ruthless here

I casually sent Yao Ruochen a message, telling him that I saw Xiao Qing, even though it was in the video.

Of course, there are also Zimo and Zhou Yuandi.

He asked me how Xiao Qing looked, and I said she looked radiant, full of energy, and very good.

"That's for sure." Yao Ruochen's sour breath was about to rush out of the screen, "She's at Zimo, how can it be bad."

I find it funny that he and Zhou Yuandi can probably form some kind of alliance.

"Xiao Qing said she was going to take a break for half a year, maybe I'll go back to Beicheng before her."

But Yao Ruochen was very pessimistic, "She didn't say that she must return to Beicheng."

Indeed, half a year is too long.If Xiao Qing had a good rest after going back to her hometown, she might not come back.

"Wait, what do you mean? You're coming back?!"

"The reaction is too slow, aren't you? Hurry up and think about how to catch me."

I told him that Yoyo Kaichun and I are about to pass, and we will be orphaned and widowed in the future, please take care of Yao Dong.He was overjoyed, "Now Yoyo has to recognize me as godfather, right?"

"He already has two godfathers, if you are willing to be the third one."

"Damn!" Yao Ruochen was very unconvinced, "Can't we rearrange them based on their overall strength? They're so far apart, how can there be a fart?"

I really can't bear to tell Yao Ruochen that if they can be rearranged, with Yang Congbai's current popularity, it will definitely be the undisputed No.1.

Although I don't know why Yoyo likes Yang Congbai so much.

But having said that, no one seems to dislike Yang Congbai.

It may be because of Godfather No. [-]'s rivalry and jealousy, I also have a small sense of crisis.Picking up Yoyo home at night, I pretended to be careless while driving and asked him, "Yoyo, why do you like Uncle Yang so much?"

I thought he would say that Yang Congbai is tall, handsome, has good eyes, and so on.But Bai Youyou's answer was beyond my expectation.

He said, "Because there is a word in Uncle Yang's name that is the same as mine."

I laughed dumbfounded, this is really a child's logic.After being ridiculous, I felt very uncomfortable.

Because when I first met Bai Xuan, I thought so too.

"Father, why am I called Bai Youyou?"

"Dad told you." And more than once, he must not have asked because he forgot, "Because my mother's surname is Bai, and Dad wants you to grow up in a leisurely way."

Sure enough, he immediately asked again, "Then why is Uncle Yang called Yang Congbai?"

I can really do this question!

"Well, because Uncle Yang's father's surname is Yang, and his mother's surname is Bai. From then on, it means obedient. His father wanted to show that he loves his mother very much, so he gave him such a name."

Yoyo couldn't wait any longer, "That's the same as Irene!"

I was confused, "What's the same?"

"Ailin's mother is called Liu Yilin!" Youyou clapped her fingers and explained very hard, "Because Ailin's father loves Ailin's mother very much, so Ailin's older sister is called Zhang Aiyi, and Ailin's name is Zhang Ailin!"

My god, is this the Zhang Wenxiu I know? !

"Dad," Yoyo's voice suddenly became softer, "Do you love Mom?"

"..."

I felt sore and looked at the red light at the intersection.

"Of course love."

Youyou asked again, "Then why isn't my name Bai Aixuan?"

I laughed, "Because that's a girl's name!"

It dawned on him, and he smiled himself.

Whether I have loved Bai Xuan or not, I don't know.

This question has entangled me for a long time, far surpassing Wu Yitong's betrayal of me.

Maybe it's because I buried Bai Xuan with my own hands, maybe it's because she was just a passer-by in my life, but now her child has become a part of my life.

I met Bai Xuan in Chicago.It was a memory that only belonged to me and her.

When I first arrived in the United States, I found a cheap apartment through a Chinese agency, and Bai Xuan was my landlord.The first time I saw her was to get the key, she gave me a very gentle first impression, which made people feel good about her naturally.She admitted that although the apartment is large, it is old and the security nearby is not very good. She is pregnant with a child alone, so she is afraid to live in it.She thought that even if the price was lower, as long as it could be rented out.

At that time, I was too busy to take care of myself, and I didn't have the heart to wonder about her situation.Later, when the contract was renewed, she kept the original price and rented it to me.I heard that she lives in a villa area in the suburbs. The child has already been born, and she has hired a nanny to take care of her. She seems to be doing well.At that time, I had already guessed in my heart that she was not married, maybe she was being someone's lover, and it was somewhat unworthy for her.But whether you are happy or not, others really cannot comment.

Not long after, Bai Xuan came to me suddenly. She said that the child's father died unexpectedly, and they completely cut off contact with her.She said that the only apartment rented to me was in her name, and she asked me if she could move in and live with me.She also said that children might be noisy, and offered to waive my rent.

In addition to the accident, I knew very well in my heart that she actually had other choices.She could have repossessed the house and sold it, or rented it to someone else at a higher price, but she didn't.Even in such a desperate situation, Bai Xuan is not willing to embarrass me who is also far away and alone.

In this way, I started a strange cohabitation life with Bai Xuan, mother and son.I insisted on paying her rent, and she said she still had some savings, which could last for a while.

I didn't ask her why she refused to return home.

Bai Xuan never mentioned about her family or the father of the child.She is like an alien, keeping her past as a secret.But now, with her leaving, those secrets have become mysteries that Yoyo and I will never be able to solve.

Every time I think back, in fact, during that period of cohabitation, there was a lot of warmth of long-term love.At that time, Bai Youyou didn't have an official Chinese name, and Bai Xuan called him Tony. Of course, there were some elements of joking in addition to being fond of him.Tony was not noisy at all when he was a baby. I don't know if it's because Bai Xuan is very good at coaxing. He has a quiet and peaceful temper since he was a child, and he loves to laugh.

His intelligence and open-mindedness are all inherited from Bai Xuan.

Not long after Bai Xuan moved here, I saw her amazing intelligence.She can start a discussion with me just by flipping through my highly professional handouts.I asked her if she had studied this aspect, but she said that she studied Chinese in college.Bai Xuan is also good at cooking, and she is very happy to teach me how to cook.She is from the north, but she can cook native dishes. She often reminds me to put less salt in cooking and pay attention to health and nutrition.

Such a smart and gentle woman, I think she deserves a better life.

Just after I got the job offer, Bai Xuan asked me if I would move out.After getting the salary, I naturally don't need to live with their mother and child anymore, but I can't bear it anymore.

But I don't have the guts to take on their future.

Bai Xuan, she is so considerate, she let me look for it slowly, and then move out when I find a suitable house.

I think she might be waiting for an answer from me.

It was just an ordinary day, the only difference was that Bai Xuan had to get up early to interview for a part-time job.I rested at home during the day, so Yoyo slept with me the night before so that Bai Xuan could get up early.

Our apartment was robbed that morning, Bai Xuan locked my door outside, and died under the knife of the criminals.

I have fantasized about many possibilities. For example, if I woke up a little earlier that day, I would not let her open the door to strangers; for example, I have moved out of that apartment with her and Yoyo and started a new life; He didn't go abroad at all, and Wu Yitong didn't break up with me either.

No matter what the possibility is, perhaps Bai Xuan will not die.

But I was so yearning for America at the time, I would definitely leave; I didn't have the courage to be with Bai Xuan and make a promise for her; I couldn't even control when I woke up in the morning.

I thought I was just a passer-by, walking into someone else's life unintentionally, but in the end it was me who faced the result.

I named Yoyo and went through the adoption procedures, and he has been my child ever since.

After returning to China, I tried to find Bai Xuan's relatives, but found nothing.Until one day I suddenly remembered Bai Xuan's alma mater, I searched for that name on the Internet with my vague memory, but the result made me dumbfounded.

That secondary school had been disbanded in the 90s, and it was impossible for Bai Xuan to graduate from it.

I never tried to decipher the secrets she left behind.

During that period of time, I heard from Su Zhe that Wu Yitong divorced Yang Congbai shortly after giving birth and wanted to immigrate to the United States with her second husband.I have also heard about that person. I heard about him when I was dating Wu Yitong. He is a junior in their middle school and has been secretly in love with Wu Yitong for many years.

Maybe one person's happiness is the fulfillment of another person's cultivation.

I asked Su Zhe, did Yang Congbai treat her badly?But Su Zhe's answer was just as I expected, "Yang Congbai is fine."

I'm not worth it for him.He was so good, but in the end, he failed to become the protagonist.

me too.

As Bai Youyou grows up day by day, I gradually no longer dwell on those past events.I attributed all those things to force majeure in life, and I already have Yoyo, who made me have no regrets, and I can only move forward.

The author says: