my chin casually, and blood oozes out again.

She was startled, "This child! What did you do?..." She quickly got up to find a Band-Aid.

Yang Congbai looked at me, his lips were tight and he didn't say a word.

Because Yoyo was in high spirits, we had a nice dinner.Originally, his mother had to go to the hospital to deliver meals to Yu Fan, but when Yu Fan heard that Yang Congbai had come, he told her to greet the guests at home and come back tomorrow.I took the picture book brought by Yang Congbai and read it to Youyou for a while.Yang Congbai went out for a trip and bought some frozen pears and hawthorns. He borrowed the kitchen from his mother and made syrup.Youyou was overjoyed, he told grandma that uncle can not only make sugar water, but also fish, and many delicious food.

"Uncle is amazing!"

I closed the book with a snap, "Obviously your father is better than me, okay?"

After weighing it up, Yoyo seems to think that this question does not involve principles.He kissed my face flatteringly, "Okay then, Dad is the best. Anyway, Uncle always lets you."

Hope he does the same this time.

I threw the pile of clothes I changed into the washing machine, and just as I was about to drain the water, Yang Congbai picked it up again.

"I'll take the sweater home for dry cleaning."

"No, I wash like this all the time."

He glanced at me, "That was before."

Come on, he is not happy.

I found a bag to pack the sweater for him, and I wanted to take Yoyo to take a bath, but my mother drove me back to the room to sleep.I am also really tired.I called Yu Fan and asked her to call me in the middle of the night, and I went to replace her.I hung up the phone and went back to my room.

"Yu Fei, I have something to tell you."

Yang Congbai followed me in, turned around and closed the door.

"say what?"

I was grateful to him in my heart, and thanked him for not telling the truth in front of my mother; but I was also afraid, I was afraid that he would force me to confess at this time.

I can't open that mouth.

He looked at me for a while, then came up and hugged me gently.

"It's nothing."

I breathed a sigh of relief and leaned on his shoulder.

"I'm going to stay in a hotel."

"..."

"Tell me when you go to the hospital, and I will accompany you."

"You can stay here."

He let go of me, lowered his eyes, his eyelashes looked so long.

"I'm afraid I'm not good at acting."

I laughed, "You played pretty well just now."

His expression suddenly became complicated.

"I was wrong, I was wrong!" I couldn't bear to bully him anymore, "You can sleep with Yoyo at night, and coax him well."

He nodded in agreement, but somewhat reluctantly.

Before mom brought out another quilt, Yu Fan's call came.

This is a rescue that has lost its purpose.

Zhang Yidao said that the heartbeat was still beating because he was completely supported by drugs, "There will be no miracles anymore."

I held Yu Fan's hand tightly to show that we understood.

For the next three days, we didn't even have the thrill of the previous surgeries.The father was in a coma, surrounded by various instruments, showing the only signs of life.

Mom still came to bring us meals, sat with us for a long time, and then went to pick up Yoyo from my uncle's house.

"I listen to you," she said.

At dusk, Yu Fan and I were alone holding a bucket of braised beef noodles, and we ate heartily on the window sill at the corner of the corridor.She passed by another ward yesterday and smelled the smell of instant noodles, and then she became greedy. She bought two boxes on the way here today.

Obviously Yang Congbai was there, but she didn't buy his.

I have already noticed that Yang Congbai's arrival has created subtle hostility in Yu Fan, although I am not sure where this hostility comes from.

Yu Fan also deliberately asked him, "Master, you don't eat instant noodles, do you?"

Yang Congbai smiled kindly, "I like to eat old altar sauerkraut."

Only ghosts believe him...

While eating instant noodles, I heard Yang Congbai on the phone in the corridor.First to Coco, then to Su Zhe.After Yang Congbai came, he only stayed for one night on the first day, and flew back early in the morning. He just arrived today.The round trip by plane takes four hours, not including the way to the airport.

"A busy person." Yu Fan curled his lips, "Why is he flying around?"

I licked the corner of my mouth, "He has money."

"Are you so self-willed when you have money?" Yu Fan rolled his eyes at me, "I think he cares too much about you, doesn't he?"

I had no choice but to laugh dryly, "Then what should I do, who called me Ke Ke's father."

"Tsk tsk," Yu Fan curled his lips again, "Father depends on daughter."

After eating the instant noodles, we went to the water room to throw away the empty box. When we came back, Yang Congbai had already hung up the phone.He stood in the hallway as if he was waiting for us.

The setting sun spilled into the corridor, drawing a dim light between us.

"Yu Fei," he said, "let go."

I heard Yu Fan cry, she covered her face, gradually crying heartbreakingly.

I took her into my arms.

I will never forget that night.

With those drugs off, we finished the countdown with my father.

At the funeral, Bai Youyou's face turned red from the dry cold north wind.He asked me if I could never see Grandpa again?

I say yes.

He asked me again, "Is that the same as Mom?"

"It's the same as my mother."

He was stunned for a while, and then asked, "Dad, will I also forget what grandpa looks like?"

I looked down at the portrait in my arms. He was not a good-looking person, but this one had a calm and soft expression, with a smile on his mouth, which was especially well captured.

"It doesn't matter if you forget, there are still photos."

He nodded and wiped away my tears with his little hands, "Then dad, don't cry."

Yang Congbai didn't have to do this.

He made this, probably the hardest decision, for me.

But this time, together with the past that I couldn't let go of, I completely reconciled with him in my heart.

During the preparations for the funeral, Yu Fan and I were in a hurry. Yang Congbai helped us take care of Yoyo at home, cooked for us, and kept an eye on how my mother was doing.There are constant relatives in the family, and his presence arouses a bit of curiosity.

"Doctor Yang is Feifei's friend in Beicheng."

Mom explained it this way.

Yu Fan and I want to stay for the first seven days, and Yang Congbai will leave first.

Yu Fan refused to let his mother stay alone, and insisted on taking her to Beicheng after the first seven days.Mom disagreed, and the two of them insisted on their own opinions at the dinner table. Neither of them could decide what to do, and they all asked me to be the referee.Of course I understand Yu Fan's mood, and I also know that my mother is reluctant to part with this family, so I don't know which side is better to stand for for a while.

Yang Congbai suddenly said, "If Auntie comes to Beicheng, you will be able to see Yoyo and Keke often."

I quickly kicked him under the table, but it was too late.

Yu Fan sneered, "Do you think that if you have a hostage in your hand, our whole family has to listen to you?"

"Yu Fan! What are you talking about?!" Mom quickly apologized to him, "Doctor Yang, don't be as knowledgeable as her..."

"Grandma," Yoyo leaned over and squeezed into her arms, "Grandma, come with us!"

Yu Fan immediately said, "That's right! Youyou hasten to persuade your grandma!"

There is no need for me to say anything, this matter is decided like this.

I couldn't sleep at night, so I got up and went to the kitchen to drink water. When I passed the living room, I saw Yang Congbai also got up.I walked over and sat down next to him, and he pulled a down jacket and put it on me.

"Don't catch a cold."

I held his hand, and there were many words in my heart.

He gently stroked the lines on my palm, and whispered, "I said something I shouldn't have said at dinner."

I laughed, "Then you didn't eat less."

He also laughed.

"Is my mother's cooking delicious?"

"good to eat."

"It's cheaper for you."

"Dip your light."

"Go back and give Yoyo a good bath."

"Ah."

"Sister Li can still bear it?"

"I can still bear it. But Xiaocheng couldn't bear it any longer, saying that Keke lost his temper..."

"She misses you, go back and coax her well."

He lowered his eyebrows, "It's better for you to coax."

I touched the corner of his unhappy mouth, "What about Su Zhe? Can you still bear it?"

Su Zhe must suffer from Yang Congbai's unplanned vacation.

But his face was indifferent and cold, "He has to carry it if he can't bear it."

"Tell him I'll go back and treat him to dinner."

"Don't ask him."

I shook off his hand, "Why are you like this?"

He leaned over and kissed me, "Why do you love him? You don't love me..."

There was a bang that startled us all.The enamel cup rolled on the ground a few times, and my mother stood at the other side of the living room at a loss, and I hurried over to turn on the light.

"Would you like some water?"

I picked up the water glass and handed it to her, my heart was pounding.

She took it dumbly, but didn't look at me.

"...I'll pour it for you."

I went to the kitchen to help her wash the cup, poured water, and sent her back to the room.

I came back and said to him, "You go to bed early, too."

He looked at me with a stubborn look in his eyes.

I didn't sleep well all night.

I guess mom does too.Early the next morning I heard her tossing about in the kitchen, and I got up to help.

I think if she asks me, I will say that I liked him first, I have always liked him, and I don't want to separate again in the future.

But she didn't ask any questions.

She sent me out to buy hot pepper soup, saying that Yoyo asked for it yesterday.When I came back, it was almost time for dinner, Yoyo rubbed her sleepy eyes, unable to eat anything.While packing his things, Yang Congbai said he was afraid of traffic jams and wanted to leave early.

Ma insisted that he sit down and eat breakfast. "It's too late! You can't skip dinner."

Yu Fan glanced at him with the bowl in his hand, "Sit down as soon as I tell you. Why are you being polite? I tell you that it's too late. You think this is your North City."

Yang Congbai was said to be neither sitting nor standing.

I quickly patted him on the shoulder, "Sit down and eat quickly, I bought that spicy soup for you!"

Yu Fan laughed "puchi".

Yang Congbai took a look at me and had no choice but to go to the table.

I asked Yang Congbai to go to the airport to buy some food for Yoyo, and then I took a pack of bear biscuits and put them in Yoyo's schoolbag for emergencies.

Mom came over and asked me in a low voice, "You don't want to bring some for Xiao Yang?"

My face burned instantly.

"...Didn't he eat breakfast?"

"You child."

She turned around and came out with a bag of things from the kitchen, without showing it to me, and took it to show Yang Congbai.

"Xiao Yang, I'll take these for you."

Yang Congbai stood up quickly.

"Here are the dumplings and wontons I made. You don't have to cook when you get off the plane. It's easy to heat up and eat. It's the same if you don't eat them and freeze them again. It's so cold, so you don't have to worry about spoiling..."

Yang Congbai responded to each sentence and took it in his hand to thank him repeatedly.

Yu Fan hummed to me, "See, the daughter-in-law is our own, and we both have to stand aside from now on."

"..."

I pretended not to hear.

The days are peaceful in the irresistibility of time.

We sorted out father's belongings and prepared to take mother to Beicheng.Mom insisted that she was only staying for a few days and would definitely come back.

"Don't worry about her," Yu Fan said disapprovingly, "It's up to her to go!"

We bid farewell to our father and our homeland.

In the roar of the plane landing, my mother secretly asked me, "Xiao Yang is always nice to you?"

My eyes are hot.

"……pretty good."

She nodded, "Then you have to treat people well."

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